And oh I love this song. I dont know why, I never seems to like it. IT JUST CAUGHT MY EARS like four days ago. And and I love this band from phillipines. Typecast. They sings in english tho ^_^ I LOVE THEM!

For those who like fast tracks ^^,
When flying feels like falling - From first to last

It's days like these, that make me feel,
like I want to bleed through my heart again.
It's days like these, that make me feel,
like I might as well be on my own again.
I take back everything I did, about loving you.
Now that you've left me on the ground,
I can fly away to someone new.
Don't pretend like I don't know you're untrue.
I never meant to bring you down,
nothing but good intentions.
I never meant to bring you down.
Take it back this time,
i'll just move on.
Take my heart,take my heart make it grey make it gray.
I'll never forget.

^_______^ He txted me at around 2 near 3 today. Before that I was so sad so worried and so thinking too much. I was soo happy he txt me. Then I found my pillow wet and I realise I was tearing of relief.

Hey, today is your day.
When fantasies, become reality.
And stop, just let it all go.
You're gonna feel somethings,
From head to toe.

And when the sun is rising up, I'll be there right beside you.

And I will kiss you forever
Lips of silence my favourite endeavour
Feel my arms wrapped around you
Falling into the oceans of virtue <3

OMFGWTFZORRRRRSSZZZZZDSFASFSZXZZZ FROSTBITE IS THE BEST MOVIE OF THE YEAR! MUST WATCH IT! MUST WATCH IT!! Seriously its the most scariest movie ive ever watch! I jumped a thousand times and screamed a thousand times thru out the movie. JEEEZ I CANT EVEN sleep at night and walk home alone ANYMORE CAUSE IT FREAK ME OUT JUST THINKING OF THE MOVIE ALONE. O GEEEE fffuct my $9.50.

LMFAO Can you sense the sarcastism in there?!? OMAGOSH i cant believe I watched that movie. Seriously LY thanks for bringing the five of us for that BEST movie evur LOL Can I smack you? LOL OMG MY $9.50!#!@$!@#@$# You owe me a movie now sadfsdfasdfasdfsdfssfadf.
And im broke =[ only effin 26$ in my bank LOL how poor is that =/
-
I love you so much.

Maybe im just being a lil too unreasonable to him?
Time to reflect girl, if you want this to last.
-
I still love this qoute.
"Oh, and I saw the many places, I once promised the world and a dozen roses."
I think it should be, "Oh, and I saw the many places, he once promised the world and a dozen roses."

Tho it sounds kinda emo, but I still love that qoute ;P

Still felt a lil disappointed I didnt get to drink today. Xy called me saying Darren invites me for drinking in Discussion and hes gonna send me home after that but I didnt go in the end cause Py gotta work tomorrow and I dont wanna go alone. Today is Spencer's bday and the day wasnt as bad as I thought it would (:
I went to Swensen's to return the uniform when they saw me they were like ";O!!" Lmfao I know i looked geeky at work. They were like the "is that Trish?!" expression. And they said theyd call me when they have my check. I doubt >_>; But nvm ((:
And we went to PS to meet spencer then we WALKED all the way to Suntec to eat in a Japanese resto and after that I was craving for Apple crumble ;]
LOL at Spencer! He was like "this girl is crazy!" The funny thing is, "Do you like Black forest cake?" LOLLL "Dont worry its not for you" ((:
And we go ON AND ON AND ON AND ON ABOUT THE CAKE HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.
After that they gave a suprise to Spencer and the present thingy, the wrapping and the wrapping and the wrapping which I believed. >_>;;
Then we all gave Spencer a kiss on his cheek at the Esplanade LOL. Michelle was soooo shy about it lmao xD
I walked home without ciggie zomg I didnt even realise I finished it. Well actually I rushed home to think that hes waiting for me. Okay nvm.
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NO MORE CAM WHORING FOR ME ;[
Damn LeeYun T________T Reminds me of my phone =/

I was thinking stuffies on my bed. Thinking bout Lan, peoples, shopping, money then clothings.
Then suddenly, this design just popped in my head. And its so stuck in my mind that I couldnt go to sleep so I just gotta get up and blog this and then try to sleep later on.

