I finally found the song I've been looking for, for months.
That song that was playing at Cold Hard Beer.
"Hurts so good!
Come on baby make it hurts so good!"

The best thing was, I woke up listening to it.
Ahh, the blues, the rock n roll.

Note to self:
I got to stop drinking Cookie Spin during work.

Reasons why:
I am getting fat.
I am prone to being diabetic.
My eyes and nose are already itchy due to the sweetness.
Coffee make teeth yellow. Smoking already did its time.

I wonder, is that spite?
Or he's habit kicks in again.
Should I or should I not?
I know he would do his 'thing' again.
Think i'll just wait til im ready. =)

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P.S STEREOPHONICS ARE HEADING TO SG! Im so looking forward to it.
P.P.S D said he would have married me if I were older......
Why does he touch my heart so...
Its been 4 years since I knew him.
I wont cross the line because of our great friendship.
I wont lose this friendship because of a mistake.
I know that theres always him to count on when things doesnt go the way I want to...

Sorry David... =/
And I kinda miss you.
Our emotional bonds are something I cant imagine losing..

Right now, Don Henley can do his job.
Classics like this, can fix me.

It was just weird.
Seeing him there.
Seeing him reminds me about everything about him.
I couldnt help to be harsh when the topic about him was brought up.
I guess it was the bit of jealousy mixed with some facts.
But I guess the lack of communication with him will always bring bad word for the both of us. Still, ...
Well, the past couldnt be changed. The future can.
Lets all just reflect and grow from it.
Definately I need to.
Maybe 5 years down the road... Who knows.

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She was pretty unhappy when she saw me.
Think I tried my best to not affect her night already...
And I actually thought we could be normal friends, but the unheard words could be felt...

I saw alot of familiar faces yesterday.
Regulars were exchanging numbers when they know that it would be the last time to see each other. My second home is movingggggggg. :[

Yesterday night was just awesome awesome awesome.
The party of the month.

I'll just go along, and hopefully things will pass soon.
Its was kind of terrible at the start, but when the last evening came, it starts to get better...

The thing I hate most about him right now, is the guilty look on his face.
I dont want to listen to anymore apologies nor see you feeling bad.
Because I have already forgiven you and let us just move on, shall we?
I wanna see you smile and joke with me again.

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I.cant.wait.for.CLASH.OF.THE.TITANS!
Great friends or soulmates?
Did I hurt you by doing that?
Its selfish of me but im sorry.
Without you, im just nothing.

Your always there without fail...
Will you still be there tomorrow?
Next month? Next year...?
:[

Such perfect trust.
Such perfect feeling.
Such perfect impression.
Ruined.

Flawed evening...

Spinned a web of lies,
trapped a whole load of insecurities.

Today I realised, forgiving is a very loving act.
When I forgave, I learnt to love myself a little bit more.

She wanted one last week with him.
I said okay.
XH said I was very generous.
But I guess this is who I am.
I dont mind alot of things, the only thing is not to lie to me.

Today, I learnt a great deal about myself.
<3

Life is great.

I didnt teared a single because of the recent incidents with Andrew.
Yet I teared because of David.
A million thank you couldnt be enough.
You really touched my heart...

Im overwhelmed by some unexplainable emotions.

My buddy, thank you!
You stand an important place.

Am so in love with this qoute.
A friend in need is a friend indeed, a friend with weeds is better.

I miss the smell, the surreality of weeds.
I want them, I need them nao!

THREE?!

I said I needed time.
Because I had lost complete trust in you.
When theres no trust, I dont know how to even take you seriously.
I cant even bring myself to look at you anymore.
Its not even the matter about being angry or not.
Because thats not the point anymore.
It was never the issue.

Tell me how?
You wanted a chance.
"Never again."
I heard zillions of this same phrase in my life.

Because I can treat you as my playmate if you wanted to have both worlds.
Let me have it too.
But never fucking lie.
I was fair to you and I want to be.

