Err my granny said something to me which i find it highly annoying but when I think back its rather funny tho. She said, "if your uncle call looking for your mom, and shes not home, tell him that shes not home, if shes home let her answer the call." Wtf?! Im like DER! Obviously I know. >.> Like im not retarded or something.

Just watched Omen and the ending sucks. I jumped a couple of times tho. Its good, its good but the ending just ruin it.

I havent been in pvp for like months and today theres a war in the pvp room. Lili told meh bout it im like woah I gotta check it out. Andrew was like hell yea! WAAARRR! Ha, its RM and renaissance and a couple of gay guilds that cheats. Im soo laggy most of the times and i couldnt do nothing. I was soo pissed. I soo wanna join in the war and help the RMs but meh, lag owns me. I hate mai com. I used to hate the RMs but bleh its the past. They are cool now cause they are like the only original Holy guild left. I, of course gonna support Holy. And plus Lan is in there (:

Friggin a, in less than four hours theres like three and more scammers tried to scam me >_>

Bastard... I aint dumb aight. What a dumbass.

And that fucker even tryna impersonate Bruno. Nice try tho. See you again, I hope not.
He even asked "Who are you?" LMFAO?! How could he not know who am I.. Then im like what guild are you from? Hes like "I forgot, I quitted." ~_~
I havent seen anyone dumb like that. Then Im like playing along with him. Ok hi w/e liar. Hes like no I'm really bruno. Im like wheres your gods and stuffs then? He said, wait i go take.
When he said that, im already laughing my ass out. When he came back, he show me his gods. Im like "HAHAHHAHA BUSTED! YOU GAVE ME YOUR GODS REMEMBER?!" LMFAO. WHAT A TURD.
Then he go like, return me my gods. I say dood! Those dont even belongs to you, liar. Then he go like ORIOLA SCAM ME spamming all around pront. ~~;
Fucktard.. Then im like, go on msn or speak some portugues, before you getting anything from me. I seriously hate these turds.

Im sooo excited! I will be writing that letter soon :)

*EDITED*

Friday, June 09
Jocelyn gave me FIVE ding ding tang and xh didnt gave me one! NOT EVEN ONE! PSH! And Liyun gave me two ding ding tang!

o_o;; Laurie said shes gonna transfere her shit onto dynasty and she asked if I wanna transfere with her too. Im like errr... I gave them all to snydes and some to Steve. Its awdward to get them back >.> But I want some of my gods in dynasty ;(
And plus I dont wanna depend on others.

I predict that if I get a job now, I can go to Manila in four to five months. Still long ;((
and.. IM HUNGRY >_>

Trishie muses mushy (:

Weee
Mmmm py, xh, ly, michelle, joce, lyun and me went to eat dinner ^_^ Its was fun tho i spaced out most of the time lmao!(Lan^_^)
And OMGBBQZADSGASDFA I havent played ddr for like years and I couldnt catch up yesterday rofl xD
Its funny how michelle talked about that one girl that dont wash her hair. Im like wtfzors, grossed out.

And I was stuck outside yesterday >_>
I forget my keys and wtfzors I was sooooo tired plus hella bored and cold. x_x
And I knocked on the door till my knuckles go red and swollen, I was so pissed to tears.
Then I went downstairs for the air and scenery with my mp3 BUT OMGBBQZORSADFASDF IT WENT LOW BATT. Im like fffffffuuuck.

Neways I just wanna study. I really really wanna study T_T
I hope she would let me.

I wanna hear you laugh. ^_^

Wooooooot! Andrew got a girrllllfriiieeenndd!
Tho i felt kinda bitter o_o;;

Can you believe how a parent crash your hope?
Isnt a parent suppose to support you all the way?
I watched how one parent support her; financially and motivation and emotionally. Even tho its an unrealistic dream.
But what I wanted was simple. Far more simpler than that. All I wanted is to study.
I dont wanna go back to high school tho.
I have high confidence of what I'm doing now. I hate you, Mom.

I hate you, Mom. Wtf stop changing you mind. You already said you let me study, so stop fucking regret. And kept saying no money pay la. Fine, heres the deal. I loan those money from money from you. Once i work, TAKE IT ALL BACK.

Im so apathetic in my resentment.

Kung panaginip ka lang, ayaw ko nang magising pa
'Pagkat nadarama'y ligaya
Lahat ng naisin mo'y aking ibibigay
'Pagkat ikaw ay aking mahal

I wub this song o.o;;

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

Baby! Mahal na mahal kita Mushy kow ^_~

Lmao HAHAHA he still wants me back after calling me a hoe in front of Ayame. Rofl that fag sure changes fast.

AND AYAME <3
VERBAL PWNAGE! Love ya fer that.

Mark got owned badly. I actually pitied him. Poor boy.

IM ACTUALLY ENJOYING THE SCENE AND DRAMA ROFL.

I LOVE MY MUSHY! MINNEEES!

Just seen his myspace. So he replaced me with a guy named john. Im completely off his mind, completely off his heart. ^_^ Im glad.

Well actually, I still feel kinda bitter and sour. I wonder how he have been.

Did he find someone new to take over hes dream, the non reality one.

Will he evur forget me or have he already forgotten whos Trish.

Memories.

"Theres no blame for how our love did slowly fade,
Now its gone its like it wasnt there at all,
And here i rest, where disapointment and regret, collide."

You moved on, I should too.

"A little voice inside my head said don't look back
You can never look back
I thought I knew what love was
What did I know
Those days are gone forever
I should just let them go but...
I can see you."

