GAP

The familiar song I listen to everyday at work.
Although theres someone special in my life now.
I still feel empty without the usual thing.
Siti's voice. Lina's sarcasm. Azhi's humour. Man I love her! Candy. Simon.
The music. Their laughters. My anxiety towards people.
I miss how I push myself forward every single day.
I miss how I keep telling myself, "Im confident." everytime before I step out of the house.
The first job out of many, that I actually had communication with the people.
Miss you Guppies.

There I go again.
Proceeding to the next stage of my life.
Or am I really regressing?

Til we meet again.

ADDICTED to the Rubik's cube.

No the heading is serious. Really.
Completed 2/3 of the cube. WATCH ME COMPLETE IT AND CALL ME A GENIUS HAHA.

Switching job scope. Sales can bored me out.

"I really love the green robot. Its so lonely and gloomy. I will be back to get it."

Chaw.
P.S I cant breathe sometimes. Its suffocating.

I miss the notes.

You see, the problem is I need a happy man by my side to keep my euphoric drive going. Not to sustain it by drinking anymore.
Its an arduous journey to finally have gotten better, I dont want to be pulled down to depression again.
The only thing I can do is to be happy.
I hope I am that influential to you that the happiness can be passed or shared.


How have I been?
I've been kicking out any negative aspects of life with a simple, "Ah fuck that shit. Not anything to fret about."
Taking things slowly. Why am I such a wuss to the world.

Update about me.
Found a new love. Been together for quite a while now.
Its amazing of the similarities and the coincidences in our lives.

Chaw.
P.S How are you?

I quitted GAP. Just so you know.

Amazed at how things lead to one another.
I had a great week. Thanks.
Sipping on a Lychee martini, a breeze of his perfume.
Its all good.

Tho im dirty like fuck.

Uncle kenneth went to Roma.
He sent me pictures.
It was so beautiful.

And I just felt the wtc.
Where was I at p6.

I just wanna lie on my bed the whole day.

She said, "Dont stop the momentum. Your down again. Stablize it and dont stop working, no matter how it is a drag to just get out of the house."

P.S Im down again. Help? Prozac pls.

Ooo la

"The habit of postponing decisions to avoid taking action can deprive a life of any lasting satisfaction and happiness. The mind can produces a reservoir of self-justification."

Is that why I just cant seem to get out of my fence?
I often wonder how people got so strong.
Why? How?

I rather live my life in a country, growing crops and rearing chickens.
Running around with a dog on a everlasting greens and wind.
Green green grass.

I find it a drag everyday.

Am I immune to guys?

SHAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

EXHAUSTING DAY.

Thursday, went Jewel. Free drinks all night.
Drank the first half of the night away.
Danced the remaining night away.
And I NEVER PUKED.
Went home at 7am+
I woke up with muscle ache.
WE HAD FUN YA!

Friday. BORING!
Imagine clubbing with aunties.
Went midnight movie. Evan almighty.
Hilarious.
Went work straight away.
HOW SHAG AM I NOW. Take a guess.
K.O during lunch breaks.

GOD I HATE WRITING SUMMARIES ON MY BLOG.
But im too stoned to write a full detail.

Dreams - The CRANBERRIES

Still feeling it.

Cant kick the mind.

Trish just stop it.
Its 12 hours to exam.

WHY IS MY LIFE EVOLVE AROUND THINGS I DONT FEEL GOOD IN.

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday - EXAMS
Wednesday - Pub + Club.
Thursday - PLAY, lesbian club. ;]
Friday - FREE
Saturday - Work
Sunday - Work

Holler me, if you wanna join any of the funs above.

Sorry, I still dont feel belong.
Please. I have been in these for so long.
I went there more then any of you girls.
I know what to expect and whats not.
I dont need no nanny.

Need a break from all of you.