I love this picture.
Sexay me.
Looks so pure, so decent.
Just right for my kind of girrrl.
Hei hei.
Sweaty us!
Another fun clique.
Ya hoo!
Friday, July 31, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Saturday, July 25, 2009
No its not better this way.
I spent the whole day having a good thought about things.
You gave me a chance to apologise.
I was thinking if I wanted this chance.
And I thought that even if you gave me this chance now, I dont know whether if I even wanted this chance.
I was determine that yesterday was just an adrenaline rush to get you back for the sake of it.
The whole day I was sure its just a rush and not for love.
You told me to write lovely things.
I went back and I just couldnt.
When I thought of you and us, all I thought was anguish, pain, resentment and hurt.
I didnt know how. I dont know how to love. I just saw contempt.
When we spoke yesterday, I so much wanted to just run away into the arms of another.
To run away from you. This relationship is too much for me to take.
But when I look at your friendster profile picture, I remember how I fell for you.
I remembered why I fell for you.
I remember why I wanted to give my all. Too much I guess.
I said I missed sexing the clubs, what I really miss is sexing you in the club.
I dont know if this choice is right, but I decided to make this another try.
This time we have to make it right.
To forgive or not, is really up to you.
Til then, I wont bother you.
I spent the whole day having a good thought about things.
You gave me a chance to apologise.
I was thinking if I wanted this chance.
And I thought that even if you gave me this chance now, I dont know whether if I even wanted this chance.
I was determine that yesterday was just an adrenaline rush to get you back for the sake of it.
The whole day I was sure its just a rush and not for love.
You told me to write lovely things.
I went back and I just couldnt.
When I thought of you and us, all I thought was anguish, pain, resentment and hurt.
I didnt know how. I dont know how to love. I just saw contempt.
When we spoke yesterday, I so much wanted to just run away into the arms of another.
To run away from you. This relationship is too much for me to take.
But when I look at your friendster profile picture, I remember how I fell for you.
I remembered why I fell for you.
I remember why I wanted to give my all. Too much I guess.
I said I missed sexing the clubs, what I really miss is sexing you in the club.
I dont know if this choice is right, but I decided to make this another try.
This time we have to make it right.
To forgive or not, is really up to you.
Til then, I wont bother you.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
The crossroads
Do you believe in past life?
In soulmates, fate and destiny?
I never thought I would but after I met him some years ago.
The word soulmate instinctively appeared.
Our paths met.
Our yearning, our desire.
The mysterious guy.
We past each other today.
The overwhelming rush and feelings.
Its almost magical.
Something I couldnt put it in words.
I felt I've known him all my life.
5 seconds after we past,
he and I turned for one last glance behind our backs before we continued with our lives.
Without each other.
After his fated appearance,
I felt rejuvenated.
Spiritually healed and emotionally healed.
I felt... unusually, complete.
I wonder if he felt the same way I did some years ago.
If not, why would he turned?
Okay I admit, I was embarrassed when I turned and saw him turning.
This whole post is rather corny but it just felt so real.
So surreal..
P.S At least grant me one more time this year.
I would make the best out of it, if I dont get nervous.
He's the first I felt nervous over.
In soulmates, fate and destiny?
I never thought I would but after I met him some years ago.
The word soulmate instinctively appeared.
Our paths met.
Our yearning, our desire.
The mysterious guy.
We past each other today.
The overwhelming rush and feelings.
Its almost magical.
Something I couldnt put it in words.
I felt I've known him all my life.
5 seconds after we past,
he and I turned for one last glance behind our backs before we continued with our lives.
Without each other.
After his fated appearance,
I felt rejuvenated.
Spiritually healed and emotionally healed.
I felt... unusually, complete.
I wonder if he felt the same way I did some years ago.
If not, why would he turned?
Okay I admit, I was embarrassed when I turned and saw him turning.
This whole post is rather corny but it just felt so real.
So surreal..
