LOL
Lovely pweettyy Angie, would you please buy me my noodle soup? Pwetty pwease ;D

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WOOT Eugene is back from Auckland LOL! Weeeeeeeh~

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Snydes : Dirty panties
haha
hahahahaha
Me: hahahahha
Snydes: haha
Me:Dirty panties...
haha haha
Snydes: haha dirty panties
hahah ... haa... .... ha ha ha
ok enough..
haaha haa
Me: ok
haa ha ha... ha.... ha

Sad reality...
Wish everything was real. :/

No more hanging onto shit. (:

YES MORE MEMORIES ;3!!!!

Freaking A. Im back to my normal life .__.
Wasnt same tho.
Snydes was pissed today >_<
Freaking nyubs. Omg im like "stop all this drama and get over it."
And snydes was like " heres the deal, either get over what I said or quit."
Lmao. ITS LAME. RETARDED.
Freaking a, it was just a joke and he just have to make a big fuss.
Fucken drama. Spoilt everyone's day ;O

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Mmm Alden. Haha ;3
Tea?! Poison?! I just kissed my pig ;O

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Mark : You there? Trish baby? Baby Trish? Haha This is getting funny.
Trish : LMAO ok im back. .__. You there? Mark baby? Baby Mark? HAHAHAHHA
Fine ! I see how this is. Now im back and your gone.

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Hahaha. "I have a good mommy."
"I have a bad daddy."

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Hope is all I've left.

Theres no blame for how our love did slowly fade.
Now its gone, its like it wasnt there at all.
And here I rest, where disappointment and regret, collide.
Lying awake at night.

"Dont go wasting your emotions, lay all your love on me.
Dont go sharing your devotions, lay all your love on me."

Lmao Mark. You made me tried to play Gunbound again >_>
Its like THREE fucken years I havent touch Gunbound.
And fuck it, the moment I tried to play my com keeps crashing on me >_<
I so wanna squeeze it to death :/

Haha aint lagging today, so I happily went RO-ing. xP
But meh, only gain so little levels >_<
It suck ass. Aww and Teri got a job ;(
Wont be able to see her on much again. Buuu huuuu on that >_<

Ron came online today. Im like, RON? O_O. Hes like, TRISH? O_O
Hahaha. Havent seen him for a long time. Memories <3
Guess hes moving on too. Everyone is moving on except me :/

David, Zhao, Ron, Danny, Rig, Angie, Hsu, Amish, Legos, Max, Koala lol, Pachu, Alex, West, those dutch boys S2, Teri, Steve, Gus, Juan, Henry, Nike >.> , ABLI and those BRAZILIANS. Etc etc
All moved on. EXCEPT ME. ALLLLLLLLLLL EXCEPT ME.
I could do a head count >_>

Omg >_<
Everyone is asking the same questions when they saw me.
Hey sup, your working now? Studies?
Same ans >_<
No.... I aint doing nothing.
Ok fuck that >_>

Nooooo Eugene went to Auckland ;-;
Teeheehee. Good luck with tha booty : ]
Muahahahha >D

Blah blah blah me no care too :D
Im over you.
But im sooo gonna show ya that it aint impposible
so yea ttyl : D

ZomgwtfzorssfasdfiasuflkasjfsaZORS~!
I've been using this blog for about two years O___________O
I wonder when is this blog gonna just blow up on me. Lmao xD
Alden <3 I guess only RO addicts understand how I feel now.
So I dont really talk to real life peoples O__________O
Ok, Im weird but w/e. Thanks Alden >_<

I see how this is. You even deleted me on myspace. You heartless crap.

"I actually feel lucky to have you to love me."
Lmao.... Take your shit back.

Mmm snap, migranes :/

Heee heee
Know whattt
im just gonna drink my life away like you said..
as a matter of fact im drunk right now ;]
EU SOU BEBEDO ;] bruno stills remmeber me
he even emailed to me
but u.. choose to hurt me again and agian
stop lying to me
you lied to me again and again
i wanted to sream
but no one hears me
your just there moving on
but im staying in my misery
i just scream but no one can hear
not you not my family not my friends

im gonna fill my glass to brim
blind..................................
my hands.. finger is bleeding

where is he
can i get
anyone , anyone at all
bittersweet
no
just bitterneess
snap imma go puke and sleep

What am I pretending for.
Why am I pretending.
I just have to say goodbye.

But things cant be perfect.
All the time, that i know.
Sometimes we just have to let some things go.

I will not say one word,
Ill just hang around.
I wont annoy you at all,
When you move out, Ill stay .
Until im thrown away,
But then it wont matter.

I promise to stop now.

Letting go is my life,
I'll be on my way.

`Trish ? says:
tell him to unblock me on msn and stop running away and face me
??a???ss.. says:
daniel says this, "grow some balls, and move on"
? `Trish ? says:
im not even clinging on to you I just want to end it the right way and you said to talk to me back then but til now not a single msg but instead you deleted me on msn
? `Trish ? says:
after the day that i got drunk
??a???ss.. says:
"it's fonny how people don't know when it's over"
? `Trish ? says:
then why cant we stay as friend >_>
??a???ss.. says:
because, it's better if we forget each other hahahaha silly girl, move on
? `Trish ? says:
rofl as easy as it said like what you said back then, ok fine if thats it


You know what? I aint even sad about it now.
Im done with banging my fist and crying.
And comeon be a man and face me.
You cant even end it properly.
You cant even face me. Your just running away from it by deleting me on msn.
So sup with those harsh words.
I AINT EVEN CLINGING ON TO YOU MAN.
So stop with the assumptions thingy.
You think that I couldnt forget about you so you just wanna delete me eh.
Haha your so wrong then. Cause im just sad/pissed with the fact that ITS ME WHO DO THOSE DUMPING.
Not the other way round. So im happy now that its you who couldnt forget about me ^_^
So you need to delete me and say those harsh stuff to make yourself even miserable.
Anyways, thanks for alll :]
Im glad and I couldnt be better. Period.

??a???ss.. says:heyy?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:o_o?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:heys
??a???ss.. says:lol
??a???ss.. says:uhh
??a???ss.. says:u deleted trishie
????a???ss.. says:on ur msn list o.o?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:why is she asking?
??a???ss.. says:shes hurt?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:blah, me no care
??a???ss.. says:
??a???ss.. says:ur a bad man
??a???ss.. says:lol?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:good
??a???ss.. says:=O
??a???ss.. says: i got a question for milk?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:what am i gonna have her there for? so she can look back?
??a???ss.. says:fiber helps take out fat and all that rite??
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:i don't talk to her?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:No, fiber only helps u to poop and built strong bones

«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:tell her to stop telling everyone about it, im sick of this and only want for her to forget me move on with her life, i don't care anymore period?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:because sometimes u just gotta things let go that's all

«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:no no no no no, fucking shit, people should stop getting into this, she needs to have more character, what the fuck, getting everyone involved, fucking imature
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:she needs to grow some balls if she wants to survive in life
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:cuz this is the beggining it gets tougher once ur older
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:once u leave ur house, u see u don't have a job, no parents there to help you, and your bills are chocking u
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:then u need to grow some balls

You bastard. Why cant you face me.
FACE ME YOU BASTARD.
Stop running away from me.
Your so a loser.
Your just gonna run away from it.
Your so heartless...
You dont need to delete me on your msn.
Why would you do that?
You want to forget me.
You want to erase me forever...
Please dont do that.
Please remember me...
Thats all I ever wanted from you.. BUT YOU JUST GOTTA DO THAT TO ME.
Your just a jerk off my head.