If I said, yes, it only meant that I felt like I could trust you again.
That I could take you seriously.
But in that moment, I felt like I have to oblige to get out of this situation that is bothering me.
Time suddenly felt really slow with you...

I need to re-assess this situation on my own.

Horoscopes are true to me most of the time.
Maybe because im a true gemini.
Ha. What a say.

Issues that have been perplexing you about your romantic situation will be better understood by you during this period. If you are attached, you will better understand why someone is behaving the way that they have been, and you will understand that you have not been the source of this behavior.

All the while Ive been figuring you out.
No results.
I guess my gut instincts are frightfully right most of the time.
Now I understand.
Your mind, I understood.
Your too preoccupied to let emotions flow naturally.

And wow, it does hurt.
Didnt know.
EXP pts gained.

Thank you David!
You have been my life most important support for all these years.
From then til now.
Thank you...

When I finally felt someone deserving of my trust and respect, it was then I finally realised, they arent deserving at all.

I will refund my love, care and concern.
David, I learnt your language.
HAHA.

SAKURA FLOWERS HERE I COME!










My all time favourite crew! <3
What will I ever do without them!


The life that I had imagined years ago, is finally coming true for me.
Life, here I come!

Ohm, I heard some news from David about, ____________'s friend.
Wow. Seriously, I have some gossips to share. HAHA.

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HES THE MAN!
HES MY MAN!
He satisfies me in so many aspects...
Definately worthy to give it all.
Andrew Guo Jia Jun!

Last night, I watched all the videos I have taken in my phone, I still laughed at the silly dance, the silly antics. I turned on the song, the ringtone I used to have and imagine it was you calling from camp. Imagine your still here with me... I smiled, I was happy for a while. Your like a ghost in my mind, let me indulge this blues for tonight. =)

Let me reminisce for a while now.
Such a great feeling...

Its another day again.
Like David said, my love like flyers.
Changes are my daily routine!

Its great working with David!!
Doesnt feels like working at all.
Idle chatter, great music, happy customers.
Whats there to ask for?
Cant wait for jamming next. :]

The after effect, comes every now and then.
Doesnt feels good at all. I know for you too.

"At first it seems so sweet, then you wake up next to a monster. This withdrawal is killing me. I wish I had never kissed him, cause I just can't resist him...

Everything will be okay
Everything will be alright
If I can get away from him
And save my worthless life."

Love defines a new meaning to me.
Love is twisted, distorted...

BRIAN MOLKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
I feel so much inspire to play their music now. HAHA.
We all should just camp at Fort Canning with free live music and order pizzas under it. We the free loaders, the mud! :]

I wished Pearl Jam come tho.
Blues and solos. Awesome.

LG, Life's good.

It still doesnt feels right.
I guess I am a very impatient woman.
Connected yet not.

Is this the right time?

Why does it feels so different?

I am suppose to move, but my lazy ass wouldnt budge!! :[
Am still here eating crackers.

I have never before, respected, admired and appreciated a man this much.
Apart from my Dad.
Thank you...
Without speaking a word,
its bliss.

Now where can my boy boy be? :]

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close
The devil in you i suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel

Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel

When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could
Learn how to feel
Then we could
Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
Is more than just a word

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
And would it matter anyway?
It wouldn't change how you feel

If time could reverse, is this the way I want it to be?
I think, I would want this to end but probably in a more perfect way...

I guess the time we met arent right.
I guess the time we met were right yet overwhelming and poisoning...

I wish you well.
I wish you have a great life ahead.
Because your laughter is something I wont forget.
Your melancholy stare.

Nicholas Ooi.
Your name, I wont regret.

Wow, your a much better man than I could imagined.
You impressed me...

I am not a risk-taker so im not a good lover.

Tomorrow is my medical check up and I have something on my mind.
Sigh.
LG Life's Good... but not enough.

I need to slow down my pace, but I couldnt wait.
Im tired but I couldnt rest.
Im curious, what do I really want out of this wonderful world.
What feeling? What kind of joy?
What satisfaction?
Someone please slow me down... to enjoy the taste of freedom.