P.S Zips and Buttons.

Omg, I just love this qoute.
"Oh, and I once saw the many places, I once promised the world and a dozen roses."

EFFFF I wanna watch devil wears pradaaaaa! Damn ly T_T I swear frostbite suckzorrs. So watch that ^.~
Anyways, I just sold one of my jacket I didnt wore before to my sis LOL Cause I saw a better one =[
Gonna go straight to buy it tom! Or w.e =D

P.S You aint sensitive enough.

Remember the song This is my DJ?
SerangoonYurenThehotelBilliardGettingdrunkHPAmk

Yesterday went shopping with them. Quite fun tho I spend money again. zzzzzzzz. AND MY effin piece of cloth! I wanted to buy that but I couldnt make up my mind and I asked them they gave me useless comments LOL Like the "piece of cloth" So I txt Lan LMAO He chose D =[
And I regretted buying that jacket cause I saw a better one >_>
I rather dont see than regretting. zzz.
Then Bala kept txting me tho Ive already quitted. This guy gives me the CREEPS.
Seriously man, my goosebumps stand. Hes like, ive been thinking of you "dear". OMG HE DONT HAVE TO ADD THAT IN.
And my sis kept disturbing me about him LOL shes like. "Bala misses Trish~" and go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on ABOUT IT.
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The guy at the guitar show~
Our eyes never left ^_^
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I love you Lan LOL "You missed that again"

"Oh, I once saw many places, I promised the world and a dozen roses."

The only thing in my life thats been stable all this while. =)
Have never been so sure ^_^ All I need to do is to love you. And love you.
And love you..

Emily-From first to last

Smiles and Her laughter.
It's the only thing that I've been waiting for
A time,
Regardless of our distance,
And our Hope
'Cause we're Trapped by pretty eyes and letters for a time.
The only thing that I've been waiting for.

I hope it's something worth the waiting
'Cause it's the only time that I ever feel Real
Thunder Storms could never stop me.
'Cause there's no one in the world like Emily

She's Simple yet Confusing.
Her Sparkling Eyes make me
Weak at my words,
They tremble.
Days seem like years in this month of December.
The winter,
Coldens me for I have yet to Sleep.
And Never will I give up trying,
'Cause you're everything to me.

I hope it's something
Worth the Waiting.
It’s the only time that I ever Feel Real.
'Cause Thunder Storms could never stop me.
'Cause there's no one in the world like Emily.

There's no one in the world like Emily.

No money =[
I wonder if I could really make money with that or is he just lying again.
The blocks I called seems called before.
He even promised me, if I got nine leads by four months he give me an air tix to Hong Kong. Like wtf lmfao.

Buuuuuuuuuuu I wanna be with him ;[
I love my clown ^_^

Everything bad seems to happen at once.

Fuck those who I thought were friends.
It became my fault your soo inlove wit me.

Fuck Zhao man. He came back and took away everything from me. Prolly heard some fag saying im a bitch. Yo man w.e it is, if you wanna think that way fine. But I didnt talk to you all these months because of gods. And all this while you are the first one who always PMs me first. And I thought were friends so after that wipe I just asked you for gods and you just gave me. Like wtf now, your soooo obsess with me and once I didnt talk to you. You thought that your being used for gods. LIKE WTF MAN. Man stfu, I dont want your gods anymore.

I wish I wish I wish. I wish I was someone else. But I learnt from someone random that trying to be someone else your not is a hella waste of the person you are.

Mmm prolly gonna stay up again. XD
Reached home hes already asleep =[

About that stuffies. "EHHH"
The sky gives off another shade of blue.

Michelle, okay and Im sorry too. Im sure you would get all pissed if theres people who always trying to make you look bad and picking on you all the time.