P.S At least grant me one more time this year.
I would make the best out of it, if I dont get nervous.
He's the first I felt nervous over.
A coincidence or what?
Few days after I puked for no reason, now its his turn to puke.
Who says Gin Tonic is disgusting? hmhp!
Days get easier, and its really working.
Im suprised how easy it seems.
Im beginning to doubt my ability to sense his presence.
Right now I have to regain my own interest back.
My guitar is fading. My life is fading. My joy my interest is fading.
And finally Im starting to see its sillouette once again.
Wahoo!
Im beginning to enjoy what it meant by single once again.
Just like before.
P.S Just give me a weekend day job and a new group of cool friends and im good to go. ;]
Few days after I puked for no reason, now its his turn to puke.
Who says Gin Tonic is disgusting? hmhp!
Days get easier, and its really working.
Im suprised how easy it seems.
Im beginning to doubt my ability to sense his presence.
Right now I have to regain my own interest back.
My guitar is fading. My life is fading. My joy my interest is fading.
And finally Im starting to see its sillouette once again.
Wahoo!
Im beginning to enjoy what it meant by single once again.
Just like before.
P.S Just give me a weekend day job and a new group of cool friends and im good to go. ;]
Monday, July 20, 2009
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Somebody call 911 !!
Ok im exhausted from the party last night.
Im feeling good. Met so many great people again! :D
Happiness.
Im feeling good. Met so many great people again! :D
Happiness.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Been fustrated and bad temper lately but its getting better.
Sorry for the two outburst at home.
I feel kind of bad for the things I said out of fustrated to cs.
My mental turmoil has taken a toll on my body.
I puked right after I came home this morning and bad migranes.
No idea why I puked.
Should have stayed home when I was having discomfort in my gastric.
This is the first time I took noticed of my body and how it react to my mind.
I really paid attention to myself these days.
And I really should have done that long ago.
This is not my year for fun and parties.
Its time for reflection and progressive change.
But im going for a party later on haha!
Just a few more days alone and I'll be fine.
Thats just how fast I always recover. HAHA!
And i'll be back sexing the clubs.
P.S I wish I have Da M for companion. ;[
Sorry for the two outburst at home.
I feel kind of bad for the things I said out of fustrated to cs.
My mental turmoil has taken a toll on my body.
I puked right after I came home this morning and bad migranes.
No idea why I puked.
Should have stayed home when I was having discomfort in my gastric.
This is the first time I took noticed of my body and how it react to my mind.
I really paid attention to myself these days.
And I really should have done that long ago.
This is not my year for fun and parties.
Its time for reflection and progressive change.
But im going for a party later on haha!
Just a few more days alone and I'll be fine.
Thats just how fast I always recover. HAHA!
And i'll be back sexing the clubs.
P.S I wish I have Da M for companion. ;[
Friday, July 17, 2009
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Sorry for flaring up for no reason.
In fact there is always reason for sudden anger or resentment.
I have to stop suppressing my emotions.
Dump in drags.
Is it easier to find someone else for comfort?
Or is it worth resolving?
Worth trying and trying again for salvation?
In the face of distress,
I refuse to go down.
Have to study before its too late.
I agree with XH, strike a balance.
Drink alone at a bar?
Another dare I would like to try.
How far would I go?
In fact there is always reason for sudden anger or resentment.
I have to stop suppressing my emotions.
Dump in drags.
Is it easier to find someone else for comfort?
Or is it worth resolving?
Worth trying and trying again for salvation?
In the face of distress,
I refuse to go down.
Have to study before its too late.
I agree with XH, strike a balance.
Drink alone at a bar?
Another dare I would like to try.
How far would I go?
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Towards November. The beginning of life.
Sigh!
Chronic boredom can cause obsessive behaviour.
By understanding myself a little bit more, im a step towards emotional independence.
First step to change.
Acceptance and understanding.
A little too hard, a little too easy.
Humans are just too vulnerable.