LMAO IM SOO A PIMP!
Its happening again >_>
And pwease, GIMME A JOB! = =

My wishlist
-A cute lil digital cam
-An iPod ;D
-A new compy! Plus new internet!
-Donations ;3 Muahaha

Mom had a fall last night. She was catching this cockroach and it flew, she panick and tripped and fall literally vertically backwards, hitting her head on the table first then on the floor. And i saw everything, its like in slow motion! But I couldnt do anything, I just stood there, stunned and screaming "mommy!" But thank gawd, after check up, shes fine. (:

Hello Lan (:

Stupid hypocrite.
Alex didnt get it right. You didnt change. Your originally like that.
Bye bye old friends. Bye bye saviour. Bye bye kind helpers.
Hello new friends. Hello cool ones.

"Smile thru the tears baby"

I miss...
I wish...
I will cherish everyone of you again if i had the chance..
Im sorry.

>_<
Felt so sad.
Today is my dad's last day at work.
Im worrying about my studies, highly expences and general stuffs.
Hes so old... T_T!

WOOT! PAUL TWOHILL! BRING BACK THE PUNK FUCKING LIFESTYLE!
I will love ya for influencing TYPICAL SINGAPOREAN. S2!

I will just hide away, pretending I have my own life thingy going on.

Uh oh its more than 600+ Wrong count!

O Bruno , eu metei as saudades!! *Sobs*
Vc nunca vem em linha falar-me!
Vc prometeu... ;(((
Dynasty e muito MUITO chatoooooooo.
Minhas amigas sairam do k3ro... Deixando me sozinho ://
Eu nao feliz................. ;(((
Lastly, vc e doceee <3333333!
Eu te amo, meu lindoooooooo amor.

-Beijoosssssss

ewan ko kung bkit pero pagkausap kita masaya ako gusto ko lagi kita kausap kung pwede nga lang kasama pag nimimiss kita pumipikita lang ako para kahit sa panaginip makasama ka kahit di ka maniwala kahit masyado pang maaga gusto ko pa ding sabuihin mahal na kita

AWW Sweetie ;3

Uh oh... Mom bitch at me for puking all over the floor last night ;PPP

THANKS! FOR THE WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY!
Jocelyn, Liyun, xiaohui, Peiyin, Liyan and Xueying ^_^!!

Happy happy XD

OMFG! <333!!
After having a pleasant suprise by Madafaka, I saw Marius de Romando!! That cool br! Omfg and then I saw Cloudstrella! Then raffy AND JONSHE!
And they reform Zanarkard Abe's! Its like reuniting! That is my first guild EVUR when i first started Holy. Omfg I love you all.

Awww T_T So sweet.
Went to Dynasty today and, freakin a, I saw this char named "Madafaka N Viora"
Im like OMG you still remembers me even tho im in Luna. Thats like so sweeet AWW ;_;

We keep saying "one day" to make ourselves feel better. But in fact, its not gonna happen.

W/E!
ANYWAYS, no cravings for sushis nemore psh that. I need hokkien meeeee ;(

Omfg. I got moooore than 600+ songs on my winamp now. Lmao! I forget when's the last time I check them but I remember it was 300+ only. Lmao lmao! I just couldnt get enough ;((

OMFG BRUNO IS THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME. Hes sooo sweet >_<
Everyone drifted after kaz3ro. He still show gratitude and care. ;((
How sweet and how sad. O well :]

DENIED

BRING BACK MY LAST AUTUMN.

Ehh.. Went to Peiyin's bday party two days ago. Happee birthday Peiyin!

K3ro is like the core of our friendship. Without it, everything fades. :/
Im disappointed and pain as well.
Well, in any case, bye. Good luck in your life.

Another step in my life.

I hate myself. :[
David..... Ron....................
David............................
I always regretted.
Now I miss chu.

Does anyone remember.... how that red bull thingy was a bug. Every kill gives you a level.
Anyone remember how we used to fight to log on when theres capped at 600 players.
Anyone remember how...................... ;(

Every private server has an end. K3ro is not as popular as before but it had its glory times.

Aww ffffuuck. I was suppose to go swimming but didnt cause I lost my swimsuit >_>
And im like imagining the cool water and the weather is sooo hot.

ANYWAYS, sorry Mark. Really am. Really really am.
-
"Just dont read the word 'mouse' and 'toss'."
-
"Then dont listen, put your hands on your ears and hum. "Lalalalallaa" Over and over again."
-
Every one in their lives will do at least one sin.
Sin = Death, fear, shame
Therefore everyone dies.

"The Mixed Tape"
This is morning
That's when I spend the most time
Thinking 'bout what I've given up
This is a warning
When you start the day just to close the curtains
You're thinking 'bout what I've given up

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I'm writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I rearrange the songs again
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of

I read your letter
The one you left when you broke into my house
Retracing every step you made
And you said you meant it
And there's a piece of me in every single
Second of every single day
But if it's true then tell me how it got this way

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I'm writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I rearrange the songs again
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of

And I can't get to you
I can't get to you
I can't get to you

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I conduct a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I'm cutting through you track by track
I swear to God this mix could sink the sun
But it was you I was thinking of
And where are you now?
And where are you now?
And this is my mixed tape for her
It's like I wrote every note
With my own fingers

Email email wheres your email ;D
Mmm I didnt block you, well, Im just feeling bad and I didnt want to talk atm.
Im sorry but I didnt know how to get this to ya. So you prolly would think I aint sorry at all.

Im still waiting for that chance to live with chu. ;D
You must know that I still wanna see your cutey face.
And we are not over yet. Its just were not yet at that point atm. Its not you its me.
Im sorry. Cause prolly I aint over him yet.