And plus I didnt really wanna invovle her until you stated my sub-conscious fear.
So w.e it is, just let it be.

Time is only temporary.

Turd to even understand the sacarstism of each sentence.

Peace [ peess ]
Definition:
1. freedom from war: freedom from war, or the time when a war or conflict endsthe signing of the peace agreement
2. tranquillity: a calm and quiet state, free from disturbances or noise
3. mental calm: a state of mental calm and serenity, with no anxiety
4. harmony: freedom from conflict or disagreement among people or groups of people
5. peace treaty: a treaty agreeing to an end of hostilities between two warring parties
6. law and order: the absence of violence or other disturbances within a statePeace reigned throughout the land.
.. retarded dumbass.

Illusion? LMAOOOO OH YES IM HIGH ON DRUGS WHAT CHU GONNA DO. Jeez thats like finding the OBVIOUS.

OOO so why wont you go start doing "great" things now and stop BUTTING IN peoples shit.
Your whole shit load of paragraph that I didnt bother to read, I can simply say Insecure MENTALLY.

"If feeling happy is all abt having illusions that im even plain bothered abt u, haha! Den pls by all means go n think n be happy and imagine lah. A person without anything, needs imagination and cursing to be happy and to finally find peace with herself."
LMAOO A person without anything? How can you be so sure.Well its my turn to ask, HOW CAN YOU DEFINE A PERSON WITHOUT ANYTHING? Like when your 80? No family no friends, kids busy with their own family, your all alone with your shit load of money. "WOW IM HAPPY"

And now now now, doctor please give me a prescription for illusion =[
And too bad someone's too ashame.

ROOOOOFL LOOK AT THE MIRROR?!?! WHY DONT YOU LOOK IT YOURSELF! LMAOOOO THIS SHIT IS HILAAAAAAARIOUS HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAH AHHHHHHHHH HAHAHAHAHAHHA JEEEEZ I CANT STOP LAUGHING. THAT BISH IS ASKING ME TO LOOK AT THE MIRROR HAHAHAHA LOOK AT THE MIRROR YOUR FACE. LMFAO.

And I dont give respect to those who I dont think they DESERVE TO have any respect for the least.

"Saying stuffs which u didnt even sae? Oh damn hell. Pls use the slightest common sense in u if u stil hav any, to think lah, u did sae! Wad makes mi so damn sure? Cos i believe in myself more den i ever believe in u haha!"
YUP and if thats what makes you happy. Common sense? I dont need any common sense for those who seems retarded.

So how did it felt being looked as a loser by "the loser"? At least I dont do anything for a dolla. *coughsbitchcoughs* Got busted in the end LMAO. DAMN STRAIGHT.

Oh please. God jeez. I told her CAN I RETURN HER ONLY 100$? And whats wrong with cutting price? DONT YOU DO IT ALLLLLLLLL THE TIME ROOOOOFL AND I MEANT ALLLL THE TIME. Calculate interest? SHE FRIGGIN told me herself that I can pay her when I got my pay. Now complaining bout it? Stfu. And I got it at the 1st of the month NOT 31th.

Seriously, people like her gotta jerk off or something. Go start some epileptic shit to keep yourself feeling good. And then seriously gone emo and the other second saying how she love herself. Go get your guidence from your bitch.
At least I stand on my own and gone thru shits.
My all time quote. People turn to god when they are helpess.

Oh noes! She hates me! OH NOES SHE HATES ME! OMGWTFZORBBQASFASFASDFZORS SHE HAAAATES ME! LMAO Weeeeeee? Like wtf I dont even care if she likes me or not. I dont even care if she ever consider me as a friend cause I know I dont. Back then, yes. Now NUH UH! I gotta say, she wont ever get peace in her heart if she continues like this. But in the other end, I feel happy cause I know someone out there is feeling insecure with me around. Thanks for looking high upon me. And o man wtf douche, stop saying stuffs I didnt say about you. That makes yourself looked gay. And stop trying to make me look bad before figuring out the fact, if not you can just try hard.
I always thought your a person with a full 100% self confidence now i see you as a loser. A friggin insecure emo crap. And o pls, stop being gay pls say it to my face if you got a problem with me or something.
I can simply say I dont care if you ever accept me. Your face.

