Apparently, I dont know who the three of them are.
The song was playing when I looked at the guy in the middle. Hes so fine. But my mind wanders to someone else. Most of you prolly knows who. Yada yada the same one. The unexpressable feeling.
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Boy, your so fine.
Reason im so in love with this song, "Angel of mine - Monica" is because of this picture.
Apparently, I dont know who the three of them are.
The song was playing when I looked at the guy in the middle. Hes so fine. But my mind wanders to someone else. Most of you prolly knows who. Yada yada the same one. The unexpressable feeling.
Apparently, I dont know who the three of them are.
The song was playing when I looked at the guy in the middle. Hes so fine. But my mind wanders to someone else. Most of you prolly knows who. Yada yada the same one. The unexpressable feeling.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Obscure tingling of voices.
Looking at my friend's secondary school pictures.
Yes indeed it was the best time of their lives.
And when was mine?
I couldnt quite remember.
I had a vague memory of my youth.
It past.
The recollection could never be mend.
Yes indeed it was the best time of their lives.
And when was mine?
I couldnt quite remember.
I had a vague memory of my youth.
It past.
The recollection could never be mend.
Working with Xiao Hui is FUN can! Time passes so fast la!
BUT IM STILL MAD. Stupid ang moh, take picture with her but not ME!
I TALKED TO HIM FIRST OKAY! Hmhp. First thought that came, "Im not slim enough." ;[
Im tired.
Nights.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Disgusted.
No one is really sorry until they put the words, "Im sorry." into action.
Words are meaningless.
You said you love me but you dont know what love is.
So dont say you love me.
You should grow up and experience the world.
Your only chance to make it up to me,
yet you refused it cause your just narrow-minded.
And its the only simplest thing you could do.
Never seen anyone so ungrateful before.
Or should I say, unmanly and immature.
And all the attributes any girl wouldnt want in their guy.
You owe me too much boy.
You can never pay back in this life.
You owe me and him/her too much.
Your an unrepentant sin.
Have you no remorse?
And call yourself a christian.
When you go to heaven,
you'll see this innocent child calling you,
"Hi, Dad. Why dont you want me?"
Guess time had pass but your still the same.
Your my only regret.
For choosing you.
An ultimate disaster.
Words are meaningless.
You said you love me but you dont know what love is.
So dont say you love me.
You should grow up and experience the world.
Your only chance to make it up to me,
yet you refused it cause your just narrow-minded.
And its the only simplest thing you could do.
Never seen anyone so ungrateful before.
Or should I say, unmanly and immature.
And all the attributes any girl wouldnt want in their guy.
You owe me too much boy.
You can never pay back in this life.
You owe me and him/her too much.
Your an unrepentant sin.
Have you no remorse?
And call yourself a christian.
When you go to heaven,
you'll see this innocent child calling you,
"Hi, Dad. Why dont you want me?"
Guess time had pass but your still the same.
Your my only regret.
For choosing you.
An ultimate disaster.
Monday, July 16, 2007
Crispy life.
I dont know what to write about for these past few months.
Like I said, getting better from depression was the best.
During depression, you have no real problems, the only problem was yourself.
Now, I tasted the value of time.
O, how I had wasted them and let them past.
Let the pictures talk.
Like I said, getting better from depression was the best.
During depression, you have no real problems, the only problem was yourself.
Now, I tasted the value of time.
O, how I had wasted them and let them past.
Let the pictures talk.
| YOUR REPORT CARD: | |
| Category | Grade |
| Love | B |
| Friends and Family | A+ |
| Body | B |
| Mind | A+ |
| Finance / Career | B |
| Your Life's Average Grade: A | |
| 'What is your Life Grade?' at QuizGalaxy.com | |
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Blah.
Yesterday.
Drinking at YT's house. As usual, mahjong session, leaving me to drink.
Went out to smoke. YT and YJ joined. Their only motive was to get me drunk.
Went home at 4am.
Today.
Worked PM shift.
What a suprise. Ryan came to look for me when I was having my break. You came at the right time!
After break, Justin came to look for me. Sorry cant talk to you.
I find it so hard to be myself in the eyes of many.
What should my next moves be?
Why cant I stop thinking if im being weird? Aff.
Drinking at YT's house. As usual, mahjong session, leaving me to drink.
Went out to smoke. YT and YJ joined. Their only motive was to get me drunk.
Went home at 4am.
Today.
Worked PM shift.
What a suprise. Ryan came to look for me when I was having my break. You came at the right time!
After break, Justin came to look for me. Sorry cant talk to you.
I find it so hard to be myself in the eyes of many.
What should my next moves be?
Why cant I stop thinking if im being weird? Aff.
Friday, July 13, 2007
AKU MALAYU!
Wee! 11 girls in the house tonight!
Why is it I am always the one bringing the liqour. And NO, not because i am the only alcoholic. HAHA.
SAD gotta sacrifice my Chivas. *CRYS*
Whos gonna buy another bottle of Chivas for me? ;D
Lets get wasted!
English Oral. I dont think I did very well.
Made some friends at the Oral. LOL What a small world I must say. That girl, Mas at the Oral asked, "Are you Trish?"
Yes how did you know?!
"Ohh you know Siti? She called just now and tell me you are having Oral at Siling sec. She said that girl that look like Malay but is Chinese and with black black eyeliner."
HAHAHAHA
Mas had gone for the interview at GAP TOO! Cant wait to work with her!
Funny shit at the Oral.
Lazy to organize my mind.
Why is it I am always the one bringing the liqour. And NO, not because i am the only alcoholic. HAHA.
SAD gotta sacrifice my Chivas. *CRYS*
Whos gonna buy another bottle of Chivas for me? ;D
Lets get wasted!
English Oral. I dont think I did very well.
Made some friends at the Oral. LOL What a small world I must say. That girl, Mas at the Oral asked, "Are you Trish?"
Yes how did you know?!
"Ohh you know Siti? She called just now and tell me you are having Oral at Siling sec. She said that girl that look like Malay but is Chinese and with black black eyeliner."
HAHAHAHA
Mas had gone for the interview at GAP TOO! Cant wait to work with her!
Funny shit at the Oral.
Lazy to organize my mind.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Genius?
And thank you too.
I tell myself everyday to get rid of those irrevelant fears.
Social anxiety? No more baby.
After so much we've gone thru, Justin, your still my friend.
And you owe me a treat ;] NOT A FEAST THO!
I miss having a pretty meal.
I still wanna learn dancing.
Bye.
P.S Im addicted to Lloyd. Im addicted to Get it shawty.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Sunday, July 08, 2007
BABY PHOTOS!