What did you said to me when i was drunk.
What were those. You liar.

JERK.

...

Im here.
Your just refuse to see.
You refuse to feel me.

Bleh. Went out with xh, py,ly and xy today.
I realise that, I dont got much to talk with them anymore...
I realise that, I talk more with friends on the net than real life friends and thats the truth.

I gets confident when im online cause im like the top in the game. But on the other hand, Im such a failure in the real world. I refuse to open up. I couldnt raise my head up. I cant find a place for me out there... GAH W/E.

And today in the foodcourt, I heard someone singing seven years by saosin. Then Im like EH?! SAOSIN! Hes like shocked looking at me, im like shocked looking at him. Were like thinking the same thoughts, thinking Eh? You know this song too huh.
Hahaha xD Cause in Singapore, songs from new, not famous bands is not heard here. And especially rock bands, not played in radios here in Singapore. So were shocked with each other that we knew the song.
I hope Singapore have more varieties of stations >_>

Jeez I dreamt of him again :/
I was in his room. And were drinking? I think.
Then I saw his msn. He msg "Anything for you :D" to another person...
Then I kept drinking more.
Then I forgot what happen lmao.
Then he walked away and I shouted, "I know your a player"
He looked at me saying "Im not focusing all on me anymore." And throw w/e thats on his hand on the table and turn away and walked off.
I was hurt and i begged him to come back. I saw him thru the gap of the door and he looked at me and shaked his head and his gone.

Wow bad dreams. I want something good please >_>

Mmm.. so heartless...

Woah I want that new sony digital cam O_______O

Wooterz hooterz!
I got that job :O!!!
But but but... Im afraid to work... ;-;...
Imma start in like one week time.

I hope I love the job alotttttt.
Dont quit half way again >_>

Daaamn.

I can sit all day at home with my playlist... <3

Me and songs for my companion...



We stood on the same land.
We look at the same sky.
But we couldnt be together..

I can sit all day at home with my playlist... <3

Mmm. Just came home..
I left him a msg. He.. didnt reply me...
Or didnt bother to read...
Im like fine. Thats like the only thing i can do..
As you said, you cant really do anything about it from there.
True story..
But at LEAST I did bother to try...
What hurts me the most is you didnt even bother to.
That tells me that, I dont matter to you at all.
Do I even cross your mind??
Please please please show me you still care.
You said you still loves me. Lots.
Please show it that I aint just dreaming.
Please show me that what you said is true.
From here I can do lots for you.
I can do everything to improve my life. :[
Tell me you want me back.
I... even smile happily to smile to myself when I thought of sending you an ipod nano with letters and pictures...
Cause I wanted something REAL for you..
Until now.. I still didnt dump that thinking away.
Now I realise, you dont feel me.
I aint that real to you.
Leave me a msg...

Ok. I dont wanna start this post with 'Just another hate site'.
Haha ok now what I just read concern any of the social sites. Like Friendster, Myspace, Facebook.

And Myspace have the most population than any of the social sites.
So... he just gotta flame it.

http://moneydick.com/wordpress/2006/04/23/science-of-myspace/

Ok.
How can you even called it a scientific research? Its just a bunch of opinions and searches and assumptions to indicate that myspace failed.

1- You see quotes like 'Im going to kill myself'. Have you even tested it? Do you even know if they ARE actually doing it?

2- Im rick james bitch. Haha this is funny. Ok yar I agree that jokes that have been going too long will gets irritating and even annoying. But I still hears it all the time.

3- Ok. This caught my attention. Because what really pissed me off is when people dont know how to spell. I dont know why but its like they either dont learn english or they are just a blob that couldnt even type well.

PeOpLe WhO tYpE LiKe ThIs ShOuLd GeT a LyfE.

n wads wost. ii c shoo many peoples spelling shiz liik thiis n i wonder iif they even speak liike tt in real lyfe. iit ish soo fuckn annoying. eu should go learn som learn engliish.

If you really speak like that in real life then your a complete retard.

And people who spams this "lol" aka laughing out loud which is totally pointless, cause if you have got nothing to say then just get your ass off. Probably due to the influence retardation on the net. I dont even understand why is people adding stuffs like "lol(s)" Is there such need for plural? No reason thing...

Sometimes it really gets on my nerve.
Some egs which I find really funny.
Theres one random pinoy who call out to Danny(Trepitation. Not Meth)
Pinoy: "ei"
Danny:"ei doesnt starts with a sentence."
Pinoy: "ei noh no kill me"
Danny:"In German ei means egg. What are you trying to impline. Are you calling me an egg?"
This is so fucking hilarious.
Theres another situation in which I was there.
Pinoy:"Warp me from dragons plz."
Me:"Warp you from dragons? Ok. Get to the dragons first then if you insist."
Hahaha funny shit.

4- 'Luv' Its funny how they love the person when they couldnt even tell them "I love you" Instead, "I luv you"

And its even funnier that Im actually crying over stuffs like this when I actually do it myself.

5- I hAtE mY pArEnTs CaUsE tHeY wOuLdNt AlLoW mE tO pAiNt My WaLlS bLaCk AnD sLeEp In A cOfFiN. (Total sacasism.)

6- Ads. Ok. I find this totally unnescesory. They need those to keep Myspace 'living'.

7- Checking out your friendster with all those 'Epileptic' shits is seriously gay.

And you dont really wanna get a date in myspace. Or if you do, you should really thank myspace for finding you an emo, stalker, perv, pedopiles, etc etc.

'Its funny how with all the problems the world faces, all the hate groups like the KKK, all the cults the world has, all the oppresive governments that rule the world, etc. We pick a fight with myspace.'

I agree..

"when will you do a research about Friendster? "

I couldnt be more excited to read it.

And whats with those "Send to 10 of your friends if not you will die of blah blah blah." Thats just simply annoying and gay. Only those fucktards believed it.
And plus, superstitious is due to lack of educations and knowledges.
"What ___ are you" Quizzes.
Yo, I dont need a quiz to judge me so stfu.

One of the examples from one of all retards who lack of immaturity.
"i luv da space yo! wurd 2 ya motha! fo sheezy off da skeezy! yallz just dun no about diz mayn! wez kewla den joo! yallz wak! myspizase fo life! gunit! wurd mayn joo best recignise!!!! im cool cuz i use da space and i get all mah hose der! im da kewlest person ever!"

Jeez >_>
You call that 13375p34k.(Leetspeak)

And hell.. That was the longest rant for myspace I've ever read. It was eye-opening for me.
I totally enjoyed it. It was hilarious and brilliant. He deserve my applause.

... ... Im rick james bitch.

I dreamt of johnny.. was like wtf.. How did he get in the picture.. And xy.
And couldnt remember well but there was Danny...

;(

And yea plus.. I drool in my sleep O_O
And everytime I wake up.. Im like fffffuuuck

Added :
And.. He fucked me and after that started abusing me in my dream.

I keep waking up in cold sweat and short of breathe.