C'mon dont leave me hanging

Waiting for life to pass me by

Pissed off by stupid gay shit around me.

First off woke up in the morning, called the effin resto to tell them im quitting. Then she started dissing me by saying that she will deduct my 150$ for uniform and my half month's OT cause i didnt give any notice. Yo fuck you, first off i aint a confirm staffs you cant just deduct my uniform money. Second off, I aint a confirm staff, a one day notice is enough.

Then went shopping with my sis and the whole iffy day, he didnt msg me until 8-9pm. O wow dont tell me you slept til 8pm. Or having too much fun forgetting about me. No point.

Reached home. Xh msged me asking if I got my pay already and I SAID, "Yup I tom meeting py you come along or something." Then py called me asking if I got my pay yet. Saying can you return xh the money? Oooo WTF?! If you want your money you could just ask it yourself and not try some lame methods to get your money back. So gay. Like I was to run away with your stuffs. And o god like I already told you I got my pay and ask you to come along or something tomorrow. And iono wtf shes doing trying to act hero. In the end heard wrongly or something. Stupid gay shit.

Went on, stupid gay connections kept dc'ing on me. Fuck.
And I only left with 100+$. Screw swensens.

Anyways, happee belated birthday Lan tho I even forgot. All the while I thought it was on Friday but it was Thursday. "Go enjoy and forget me" Jeez im really turning emo sitting here.

Maybe I should just go work. Sitting here makes me emo.
Lack of motivation to go on working =[

Im just a teenage girl without hopes and motivation x_x

I felt... deprive of.. life O_o
Fact is Im losing hope and motivation again.

Decisions to be made.

I called in sick for work today cause..... I got migrane, cough, flu. Excuses?! WEEE be chillen with my sisters later =D LOL
I be quitting that job by the end of this month i guess. Alphy msg me yesterday and want me back to work for him. Iono if I should.. I txt him and ask the details again. Cause it sucks if its on comission based. Iono when the hell would I get the money. Like the last time, tho I only went for two days I got 400$ but I took two months to get that money. But still... Iono.

P.S I love Lan.

And wtf some ass fag gave out my number to Bala. FFFFFUCK.

Sometimes I feel like quitting my job and start ROing full time again. Working takes up too much of my time. I cant even find time for myself.
But thinking of the end of the year keeps me moving again. I dont know if this distance thingy would work out but, im gonna keep trying even if it takes years. And I know that it will definately takes years. Cause Imma go back to school.... I think. >.>
W.e I hate to think much.

You see, I dont really look at babies and smile to myself like what most of them do. But this time I caught myself smiling when I saw this lil girl around the age of 3-6 with her daddy. I wasnt smiling because of how cute she was I was smiling cause her daddy and her are so cute together. Her daddy was soo sweet to his lil girl and so caring. They were so close. He really love his lil girl I could see it. I was so touched by just that customer. I caught myself thinking about him the whole day at work. Guys are charming when they are taking care of their kid =)

Eep havent posted for a long time, truth is I got myself back into the game. When I told Nurul bout this shes like, i swear im gonna bring a hammer to your house, dont skip working and say u wanna play games. Then shes like hey wanna eat after work? im like naw i wanna go home and play game LOL shes like dont give me stupid reason imma slap you.

Anyways, was listening to Rooftops-Lostprophets and I was standing at the stairway at the parapet wall looking at the sky before i went home. Cause it was so windy <3
And I havent be with myself for a long time.
Thought of Danny for a while.

Anyways gonna poop. Laters.
One week to payday o_o

A moment of torture.

OMG ANDREWWWW!

"I missed you"

"WHAT?! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS HAHAHAHHA *SCREEN* YOU MISS WHO?"