I wanna watch the Da vinci code with chu. ;(
Lol, he said, "Jeez I got no one to watch with, none of them are smart enough to understand it and they will spoil the movie when they go "' Wtf this movie sucks, I dont get it."' I soo wanna watch that movie >.>."
Funny one. Then I go like, "I wanna watch that movie too >_> But I got no friends. LOL."
Which is worst haha.

Neways, I dont think the blog would stay on forever. I feel like printing out every entry of it and saving it preciously because :
"And we laugh till we cry
Always so hard to say goodbye
And we all sit round here in our home town
It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss
The memories, I hope they'll never fade
Glowing embers lie across the sky"

In You and I there's a new land

Angels in flight.

My sanctuary. My sanctuary yeah.

Where fears and lies melt away.

Music inside what's left of me.

What's left of me now.

Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer
The world passes by in my summer, our last summer
The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other
Alive to watch it all, the view from our last summer
The view from our last summer...
We trace the sun across the sky

"Jeepers"
"Creepers"

Hahaha god rice? Your godly rice is so gdly.

"Wookies?"

HAHAHA LMAO
EXPEL REASON :
HAKU - BOOOOOOOOOOBBBS
HAKU - BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOBBS
Persis - She really is a mole.
HAKU - BOOOOOOOOOBS

Guild notice :
Stop kicking each other. Haha haku got man boobs.

I LOOK WHAT?

Hahahha Just love that one.

We
WE
are werid.

Maybe their weird but we WE are definately werid.

"You guys are weird X_x"
"No NO. We WE are werid."

Omfg. This movie roxzors. Requiem for a dream.
A movie worth to watch.
Its creepy and saaad to see how people ruin their lives like that. :/
It left me crying in the end. Iono.. I just felt so sad.
They ended... like
1 - An arm amputated.
2 - Suffering in jail and guiltyness.
3 - Mental hospital.
4 - Alone, forcing herself to prostitution.

Its just so... sad.

Some memories I wouldnt wanna forget. I wanna get every pieces of memories here.
-
"ROF"
"L"
-
"What a mo"
"Ron"
-
Our goldmine?
-
Me:"My head hurts when im shaking my head."
Him:"Headache?"
"Yea I guess so. Maybe when I shake my head, my brain shakes too, thats why it hurts."
"Yea maybe. Prolly when you gets a headache, your brain loses fluid, so it knock against your skull. O_+"
"Yea. So i keeps shaking my head now to hear if theres any sound."
"Haha keep shaking."
"I THINK I HEAR A SOUND! YES I HEAR MY BRAIN!"
"LOL"
-
"And the funny thing is, everything but watches... Haunted watches? O_+"
-
"Please tell me I look gangsta."
-
:Drunk:
"Actually you do look gangsta, I just said you dont."
"HAHA! Glad your drunk today :] *Screenshots*"
-
"O....k, Im trying not to pick that all up."
-
"I dont know how to forget."
-
"Cool, were talking about farts."
-
"I LOOK WHAT?"
-
"Soquid."
-
"/blush?"
-
<3333

Champagne Supernova is our song <3

Too many things happen at a go. I cant remember >_<
But I wanna get everything down so I wouldnt forget the good times <3

And AND everything is going back, its gonna start alll over again X_x Im like.. BAH. Who cant stop a pimp ;] Just taking a step a time then.
-
"Pigs. Hahahhahahaha your afraid of pigs."
"No not pigs. Its boars. BOARS."
"HAHAHHAHAHA PIGS YOUR AFRAID OF PIGS."
-
Dont wanna hurt Mark.
-
Marvin? Nyubs? Maryubs? Imma call joo Mary ;D
-
You made me blush.
-

P.s - Your cute when your drunk <3

RAWR!

The weather is sooooooo fucken hot! I havta bring my fan out from my bedroom to the living room. Like Omagawd.
-
And I fucken hate the Serenity-tards.
-
I love Haku and our quiz madness!!
LOL
Sir ernest rutherford is the first person who split atom.
DAMNIT IM SMART. LMAO
-
Me : Say you want me.
Mark : OMG TRISH I WANT YOU BAD, YOUR SO IRRESISTABLE.
LMAOOO~~~~
!!!!!!
-
Snydes : Why were you fired from the cake shop?
ME : Cause I touched and poked all the cakes.

LOL
Lovely pweettyy Angie, would you please buy me my noodle soup? Pwetty pwease ;D

-

WOOT Eugene is back from Auckland LOL! Weeeeeeeh~

-

Snydes : Dirty panties
haha
hahahahaha
Me: hahahahha
Snydes: haha
Me:Dirty panties...
haha haha
Snydes: haha dirty panties
hahah ... haa... .... ha ha ha
ok enough..
haaha haa
Me: ok
haa ha ha... ha.... ha

Sad reality...
Wish everything was real. :/

No more hanging onto shit. (:

YES MORE MEMORIES ;3!!!!

Freaking A. Im back to my normal life .__.
Wasnt same tho.
Snydes was pissed today >_<
Freaking nyubs. Omg im like "stop all this drama and get over it."
And snydes was like " heres the deal, either get over what I said or quit."
Lmao. ITS LAME. RETARDED.
Freaking a, it was just a joke and he just have to make a big fuss.
Fucken drama. Spoilt everyone's day ;O

-

Mmm Alden. Haha ;3
Tea?! Poison?! I just kissed my pig ;O

-

Mark : You there? Trish baby? Baby Trish? Haha This is getting funny.
Trish : LMAO ok im back. .__. You there? Mark baby? Baby Mark? HAHAHAHHA
Fine ! I see how this is. Now im back and your gone.