I SAYS, "ROCK ON!"
P.S I know I look like a boy. I thought I was a boy too when I was young.
Saturday, July 07, 2007
7 July 2007
7/07/2007
Its my parent's annivesary. They celebrated it by eating Popiah and Rojak. Wtf?
I had YT kena fined 200$. Its a must to pay her back because its my responsibity.
I AM SORREH!
All of these taxes and fines are used for the "above-water-platform-thingy" for the NDP which I would never ever get to see or experience, for the gov's fun, joy and laughter, to make the poor civilians to pay. Hes fat ass have nothing to fret and bother about and just sit around here and there so he decided that it is fun to watch every pack of ciggie coming in and out.
Bought a dress from JB. Yingting says its a SM dress.
This week passes so fast. I ate and grew fat.
Oh ya, my uncle ordered two cakes online from Jack's place and delivered it to us.
Resisting temptations.
Night.
Its my parent's annivesary. They celebrated it by eating Popiah and Rojak. Wtf?
I had YT kena fined 200$. Its a must to pay her back because its my responsibity.
I AM SORREH!
All of these taxes and fines are used for the "above-water-platform-thingy" for the NDP which I would never ever get to see or experience, for the gov's fun, joy and laughter, to make the poor civilians to pay. Hes fat ass have nothing to fret and bother about and just sit around here and there so he decided that it is fun to watch every pack of ciggie coming in and out.
Bought a dress from JB. Yingting says its a SM dress.
This week passes so fast. I ate and grew fat.
Oh ya, my uncle ordered two cakes online from Jack's place and delivered it to us.
Resisting temptations.
Night.
Friday, July 06, 2007
4 hours love drive.
Errr fucking wow.
I spent 2 hours trying to sleep without music.
I spent another 4 hours trying to sleep with music.
I stared at the ceiling with opened eyes.
Another 1 hour with horror images in my head.
Fuck, *walks out of the room.*
In the 4 hours of music, I've learnt that,
Sony Erricson's stereo widening:
Bass - Softer
Drums - Softer
Vocals - Softer
Guitar - Stays the same.
The only good point is that stereo widening singles out the instrumental's individual. Just that the guitars and keyboards are more significant.
No thanks, no stereo widening for me thanks.
I still enjoy it once in a while tho.
If I would die, I would rather die of alcoholic intoxication.
If I would die, I dont wanna die suffering from dementia.
If I would die with dementia, I would rather die earlier without a full-blown serious dementia. I would rather die with my memories still intact than none at all.
Then It would be worth dying.
P.S LETS have fun with WHATEVER we do.
P.P.S Now i can positively say, I have changed. [Since my b-day.]
P.P.P.S And you know what? I think I am qualified to say this, "People need to stop being emo." HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.
P.P.P.P.S Everyone is making this big thing about TRANSFORMER. But no, I am not gonna watch it since everyone is gonna.
I spent 2 hours trying to sleep without music.
I spent another 4 hours trying to sleep with music.
I stared at the ceiling with opened eyes.
Another 1 hour with horror images in my head.
Fuck, *walks out of the room.*
In the 4 hours of music, I've learnt that,
Sony Erricson's stereo widening:
Bass - Softer
Drums - Softer
Vocals - Softer
Guitar - Stays the same.
The only good point is that stereo widening singles out the instrumental's individual. Just that the guitars and keyboards are more significant.
No thanks, no stereo widening for me thanks.
I still enjoy it once in a while tho.
If I would die, I would rather die of alcoholic intoxication.
If I would die, I dont wanna die suffering from dementia.
If I would die with dementia, I would rather die earlier without a full-blown serious dementia. I would rather die with my memories still intact than none at all.
Then It would be worth dying.
P.S LETS have fun with WHATEVER we do.
P.P.S Now i can positively say, I have changed. [Since my b-day.]
P.P.P.S And you know what? I think I am qualified to say this, "People need to stop being emo." HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.
P.P.P.P.S Everyone is making this big thing about TRANSFORMER. But no, I am not gonna watch it since everyone is gonna.
Thursday, July 05, 2007
My secret obsession.
Highlight of the day: I knocked my head and chest together at a "wall" while trying to run away from the cockroach. I know the group at the other table saw me making a joke of myself.
Indeed, my boobs have become smaller. I AM SO MISERABLE.
Look, look at my face. I secretly took a picture of myself.
Night.
P.S I am not a usable, portable and rechargable ITEM.
Indeed, my boobs have become smaller. I AM SO MISERABLE.
Look, look at my face. I secretly took a picture of myself.
Night.
P.S I am not a usable, portable and rechargable ITEM.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
For RYAN'S info.
Century egg, also known as preserved egg, hundred-year egg, thousand-year egg and thousand-year-old egg is a Chinese cuisine ingredient made by preserving duck, chicken or quail eggs in a mixture of clay, ash, salt, lime, and rice straw for several weeks to several months, depending on the method of processing.
Thanks to wikipedia.
LOL.
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Like I said, my writing literacy isnt proportional to my verbal literal proficiency.
IM IN TREPIDATION FOR MY ENGLISH ORAL! Which is in two weeks or less.
Have to brush up, HAVE TO!
My disorganized mind, my disorganized trains of thoughts like a untangled ball of yarn contributes to my speech becoming a slur of retarded bullshits.
IMPORTANT: Ciggie prices have gone up, AGAIN...................................
.................................................... DOESNT CONCERNS ME HAHA.
Wish resign - Circa survive
Night.
P.S Same lyrics for ya. All at once - the fray.
Thanks to wikipedia.
LOL.
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Like I said, my writing literacy isnt proportional to my verbal literal proficiency.
IM IN TREPIDATION FOR MY ENGLISH ORAL! Which is in two weeks or less.
Have to brush up, HAVE TO!
My disorganized mind, my disorganized trains of thoughts like a untangled ball of yarn contributes to my speech becoming a slur of retarded bullshits.
IMPORTANT: Ciggie prices have gone up, AGAIN...................................
.................................................... DOESNT CONCERNS ME HAHA.
Wish resign - Circa survive
Night.
P.S Same lyrics for ya. All at once - the fray.
The closure.
YAY FOR A JOB! Thanks to Xiao hui! Hope I can be working at GAP.
Dont worry I wont quit halfway de!
"In fasting, when there is an inadequate supply of glucose, the fats are oxidized to provide the energy for vital activities of the body."
I read that to my mom.
Mom: "I know. You think I dont know about BIO? I just dont want you to be so obsessive. The more knowledge you have, the more you tend to fall on the wrong path."