And I just refuse to.
Touching the guitar again, heals my heart and soul.
Have to learn something new.
Ideas please?!
And my order have not reach my mail yet!
Monday, July 13, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
The result of a sleepless night.
The dating persona Test
Genghis Khunt
Random Brutal Sex Master (RBSM)
So you are Genghis Khunt: master of man, bringer of pain—riding your way to conquest after conquest.
Your sexual avarice is legendary. You’ve already had an unusually high amount of experience, and, still you look for more. You intimidate many. You make no apologies.
Personality-wise, you’re carefree and relatively easy-going. You don’t plan things out ahead of time; you tend to live in the moment. Of course, this can cause some damage when the moment happens to include a screaming orgasm with his younger brother. Hence the ‘brutal’ tag we’ve given you.
But you know what, take five seconds to lock the doors, and you’ll be fine. There’s nothing wrong with a little sex, or a whole lot.
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The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test
7 - the Adventurer
Thanks for taking the test !
AX - your Enneagram type is SEVEN (aka "The Enthusiast").
"I am happy and open to new things"
Adventurers are energetic, lively, and optimistic. They want to contribute to the world.
How to Get Along with Me
Give me companionship, affection, and freedom.
Engage with me in stimulating conversation and laughter.
Appreciate my grand visions and listen to my stories.
Don't try to change my style. Accept me the way I am.
Be responsible for youself. I dislike clingy or needy people.
Don't tell me what to do.
What I Like About Being a SEVEN
being optimistic and not letting life's troubles get me down
being spontaneous and free-spirited
being outspoken and outrageous. It's part of the fun.
being generous and trying to make the world a better place
having the guts to take risks and to try exciting adventures
having such varied interests and abilities
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hat's Hard About Being a SEVEN
not having enough time to do all the things I want
not completing things I start
not being able to profit from the benefits that come from specializing; not making a commitment to a career
having a tendency to be ungrounded; getting lost in plans or fantasies
feeling confined when I'm in a one-to-one relationship
SEVENs as Children Often
are action oriented and adventuresome
drum up excitement
prefer being with other children to being alone
finesse their way around adults
dream of the freedom they'll have when they grow up
SEVENs as Parents
are often enthusiastic and generous
want their children to be exposed to many adventures in life
may be too busy with their own activities to be attentive
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The Slut Test
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Genghis Khunt
Random Brutal Sex Master (RBSM)
So you are Genghis Khunt: master of man, bringer of pain—riding your way to conquest after conquest.
Your sexual avarice is legendary. You’ve already had an unusually high amount of experience, and, still you look for more. You intimidate many. You make no apologies.
Personality-wise, you’re carefree and relatively easy-going. You don’t plan things out ahead of time; you tend to live in the moment. Of course, this can cause some damage when the moment happens to include a screaming orgasm with his younger brother. Hence the ‘brutal’ tag we’ve given you.
But you know what, take five seconds to lock the doors, and you’ll be fine. There’s nothing wrong with a little sex, or a whole lot.
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Your result for The What type of MAN turns you on Test...
Dark mysterious boy
You scored 40% masculine, 53% athletic, 55% exotic, and 25% refined!
You like your men naughty, mysterious and with abs you can do your laundry on. You like him to look a little more on the boyish side underneath all that naughtiness though. You probably like someone like.......Christian Slater. But let's face it, the whole point of this was to look at a bunch of hot guys. If you liked what you saw, please rate my test!
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The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test
7 - the Adventurer
Thanks for taking the test !
AX - your Enneagram type is SEVEN (aka "The Enthusiast").
"I am happy and open to new things"
Adventurers are energetic, lively, and optimistic. They want to contribute to the world.
How to Get Along with Me
Give me companionship, affection, and freedom.
Engage with me in stimulating conversation and laughter.
Appreciate my grand visions and listen to my stories.
Don't try to change my style. Accept me the way I am.
Be responsible for youself. I dislike clingy or needy people.