Those dreams are in parts and parts cause I keep waking up...

Man wtf..
Im like ffffuuuuck.
I kept having you in my dreams everyday.
And its getting weirder and stronger each day.
Its so freaky sometimes.

I forget the other day's dreams but I remember this one so clearly.

Kz.. We were out. Kwang, Danny, me, xh, dad, peiyin, yingting, huini or some others that i forgot.
And then kwang and I were together so was like wtf... And I was talking all the time with Danny. And Danny is getting moodier each time. And I think he like some other girls. And Kwang.. I broke up with him and he couldnt stop haressing me. And my dad.. was helping him. And I even think that my dad was him. Then py, hn, xh, I went into some shopping mall. And py totally snob xh and me. So xh and I went into some sushi restaurant to eat. And I pity my dad cause I thought he was kwang then I snob him. So I let my dad come eat too.

Then suddenly, blah blah blah we were on a bus and it crash like a rollercoster. Then.... my... dad... was injured. T_____________T
I dont know what happen after that.
Then I pm Danny on msn. He was like im a cheater and a liar. Think before you want me. He said that to me. And hes getting freakier and moodier.

Wow... thats about it.
Weird dreams keeps coming...

Man I wish Haku could stop being like Michelle LOL Just giving an example :X
Hes like no I cant tell. Geebus. Just tell meh you mofo. Im like fine dont tell me, you damn liar. Then hes like fine... Then the next day hes like, hey... msges me when your back I got something to tell ya. Then Im like hey... sup. Then he went offline.
... >_> Annoying chubbyness. Rofl. Meh I dont care what he said to him. :/
Even IF I do care, so? Cause it will be only me who cares.

Will you evur look far into the distance and say my name...?

Last night I saw you online
Your screen name used to be mine...

I want you to know that, I miss you, I miss you so.


Now I just wish that, I still remains in your heart.
Dont you evur forget me.

Just look far to the horizon and say my name...

Well..
Sorry for dragging you into my misery.
Sorry that I aint real at all.
Sorry for all my rants of life.
Sorry that I just have to pour out all my misery on you.
Sorry you that you just couldnt figure that out earlier.
Sorry that im drunk.
Sorry that I couldnt manage my life well enough.
Sorry Im the only thing in your life that isnt perfect.
Sorry that I couldnt really be in your life.
Sorry that I gonna just drink my life away.
Sorry that you just didnt realise that this is just me.
Sorry that you didnt know that I aint that perfect.
Sorry that you just have to tell me those sweetest thing.
Sorry that I just couldnt help falling madly in love with you.
Sorry that I just couldnt be there.
Sorry that Im just a burden.
Sorry that ...
Sorry for all my cause.

Omg...
This sucks so bad... Danny just broke up with me... ;-;.......
He never know how miserable I am. You can literally hear me screaming and crying from my room.
O yes and Gin gin moore gin. I finished up that whole bottle of Gin by myself : ]
Im alll alone in my home. No ones gonna stop me now.
He he I was freaking drunk at 1.30pm. Thats so fucked up.
Those tears just wont leave my eyes. : [
Im lucky enough that the kitchen knife aint that sharp ;(
All it did was make a dent in my flesh :/
I tried to find anyone... Anyone at all...
Not on the net, not anywhere real.
Net life is fucked up. My real life is fucked up too.
I guess everything is screwed up for me.
Nothing evur works out just fine.
I thought this is magic finally. But he just have to crash it.
Man.. what can i say. And I was saying shit to him when I was drunk. O_O
Meh I couldnt remember but I read the chat log history. Zomg. I bet hes heart broken ;(
But Iono maybe he dont even care at all...

I puked all over my bed. Lmao thats screw up.
I felt so sick when i woke up. O I forgot I havent ate anything since i drink.
So so sick.

Jeez my daddy just bought another phone again. >_____>
One year change so many times but he just couldnt buy me one <_<

Hmm.
Thanks for taking every single hope from me.

Dont say forever if you dont mean it.

Meh im fine now.
Mom help me think thru.
Life isnt that bad after all.
I didnt realise i have become so pessimist.
One thing i fosho. I nearly suicide because of depression.
Second thing. Not only that, Danny made me miserable as well.

I dreamt of him twice today. The image was so clear.
I can feel him. >_<
I love him. That wont evur change.

All her friends ask why she can't sleep at night
All her family asking is she alright
All she wants to do is get rid of this hell
Well all she's got to do is stop kiddin herself
She can only fool herself for so long

I never know just why you run so far away far away from me

No please :[
Dont let it end just like that.
My heart wouldnt let you go.
I love you Danny ='[

Oh hell no. I got so wasted last night X_x
They said I was blabbering shit on the net.
Mmm Rig told me Danny told him that he thought I was avoiding him.
I was likw wtf. I thought hes avoiding me >_>
Aw crap. We seriously gotta talk.
Like talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk SECKS talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk LOL
Just like what Rig says. Lmao.

Well Iono. I nearly cried. But blah w/e.
I dont want it to end like that.

I hate how things ended like *snap*

Suddenly I feel so alone in the world.
Whyy? Why do I feel that way? Without him my world isnt perfect.
Omg pls talk to me. Please.

OMG IM SORRY JUST TALK TO ME ._.
I dont know why am I even saying sorry.
I didnt fucken do shit. WHY ARE YOU EVEN TREATING ME LIKE THAT.

Or maybe I think too much O_o.
Just make me feel real please.

Whats wrong? .___.
Whys the distant?
Talk to me, tell me.
I love you...

Meh after seeing how people worry about their future and shit. Im like What about me?!
Hah fucken pwnt. I have to worry like thousand more than you guys.
Like will I evur find a job >.> And that course, and plus I dont even have an o' level cert. Or even a n' level cert. Man.. What are you worrying about? Your future is stable, is fixed. Everything has been left prepared for you.

Or will I be stuck in k3ro forever. Am I even real? Or am I just a game char inside a game. Am I just living in my world the whole while.

I cant see anything. My dark future...

Only you can make me real again. Please dont make me wait too long. ;-;

But even how dark the road is, I believe that god will leave a lil path for you to move on.

Daddy: Call him back. He called yesterday while you were asleep.
*Looks* ;O

Hi Gay ass fggt :] How are you doing? Your looking for meh?

Har har >_>
Yar I called back. He wanted to confirm with me some stuffs. Or was it an excuse to hurt me again.
Lmao I was like, why should I miss you? >;(
Look, I hate you so why dont you stay off.

Wee I finally woke up O_O
I swear yesterday was my worst day evur Zomg X_x
I was so so sick with flu and the worst thing is I dont got much tissues left and im like controling the whole while.
And were tired of course. When we reach the train they were like fall asleep immediately. Roflmao.
It was funny tho. Everyone in the train were like wtf this girls so tired. Hahaha. But im like trying not to sneeze. >_>
When I finally reach home im like, TISSUUEE !
Then T_______________T Paaaapaaaaa Im siiicck ;-;
Lmao.

Hmm while I showered yesterday, I thought of sending him something. Iono but I hope to get a job quickly.

I slept soooo soundly ^__________^
And of course I dreamt of you ;D

RAWR~
This is the first of this one year I've evur exercise. Man my legs literally SHIVERED.
I swear it reealleh shivered.