I miss you toooo! Omfg you finally came on.

I will take another day as another step in my life.
My everyday's goal : Reach early for work.

A good start ^_^ Im actually feeling happy for myself for the first time.

Sometimes i think that the real reason i dont quit mai job is b.c i dont want them or mai parents to think that im that lil kid they use to know anymore. I dont want them to think that im just a screwed up teenager struggling to get some money thats all. Like I cant even withstand tireness and hardship. I wanna show them that I can. This is nothing at all, I still got a long way to go. And I wont give up until i die. A shit long way to go. If i cant even take this, how can I go on the rest of mai life =]
Thanks for giving me a reason to work.

I dont wanna be that screwed up teenager struggling anymore. Dont wanna be that fuct up kid playing around anymore. Dont wanna look back, getting drunk every night. [Before RO]
But sometimes I still wish to stay there, chilling everyday, hanging out at hp everyday ><
It was soooo chillaxing. But dont look back ;D

Hummm I suddenly feel strong wtf LOL
Goal of the year : Learn to love myself.

^_^ Today im happy. I will emphasize on it later =)

Work today was kinda boring but mmm relaxing for meh. I worked 11-7. And around 11+ I saw py and michelle passing by outside the resto im like wtf they didnt saw me? Then I was about to walk towards the entrance then I saw py walked backwards and looked in LOL.
And then blah blah blah.
Then at break time Mam Salli asked me if im Single im like yarrr? Im single and not looking. Then Nurul looked at me like I told a lie, well i did LOL But at my work place only Nurul knows about me and Lan. And I dont like to give out too much info about myself to others ==l
Then after that I heard Mam salli saying to Sir manjeet "Have you heard about the incident about two guys over one girl?" Im like jeez wtf o.o *bends head lower and continue eating*
Then break time I heard Mam salli saying to Mam Salome "... ... ... blah blah blah B and S." Im like shit wtf BALA?! heck no?! Then I was wondering whos the S. I was thinking of Sateya >_>
I rather it be Shalehan cause it be like WTF TWO INDIAN GUYS OVER ME ==;
What? Do I look indian or something?!
Then nearly the end of work, xh and my ex classmates came by to see me ;D! And I told mam salome that I aint looking for a bf and I aint interested at all. Cause she ask me to put on more make up cause i might find a bf here >_>
So annoying.

AND I reached home and OLA! HES LETTTER =DDDDDDDDD
I was soooo excited LOL but my sis seems more excited than me >_>
Cause im like, i open it after I finish smoking. Shes like keep on smiling there, wondering whats inside and keep looking at the envelope LOL. So kaypo ;P
Hehe I cried after reading it ;D I was sooo touched ^_^
Weee im "engaged" now LMAO hahahhahahahha ;P

P.S nice signature =D
P.P.S LOL cute handwriting like kiddy HAHAHAHHA

i suddenly feel lonely...

P.S k3ro is up o.o

I feel that if I wont msg him, he wont msg me in years. >_>
I wonder if I wont come online for weeks, he prolly forget me.

P.S this gives him a reason to msg -_-!

Rarely see him now =/

LOL the auntie ask me if I have a bf and I told her yup. ;(
Working's so boring recently. And stop that laughing and smiling >_>
Fucking immature. I already said I dont like him so stfu.

I miss him =/
Wondering where is he now, what is he doing right now.

Omagosh I was on my way home and i indeed saw the most grossssssiest thing of my life. Two cockroach are mating o_o Im like omfg one is enough, IMAGINE THEIR BABIEEESSS. Im like should I kick them? LOL
Work is effin boring today. ITS SUNDAY and the time passes so slowly. Swensens is so quiet today.
LOL damn sateya and bala -_-
I AM NOT INTERESTED. How many times do I have to say that >_>

"All of a sudden, pinoys are all coming over you."
HAHHAHAHAH funny shit.
I didnt realise until you say that.