-

Hahaha. "I have a good mommy."
"I have a bad daddy."

-

Hope is all I've left.

Theres no blame for how our love did slowly fade.
Now its gone, its like it wasnt there at all.
And here I rest, where disappointment and regret, collide.
Lying awake at night.

"Dont go wasting your emotions, lay all your love on me.
Dont go sharing your devotions, lay all your love on me."

Lmao Mark. You made me tried to play Gunbound again >_>
Its like THREE fucken years I havent touch Gunbound.
And fuck it, the moment I tried to play my com keeps crashing on me >_<
I so wanna squeeze it to death :/

Haha aint lagging today, so I happily went RO-ing. xP
But meh, only gain so little levels >_<
It suck ass. Aww and Teri got a job ;(
Wont be able to see her on much again. Buuu huuuu on that >_<

Ron came online today. Im like, RON? O_O. Hes like, TRISH? O_O
Hahaha. Havent seen him for a long time. Memories <3
Guess hes moving on too. Everyone is moving on except me :/

David, Zhao, Ron, Danny, Rig, Angie, Hsu, Amish, Legos, Max, Koala lol, Pachu, Alex, West, those dutch boys S2, Teri, Steve, Gus, Juan, Henry, Nike >.> , ABLI and those BRAZILIANS. Etc etc
All moved on. EXCEPT ME. ALLLLLLLLLLL EXCEPT ME.
I could do a head count >_>

Omg >_<
Everyone is asking the same questions when they saw me.
Hey sup, your working now? Studies?
Same ans >_<
No.... I aint doing nothing.
Ok fuck that >_>

Nooooo Eugene went to Auckland ;-;
Teeheehee. Good luck with tha booty : ]
Muahahahha >D

Blah blah blah me no care too :D
Im over you.
But im sooo gonna show ya that it aint impposible
so yea ttyl : D

ZomgwtfzorssfasdfiasuflkasjfsaZORS~!
I've been using this blog for about two years O___________O
I wonder when is this blog gonna just blow up on me. Lmao xD
Alden <3 I guess only RO addicts understand how I feel now.
So I dont really talk to real life peoples O__________O
Ok, Im weird but w/e. Thanks Alden >_<

I see how this is. You even deleted me on myspace. You heartless crap.

"I actually feel lucky to have you to love me."
Lmao.... Take your shit back.

Mmm snap, migranes :/

Heee heee
Know whattt
im just gonna drink my life away like you said..
as a matter of fact im drunk right now ;]
EU SOU BEBEDO ;] bruno stills remmeber me
he even emailed to me
but u.. choose to hurt me again and agian
stop lying to me
you lied to me again and again
i wanted to sream
but no one hears me
your just there moving on
but im staying in my misery
i just scream but no one can hear
not you not my family not my friends

im gonna fill my glass to brim
blind..................................
my hands.. finger is bleeding

where is he
can i get
anyone , anyone at all
bittersweet
no
just bitterneess
snap imma go puke and sleep

What am I pretending for.
Why am I pretending.
I just have to say goodbye.

But things cant be perfect.
All the time, that i know.
Sometimes we just have to let some things go.

I will not say one word,
Ill just hang around.
I wont annoy you at all,
When you move out, Ill stay .
Until im thrown away,
But then it wont matter.

I promise to stop now.

Letting go is my life,
I'll be on my way.

`Trish ? says:
tell him to unblock me on msn and stop running away and face me
??a???ss.. says:
daniel says this, "grow some balls, and move on"
? `Trish ? says:
im not even clinging on to you I just want to end it the right way and you said to talk to me back then but til now not a single msg but instead you deleted me on msn
? `Trish ? says:
after the day that i got drunk
??a???ss.. says:
"it's fonny how people don't know when it's over"
? `Trish ? says:
then why cant we stay as friend >_>
??a???ss.. says:
because, it's better if we forget each other hahahaha silly girl, move on
? `Trish ? says:
rofl as easy as it said like what you said back then, ok fine if thats it


You know what? I aint even sad about it now.
Im done with banging my fist and crying.
And comeon be a man and face me.
You cant even end it properly.
You cant even face me. Your just running away from it by deleting me on msn.
So sup with those harsh words.
I AINT EVEN CLINGING ON TO YOU MAN.
So stop with the assumptions thingy.
You think that I couldnt forget about you so you just wanna delete me eh.
Haha your so wrong then. Cause im just sad/pissed with the fact that ITS ME WHO DO THOSE DUMPING.
Not the other way round. So im happy now that its you who couldnt forget about me ^_^
So you need to delete me and say those harsh stuff to make yourself even miserable.
Anyways, thanks for alll :]
Im glad and I couldnt be better. Period.

??a???ss.. says:heyy?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:o_o?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:heys
??a???ss.. says:lol
??a???ss.. says:uhh
??a???ss.. says:u deleted trishie
????a???ss.. says:on ur msn list o.o?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:why is she asking?
??a???ss.. says:shes hurt?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:blah, me no care
??a???ss.. says:
??a???ss.. says:ur a bad man
??a???ss.. says:lol?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:good
??a???ss.. says:=O
??a???ss.. says: i got a question for milk?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:what am i gonna have her there for? so she can look back?
??a???ss.. says:fiber helps take out fat and all that rite??
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:i don't talk to her?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:No, fiber only helps u to poop and built strong bones

«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:tell her to stop telling everyone about it, im sick of this and only want for her to forget me move on with her life, i don't care anymore period?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:because sometimes u just gotta things let go that's all

«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:no no no no no, fucking shit, people should stop getting into this, she needs to have more character, what the fuck, getting everyone involved, fucking imature
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:she needs to grow some balls if she wants to survive in life
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:cuz this is the beggining it gets tougher once ur older
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:once u leave ur house, u see u don't have a job, no parents there to help you, and your bills are chocking u
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:then u need to grow some balls

You bastard. Why cant you face me.
FACE ME YOU BASTARD.
Stop running away from me.
Your so a loser.
Your just gonna run away from it.
Your so heartless...
You dont need to delete me on your msn.
Why would you do that?
You want to forget me.
You want to erase me forever...
Please dont do that.
Please remember me...
Thats all I ever wanted from you.. BUT YOU JUST GOTTA DO THAT TO ME.
Your just a jerk off my head.