"We associate truth with convenience. With what most closely accords with self-interest and personal well-being or promises best to avoid awkward effort or unwelcome dislocation of life. We find highly acceptable what contributes most to self-esteem."
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Glad we talked, Lan. The final closure. There is finally a satisfying closure between us. I guess the only song that could describe the feeling is "Cool - Gwen Stefani" Always in my heart, Lan. ;]
Everytime I hear that chinese song by Tank, I think of him. I had always wanted a guy to sing for me and he is the only one who did, tho indirectly.
I had to remind myself. A player's a player fo life.
Nights.
P.S I am not asserting enough self-control this week.
Dont worry I wont quit halfway de!
"In fasting, when there is an inadequate supply of glucose, the fats are oxidized to provide the energy for vital activities of the body."
I read that to my mom.
Mom: "I know. You think I dont know about BIO? I just dont want you to be so obsessive. The more knowledge you have, the more you tend to fall on the wrong path."
"We associate truth with convenience. With what most closely accords with self-interest and personal well-being or promises best to avoid awkward effort or unwelcome dislocation of life. We find highly acceptable what contributes most to self-esteem."
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Glad we talked, Lan. The final closure. There is finally a satisfying closure between us. I guess the only song that could describe the feeling is "Cool - Gwen Stefani" Always in my heart, Lan. ;]
Everytime I hear that chinese song by Tank, I think of him. I had always wanted a guy to sing for me and he is the only one who did, tho indirectly.
I had to remind myself. A player's a player fo life.
Nights.
P.S I am not asserting enough self-control this week.
| Your Candy Heart Says "First Kiss" |
 You're a true romantic who brings an innocent hope to each new relationship. You see the good in every person you date, and you relish each step of falling in love. Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic dinner your sweetie cooks for you Your flirting style: friendly and sweet What turns you off: cynics who don't believe in romance Why you're hot: you always keep the romance alive |
ITS SO TRUE about the "You see the good in every person you date."
I dont really care about what rumours the person had.
Everyone deserves a chance.
Including all RACES. *Coughs*
Monday, July 02, 2007
Sunday, July 01, 2007
IKEA and GIANT with parents.
SORRY bad camera skills! =[
I know its rather outrageous but, im sorry! I never seen so many carrots before in my life!
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Grocery with Pa and Ma.
We was waiting at the junction to cross.
Three Ladies walking past behind us chattering about the news, "Then hor the... the volcano plah plah plah."
My Mom looked at me for a second, and burst out laughing. My Pa laughed and I laughed. This became the joke of our day.
And we forced Ma to climb the stairs with the groceries with us. Because she doesnt have the keys home HAHA.
Coming home - John Legend
Later.
Three Ladies walking past behind us chattering about the news, "Then hor the... the volcano plah plah plah."
My Mom looked at me for a second, and burst out laughing. My Pa laughed and I laughed. This became the joke of our day.
And we forced Ma to climb the stairs with the groceries with us. Because she doesnt have the keys home HAHA.
Coming home - John Legend
Later.
Shes wasted.
July 01.
A huge change in just one month. Im happy. Everyones happy.
Yesterday was a blast of madness.
Its funny how when I get to know someone, it always involves liquor.
I was just taking a break from YingTing's house, drinking and smoking alone at the stairway.
Two Indian guys walked past to the lift. Casual chat, they went down.
Then the guy came back and asked for my number and said, "Your the first Chinese girl I took a number from. Are you sure your Chinese? Mix?"
It might not be true that im the first Chinese girl, but it still a great compliment.
AND YES IM CHINESE! AND I DONT LOOK LIKE ONE WOOO HOOOO!
Im only elated when a non-chinese ask for my number ;]
Yingting's drunk. Im drunk.
I hate Bacardi GOLD+Baron.
Think I would prolly never touch Bacardi ever again. Chivas still fits me most.
Time to post YT's drunk pic. HAHA.
The narcissist. =]
Baiiee.
P.S Never see me again.
P.P.S What more can I ask from a pimp like him, with lack of sincerity?
P.P.P.S I got no real problems against homosexuals. Im fine with them.
A huge change in just one month. Im happy. Everyones happy.
Yesterday was a blast of madness.
Its funny how when I get to know someone, it always involves liquor.
I was just taking a break from YingTing's house, drinking and smoking alone at the stairway.
Two Indian guys walked past to the lift. Casual chat, they went down.
Then the guy came back and asked for my number and said, "Your the first Chinese girl I took a number from. Are you sure your Chinese? Mix?"
It might not be true that im the first Chinese girl, but it still a great compliment.
AND YES IM CHINESE! AND I DONT LOOK LIKE ONE WOOO HOOOO!
Im only elated when a non-chinese ask for my number ;]
Yingting's drunk. Im drunk.
I hate Bacardi GOLD+Baron.
Think I would prolly never touch Bacardi ever again. Chivas still fits me most.
Time to post YT's drunk pic. HAHA.
The narcissist. =]
Baiiee.
P.S Never see me again.
P.P.S What more can I ask from a pimp like him, with lack of sincerity?
P.P.P.S I got no real problems against homosexuals. Im fine with them.
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Friday, June 29, 2007
I WANT A JOB.
YINGTING! Tempted me for Fish and Co. And omg, the portion is so huge! The waiter is cute. I wanna work there =[! But its so embarassing to ask after dining there.
I used to be able to finish that kind of portion. ;] But now, wasting food means nothing to me only because its gonna be out as soon as I zoomed into the Ladies. Tho I felt most of it are out, IM STILL GONNA WORK IT OUT.
We shopped around AMK hub and I craved for the Milk Ice thing. But, the auntie said the delivery man is not here yet and they have no stock. She want me to leave my number and she will call when the stocks have arrived. I bought the Milk Ice soon after a while. She didnt noticed.
We were on the train already, the auntie texted me this.
"小姐﹐你的Milk Ice 來了"
And you all know, I suck at Chinese. YT WAS TRYING TO FOOL ME! She insisted that I typed the word "Auntie" in Chinese. I didnt know there is and she insisted there is.
And so, I was a fool. I typed,
"安提﹐ 我已經買了."
I think that women is gonna be effin MAD. SI YING TING!
Picture taken when YT is SHITTING.
This is the pic where YT scream in disgust and agony. Because I took pictures wherever I go. NYAH.
Shes trying to act retarded.
I like you, im attracted to you. Do you like me too?
Or are you just another fraud. Are you just another pimp?
My darkest hour - Scary kids scaring kids
Lates.
P.S Lets get wasted TONIGHT!
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Ocean avenue.
DOES ANYONE REMEMBER THIS SONG?!