Before that, as usual we went for supper at 515. Then after hearing pearlyne saying those stuffs, I felt utterly disgusted AT THE BOY UPSTAIRS. Ewwweeeeeuuuuuu. *shudders* Imma puke at his face.
All he deserve is just some cyber sex with a girl with huge belly sitting in front of the com, one hand holding an oily fried chicken another hand thinking of Lee jun quan and masturbating.
Cause he cant get any real sex in life. And I bet cha he wont evuuuur.
Ewwweeeeeeuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
Wut a fggt.

Aight and we went night cycling after wards.
Rofl and the funniest thing is, while were waiting for ly to push the bike up, I was sooooooo soo so tired till my legs trembled and and I wanted to get out of the bike but but but my legs were like totally dead, and I literally fall on my arse. LMAO. But really I cant even stand.

Meh. Went to the coffee shop, was chatting stuffs in the past then suddenly a topic is brought up. ROFL I wasss uberly excited. So we went to yt house. BUT IN THE END THEY SLEPT.
I was like forcing yt to wake up then she made MEH SCREAM >_> My voice is like errrr granny? Now==;;

DANNY ! WHEEEREE AARRREE JOOOO ?! Im like bored right now. >_>
Those two lil piggies are still sleeping T______T
And my annoying nose is still being cracky. >;(
So meh.

And yea I cant use for long now ;(
Mehhhhhhh IM BORED T___________T!!!
Haha rofl And they have to go to a farm later. LMAO farm ==;;
Its goonnna be sooo hot there lol.

I wanna get out of my house later.
O wells.. Laters ;3

I believe in this world theres someone out there waiting for me.
I believe in this world theres two person meant to be waiting for each other.

I often dream, that the feelings we once shared will never be forgotten.
Maybe one day, you will think of 'Trish' and smile to the distant.

I know someday I will meet a special person and know hes the one im waiting for.
And we may or may not know that we've already passed each other in common situation.

In our life, and prolly some other suprising situations.
Your the one im waiting for.

-Where I send my thoughts to far-off destinations
So they may have a chance of finding a place where they're far more suited then here-

Three Daniels.
One remains in the past.
One stays in the present.
The last one represents the future.

My only regrets is the present who would probably be in the future if the last one didnt came in.
Im sorry.

Sorry for everything and everyone.
This is all my cause for the pain.
I have all myself to blame.
I deserve this ending.
I see people leaving me.
Im hurt.
Im disappointed.
<3 Still.

Now I can say is -Yi wu suo you-

Kill me.

X_x
I woke up so late today that I couldnt have gone out >_>
Eff that.
Im so so so so bored. And I need moneh ._.

Pshh Im kinda pissed.
I dont have shit now and hes like totally snob us.
I was alll gonna say, 'Done with your eqs I see, done abit of sucking asses.'
And fine be like that. Im gonna come back someday. Fucken own joo. Your a newb without me.
Met with snydes yesterday. Missed how we used to have fun <3

Meth ^_^ I dreamt of joo.

Im all yours :)

*Sniffs*
Grr my nose is annoying >;(
Me me have flu for weeks ;(

Neways, just came back from yt's house. Before that I was still editing the blog and she called then I was like Alt-f4. Go showerrr weeee SUPPER TIMEH. Tho I wasnt really hungry but but I love to go out on a cold night <3

Those six girls just came back from shopping. I actually wanted to go with them earlier on but I dont wanna go any where far without my contacts. Rofls.

Then those girls wanted to play bball then I was like okok I'll just listens to my mp3 then ;3 Then its like late and the cops says were disturbing the neighbourhood. And I was like *Hides ciggies* ;O Then we went away sitting at the roadside LMAO. Then we walked to Tekong and continued playing. Then I continued listening ;3 But looking around I saw a flashlight thru the darkness and I looked clearly its those cops again ;O!!! Im like COPS !! Then were all like RUNN RUNNN !! ROFL !! It was fun ;3

Then all went home. Yt and I walked around the park. Sitted on those benches and reminising. Talking about stuffs. We were tired so we slowly walked towarsd Yt's house. And we heard cat crying. Its was so loud and eerie O_O And I was like kinda freaked out. But but but LOL YT GONE ALLL FREAKY AND SHE KEPT HOLDING MY ARMS LMAO LMAO LMAO !! Then I went to her house after that. We lied down in the darkness blabbering craps. LMAO was fucken hilarious. I was wondering why her Dad isnt disturbed by us ;3 And sheesh my flu came again. Then I wanted to go home.

I walked on the cold, long, dark and empty road. ;3 I wub the coldness and the emptyness <3 Listening to my lil mp3 while I stroll down the road. Its relaxing and Im just all thinking about Meth <3

Then behind me a cab asked me where I wanted to go and its late. Im like oh my house is just down there. Hes like insisting I take his ride. So o well fine. Well I know peoples of all sorts and I know what do I have to do. So yea as I expected we chatted for a while then I left and thanked him again.

^____^

Hmm I was wondering why Haku is asking me about Meth ==;;
He said someone asked him and wouldnt tell me who.
And people overheard me and Meth's convo. Im like wtf kaypo ;O!!!

Kz I think I will be waitin to reach home <3
Lates.

>_>..

Kz its like that. Yt pm me asking me if i wanna go have supper. Then I was thinking hmm fine I have to buy ciggies neways. Then I abandon everything I have to do :O. Quickly go shower cause I just woke up. Then I get ready everything. Then when I called her she then told me that they already order. Meaning : They aint waiting at all. Kz it means no one expect me to come at all. Why bother asking then ;O Then I have to change everything again >_>
Nar thats why I dont like going to nearby places. Cause It aint near to meh ;O Cause Its always like when I reach for 10mins everyone need to go. So I rather go town then 'chilling' around.
Gah w/e havta go 888 later.

The feelings seems so real ;D

*Sighs*
K3ro has became worst than I expected. Even tho I dont lag nemore but ... >.> Kz I admit I depend on gods. Well who dont if that person once played for a year with a huge supply of gods. But blah w/e. It aint mines neways.

I guess Riggy has found his new home too ^_^
Snydes is happily playing in the pk server.
David... Iono. He said once if I stop he would too. But I havent spoke to him since some unexpected turns of events.
Lili, Ross, Lucas and Danny plus peoples from trinity are all together with Thong, Steve, ZephyrX and the peoples from Holy. Thats actually what I wish to happen. But.. as I said, I didnt expect ZephyrX... >_>
Heh and koala is happily being GM on Snow's server.
And the Brs <3 Pk server too. Never forget any of juu.
Bruno : ) Nao espera me. Eu sairam do K3ro ^_^
Nico ^_^ Hope you dont got bored of Luna. Lmao.
Hsu havent talk to me since ;O!!
I guess this phenomenon stops here.

*Sighs*
Thank you all once again. : ) Im glad to have met any of joo.

Thank you for bringing me memories ;D Im still active in the forums ^_~
And I never regretted.

Daniel <3 Im still waiting ^_^
Im always waiting.
Either for you to wake up or even for you reaching home. And your arrival :]
I never stops waiting.

Daniel- then, i'll just snatch u from ur house cuz ur mine Lol put Daniel's property all over you ^_~

^________^ Muah!