Funny shit today, I forgot to zip my pants today LMAO
SO FUCKING EMBARAASING. I was in the bus then this MAN told me i didnt zip my pants. >_>
So boring working today. That newbie lost her bag after work LOL but i didnt see whether she found it or not.

OMFGWTFZORS
I slept yesterday at 4am and woke up at 8 am and i couldnt sleep anymore.
Then I went to work, IT WAS SOOO FRIGGIN TIRING. I was like spaced out half the time.
I was so tired. I done everything so slowly =/
Totally no energy to work. And I heard Sir saying "Not enough people today five peoples got MC, imma extend some." Im like shiit *prays not me*
Then after that Maam Salome told me, Today you work until 11 okay. Im like O.......k.
WTF 12pm-11pm WHEN I ONLY GOT SO LITTLE SLEEP.
And the funny thing is that at the end of the day, I quarrel with tha bish. LMAO. Bring it on bish. What you gotta say now.

P.S I like the way you touches me when you talk.
-Trys to feed me with baked rice ^_^
Btw I swear imma die of exhaustion if I dont sleep now.
-Still not thinking about it.

I've got my things, I'm good to go
You met me at the terminal
Just one more plane ride and it's done

We stood like statues at the gate
Vacation's come and gone too late
There's so much sun where I'm from
I had to give it away, had to give you away

And we spent four days on an
Island at your family's old hotel
Sometimes perfection can be
It can be perfect hell, perfect...

Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised
And don't fly fast.
Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last?
This plane is all I got
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised

I love the song Stars-Callalily ;D!
Funny thing is I even dreamt of that song and I caught myself humming it when I woke up.
Gotta work at 12 later and I only slept for three hours >_<
Imma go get a sim card replacement soon >.>

P.S-All old peoples are cute ;D
My granny is vegeterian and when we ordered a pizza, shes so excited to LOOK at us eating that LOL tho she couldnt eat it. She kept smiling when she look at us eat. So cute <3
Im gonna bring my mom and granny out some day =]
Poor mom =/

Sometimes words are just sweet lil lies.
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Admit it, you got bored with me.
-
Wondering, why do I work so hard for?
Is it worth it? Do he even care.

A friend's betray is more hurting than losing one's love.

Cause your busy talking to her =]
Dont have to lie about it.

ZOMG, I just listens to all my old songs including technos o_o
*thinks back ;(*

I know when something is wrong.
I will not forgive anyone who lets me down. If..., its over.
Cant believe its a friend.

-I will still love you but I wont forgive you.

Here's what I know. There are some lines too dangerous to cross. But there are others…if you're willing to throw caution to the wind and take a chance, the view from the other side is spectacular.

Intimacy is a four syllable word for "Here are my heart and soul - please grind them into hamburger and enjoy.

Im stuck on Grey's Anatomy.

Weeeee new hair for myself

I dont wanna let fear ruin my life.
I dont wanna give up before I die.

I love the show Grey's Anatomy.

Breath - Anna nalick
2 Am and she calls me cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don't love him and winter just wasn't my season.
Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason.

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button girl
So just cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for while
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him but maybe I'll just sing about it

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button boys so cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breath just breathe

There's a light at the end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around

2Am and I'm still awake writing this song
If i get it all down on paper it's no lonmger inside of me threaten' the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.

But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand...yeah breath
Just breathe, ohho breathe,

I still cant believe this is happening to our family.
How he be so irresponsible. What about us? You dont want your family anymore?
How can he be thinking of abandoning us in Singapore. My mom only take back 800$ everymonth. The household needs 1000+ already. My dad's cpf can only last for three more months then we have to pay on cash. Another 600+. How can my mother afford those. How can he be so irresponsible. If you wanna work for your brothers in Malaysia. How much are they gonna pay you? You didnt even ask them. You just let them take advantage of you. Your so selfish. When your working there, they treat you good, give you good meals. HOW ABOUT US HERE. I come home everyday from work without FOOD ON THE TABLE. Your there enjoying. Take home 500$ only? like what they used to pay you when I was only in Nursery. Stop working for them man. Go find a proper job. Your so so so selfish. I cant believe it. I still cant believe this is happening to our family. From young I used to think that we are a happy family. Why are we falling apart. How can you let my mom down. How can you leave all the burden to her. Im still 17. Im ONLY 17.