IF I COULD FIND YOU NOW THINGS COULD GET BETTER
WE COULD LEAVE THIS TOWN AND RUN FOREVER
LET THE WAVES CRASH DOWN AND TAKE ME AWAY! <3
IF I COULD FIND YOU NOW THINGS COULD GET BETTER
WE COULD LEAVE THIS TOWN AND RUN FOREVER
LET THE WAVES CRASH DOWN AND TAKE ME AWAY! <3
| Your Ideal Relationship is Casual Dating |
 Maybe you're looking for love... But mostly you're looking for fun. You could get serious with the right person. For now, though, you're enjoying playing the field. |
| How You Are In Love |
 You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You tend to take more than give in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
| Your Love Life Secrets Are |
 Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships. It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. You have a hard time ending relationships, even if the other person says it's over. |
| You Are 68% Abnormal |
 You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul. You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at high risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is very likely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer. |
Err WH-WHAT? Your kidding me jees.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
PMS
My PMS includes,
.Mood-related symptoms: depression, anger, irritability
.Decreased concentration
.Insomnia
.Food cravings [I hate this one the most]
.Clumsiness
I dont have cramps. Is that a good thing?
I got a question girls, how long does the PMS last? After the menses is over?
Im sorry if im being too open in my blog. You know im damn straight.
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"Professional wrestling superstar Chris Benoit killed his wife and 7-year-old son before hanging himself from his weight machine."
.Mood-related symptoms: depression, anger, irritability
.Decreased concentration
.Insomnia
.Food cravings [I hate this one the most]
.Clumsiness
I dont have cramps. Is that a good thing?
I got a question girls, how long does the PMS last? After the menses is over?
Im sorry if im being too open in my blog. You know im damn straight.
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"Professional wrestling superstar Chris Benoit killed his wife and 7-year-old son before hanging himself from his weight machine."
From Np.
Im more dedicated to my notepad than the blog now. That leaves my blog with nothing to read.
I used the paint my nails dark red, now I paint it bright.
I hope it'd stay bright all the time.
It was there to remind myself every single day, what exactly am I working for and why am I working for. To prompt myself everyday to do what I set out to.
The route to sucess consists of consistency and persistency.
My individual attributes cancel both of them out. =/
Its rather appalling to have negative thoughts in my mind again. I was only happy for two weeks.
The weight control thing is really getting to my head.
How would you react when someone popped the big question, "Will you marry me?"
Would you please kiss me with your eyes closed?
If im just bad news, then your a liar. If you could slit my throat, with one last breathe I apologize for bleeding on your shirt.
I used the paint my nails dark red, now I paint it bright.
I hope it'd stay bright all the time.
It was there to remind myself every single day, what exactly am I working for and why am I working for. To prompt myself everyday to do what I set out to.
The route to sucess consists of consistency and persistency.
My individual attributes cancel both of them out. =/
Its rather appalling to have negative thoughts in my mind again. I was only happy for two weeks.
The weight control thing is really getting to my head.
How would you react when someone popped the big question, "Will you marry me?"
Would you please kiss me with your eyes closed?
If im just bad news, then your a liar. If you could slit my throat, with one last breathe I apologize for bleeding on your shirt.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Monday, June 25, 2007
Boobs.
There is really something I need to say.
Me: "Everyone love my boobs."
Xy: "Everyone love free stuffs."
We were eating at some Hong Kong resto. The manager himself, served us personally.
He took our order, and plain water there costs 40 cents each. He said, "Its okay, the water is on the house." After our dinner, he gave us a 10% discount on our bill.
I WONDER WHY. *Chuckles*
Fall away - The fray
Night.
P.S I dont wanna work tomorrow.
P.P.S GAWD DAMN! Im having constipation. EVACUATE EVACUATE.
Me: "Everyone love my boobs."
Xy: "Everyone love free stuffs."
We were eating at some Hong Kong resto. The manager himself, served us personally.
He took our order, and plain water there costs 40 cents each. He said, "Its okay, the water is on the house." After our dinner, he gave us a 10% discount on our bill.
I WONDER WHY. *Chuckles*
Fall away - The fray
Night.
P.S I dont wanna work tomorrow.
P.P.S GAWD DAMN! Im having constipation. EVACUATE EVACUATE.
Uncle Kenneth.
Yesterday was a sin. Today is the punishment. No food for today.
Yesterday night, Uncle Kenneth called. I told my mom to tell him that I have made improvements! I was really glad to let him know that.
Letter from Uncle Kenneth.
Hallo Ah mei, how are you? Hope you are coping well.
I heard you are starting your work on Monday. It is a very good start. You have improved compared to a month back. That is excellent progress!
Remember to hang on to your job. Your development points are leading yourself and improving your socila skills.
In 3 month's time, you should be taking your N levels. Pass it so that you can take your O levels. These set the foundation for you to take you CAT (Certfied Accounting Technician). The good school offering CAT is FTC Kaplan. Check out the weblink http://www.ftckaplan.com.sg/
I have given the same advice to your sister. You can study alongside with her when she takes her ACCA classes.
I am taking my CFA (Certfied Financial Analyst) exam in Dec. If you pass your N level this year, let me know. I will send you a box of chocolate.
Take care and best of luck.
Cheers.
Ken
The ground folds - Senses fail
Later.
P.S Im just enjoying whatever that comes my way now. I do not ask for more.
Yesterday night, Uncle Kenneth called. I told my mom to tell him that I have made improvements! I was really glad to let him know that.
Letter from Uncle Kenneth.
Hallo Ah mei, how are you? Hope you are coping well.
I heard you are starting your work on Monday. It is a very good start. You have improved compared to a month back. That is excellent progress!
Remember to hang on to your job. Your development points are leading yourself and improving your socila skills.
In 3 month's time, you should be taking your N levels. Pass it so that you can take your O levels. These set the foundation for you to take you CAT (Certfied Accounting Technician). The good school offering CAT is FTC Kaplan. Check out the weblink http://www.ftckaplan.com.sg/
I have given the same advice to your sister. You can study alongside with her when she takes her ACCA classes.
I am taking my CFA (Certfied Financial Analyst) exam in Dec. If you pass your N level this year, let me know. I will send you a box of chocolate.
Take care and best of luck.
Cheers.
Ken
The ground folds - Senses fail
Later.
P.S Im just enjoying whatever that comes my way now. I do not ask for more.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
That hoe.
What woke me up this morning.
Hokkien: "AH MEI AR! Le eh ka ching hor lang kgua eh ar?!"
English: "GIRL! Is your ass for show?!"
My mom laughed. My granny laughed.
To that, I woke up laughing.