Daniel-My Shining Star-I never stop thinking ~_^
and I wont stop working

Trish [[[ I never stop believing ^_~
And I wont stop waiting

Trish-I never stop believing. ^_~

Daniel-You never stop thinking. ~_^

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles

In our eyes are mirror images and when

We kiss they're perfectly aligned

And I have to speculate that God himself

Did make us into corresponding shapes like

Puzzle pieces from the clay

And true, it may seem like a stretch, but

Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled

Head when you're away when I am missing you to death

When you are out there on the road for

Several weeks of shows and when you scan

The radio, I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great

Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say

But everything looks perfect from far away,'come down now,' but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your

Machine but the persistent beat it sounded

Thin upon listeningAnd that frankly will not fly.

You will hear

The shrillest highs and lowest lows with

The windows down when this is guiding you home

We chatted for 8 hrs yesterday ^_~

I wub Dan de dum Dan de bum ~

Methy Meth ~ Danny dan ~ <333

Heey beautiful, when you receive this, im probably in the fifth dream, ya know me Lol ;D wells, im sorries i wasn't there when you msg me, but i was at school T___T sigh, i know it sucks ass, but remembers i <3 ya /kis talk to ya when possible [<3] *huggles trish and never lets go*
well im going to schoool now, if it makes you feeel better

^_____________^

He say the sweetest thing evur ;DD!!!!!!!!!!!!

I COULDNT STOP SMILING! OMFG! I WUB JUUU ^0^

*Stretches and yawns*

Just wokkkke up X_x Omg and Meth's sleeping already ;( I waited for him to wake up yesterday night but I went to sleep halfway thinking I coulda see him today but hes asleep >_> pifff

No one wants to go out today. And hmm everyone got a stead to company them during the boredest time of their life. And now IM SO SO SO BORED. >:(

Luna is up. And suprisingly I didnt lag one bit. Maybe its the once in a long time thingy ;O
Lili told meh Zephyrx was looking for me earlier on. I wonder Oo; But bleh Luna is boring O_o..

Actually its getting more and more boring. Rig is like changing somehow. Friends missing. Many got together. But hmm iono.

Went for that crappy interview. Were almost late LMAO. Three lazy girls xD. And yea I doubt shes gonna call either ;O But it need black pants which I find it almost too troublesome and Im afraid I wouldnt want to work that kinda job cause I dont got black pants and I dont wanna buy ;( Then went for a manicure or however you spell that. I just wub the colour xD Looks goth ;D Bought a lil baggy and Im almost broke. >_>

Well when I came home, hes gonna sleep. The past few days were also like that. We rarely talk now ;(

And today was like, xh and ken, xy and jw, py and yl. Im like ... ;( Im so envious of them ;
But I just wanted Methy Meth :Wub: When can I be as xing fu as them? ;D
Im still waiting for the days of happiness. But honestly, I dont look at guys anymore. I dont seems as interested in guys like I do last time. Cause everything I do I only think of him. I dont give a crap about other guys nemore ;O!! But It may seems a lil too impossible I just hope the day will come ><;; ... As he promised >_>...

But I still wouldnt believe xPP

Nothing much happened today...

Were spose to go for a job interview but were late ;O So we went shopping xPP
O well just gotta go for that interview tomorra. Its the last day of it so DONT BE LATE AGAIN. !
And... I havent sleep ;O SHEESH I KNOW I HAVE TO SLEEP SOON OR ELSE I WILL BE LATE ;O
But I wanna wait for Meth tho ><;;

And Rig got Nico's stuffs ;O!! And zephyrx is gonna come back. But he dont need to snob me so much.
I wouldnt care. I really wouldnt care. I was gonna quit anyway. I just wanna work and stuff. And enjoy you know.
Do what I should do. Do what humans should. Do what girls do.

I knooww that game its like my life. My everyday thing. My memories. My friends. My precious friends.
But gah. I lag so much and Iunno if anyone is gonna hook me up. So bleh. Imma just work and get some money.

Iunno if my mum is gonna gimme moneh for those fees. I hope yar she will. But likely.... iono ><;

Seriously, Iono what do I really want now. But I know something that I want. Is to hangout with Meth *Wink wink*
O well I will worry about stuffs like this later on. ;People sucks.

I dont like how the Destiny and Serenity peoples are saying Holy = Nubs. Dude I lvled my H.aco without changing it into a H.priest until Im max and when the rates isnt 1000x YET. And the rates is like 500x which is so near to Seren. So did you ever do that? Fucking newbs dont know a thing. And yo man dont generalise us. I so wanna see how the serenity community is gonna be so take over by us 'the nubs' ;] Just you wait mofos.

*Prays for no more laggyness for meh*

Holy and Trinity will be deleted.
Im just worried about my stuffs. ZephyrX havent even replyed me yet. I bet he just find me irritating :O But he already quitted like for so long. Whats the use if he keeps all those donations thingy to himself for?

Another thing is that my com lags like hell. And I cant even lvl sometimes cant even move. How can I continue playing?? T____T!! I will be so missing from all the fun. Everyone is gonne be so together like finally and I aint. X_x This is sad. Gah Iunno what else can I do. X___________x

Will I be in the new memories or will I ever be a part of it? Will I cease to exist ever again?

I'll put my hope forward ^____^

*Take a deeeep breathe*
*Breath out heavily*

ZOMG!! MY FEEET HURRRTTSSS LIKE A MUDAFUKA X_x Been shopping for two days straight with that high heels and its like I havent been out for like a few months and I suddenly wear that heels. It suuuure hurts.

They can hear me complaining for the whole day without stopping. Zomg X_x... Anyways Im happee ^.~

Anyways yea.. David is kinda sad that I snob him 24/7 Well I didnt mean to but I dont know why or how hes gotten irritating to me. Prolly the once in a month thingy ;O But yea X_x Hes hurt. But gah w/e.

And yar im happy about something. When im back, everyone is out there for me :] I know I havent been contacting you guys for a hella long time. Im sorry and I swear I will get back to you guys' life on the track ;D

Alllllll I need now is a job to help me stay away from the com xP Cause without moneh I wont go out. I wont go out equals to stay in front of the com 24/7. So yar gimme a job pweasssee X_x

And o I dont think my mum will be supposting my schooling fees. What a fag. Dont you want me to study?! ?!!
?!! You biotch :O Riiight w/e. I will try to think of ways then O_o.. Or not... Gah. I dont care. Imma take a step at a time ><;;

Meh im bored. Angie's asleep and I got no one to talk to T_T. How sad... Wakkeee uppp Angiiee wakeee uppppp :]
Hun read my msg *Wink wink*

LMAO I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO MYSELF FOR ONE WHOLE HR :O Im that sad LMAO Naaaahh I aint. Im just too bored :O I aint emo dude. -_-!!

Aiiiiight. Gonna shower despite my hurting feeet X_x Lates peeps.

...

Disappointing..
Fine act like I dont care at all. Ask Rig. Were all worried for ya. Now you got scammed. I didnt breathe a word to you cause I dont wanna be like spoiling your relationship with her. And hell.. Snydes : 'IF YOU CARED YOU WOULD TOLD ME SOMETHING!'
YOU DIDNT KNOW HOW WORRIED I WAS. Ask Rig. I told him everything man. Stfu you dont know how disappointed I was. You acted like I dont even care like I dont treat you as a friend. Stfu.