What did you said to me when i was drunk.
What were those. You liar.

JERK.

...

Im here.
Your just refuse to see.
You refuse to feel me.

Bleh. Went out with xh, py,ly and xy today.
I realise that, I dont got much to talk with them anymore...
I realise that, I talk more with friends on the net than real life friends and thats the truth.

I gets confident when im online cause im like the top in the game. But on the other hand, Im such a failure in the real world. I refuse to open up. I couldnt raise my head up. I cant find a place for me out there... GAH W/E.

And today in the foodcourt, I heard someone singing seven years by saosin. Then Im like EH?! SAOSIN! Hes like shocked looking at me, im like shocked looking at him. Were like thinking the same thoughts, thinking Eh? You know this song too huh.
Hahaha xD Cause in Singapore, songs from new, not famous bands is not heard here. And especially rock bands, not played in radios here in Singapore. So were shocked with each other that we knew the song.
I hope Singapore have more varieties of stations >_>

Jeez I dreamt of him again :/
I was in his room. And were drinking? I think.
Then I saw his msn. He msg "Anything for you :D" to another person...
Then I kept drinking more.
Then I forgot what happen lmao.
Then he walked away and I shouted, "I know your a player"
He looked at me saying "Im not focusing all on me anymore." And throw w/e thats on his hand on the table and turn away and walked off.
I was hurt and i begged him to come back. I saw him thru the gap of the door and he looked at me and shaked his head and his gone.

Wow bad dreams. I want something good please >_>

Mmm.. so heartless...

Woah I want that new sony digital cam O_______O

Wooterz hooterz!
I got that job :O!!!
But but but... Im afraid to work... ;-;...
Imma start in like one week time.

I hope I love the job alotttttt.
Dont quit half way again >_>

Daaamn.

I can sit all day at home with my playlist... <3

Me and songs for my companion...



We stood on the same land.
We look at the same sky.
But we couldnt be together..

I can sit all day at home with my playlist... <3

Mmm. Just came home..
I left him a msg. He.. didnt reply me...
Or didnt bother to read...
Im like fine. Thats like the only thing i can do..
As you said, you cant really do anything about it from there.
True story..
But at LEAST I did bother to try...
What hurts me the most is you didnt even bother to.
That tells me that, I dont matter to you at all.
Do I even cross your mind??
Please please please show me you still care.
You said you still loves me. Lots.
Please show it that I aint just dreaming.
Please show me that what you said is true.
From here I can do lots for you.
I can do everything to improve my life. :[
Tell me you want me back.
I... even smile happily to smile to myself when I thought of sending you an ipod nano with letters and pictures...
Cause I wanted something REAL for you..
Until now.. I still didnt dump that thinking away.
Now I realise, you dont feel me.
I aint that real to you.
Leave me a msg...

Ok. I dont wanna start this post with 'Just another hate site'.
Haha ok now what I just read concern any of the social sites. Like Friendster, Myspace, Facebook.

And Myspace have the most population than any of the social sites.
So... he just gotta flame it.

http://moneydick.com/wordpress/2006/04/23/science-of-myspace/

Ok.
How can you even called it a scientific research? Its just a bunch of opinions and searches and assumptions to indicate that myspace failed.

1- You see quotes like 'Im going to kill myself'. Have you even tested it? Do you even know if they ARE actually doing it?

2- Im rick james bitch. Haha this is funny. Ok yar I agree that jokes that have been going too long will gets irritating and even annoying. But I still hears it all the time.

3- Ok. This caught my attention. Because what really pissed me off is when people dont know how to spell. I dont know why but its like they either dont learn english or they are just a blob that couldnt even type well.

PeOpLe WhO tYpE LiKe ThIs ShOuLd GeT a LyfE.

n wads wost. ii c shoo many peoples spelling shiz liik thiis n i wonder iif they even speak liike tt in real lyfe. iit ish soo fuckn annoying. eu should go learn som learn engliish.

If you really speak like that in real life then your a complete retard.

And people who spams this "lol" aka laughing out loud which is totally pointless, cause if you have got nothing to say then just get your ass off. Probably due to the influence retardation on the net. I dont even understand why is people adding stuffs like "lol(s)" Is there such need for plural? No reason thing...

Sometimes it really gets on my nerve.
Some egs which I find really funny.
Theres one random pinoy who call out to Danny(Trepitation. Not Meth)
Pinoy: "ei"
Danny:"ei doesnt starts with a sentence."
Pinoy: "ei noh no kill me"
Danny:"In German ei means egg. What are you trying to impline. Are you calling me an egg?"
This is so fucking hilarious.
Theres another situation in which I was there.
Pinoy:"Warp me from dragons plz."
Me:"Warp you from dragons? Ok. Get to the dragons first then if you insist."
Hahaha funny shit.

4- 'Luv' Its funny how they love the person when they couldnt even tell them "I love you" Instead, "I luv you"

And its even funnier that Im actually crying over stuffs like this when I actually do it myself.