Err wipe again. I bet Ivan not gonna give me his gods at all since I piss him off the last time on msn LOL. But w.e dont wanna play nemore.

.... forget it, maybe its not meant to.

The days will pass me by

Omfg o_o Sateya told me Bala is courting me. Im like WTF heck no?
Then Sateya thinks i hate him. LOL Cause i really dont understand what hes talking about and he thinks im ignoring him. Then Im like, w.e I cant understand your indian accent.

Boring boring boring ;((
I love Lan muchies.

LOL yay! xh selling her mp3 to me ;D so happy. Omfg with my spendings I cant save up >_>
I need more songs ><
And I hope my cell would come back to me SOMEHOW LMAO >_>
so i dont have to buy it again, I still wanna buy some other stuffs ;(
Or maybe i should just stop my spendings -_-

Working seems so meaningless now. Didnt seem like earning anything at all.
Thought i could start saving from next month already. Fuck still gotta buy another phone. Its like im working for nothing the past one month. I work to buy phone for others. Funny.. >_>

Im sitting all day wishing i could squeeze something. Seriously I wanna vent my anger but i dunno how. Omfg its a friggin 468$ for that styz cell. My heart hurts soooo much. I WORK SO HARD DAMNIT. For nothing.
Mentally crashing right now.

I was crying all night yesterday, hitting my fist, screaming, cursing at whoever that took it. Cause that phone lastly ONLY less than two weeks. And its the fourth time i lost a phone. Ffuck. I wanted to call you so bad. But I realise that my house phone couldnt call overseas. Im like screw it. I didnt even shower yesterday I went straight to bed.

BAH fuck it. Its GONE. Gotta work more then to buy another phone for someone lucky again. >_>

Got so much to say. You aint there.
Effin crashing right now.

w.e man screw it. Not gonna buy a phone evur again. So meaningless... Fuckin waste of money. One month of hard work, one week of using phone. What a joke. Why is it always me.
Im seriously a good person. I buy phones for others. -_-

Honestly why did I even went out yesterday.
I hate myself.

And I will kiss you forever,

Lips of silence my favorite endeavour.

Feel my arms, wrapped around you,

Falling into the oceans of virtue.

I will cry if you die.

I cried already when you said that...
Prolly cause of the sad songs im hearing.
DAMNIT *switch playlist* stupid depressing songs

Lol that idiot. -_- Bala went to tell everyone he likes me. WTF like wtf man. Sowi i no like indian.
x_x was working 12-11pm today i even got a blister on my foot and the pay was so fucking little. Work so hard, so tired mentally and physically and the pay like shit.
Xy called and told me their going to drink tomorrow iono if im even going =/
I wanna sleep all i want, i havent slept that way for so long ;(
K3ro is up, im like w.e lol
I got a life now =]

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM SOO FULLL! Dont feel like doing anything. ANYTHING AT ALL.
Started off the day good. I was early and easy working cause theres sooo lil people. Then Mus was there first. Edward was happy i came early so.. like no one bitched at me today. Mam Jane was happy too. Nurul came at 12. Then Raju, Bala came in. LOL Bala >_>

And then everytime i walk by Bala, hes like @#$#$ in indian which iono wtf hes saying then Raju told me hes calling me dear. Im like WTF LMAOOOOO. Ew. -_-

Then the two new trainee came in. Nurul was like, omg that girl again. She thought shes modeling here, walking so effin slow when she works. Im like hahahhaha. -_-
Then the other new guy was called, Pokah. Im like What?! Pokah? *With a funny accent* "Pokah?" LOL So friggin funny his name.
Hes from Nepal or w.e it was. Then he taught me how to say hi in his language. Hi : Namaste.
Then I saw Bala Im like "Namaste" Then I pronauce it wrong hes like ITS NAMASTE NOT NAMASTA. -_- im like wtf you know it too.
Then I was like hey POKAH how do you say idiot in your language?? DONT TELL BALA!
Idiot : Bebakuf
Then after that was busy so i didnt went to talk to Bala lmao.