Now why would my granny say that? I didnt bath yesterday after drinking and slept with my dress on. In the morning, the dress was up all the way to my face.
Its pretty obvious that im the one with the most dorky faces.
Are we legal yet? YES WE ARE!
Now what the hell was I doing?
I wished it was weeds.
The camwhores.
I TOLD YOU I NEED A TEETHWHITENING! Eff the smoking stains.
Cant see.
Cant see.
Cant see.
Hokkien: "AH MEI AR! Le eh ka ching hor lang kgua eh ar?!"
English: "GIRL! Is your ass for show?!"
My mom laughed. My granny laughed.
To that, I woke up laughing.
Now why would my granny say that? I didnt bath yesterday after drinking and slept with my dress on. In the morning, the dress was up all the way to my face.
Its pretty obvious that im the one with the most dorky faces.
Are we legal yet? YES WE ARE!
Now what the hell was I doing?
I wished it was weeds.
The camwhores.
I TOLD YOU I NEED A TEETHWHITENING! Eff the smoking stains.
Cant see.
Cant see.
Cant see.
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Yesterday was hell loads of fun!
So, the girls was left with Michelle, XH and me, apart from the XY's group.
A WHOLE LOTS of guys were added in. They were all XH's friends. I mean it was fun tho I dont know them. There were like 11 including us?
I was going from table to table! XY's table was so far away from us. Another reason, to get more Chivas from XY. HAHA. And I thought I drank alot.
And there were cute guys.
Michelle, me, Guy #2, cute guy #1 took the same cab home.
I was getting no comfort with the rocky ride. The spinning in my head was getting out of control.
Cute guy #1's arm were across me at the door. I hugged his arms. The spinning stops. LOL.
Cute guy #1 sent me home. YAY.
Bai.
P.S And now, I am thinking, why am I left with only two sticks of ciggie? WHO STOLE MY CIGGIE!
P.P.S SOMEONE STOLE MY "RICOLA" BOX. Ffff.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Me: I dreamt of bliging on food with chilli. I dreamt of people telling me fat in my dreams. I dreamt of a song and I kept humming it after I woke up. (Its the song on my blog now)
Mom: I means your subconsious is telling you your hungry. *Laughs*
*?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!*
Ya my mom laughed. She kept laughing.
Mom: I means your subconsious is telling you your hungry. *Laughs*
*?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!*
Ya my mom laughed. She kept laughing.
Getting better from depression was like that. Missing dimensions popped back up. Plain old normal days tasted crisp and delicious. And then there were the bittersweet replays, when I traveled through the previous months and years, and counted all I’d misheard, misfelt, and missed. Depression isn’t noble or interesting; it’s monotonous, self-absorbed misery that leaves little room for art or kindness or other people.
I’m back, I wanted to shout last spring, that hunched crone was a changeling, not me! I wanted to learn how to get better without running from the site of misery; how to return to people who hadn’t realized I’d been away. I would have liked some scars to point to, to explain my absence. It was shocking, in a way, this drug-borne proof that I’m an animal, washed with chemical tides, turning seasons, light, and food into moods. When you reduce my suffering to a curable disease; to symptoms, postures, and intonations, I’m no longer especially special. All those causes for my sadness fluttered down like snotty Kleenex.
It’s been more than a year since I got sick, and months since I got better. Every day I think of the scientists who mashed up rat brains to create the drugs that brought me back to life, and I’m grateful. And I wish more people could shuck that hollow shell.
I’m back, I wanted to shout last spring, that hunched crone was a changeling, not me! I wanted to learn how to get better without running from the site of misery; how to return to people who hadn’t realized I’d been away. I would have liked some scars to point to, to explain my absence. It was shocking, in a way, this drug-borne proof that I’m an animal, washed with chemical tides, turning seasons, light, and food into moods. When you reduce my suffering to a curable disease; to symptoms, postures, and intonations, I’m no longer especially special. All those causes for my sadness fluttered down like snotty Kleenex.
It’s been more than a year since I got sick, and months since I got better. Every day I think of the scientists who mashed up rat brains to create the drugs that brought me back to life, and I’m grateful. And I wish more people could shuck that hollow shell.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
The nasty transaction.
SHOPPING SPREE!
1 top from WAREHOUSE - $89.00
1 pair of heels from PRIMAVERA - $49.00
3 dresses from MANGO - $91.00
So happy! *Smile smile smile*
Okay, MANGO was fucking crowded. I bought two dresses with the same design but different colour. WHAT?! Booya. This is what I call impulsive buying. JUST BECAUSE the crowd is too huge. It gave me a feeling of "there is no time left". When I came out of MANGO, I heaved a huge sigh and said,"That was so much fun."
And yes, squeezing with a bunch of girlies, desperately trying to grab something, anything. Cause, ITS THE GREAT SINGAPORE SALES! GEES.
And I saw an awesome white dress from WAREHOUSE. I didnt get that tho I could have.
=[ its $112. After five hours, im still telling myself, "Get out of my mind, fucking white dress."
We drove to Geylang to have TimSum! Cant forget the prawn rolls thingy.
And theres nothing I could do but to let it stay in my stomach. Tomorrow I have to compensate my SINS! No food and jog my ass off. Self control girl.
Nyah my collections of heels.
Nights.
P.S WHITE DRESS! CRYS.
1 top from WAREHOUSE - $89.00
1 pair of heels from PRIMAVERA - $49.00
3 dresses from MANGO - $91.00
So happy! *Smile smile smile*
Okay, MANGO was fucking crowded. I bought two dresses with the same design but different colour. WHAT?! Booya. This is what I call impulsive buying. JUST BECAUSE the crowd is too huge. It gave me a feeling of "there is no time left". When I came out of MANGO, I heaved a huge sigh and said,"That was so much fun."
And yes, squeezing with a bunch of girlies, desperately trying to grab something, anything. Cause, ITS THE GREAT SINGAPORE SALES! GEES.
And I saw an awesome white dress from WAREHOUSE. I didnt get that tho I could have.
=[ its $112. After five hours, im still telling myself, "Get out of my mind, fucking white dress."
We drove to Geylang to have TimSum! Cant forget the prawn rolls thingy.
And theres nothing I could do but to let it stay in my stomach. Tomorrow I have to compensate my SINS! No food and jog my ass off. Self control girl.
Nyah my collections of heels.
Nights.
P.S WHITE DRESS! CRYS.
To the end?
Har har. I call it Karma.
The only place im escaping from, comes all the way back to me in the end.
Appointed examination centre: Si Ling Secondary School.
Eff. How scary is that.
The second place I have been avoiding all my life, still, returns to the beginning.