5- I hAtE mY pArEnTs CaUsE tHeY wOuLdNt AlLoW mE tO pAiNt My WaLlS bLaCk AnD sLeEp In A cOfFiN. (Total sacasism.)

6- Ads. Ok. I find this totally unnescesory. They need those to keep Myspace 'living'.

7- Checking out your friendster with all those 'Epileptic' shits is seriously gay.

And you dont really wanna get a date in myspace. Or if you do, you should really thank myspace for finding you an emo, stalker, perv, pedopiles, etc etc.

'Its funny how with all the problems the world faces, all the hate groups like the KKK, all the cults the world has, all the oppresive governments that rule the world, etc. We pick a fight with myspace.'

I agree..

"when will you do a research about Friendster? "

I couldnt be more excited to read it.

And whats with those "Send to 10 of your friends if not you will die of blah blah blah." Thats just simply annoying and gay. Only those fucktards believed it.
And plus, superstitious is due to lack of educations and knowledges.
"What ___ are you" Quizzes.
Yo, I dont need a quiz to judge me so stfu.

One of the examples from one of all retards who lack of immaturity.
"i luv da space yo! wurd 2 ya motha! fo sheezy off da skeezy! yallz just dun no about diz mayn! wez kewla den joo! yallz wak! myspizase fo life! gunit! wurd mayn joo best recignise!!!! im cool cuz i use da space and i get all mah hose der! im da kewlest person ever!"

Jeez >_>
You call that 13375p34k.(Leetspeak)

And hell.. That was the longest rant for myspace I've ever read. It was eye-opening for me.
I totally enjoyed it. It was hilarious and brilliant. He deserve my applause.

... ... Im rick james bitch.

I dreamt of johnny.. was like wtf.. How did he get in the picture.. And xy.
And couldnt remember well but there was Danny...

;(

And yea plus.. I drool in my sleep O_O
And everytime I wake up.. Im like fffffuuuck

Added :
And.. He fucked me and after that started abusing me in my dream.

I keep waking up in cold sweat and short of breathe.

Those dreams are in parts and parts cause I keep waking up...

Man wtf..
Im like ffffuuuuck.
I kept having you in my dreams everyday.
And its getting weirder and stronger each day.
Its so freaky sometimes.

I forget the other day's dreams but I remember this one so clearly.

Kz.. We were out. Kwang, Danny, me, xh, dad, peiyin, yingting, huini or some others that i forgot.
And then kwang and I were together so was like wtf... And I was talking all the time with Danny. And Danny is getting moodier each time. And I think he like some other girls. And Kwang.. I broke up with him and he couldnt stop haressing me. And my dad.. was helping him. And I even think that my dad was him. Then py, hn, xh, I went into some shopping mall. And py totally snob xh and me. So xh and I went into some sushi restaurant to eat. And I pity my dad cause I thought he was kwang then I snob him. So I let my dad come eat too.

Then suddenly, blah blah blah we were on a bus and it crash like a rollercoster. Then.... my... dad... was injured. T_____________T
I dont know what happen after that.
Then I pm Danny on msn. He was like im a cheater and a liar. Think before you want me. He said that to me. And hes getting freakier and moodier.

Wow... thats about it.
Weird dreams keeps coming...

Man I wish Haku could stop being like Michelle LOL Just giving an example :X
Hes like no I cant tell. Geebus. Just tell meh you mofo. Im like fine dont tell me, you damn liar. Then hes like fine... Then the next day hes like, hey... msges me when your back I got something to tell ya. Then Im like hey... sup. Then he went offline.
... >_> Annoying chubbyness. Rofl. Meh I dont care what he said to him. :/
Even IF I do care, so? Cause it will be only me who cares.

Will you evur look far into the distance and say my name...?

Last night I saw you online
Your screen name used to be mine...

I want you to know that, I miss you, I miss you so.


Now I just wish that, I still remains in your heart.
Dont you evur forget me.

Just look far to the horizon and say my name...

Well..
Sorry for dragging you into my misery.
Sorry that I aint real at all.
Sorry for all my rants of life.
Sorry that I just have to pour out all my misery on you.
Sorry you that you just couldnt figure that out earlier.
Sorry that im drunk.
Sorry that I couldnt manage my life well enough.
Sorry Im the only thing in your life that isnt perfect.
Sorry that I couldnt really be in your life.
Sorry that I gonna just drink my life away.
Sorry that you just didnt realise that this is just me.
Sorry that you didnt know that I aint that perfect.
Sorry that you just have to tell me those sweetest thing.
Sorry that I just couldnt help falling madly in love with you.
Sorry that I just couldnt be there.
Sorry that Im just a burden.
Sorry that ...
Sorry for all my cause.

Omg...
This sucks so bad... Danny just broke up with me... ;-;.......
He never know how miserable I am. You can literally hear me screaming and crying from my room.
O yes and Gin gin moore gin. I finished up that whole bottle of Gin by myself : ]
Im alll alone in my home. No ones gonna stop me now.
He he I was freaking drunk at 1.30pm. Thats so fucked up.
Those tears just wont leave my eyes. : [
Im lucky enough that the kitchen knife aint that sharp ;(
All it did was make a dent in my flesh :/
I tried to find anyone... Anyone at all...
Not on the net, not anywhere real.
Net life is fucked up. My real life is fucked up too.
I guess everything is screwed up for me.
Nothing evur works out just fine.
I thought this is magic finally. But he just have to crash it.
Man.. what can i say. And I was saying shit to him when I was drunk. O_O
Meh I couldnt remember but I read the chat log history. Zomg. I bet hes heart broken ;(
But Iono maybe he dont even care at all...