I got my pay. >>;;

Meep ._.

*Yawns* Still feeling grouchy x_X

Still thinking about yesterday ><;;
Iunno what happen that I totally snob David, Haku and Meth. >_> Gah. Prolly just because of what Bruno says.

*Gasps* Ron just pmed me... ... ... o.o ... =o

Bah. Watched Date movie with Xy and her friends. Was seriously hilarious lmfao. Was like fack I couldnt stop laughing.

Alphy sold the house. He said my commission is not gonna be less than 500$. Couldnt be better = ]

Just watched final destination 3 too. O_O wtf man wtf. Its soooo gross. Buttaa I wubb it grrosss. xPP

Gonna go to a job agency with Xy on tuesday. And Alphy made a bet that I couldnt save up to 3k in 6months. Psh. How mean. >>;;

And I'll prolly take up a course in July. Yea and claro, all my friends were like = O *GASPS* *Pinch* wow... I aint dreaming. Rofl those fags really amuse meh. I WUB JOO FUCKTARDS = ]

Hmm.

Sooooo... What should I do next? O_o.. No idea?

*Thinks*

*Sings*
Im sorry for the person I became
Im sorry that I took so long for me to change

Ops =X

Dang it. Someone gimme a fucken job pweeasee. -_-!!

I still remember the first time I seen juu. You were talking to Steve. Then you were like oh hi. I always think your a funny, cool and 'wow' kind of guy. :) Months pass and were calling each other Jie jie and Di di <3 You were younger than me by a year. And I always tease you for being skinnee after seeing juu =) Your the only one that I really talk to for all these months.

I never knew how much I meant to you until that day that I decided to move on. Yea you cried. My heart hurts so bad and im so touch at the same time. I dont know how we gotten so close. And I never knew how much I love you until that day.

And I knew you never let me leave alone. You know Di di, Jie jie really loves you so much. I want this to last. And I so want to hug you. I seriously do. I hope you feel the same way I do.

Jie jie wants you to know that, where ever I go, your always in my mind. What ever I do I will always think of Di di and his jokes <3

You left this feeling here inside me.

Its a beautiful day.
Now I'll be ok now that your not away.
Yesterday was a terrible day.
Now that your here im ok.

Cause youuu dont knoow
How much I
I need you pleaseee dont gooo.

Your so wonderful
This I swear
This I know.

You oh you
Every single thing you do
Im so proud of you
What you do
When you do the things you do
Thats so you.

Thank youuu for being there for me. Even tho this few days had been so bad for me.
Thank yuu thank yuu thank yuuuu. Im feeling so much better now when your here <3

DAVID, I WILL ALWAYS BE WITTHH YUUUU <333

I want to live where soul meets body
And let the sun wrap its arms around me
And bathe my skin in water cool and cleansing
And feel what it's like to be new 'Cause in my head there's a Greyhound station
Where I send my thoughts to far-off destinations
So they may have a chance of finding a place where they're far more suited then here

And I cannot guess what we'll discover
When we turn the dirt with our palms cupped like shovels
But I know our filthy hands can wash one another's
And not one speck will remain

And I do believe it's true that there are roads left in both of our shoes
But if the silence takes you than I hope it takes me too
So Brown Eyes I'll hold you near 'cause you're the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

eh Its been only two days quitting and I miss k3ro already. I gave my account to Bruno. And when the next day I logon. =O All my gods are gone. And he seems dont wanna talk to me at all. I prolly trust the wrong guy >.> Fine w/e. I just pray for the next wipe then =/

David is having tution now ;( And wow his home is bigggg and niceee. I wanna gooooo ;_; And now Iono what to do with my life either.. o.o Meep ._.

This is so screwed up. Meh. I prolly go emo >_> jokes...

Gah. Just havta take a step at a time I guess =

My Sinx. 250

My Creator. 220

My Priest. 250

My Gypsy. 220

My Pally. 250

>_>....

I seriously honestly hate RMs.
Wtf we used to pwnt their arse back then.
Now moved to Trinity or even quitted.
Fuck now im left alone in fucken Holy.
Well not alone but they barely comes on.
Fucken teaming up on me.
Cause they cant pwnt arse without teaming.
Ha ha 5424135124 vs 1.
What do you call that?
>.> random numbers...
Well got nufing to say neways w/e.
Im moving to Trinity.
Fucken pinoys can snatch Holy do w/e they one.
Well hope you guys rot there.

Quote of the day : I officialy annouced Holy is now a pinoy server.

Just had a looong good chat with David =3 I guess thats how people are... I never know how Hsu is before the wipe. I guess this wipe really change many things but one good thing it shows how really people are.. In the end it all dont matters to me.. Cause i know your that ungrateful. U can as well throw our memories away. I bet you dont even remember who was with you when u lost faith. Lost faith and motivation. I really thought how good how strong our friendship were. But in the end I lost it so easily. Even tho you dont realise it. Its already slipping away from you. I wants to tell u that dont regret it when im gone.. It will then shows u whos helping u all the while.

Bleh It wouldnt matters no more. Im just gonna stay useless for bit until I get my new laptop. Just sits around and chat. Or go global. =\ thX David.. Your like the only person I really talk to.. And the Nicole will be getting a piece of me when im back ;S Your feeling me ? =3 You betta..

Errr.... Ya I havent been here in a while... Umm err so what had happened. Lemme think..

Ya Previously... I had a buddy who made a girl char but shes a guy.. And uhh he created a guild named sinful angels. I was soo fucken loyal to him. Cause hes ma best best buddy. <33 I made the guild known to everyone. And uhh ya the one piece *Shakes head* Fucken cheaters... Lazy to type out the whole story. But ya the whole flame war was started by meeehh !! Bwahahhah Was all mee. Yea so now everyone is hating them, pwning them whenever they could in pvp.

http://d2190.servadmin.com/invision/index.php?showtopic=6953&hl=
Check tha flame war... ;D

Ya and shiroi which was the sub gm there was my friend and he join our guild.. So uhh he kinda abuse his power a lil and helped us during woe. And things got big the renaisance create a fuss at the forums.. So we disband the guild. I encourage hsu all the way. And we create another guild. Which was Sadistic Desire. Which pwnt one piece again.

And yea finally the wipe comes. We kept switching servers and couldnt just decide where to go. And i wanted to stay in Holy. I told zephyr to put his credits there. But in the end Hsu was somehow mad at me. Then i had to go back to Trinity. And left Zephyr alone there T_T And I was laggging so bad after this wipe. So uh I started working to get a new laptop. :S Im gonna donate i think too. But im not sho tho. Cause the server sucks really bad after this wipe. They nurfed so much stuff which i didnt like. Im hating it actually. Sinx dont pwnt so much nemore. :
Hmmm.. Caught up with the rest of my friends and yea... Im trying to get back my life.. Xy did contact me but not as much as before, of cos... So yea.. Fill in pretty much so uh im out.. Lata ;P

Sinful roxxors!! I wub ma guild <3 them =".="!" request ="P">:3 And today we pwnt them porings asses! Sinful totally roxxors. This is the first time i've seen sinful soo alive. And im so proud of them I wub you guys <3 And zeph's back then I have to return his gods soon. TT Cant be strong nemore.. Booo Oh wells just find a way to donate =P

Woooter zoozors! Broke up wit nike! Yahoo! Because of hish gheyness EW. Fancy finding spys to spy on meh. Gheyishness. what a fggt. Were koo now. =) And alex!!! <3 =D muhahah im a ladee pimp! Love me if yoo dare. Rofl! Z0mg! Rawr! Im feeling lucky today! Muahah! I got gtb with a trade of an alice pet! wtf! Zuahah! And a free blush and +8 Buckler! A 100m zennies! A advance +10 items! muhahah!! Z0mg! hahhahah. *grins* thats all i can do hahhaha! and and i made a bandage without worries. HAH! Lucky meh! But item wipe's gonna be here sooon =( And more to come! hahahha

I think he's trying to get this msg to me. 'So if you still go i'll understand. And If you'll stay i'll hold your hand. Well If your gone im all alone, so im hoping that you will come back home. Dont care how long but im willing to wait.' T.T You know I have to leave in the end. Im sorry I hate to but I have to.