It really felt that my life evolves around Hougang. Eventually, I still make it there.
My mom told me, she had noticed the changes.
To that, im good. Im fine. Just the hear one person tell me that.
Assurance.
I can tell - Saosin
Morning.
P.S My piece of advise, Kwang. Seek professional help from a psychiatrist. I know your confused. This is my sincere piece of word.
The only place im escaping from, comes all the way back to me in the end.
Appointed examination centre: Si Ling Secondary School.
Eff. How scary is that.
The second place I have been avoiding all my life, still, returns to the beginning.
It really felt that my life evolves around Hougang. Eventually, I still make it there.
My mom told me, she had noticed the changes.
To that, im good. Im fine. Just the hear one person tell me that.
Assurance.
I can tell - Saosin
Morning.
P.S My piece of advise, Kwang. Seek professional help from a psychiatrist. I know your confused. This is my sincere piece of word.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
54.
I want to......... laugh, at how easy to the familiar ranting of "Oh i wanna lose weight but it wont go awaaayyyeeee!"
HAHAHA down to 54 in less than a WEEK. Im so proud proud proud of myself. Something to live for everyday.
Bought a $30 contacts. I AM SO MAD at myself for listening to the salesperson. Its not like im indecisive, its just because of her effort and so i bought it. Simple but FOOLISH. This is so maddening.
Today was a productive day. Thats all I can blog.
Rooftop - Lost prophets
Chaw.
P.S Everyone I come across, take me as a fucking ride.
P.P.S I still wanna laugh about how easy it is to lose weight. Go away flabs.
HAHAHA down to 54 in less than a WEEK. Im so proud proud proud of myself. Something to live for everyday.
Bought a $30 contacts. I AM SO MAD at myself for listening to the salesperson. Its not like im indecisive, its just because of her effort and so i bought it. Simple but FOOLISH. This is so maddening.
Today was a productive day. Thats all I can blog.
Rooftop - Lost prophets
Chaw.
P.S Everyone I come across, take me as a fucking ride.
P.P.S I still wanna laugh about how easy it is to lose weight. Go away flabs.
w880i
My sis just bought a W880i. Althought I didnt really like it but I still feel happy for her.
Just sitting here, sipping on Earl's grey tea, listening to my playlist, I feel somewhat satisfying. Its cool, lifes good.
And they call this tragedy - Alesana
Nights.
Just sitting here, sipping on Earl's grey tea, listening to my playlist, I feel somewhat satisfying. Its cool, lifes good.
And they call this tragedy - Alesana
Nights.
Monday, June 18, 2007
Bulimia
Its not like im doing this for anyone's sake. My insecurities are like a time bomb and I guess this time, I wanted to end it once and for all. I was so desperate.
And now, im am getting so into and so addicted to it, throwing the fact that it ruin my health away. Im beginning to fret, to feel guilty and uncomfortable of leaving just a little amount of food in my body, althought 90% of it are out.
-
I want to befriend my Dad's young malay friend. LOL. I think, it isnt the first time I saw him.
Sway - Lost prophets
Late.
And now, im am getting so into and so addicted to it, throwing the fact that it ruin my health away. Im beginning to fret, to feel guilty and uncomfortable of leaving just a little amount of food in my body, althought 90% of it are out.
-
I want to befriend my Dad's young malay friend. LOL. I think, it isnt the first time I saw him.
Sway - Lost prophets
Late.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Always - Bon Jovi
Sis: You know when I listened to this song Always - Bon Jovi in the morning on your phone just now, I looked at Lan's picture and felt sad for you. I almost even cry when listening them sing this verse, "Its been raining since you left me, now im drowning in the flood".
Me: Really? Wow. I once dedicated this song to him on my blog when I was still with J.
Sis: Does Lan knows?
Me: I dont think so... =/ Shit you just gotta make me think of him again.
Sis: But I dont like him. He made you sad.
Me: Well, but everytime when I thought of him, its the happy times that are there. I cant remember anything sad. I almost cant find any flaws on him.
Its just something I kept in my heart. I stored it well. I had stop reminiscing just because I am so familiar with it. Whenever, wherever, I will still smile by the tune of To be with you - Mr B.I.G. I hope your happy. I hope you would think of me sometimes and smile to the days. To the 500 witherless roses.
To the best man.
Miraculously, he came online after my sis and I finished our talks. The song of Always was playing. And no, we didnt talk.
-
Days like these, I appreciate.
Waking to my sis's ramblings about her bad dreams and talking to her while im half asleep and finally laughing so loudly and couldnt get back to sleep. Listening to the cadence of the birds singing. Be the first to wake up and have a hot tea, listening to those assuring music while waiting for the rest of the family, one by one yawning as they sat in the living room. Greeting each of them morning as they smile gratefully. Bidding my granny a cheerful goodbye as she went for her morning walks. Talks and laughters would start to blend in when my eyes glow with thankfulness.
This simple bliss I refused and failed to realise in my younger years.
20 hour drive - The red jumpsuit appratus
Baiiee.
P.S Would you have had asked me out for dinner if I didnt msg you? But im done with it. This will all goes away quickly.
P.P.S In this state that im in, without a proof of at least a cert of intellectual, I still think that im good enough for Poly. Well its sad. Its a pity for me to go to a waste. I guess ive met my criteria but not theirs.
Me: Really? Wow. I once dedicated this song to him on my blog when I was still with J.
Sis: Does Lan knows?
Me: I dont think so... =/ Shit you just gotta make me think of him again.
Sis: But I dont like him. He made you sad.
Me: Well, but everytime when I thought of him, its the happy times that are there. I cant remember anything sad. I almost cant find any flaws on him.
Its just something I kept in my heart. I stored it well. I had stop reminiscing just because I am so familiar with it. Whenever, wherever, I will still smile by the tune of To be with you - Mr B.I.G. I hope your happy. I hope you would think of me sometimes and smile to the days. To the 500 witherless roses.
To the best man.
Miraculously, he came online after my sis and I finished our talks. The song of Always was playing. And no, we didnt talk.
-
Days like these, I appreciate.
Waking to my sis's ramblings about her bad dreams and talking to her while im half asleep and finally laughing so loudly and couldnt get back to sleep. Listening to the cadence of the birds singing. Be the first to wake up and have a hot tea, listening to those assuring music while waiting for the rest of the family, one by one yawning as they sat in the living room. Greeting each of them morning as they smile gratefully. Bidding my granny a cheerful goodbye as she went for her morning walks. Talks and laughters would start to blend in when my eyes glow with thankfulness.
This simple bliss I refused and failed to realise in my younger years.
20 hour drive - The red jumpsuit appratus
Baiiee.