I puked all over my bed. Lmao thats screw up.
I felt so sick when i woke up. O I forgot I havent ate anything since i drink.
So so sick.

Jeez my daddy just bought another phone again. >_____>
One year change so many times but he just couldnt buy me one <_<

Hmm.
Thanks for taking every single hope from me.

Dont say forever if you dont mean it.

Meh im fine now.
Mom help me think thru.
Life isnt that bad after all.
I didnt realise i have become so pessimist.
One thing i fosho. I nearly suicide because of depression.
Second thing. Not only that, Danny made me miserable as well.

I dreamt of him twice today. The image was so clear.
I can feel him. >_<
I love him. That wont evur change.

All her friends ask why she can't sleep at night
All her family asking is she alright
All she wants to do is get rid of this hell
Well all she's got to do is stop kiddin herself
She can only fool herself for so long

I never know just why you run so far away far away from me

No please :[
Dont let it end just like that.
My heart wouldnt let you go.
I love you Danny ='[

Oh hell no. I got so wasted last night X_x
They said I was blabbering shit on the net.
Mmm Rig told me Danny told him that he thought I was avoiding him.
I was likw wtf. I thought hes avoiding me >_>
Aw crap. We seriously gotta talk.
Like talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk SECKS talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk LOL
Just like what Rig says. Lmao.

Well Iono. I nearly cried. But blah w/e.
I dont want it to end like that.

I hate how things ended like *snap*

Suddenly I feel so alone in the world.
Whyy? Why do I feel that way? Without him my world isnt perfect.
Omg pls talk to me. Please.

OMG IM SORRY JUST TALK TO ME ._.
I dont know why am I even saying sorry.
I didnt fucken do shit. WHY ARE YOU EVEN TREATING ME LIKE THAT.

Or maybe I think too much O_o.
Just make me feel real please.

Whats wrong? .___.
Whys the distant?
Talk to me, tell me.
I love you...

Meh after seeing how people worry about their future and shit. Im like What about me?!
Hah fucken pwnt. I have to worry like thousand more than you guys.
Like will I evur find a job >.> And that course, and plus I dont even have an o' level cert. Or even a n' level cert. Man.. What are you worrying about? Your future is stable, is fixed. Everything has been left prepared for you.

Or will I be stuck in k3ro forever. Am I even real? Or am I just a game char inside a game. Am I just living in my world the whole while.

I cant see anything. My dark future...

Only you can make me real again. Please dont make me wait too long. ;-;

But even how dark the road is, I believe that god will leave a lil path for you to move on.

Daddy: Call him back. He called yesterday while you were asleep.
*Looks* ;O

Hi Gay ass fggt :] How are you doing? Your looking for meh?

Har har >_>
Yar I called back. He wanted to confirm with me some stuffs. Or was it an excuse to hurt me again.
Lmao I was like, why should I miss you? >;(
Look, I hate you so why dont you stay off.

Wee I finally woke up O_O
I swear yesterday was my worst day evur Zomg X_x
I was so so sick with flu and the worst thing is I dont got much tissues left and im like controling the whole while.
And were tired of course. When we reach the train they were like fall asleep immediately. Roflmao.
It was funny tho. Everyone in the train were like wtf this girls so tired. Hahaha. But im like trying not to sneeze. >_>
When I finally reach home im like, TISSUUEE !
Then T_______________T Paaaapaaaaa Im siiicck ;-;
Lmao.

Hmm while I showered yesterday, I thought of sending him something. Iono but I hope to get a job quickly.

I slept soooo soundly ^__________^
And of course I dreamt of you ;D

RAWR~
This is the first of this one year I've evur exercise. Man my legs literally SHIVERED.
I swear it reealleh shivered.

Before that, as usual we went for supper at 515. Then after hearing pearlyne saying those stuffs, I felt utterly disgusted AT THE BOY UPSTAIRS. Ewwweeeeeuuuuuu. *shudders* Imma puke at his face.
All he deserve is just some cyber sex with a girl with huge belly sitting in front of the com, one hand holding an oily fried chicken another hand thinking of Lee jun quan and masturbating.
Cause he cant get any real sex in life. And I bet cha he wont evuuuur.
Ewwweeeeeeuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
Wut a fggt.

Aight and we went night cycling after wards.
Rofl and the funniest thing is, while were waiting for ly to push the bike up, I was sooooooo soo so tired till my legs trembled and and I wanted to get out of the bike but but but my legs were like totally dead, and I literally fall on my arse. LMAO. But really I cant even stand.

Meh. Went to the coffee shop, was chatting stuffs in the past then suddenly a topic is brought up. ROFL I wasss uberly excited. So we went to yt house. BUT IN THE END THEY SLEPT.
I was like forcing yt to wake up then she made MEH SCREAM >_> My voice is like errrr granny? Now==;;

DANNY ! WHEEEREE AARRREE JOOOO ?! Im like bored right now. >_>
Those two lil piggies are still sleeping T______T
And my annoying nose is still being cracky. >;(
So meh.

And yea I cant use for long now ;(
Mehhhhhhh IM BORED T___________T!!!
Haha rofl And they have to go to a farm later. LMAO farm ==;;
Its goonnna be sooo hot there lol.

I wanna get out of my house later.
O wells.. Laters ;3

I believe in this world theres someone out there waiting for me.
I believe in this world theres two person meant to be waiting for each other.

I often dream, that the feelings we once shared will never be forgotten.
Maybe one day, you will think of 'Trish' and smile to the distant.

I know someday I will meet a special person and know hes the one im waiting for.
And we may or may not know that we've already passed each other in common situation.