My eyes wet the whole day today. Gawd. I didnt know that would happen. Ron finally did appear. Before he appear a guy already took my heart from u. But I still love u tho. U know that. But Nike gave me peace and sweetness whenever im with him. Im really happy with him. And I feel sad for him. I dunno y. Yes nike I love ur song ^-^ After Ron , u appear i started to get confuse. No Nike its not your fault. I cant bare to leave either of you. After you appear I know I gotta choose. Nike u made me cried the whole day. Because when im with Ron I know your alone at your fav spot. Thats the spot you took my heart. <3>.> And wtf Madison square =.= Nike I dont like ur bullshit too. I just hope to keep the feeling. Today i felt the worst pain of Kaz3ro ever. >=( Is to leave your loved ones.

Dont criticise what you do not know and did not experience before. Nigga dont trip at my page. Dont think RO dating is lame stupid and childish. Its not, its the best feeling you can ever get. <3 People are serious there too. You play online games with a community with all addicted ones before? I dont think so. They treat it as their life their world. Everything that happens to them in the game, they mind. Its not like w/e. We dont. We respect. We are serious with everything here. Its crying and laughing at the same time =3 Memories kept <3 <3 <3 So damn yo stfu get outta my page.

Aww damn keith went to indonesia back in 2 months T.T Hmm where's my auger? O_O nvm I never really wanted from him anyways =D Today I was reminising those times. The good old days of us. And from how I got up there. It really made me cry. Kaz3ro had made it possible for me to have all the sweetest and the best memories ever. Even tho there are sad and unhappy times. But thank you all! I really love you guys! <3 And yea fuck the reality im staying in holy ^-^

Um... Me and Ron had married in Serenity. xD And we were havinf fun after the marriage. Lmao /gg. But bleh.
Holy is not up yet. Im getting bored in Serenity. xD

ZOMG! I didnt blog for soooo long. Lots of thing happen since. More donators appeared in pvp owning me. -.- I hate it. Well.. im gonna donate as soon as I found my job. Cheque or cash? Hmm.. Posting my question in the forum. I WANT A PHOTSHOP software. I wanna make my signature for the forum. >.<>=( But now everything is so fine. :D Hah and now I know why aesir is so strong now. He fucking scam chidori. __ Fack! Zomg and after the upgrade = cap1500. wtf?! No lags I hope. Nico and Private tame a doppel for a pet! >.> I want that! Someone even offer 3crds for her pet. Nico gave me and ron an alice for a pet. :D And everyone was like how to tame an alice>.> HOCUS POCUS! -.- AND I FINALLY GOT A CHII!!! Yea I finally make it for myself. And today i was at serenity. And I had no friends there cause I dont play there often. Since holy is closed I was hoping I could see my friends there. Then the first person I saw was sid. I see the nick Gondes. Ok its confirm him I shouted sid! xD He was like how do you know. I said Duh Gondes is your second nick -.- Then another person appeared. ITACHI! xDD Guess whats his nick?!?! His nick----> SOMEONE STOLE MY NAME<----- -.- -.- -.- -_-''''' swtttttttttttttt He was full of craps. Then BOSS appeared! He was sitting in alde. And I saw him reforming out guild. xDD I was like hey steve its ahem. Then he invited all members from holy that was playing in serenity for the time being XDD JONSHE WAS THERE TOO!! I appreciated him =D And I will not ever forget him and will helped him whenever he needs help =D Tough time lvling in serenity. Exp was whack there. Sucks like hell. I was on a maaajor anolians and turtle killing! Zomg and the lvl was still like.... And I NEVER done a 100 breaker on noob in my whooole life. I done one this time. Damn. Rofl. And those two punk one was lvl1 the other was lvl14 when to pvp! -.- I was like o...k If u want. Then i tag along when i went in alllll were dead. LMAO -.- I come out saying that was kinda lame. -.- Rofl! That was fucking funny! So now i will be doing some crazy lvling to help at least a little for steve. He said he wanted an alde castle. For lvling I guess. I hope many people will be on for woe. And yingting is staying at my hse. She will be going home tommora. End here now. Byees lates.

Nth's sup today. Except learnt a new language. Tagalog. Lol. YourDesire teached me. :D Salamat desire xD. Yea chatted for the whole day. Improve my breaker a lil. Or deprove? Not sho. Experimenting my breaker alot. Yea... and it needed loads of money. Dont know how to earn them faster. Viruz!! Stop killing me. Wakoko! Lmao. Looking for wild ghost now. But too lazy for that. Lol.

Server History ]] Kaz3ro

Starting out with as a small guild in aeRO, the players slowly got to know each other, helping each other out, and fighting for territories for the WoE. "Kamikaz3", as it was known, grew into a large community. After the change of ownership of aeRO, people started leaving. Due to the decline in players because of the new ownership, the leaders of Kaz3RO started discuss it with the other guild members about future arrangements. From there, the decision was a new server, "Kaz3RO". Made by a small population, this has contributed significantly on the making the server possible. Kaz3RO is made to be fun, exhilarating and eventful for everyone. All members in the Kaz3RO Staff are helpful and friendly, and try to help in any way possible. From a small guild, to a new server with a team that is willing to help, we welcome you to join Kaz3RO, "where dreams await". [Help support us, click on the links below to help vote for Kaz3RO]

U know what? I guess I dont care about the real world anymore. I dont any thing from the real world anymore. I just need to indulge in the world of kaz3ro and I'll forget every misery in reality. I dont wish to live in reality. I wish that Kaz3ro was real. I could be in there.
met some wonderful ppl there. Heh. Wish to play ro my whole life.

=((( I know he wont call... Lets hope for next fri... Haiz... Those words he use to say to me, are those the truth? ...

Today I realised how much I missed my laopo. Its only been three or two days didnt see her because she have to work. I missed her already. O damn. I have to look for a job man. This is getting much worse. Then that alvin keep camping at ma hse. Think what my hse is a hotel ar want come jiu come. My hse not like Darren hse wor. Haiz. I wonder tml yuren will call me not. I missed him so much i doubt he did not know. I didnt even want to reply my msg. One reply is so important for me. Haiz. Then now my laopo everyday go happy le. Then I at home alone and bored. Envious of her..