P.S Would you have had asked me out for dinner if I didnt msg you? But im done with it. This will all goes away quickly.
P.P.S In this state that im in, without a proof of at least a cert of intellectual, I still think that im good enough for Poly. Well its sad. Its a pity for me to go to a waste. I guess ive met my criteria but not theirs.
Drunk and single in NYC.
"Truth is, no matter how much I deny it or pretend otherwise, I am a woman. Biology programmed me to be obsessive compulsive about the men who sleep with me in my bed. It’s my instinct to find the most burly man to provide for me and my brood and to make him stick around and rear our children. Make him stop playing Johnny Appleseed, sharing himself with the rest of the species. "
-
"But life lesson:
If something requires too much effort, you're forcing it. Let it go and get something else because hands down, when its the right fit, the ease and comfort of the process will let you know.
The same lesson can be applied to relationships, job searches and even sex."
-From Shannon.
-
"But life lesson:
If something requires too much effort, you're forcing it. Let it go and get something else because hands down, when its the right fit, the ease and comfort of the process will let you know.
The same lesson can be applied to relationships, job searches and even sex."
-From Shannon.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Discussion.
Yesterday night.
XY called me at 9pm telling me to come down to Discussion at 10+. I was like shit, why so last minute. I reached at 10.30. Stood outside 7-11 waited for her for FREAKING 1 HOUR. Pissed off. BUT there was a group of MALAY skateboarders. OMG. D: One of them was called chris. They were so funny.
Finally. I saw the bartender when Im sober. STILL CUTE. I keep telling XY Shit I finally got him off my mind why did you bring me to look at him again. AHH. And we kept giggling about it. Bartender Meng was too busy didnt get to talk to him, only once or twice when he came to talk.
Something incredible. WE SAW AH YI BAO YU. I was like SHIT DOES HE RECOGNISE US?!?! He used to go HP very often. *AHEM* Its still funny.
The night I was so tipsy. I was okay until I decided to go over to the other table to play drinking games with that guy whom I and XY stole two packs of cig from when he was drunk few months ago ROFL. I kept losing, its fine. Call it karma.
Alphy didnt fetch me home. He was asleep. Omg the cab fare. -_- I need a job. Its not like last time when I had Darren to sent me home everytime I go Discussion without paying. HAHA.
Still it was a funny night. Especially when we saw Ah yi bao yu.
XY called me at 9pm telling me to come down to Discussion at 10+. I was like shit, why so last minute. I reached at 10.30. Stood outside 7-11 waited for her for FREAKING 1 HOUR. Pissed off. BUT there was a group of MALAY skateboarders. OMG. D: One of them was called chris. They were so funny.
Finally. I saw the bartender when Im sober. STILL CUTE. I keep telling XY Shit I finally got him off my mind why did you bring me to look at him again. AHH. And we kept giggling about it. Bartender Meng was too busy didnt get to talk to him, only once or twice when he came to talk.
Something incredible. WE SAW AH YI BAO YU. I was like SHIT DOES HE RECOGNISE US?!?! He used to go HP very often. *AHEM* Its still funny.
The night I was so tipsy. I was okay until I decided to go over to the other table to play drinking games with that guy whom I and XY stole two packs of cig from when he was drunk few months ago ROFL. I kept losing, its fine. Call it karma.
Alphy didnt fetch me home. He was asleep. Omg the cab fare. -_- I need a job. Its not like last time when I had Darren to sent me home everytime I go Discussion without paying. HAHA.
Still it was a funny night. Especially when we saw Ah yi bao yu.
Friday, June 15, 2007
Chivas.
Sorry girls I didnt make it to Sentosa. Well its kind of DEPRESSING looking at nutrients-deprived people. Okay I know im being cynical. BUT YA it is demoralising. But dont worry! There will be next time soon ;]
Saw Jia wei at Hougang. HE COULDNT RECOGNISED ME! Its nothing suprising either. I met a primary school friend who told me I kept changing all the time. I think its my hair LOL. I love doing obvious changes to my hair. From very long hair to SHORT to shoulder length to SHORT to very long and SHORT again. Seems like I love short hair more.
Tell me to get over my new hair, NO I WONT AND I CANT. Get over telling me to get over my hair. I look like a real chinese now.
Seth dragged me out of the house yesterday night. You know how expensive adult fares are now. -_-! I miss the 45cents days. Rys lost his wallet AGAIN. When was the last time I heard this familiar line. Two days ago? Jees.
Taking 161 at night felt like going way back to sec3. XY told me, "You yao xiang yi qian zhe yang ar?" And I laughed. It definately worth the laugh thinking back.
ALPHY didnt managed to bring a bottle of Chivas back for me but I got a bottle of Bacardi instead. Actually, its all good tho I would have prefer Chivas more. I WANTED A BOTTLE OF CHIVAS FOR MY 18TH BIRTHDAY OKAY. But its cool, its fine. I go where ever the liqour is.
Hopesfall - Icarus
Later.
P.S I just thought he seems such a nice guy thats all.
EDIT: LOL
MSN
Alphy: Bought Chivas for you liao.
HAHAHHAHAH THIS IS SOOO FUCKING FLY. Chivas and bacardi <3
BITCH WANNA GET WASTED WITH ME!
Saw Jia wei at Hougang. HE COULDNT RECOGNISED ME! Its nothing suprising either. I met a primary school friend who told me I kept changing all the time. I think its my hair LOL. I love doing obvious changes to my hair. From very long hair to SHORT to shoulder length to SHORT to very long and SHORT again. Seems like I love short hair more.
Tell me to get over my new hair, NO I WONT AND I CANT. Get over telling me to get over my hair. I look like a real chinese now.
Seth dragged me out of the house yesterday night. You know how expensive adult fares are now. -_-! I miss the 45cents days. Rys lost his wallet AGAIN. When was the last time I heard this familiar line. Two days ago? Jees.
Taking 161 at night felt like going way back to sec3. XY told me, "You yao xiang yi qian zhe yang ar?" And I laughed. It definately worth the laugh thinking back.
ALPHY didnt managed to bring a bottle of Chivas back for me but I got a bottle of Bacardi instead. Actually, its all good tho I would have prefer Chivas more. I WANTED A BOTTLE OF CHIVAS FOR MY 18TH BIRTHDAY OKAY. But its cool, its fine. I go where ever the liqour is.
Hopesfall - Icarus
Later.
P.S I just thought he seems such a nice guy thats all.
EDIT: LOL
MSN
Alphy: Bought Chivas for you liao.