Don't tell me what to do.
What I Like About Being a SEVEN
being optimistic and not letting life's troubles get me down
being spontaneous and free-spirited
being outspoken and outrageous. It's part of the fun.
being generous and trying to make the world a better place
having the guts to take risks and to try exciting adventures
having such varied interests and abilities
W
hat's Hard About Being a SEVEN
not having enough time to do all the things I want
not completing things I start
not being able to profit from the benefits that come from specializing; not making a commitment to a career
having a tendency to be ungrounded; getting lost in plans or fantasies
feeling confined when I'm in a one-to-one relationship
SEVENs as Children Often
are action oriented and adventuresome
drum up excitement
prefer being with other children to being alone
finesse their way around adults
dream of the freedom they'll have when they grow up
SEVENs as Parents
are often enthusiastic and generous
want their children to be exposed to many adventures in life
may be too busy with their own activities to be attentive
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The Slut Test
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Your result for The Lover Style Profile Test...
The Exotic Lover
41% partner focus, 43% aggressiveness, 80% adventurousness
Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:
You prefer your romance and love to wild and daring rather than typical or boring, you would rather be pursued than do the pursuing and, when it comes to physical love, you concentrate more on enjoying the experience rather than worrying about your performance.
This places you in the Lover Style of: The Exotic Lover.
The Exotic Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and conjures images of the exotic, romantic hero out of a romance novel, or perhaps a slightly dangerous and deadly sexy femme fatale from a noir mystery. The Exotic Lover loves pleasure and is a treasure to date, though it can be difficult to do so because they sometimes tend to be mysterious and reluctant to commit.
In terms of physical love, the Exotic Lover can be quite surprising, as they are often more exciting and adventurous than predicted. Given a little freedom, and the right lover, the Exotic Lover can be a delight in bed.
Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Liberated Lover (most of all) or the Devoted Lover, or the Romantic Lover.
Congratulations!
You prefer your romance and love to wild and daring rather than typical or boring, you would rather be pursued than do the pursuing and, when it comes to physical love, you concentrate more on enjoying the experience rather than worrying about your performance.
This places you in the Lover Style of: The Exotic Lover.
The Exotic Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and conjures images of the exotic, romantic hero out of a romance novel, or perhaps a slightly dangerous and deadly sexy femme fatale from a noir mystery. The Exotic Lover loves pleasure and is a treasure to date, though it can be difficult to do so because they sometimes tend to be mysterious and reluctant to commit.
In terms of physical love, the Exotic Lover can be quite surprising, as they are often more exciting and adventurous than predicted. Given a little freedom, and the right lover, the Exotic Lover can be a delight in bed.
Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Liberated Lover (most of all) or the Devoted Lover, or the Romantic Lover.
Congratulations!
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Saturday, July 11, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
To make.
Heeheehee.
A rush of adrenaline.
So long. So long.
Mysterious fate.
Cool breeze of the night.
Whiff of perfume.
When can I get my summertime again? ;)
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Oh and there's this old post I posted years back.
Yearning for.
Does anyone felt this way before?
You're stuck in foreign quest.
You hate absolutely everything about it.
The people, the work, everything.
Your itchying for a growth, a change.
You worked hard for the change.
It happened.
You gradually began enjoying the foreign quest.
It aint foreign to you anymore.
But you dont realise it.
You complain of hating it.
You complain about everything, like, the way you did, the first time here.
Suddenly, you have to leave this "foreign" place.
And your placed in a totally strange place.
With a new quest you set out to.
You began hating it here and began reminiscing the old, familiar place that you once hate.
Sounds familiar, dont it?
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Was reading through history.
Patterns I realised.
I yearn and yearn and gave up.
Your sweet sweet caring.
I stop giving up and start giving in.
Your you you and all yourself.
If being cold is the only way...
And I cant seems to remember anything about the happiness anymore.
Why?
Seems so hard to keep trying.
A rush of adrenaline.