In our life, and prolly some other suprising situations.
Your the one im waiting for.

-Where I send my thoughts to far-off destinations
So they may have a chance of finding a place where they're far more suited then here-

Three Daniels.
One remains in the past.
One stays in the present.
The last one represents the future.

My only regrets is the present who would probably be in the future if the last one didnt came in.
Im sorry.

Sorry for everything and everyone.
This is all my cause for the pain.
I have all myself to blame.
I deserve this ending.
I see people leaving me.
Im hurt.
Im disappointed.
<3 Still.

Now I can say is -Yi wu suo you-

Kill me.

X_x
I woke up so late today that I couldnt have gone out >_>
Eff that.
Im so so so so bored. And I need moneh ._.

Pshh Im kinda pissed.
I dont have shit now and hes like totally snob us.
I was alll gonna say, 'Done with your eqs I see, done abit of sucking asses.'
And fine be like that. Im gonna come back someday. Fucken own joo. Your a newb without me.
Met with snydes yesterday. Missed how we used to have fun <3

Meth ^_^ I dreamt of joo.

Im all yours :)

*Sniffs*
Grr my nose is annoying >;(
Me me have flu for weeks ;(

Neways, just came back from yt's house. Before that I was still editing the blog and she called then I was like Alt-f4. Go showerrr weeee SUPPER TIMEH. Tho I wasnt really hungry but but I love to go out on a cold night <3

Those six girls just came back from shopping. I actually wanted to go with them earlier on but I dont wanna go any where far without my contacts. Rofls.

Then those girls wanted to play bball then I was like okok I'll just listens to my mp3 then ;3 Then its like late and the cops says were disturbing the neighbourhood. And I was like *Hides ciggies* ;O Then we went away sitting at the roadside LMAO. Then we walked to Tekong and continued playing. Then I continued listening ;3 But looking around I saw a flashlight thru the darkness and I looked clearly its those cops again ;O!!! Im like COPS !! Then were all like RUNN RUNNN !! ROFL !! It was fun ;3

Then all went home. Yt and I walked around the park. Sitted on those benches and reminising. Talking about stuffs. We were tired so we slowly walked towarsd Yt's house. And we heard cat crying. Its was so loud and eerie O_O And I was like kinda freaked out. But but but LOL YT GONE ALLL FREAKY AND SHE KEPT HOLDING MY ARMS LMAO LMAO LMAO !! Then I went to her house after that. We lied down in the darkness blabbering craps. LMAO was fucken hilarious. I was wondering why her Dad isnt disturbed by us ;3 And sheesh my flu came again. Then I wanted to go home.

I walked on the cold, long, dark and empty road. ;3 I wub the coldness and the emptyness <3 Listening to my lil mp3 while I stroll down the road. Its relaxing and Im just all thinking about Meth <3

Then behind me a cab asked me where I wanted to go and its late. Im like oh my house is just down there. Hes like insisting I take his ride. So o well fine. Well I know peoples of all sorts and I know what do I have to do. So yea as I expected we chatted for a while then I left and thanked him again.

^____^

Hmm I was wondering why Haku is asking me about Meth ==;;
He said someone asked him and wouldnt tell me who.
And people overheard me and Meth's convo. Im like wtf kaypo ;O!!!

Kz I think I will be waitin to reach home <3
Lates.

>_>..

Kz its like that. Yt pm me asking me if i wanna go have supper. Then I was thinking hmm fine I have to buy ciggies neways. Then I abandon everything I have to do :O. Quickly go shower cause I just woke up. Then I get ready everything. Then when I called her she then told me that they already order. Meaning : They aint waiting at all. Kz it means no one expect me to come at all. Why bother asking then ;O Then I have to change everything again >_>
Nar thats why I dont like going to nearby places. Cause It aint near to meh ;O Cause Its always like when I reach for 10mins everyone need to go. So I rather go town then 'chilling' around.
Gah w/e havta go 888 later.

The feelings seems so real ;D

*Sighs*
K3ro has became worst than I expected. Even tho I dont lag nemore but ... >.> Kz I admit I depend on gods. Well who dont if that person once played for a year with a huge supply of gods. But blah w/e. It aint mines neways.

I guess Riggy has found his new home too ^_^
Snydes is happily playing in the pk server.
David... Iono. He said once if I stop he would too. But I havent spoke to him since some unexpected turns of events.
Lili, Ross, Lucas and Danny plus peoples from trinity are all together with Thong, Steve, ZephyrX and the peoples from Holy. Thats actually what I wish to happen. But.. as I said, I didnt expect ZephyrX... >_>
Heh and koala is happily being GM on Snow's server.
And the Brs <3 Pk server too. Never forget any of juu.
Bruno : ) Nao espera me. Eu sairam do K3ro ^_^
Nico ^_^ Hope you dont got bored of Luna. Lmao.
Hsu havent talk to me since ;O!!
I guess this phenomenon stops here.

*Sighs*
Thank you all once again. : ) Im glad to have met any of joo.

Thank you for bringing me memories ;D Im still active in the forums ^_~
And I never regretted.

Daniel <3 Im still waiting ^_^
Im always waiting.
Either for you to wake up or even for you reaching home. And your arrival :]
I never stops waiting.

Daniel- then, i'll just snatch u from ur house cuz ur mine Lol put Daniel's property all over you ^_~

^________^ Muah!



Daniel-My Shining Star-I never stop thinking ~_^
and I wont stop working

Trish [[[ I never stop believing ^_~
And I wont stop waiting

Trish-I never stop believing. ^_~

Daniel-You never stop thinking. ~_^