Haiz.. Dont think we can go to hp ever again... Our reputation had been even worse than before. It had already been bad. Now? Even worse. Damn. Cant find a place to play billard again. I dont want my skill to deprove.. God damnit. Hope those girls will have their retribution. Damn why they did not hit me. Not thrilling enuff man.

Now my laopo had a new job and i havent even found one. Maybe im too fat and short thats y. She work full time.. Now nobody go out with me le. Feeling bore and sick of my life.

Just came back from ktv pub. Drank one tequila pop and a jug of vodka ribena and many glasses of bourbon coke. Bourbon coke free de. Cause we acc the guy then he treat us. He bought martell and coke as mixer mahz... Drink till song. But dont know y still dont feel drunk cia.

Then just now at ktv pub send Yuren a msg. I still misses him a lot man, after this few weeks he in camp I still misses him so much. Ytd a phone call lights my day and a lighter spoil my day. Damn. I hope Hear some good news from Yuren cia... Praying.. Haiz...

-I miss hp.. Cant bare to leave that place.
-I misses billard already.
-I misses Yuren even more.

Haiz.. Dont think we can go to hp ever again... Our reputation had been even worse than before. It had already been bad. Now? Even worse. Damn. Cant find a place to play billard again. I dont want my skill to deprove.. God damnit. Hope those girls will have their revenge. Damn why they did not hit me. Not thrilling enuff man.

Now my laopo had a new job and i havent even found one. Maybe im too fat and short thats y. She work full time.. Now nobody go out with me le. Feeling bore and sick of my life.

Just came back from ktv pub. Drank one tequila pop and a jug of vodka ribena and many glasses of bourbon coke. Bourbon coke free de. Cause we acc the guy then he treat us. He bought martell and coke as mixer mahz... Drink till song. But dont know y still dont feel drunk cia.

Then just now at ktv pub send Yuren a msg. I still misses him a lot man, after this few weeks he in camp I still misses him so much. Ytd a phone call lights my day and a lighter spoil my day. Damn. I hope Hear some good news from Yuren cia... Praying.. Haiz...

-I miss hp.. Cant bare to leave that place.
-I misses billard already.
-I misses Yuren even more.

Hurting and comforting words... They come. But in the end what words left will be nth. Action had to be seen. But there are no actions. No results. No conclusion. No decision. I will be there just geting hurt by words, lighting up a lil by words. Nth done to make it clear to me. Only rumours, thoughts, assumption and words from friends.

I cant do anything. Yea pray. Hoping. Nth else. All has to be done by him.
*crys

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For saving my trouble.

He's going back in. Anyway saw them at friday at seven eleven. But we walked past and didnt bother to stop after seeing what they did when they saw us. I nearly cried. But i didnt but was boiling with anger. So we went to alvin hse to play mahjong. Played for a little while. Pat called and ask us to go down find them. What for ask us to find them when two of them saw us and faster walked away. I didnt expect much from him i just wanted to see him. I dont understand why. Then after that I went down happily. And went back crying. Damn. I cant believe what he said. I dont know what happen between xy and sam. I dont know what happen between you guy's gossip. But IM NOT INCLUDED AIGHT! Im not associated with that incident. Dont judge me from my best friend. Its like as if what she does they judge me from it. Shes like that and im not. I just cant believe it. They say i dont mind. But i heard it from ur mouth. Then I was like pissed off already and I cant stand being there. Then I told them we are going back to our friend's hse already. Then Pat said his last fucking words and I was like 'Dont say me until like that im not like that!' And walked away tolerating. Then immediately broke down and cried. But i didnt really cried cos my shoulders are shaking but i manage not to drop any tears. But when i reach the hse. I immediately walked to the mahjong table and shuffle the tiles. Thats not like me cos i was always the lazy one. I didnt even greet alvin when i reach the hse. Then xy started something abt them. I replyed. Saying all the unhappiness i have abt them. I just keep saying and finally broke down. This time i really cried. I was trying to control my tears when i talked but it just keep flowing. After that i was like nvm nvm its over. And vent my frustration on the tiles. But that day very ke yan. I was like laughing all the way from hougang to serangoon. Then that night we played mahjong then outside one girl very guai lan. Then she from the living rm scolded us. Then we from the kitchen shouted back then it was like shout there shout here. Lol but didnt manage to see that girl. In the morning Pat called us to go down. Said Sam wanted to talk to xy. Then in then end Sam didnt said anything. Haiz nvm. I was there blood boiling all the way. Then I heard sam said yuren kin lei. Then he say you ask her come down then never say anything. Then I was like cool down a lil and happy a lil. Lol. But I felt that Sam is just jking or what. Then after that we went to Pat hse drink play taidee. Then very sian Yu Ren slping all the way. Then go home that time he just walked away. I wanted to say goodbye. But he walked too fast. Haiz. Nvm. I felt that all this is over.

Dont think So... =) All the Best

Yay he tml come out le. Aslo dont know if I got the chance to see him anot. Sam and Patrick never contact us anymore. I also dont know what the fuck happen. Thats y I dont like to know ppl outside. A while lost contact le. Like what cia. I hope got the chance to see him.

Just came back from hougang. My dad go fetch me. Lol sat sat cia. But dunno why ppl keep disiao xy and me lor dont like wor. Haiz friday also dunno whether want to not liaoz. Pat they all la. What the fuck. Dont understand them lor. Everytime attitude. Then Xy dont like him only then dont want contact liaoz. Then Sam and xy how. Then that Sam also lj kia de leh. If like Xy then jio her la. Do until like that liaoz then want how. Because of Pat meh? Kns lor. If he your bro then he should not because he like then dont let u have her mahz. I just feel that Sam is because of Pat but dunno izit that reason or he just wanna play Xy's feeling. Damn. Hate guys. Thats y i always dont like paikia. I wanna find one serious want also difficult. Then he lei. I also dunno la. Like play play only. Kns. Guys sux.

Three more days.. Miss you.

Stuck at home with no ciggie.

Tml going out with kwang. He want smoke wor. I no need buy ciggie. =) I deserve to smile. Lol.

Friday go mos. Hope got liquor. Hope after that go hotel with them especially him. ;)

Knn give him dua again. Actually at home wear till nice nice then in the end change clothes again. Then ton three days le now come home blog. Sian. Also dunno what to say.

Today Ah zai say wanna bring us go pub again. Hope he dont dua kang again. Cause must talk about that job the thingie. Later eating swensens with ma sis. Then after taht xy coming over cause she want go woodlands take things. Ytd she gotta conflicts with patrick they all then in the end talk cok want. Like nth happen like that. Then i also diam diam never say him cause if not really then i cant go out with them and see him le. One by one all attitude. Cant stand it.

I cant believe i can wait patiently here without any second thoughts and fustration. I still remember my ex, everyday waiting for him to msg me seem more difficult. Maybe because i already know that he wont patch with me. So it seem more difficult to wait and missing him everyday knowing i wont get a chance to ever see him. Damn. Why am I thinking of him. Nahz nahz no more kwang. He's history. I just wanna get back ma linkinpark cds!!! Damnit! Seven more days and he's out! Then I could possibly see him? Maybe...

Yay he friday come out sunday then go back in! Then next friday go mos. But i dont think i want to go. Cause no money. And i want to forget him?? But i dont want too.. Haiz dont know? see first.