So long. So long.
Mysterious fate.
Cool breeze of the night.
Whiff of perfume.
When can I get my summertime again? ;)
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Oh and there's this old post I posted years back.
Yearning for.
Does anyone felt this way before?
You're stuck in foreign quest.
You hate absolutely everything about it.
The people, the work, everything.
Your itchying for a growth, a change.
You worked hard for the change.
It happened.
You gradually began enjoying the foreign quest.
It aint foreign to you anymore.
But you dont realise it.
You complain of hating it.
You complain about everything, like, the way you did, the first time here.
Suddenly, you have to leave this "foreign" place.
And your placed in a totally strange place.
With a new quest you set out to.
You began hating it here and began reminiscing the old, familiar place that you once hate.
Sounds familiar, dont it?
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Was reading through history.
Patterns I realised.
I yearn and yearn and gave up.
Your sweet sweet caring.
I stop giving up and start giving in.
Your you you and all yourself.
If being cold is the only way...
And I cant seems to remember anything about the happiness anymore.
Why?
Seems so hard to keep trying.
Sunday, July 05, 2009
Still sealed in hell.
XY got a puppy.
I want a puppy. =[
I want an ugly bulldog.
Or a huge fierce looking wolf hybrid.
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I want a puppy. =[
I want an ugly bulldog.
Or a huge fierce looking wolf hybrid.
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Friday, July 03, 2009
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Drunkard never lies.
First off went to school.
I GOT TOP IN CLASS FOR CHEMISTRY!
What a surprise! I failed for the previous test.
Went to meet YT for Jack's place.
After that prawning.
A prawning session turns into a drinking session with XY and that hated guy's clique.
Hated guy will always be hated. The clique will not be hated. ;p!
Especially if theres beer.
After that, straight to Cousin Marvin's Bday party.
Another round of drinking and im off.
So glad to see DI DI!!!!
Been years since I saw him. Miss him loaaads.
Will be out later. See ya!!
P.S I will always be a prideful woman. And I would commit no less than you do.
Thats how I am. Let me go with the wind and I would fly off with it.
No one ever got me over with mind games.
Hot and cold - Katy perry.
That just suits me and you. ;]
I GOT TOP IN CLASS FOR CHEMISTRY!
What a surprise! I failed for the previous test.
Went to meet YT for Jack's place.
After that prawning.
A prawning session turns into a drinking session with XY and that hated guy's clique.
Hated guy will always be hated. The clique will not be hated. ;p!
Especially if theres beer.
After that, straight to Cousin Marvin's Bday party.
Another round of drinking and im off.
So glad to see DI DI!!!!
Been years since I saw him. Miss him loaaads.
Will be out later. See ya!!
P.S I will always be a prideful woman. And I would commit no less than you do.
Thats how I am. Let me go with the wind and I would fly off with it.
No one ever got me over with mind games.
Hot and cold - Katy perry.
That just suits me and you. ;]
Good news, bad news.
Good news is that I shit.
Bad news is that I still have loads of shit in my ass.
And im having another sleepless night.
Good news is that I leeched The Sims3 from YT.
Bad news is that The Sims3 is gay because it wouldnt allow a 10 year old computer to play the game because it doesnt have Shader Model 2 video card.
Good news is that im gonna download that graphic crack since I dont want to invest on a graphic card.
Bad news is that reviews on that crack is that the game would be lagging shit.
And good news is that I have three computers in my house.
Spare me the troubles.
Bad news is that I still have loads of shit in my ass.
And im having another sleepless night.
Good news is that I leeched The Sims3 from YT.
Bad news is that The Sims3 is gay because it wouldnt allow a 10 year old computer to play the game because it doesnt have Shader Model 2 video card.
Good news is that im gonna download that graphic crack since I dont want to invest on a graphic card.
Bad news is that reviews on that crack is that the game would be lagging shit.
And good news is that I have three computers in my house.
Spare me the troubles.
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