HAHAHHAHAH THIS IS SOOO FUCKING FLY. Chivas and bacardi <3
BITCH WANNA GET WASTED WITH ME!
Thursday, June 14, 2007
IMEEM cut my song to a 30sec preview.
Can i just be something
Somewhere in your room
That you wont notice
Maybe ill be paper
Or books thrown on your floor
Move me when you want to
I'll live where you put me
In your VCR
If i become a cassette
Or on top of your computer
If thats where i would fit
Then so be it
I will not say one word
Ill just hang around
I wont annoy you at all
When you move out ill stay
Until im thrown away
But then it wont matter
-
Yesterday night, I had a blast. Me and my music. Its nights like these that make me wanna lose my mind and go crazy over music. Devouring every musical seemingly notes from every instruments which sounded ever so assuring in my ears. I looked out the window. Beyond the facade of the world, only music felt so true, so sincere.
Armor for sleep - Kind of perfect
Ciao.
P.S I be fine. I know you will make it through, I wont be around to see.
Somewhere in your room
That you wont notice
Maybe ill be paper
Or books thrown on your floor
Move me when you want to
I'll live where you put me
In your VCR
If i become a cassette
Or on top of your computer
If thats where i would fit
Then so be it
I will not say one word
Ill just hang around
I wont annoy you at all
When you move out ill stay
Until im thrown away
But then it wont matter
-
Yesterday night, I had a blast. Me and my music. Its nights like these that make me wanna lose my mind and go crazy over music. Devouring every musical seemingly notes from every instruments which sounded ever so assuring in my ears. I looked out the window. Beyond the facade of the world, only music felt so true, so sincere.
Armor for sleep - Kind of perfect
Ciao.
P.S I be fine. I know you will make it through, I wont be around to see.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Uncle kenneth.
From my dearest successful uncle.
Hallo Ah mei, how are you?
How are you coping? Work / studies? Any luck?
Dont push yourself too much okay. Go slowly. The going is tough but you will succeed if you cross your own hurdle/barrier. I think you are not strong in your social skills leading to poor self esteem, low confidence and depression. I would encourage you to be open and communicative with your parents and sister. This helps to clear your head.
Previously, I went for phycologist sessions to help me cope with my depression. Actually, the sessions didnt help much though the phycologist was great. It all depends on your willpower to overcome your weaknesses / development points and you shouldnt be ashame of your development points. Everyone has it.
I hope this email ensourages you along your tedious journey into adult life. Remember you have a great family to rely on. You are still a teenager and have a whole life ahead of you! You have not missed the boat yet, trust me.
Take care and anything email me. I will give you a call sometime soon.
Cheers.
Ken
Hallo Ah mei, how are you?
How are you coping? Work / studies? Any luck?
Dont push yourself too much okay. Go slowly. The going is tough but you will succeed if you cross your own hurdle/barrier. I think you are not strong in your social skills leading to poor self esteem, low confidence and depression. I would encourage you to be open and communicative with your parents and sister. This helps to clear your head.
Previously, I went for phycologist sessions to help me cope with my depression. Actually, the sessions didnt help much though the phycologist was great. It all depends on your willpower to overcome your weaknesses / development points and you shouldnt be ashame of your development points. Everyone has it.
I hope this email ensourages you along your tedious journey into adult life. Remember you have a great family to rely on. You are still a teenager and have a whole life ahead of you! You have not missed the boat yet, trust me.
Take care and anything email me. I will give you a call sometime soon.
Cheers.
Ken
Drunk and Single in NYC.
"However, genius and creativity go hand in hand with madness, and I find that my observations on human behavior become more acute as I look outward to satisfy that emptiness that comes from a sun-devoid depression."
-Derived from Shannon.
-Derived from Shannon.
Gift and curses.
Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.
Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?
She is the one, all that I wanted,
She is the one, and I will be haunted,
She is the one, this gift is my curse for now.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.
Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?
She is the one, all that I wanted,
She is the one, and I will be haunted,
She is the one, this gift is my curse for now.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
161
Something I thought of while staring at the greeneries.
"Entrap in a world filled with pairs of eyes of anguish that suffocate her, watching her every moves."
-Over self-consiousness.
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A good reason to stop wearing glasses nor contacts. To block out the "red eyes".
Honestly, I havent exactly know what the hell am I doing.
I wish there was an acoustic version of Smashed into pieces - Silverstein. It would turn out awesome.
My dad's going to Vietnam for a few months. I WILL MISS HIM! CRYS.
November rain - Guns N roses
Laters.
P.S I still wanna go to Discussion to look at the bartender when im still SOBER.
P.P.S If you think you are wrongly accused, speak it up to me.
"Entrap in a world filled with pairs of eyes of anguish that suffocate her, watching her every moves."
-Over self-consiousness.
-
A good reason to stop wearing glasses nor contacts. To block out the "red eyes".
Honestly, I havent exactly know what the hell am I doing.
I wish there was an acoustic version of Smashed into pieces - Silverstein. It would turn out awesome.
My dad's going to Vietnam for a few months. I WILL MISS HIM! CRYS.
November rain - Guns N roses
Laters.
P.S I still wanna go to Discussion to look at the bartender when im still SOBER.
P.P.S If you think you are wrongly accused, speak it up to me.
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Please respect.
Leeched from XH.
Simple personality test.
Only the bold ones are right at the moment.
Right-Right
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Loves challenges type
Straightfoward. Once they decided on one thing, will take action right
away. Very curious, and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without
thinking through (sometimes foolishly).
Their weakness is they dont
listen to others, will filter in only what whey want to hear in a
conversation, and very subjective. However, because of their
straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.
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I am boiling mad now.
Excuse me? You have no least RESPECT for me.
You and me, drinking alone in your house? And? For? To repeat the same mistakes again?
Makes me feel that I am so fucking right to leave you. Jerk off my face.
Not everything can use sex as a solution dumbass.
You dont respect me as a girl, your out of my life. Not even friends.
So effin yup, kaythxbai.
Simple personality test.
Only the bold ones are right at the moment.
Right-Right
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Loves challenges type
Straightfoward. Once they decided on one thing, will take action right
away. Very curious, and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without
thinking through (sometimes foolishly).
Their weakness is they dont
listen to others, will filter in only what whey want to hear in a
conversation, and very subjective. However, because of their
straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.
-
I am boiling mad now.
Excuse me? You have no least RESPECT for me.
You and me, drinking alone in your house? And? For? To repeat the same mistakes again?
Makes me feel that I am so fucking right to leave you. Jerk off my face.
Not everything can use sex as a solution dumbass.
You dont respect me as a girl, your out of my life. Not even friends.
So effin yup, kaythxbai.
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