And woot. Three groups of friends came to look for me today ;3 First was Jocelyn and her friends. Then after that Einstein called me. Im like WOW Einstein?!! How he know my number cia. Then he wanted to meet up after work. Then im like ok we havent met for a long ass time.
Then after that yt they all came ;D! SUSHIIII O.m.f.g i swear i aint gonna eat another piece of sushi EVUR IN MY LIFE.

After work I went to look up for Einstein and jia wei Lol still the same cept his hair looks sick LOL. Then sushi blah blah and im here now half dead. -_-

And i love Lan. ;P

tentative favorita - 16th avenue
I LOVE this song, cant seems to find it anywhere ;((

Danny is dating an azn girl -_-

A million "I love you" cant express how much i feel for you.
I hope you know that i even bust off a real life guy because of you.

New month's goal, dont be late? Heck yea x_x
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Bitch of the day, like foreal you aint my mom, dont tell me what to do, u fat bish.
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Hold me forever.

Happee two months =)
I love you

I hope were not drifting ;(( or fading...
All my effort goes out to Christmas..

I still love you

Sana <3
Love that song!

Meet up with Junlong and Kwang today lmao!

96170174 Rememba to save it bitches! >D
WEEE I only got 88 songs into the phone >_>
THATS LIKE 1/9 OF MY SONGS EFFF

Im sorry Mary =/
Marvin lee leong =)
I wont forget you...
Im sorry...

SHALEHAN =D
And I love Lan more everyday.

OOO

-STRICTLY NO REGGAE-

Eep ._. hes jealous again x_x
Hakim called and Lan got jealous ;(((

LMAOOO LAN'S PET NAME "Hakim ,,I,,"
Shouldnt have told him about him rofl

Yesterday was already a worst day for me. Today I had a bad day again.
I started off by being late again >_> No matter how early I woke up I would STILL end up being late. My habit of procrastinating.. BLEH
Then when I reached the workplace I got yelled at by my manager cause I forgot to ask if she have the HSBC credit card. Then the cashier already settle the bill and everything now the customer wanted the HSBC discount and they have to void everything. >_<
And after that I spilled water again =/
Just a bad day BUT today passes fast =)
When I reached home sis told me Hakim called. And told me to call back. I dont intend to but he called me again and I answered. He told me to shower first so I delayed and took a shower after an hour. And I called back, he didnt answer it so eff it.
And... went to pvp to look for Lan =/
I used to be somebody, now I aint nobody...
Wheres the respect. Wheres the glory. Fuck it ;(

I love you Lan =)
Im smiling thru the tears.
Everything you do for me.
I love you..

UAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ffffuck! Fuck fuck fuckkkkkkkk! Ffffffffffffffffuck it man. Efff >.>
I JUST LOST FRIGGIN FOUR GODS >_> Thats like losing a 240$
effin a .... .... .. son of a afff

Just went to lunch with yt and pearl. LMAO so funnee we went to the babies section and the funny thing is I was playing with the baby bed. Then the more I play with it the more funny ideas came into my head. I went to get some babies clothes and stuff it into the blanket and make it look like a baby is sleeping there LOL Then I told yt to come and look then after that we decide to put dress the "baby"[pillow] with the baby clothes LMAOO so funny couldnt stop laughing. Then after that, that idiot stole my slippers then we fall down together in Kiddy palace ==; My knee so pain and mai bum >_>
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"I love you sweetie no matter what happens. I be going school now I'll call you later."
And you called, saying good luck to me. =/
Are you playing around or are you serious when you said that.
You know I love you, it hurts when you push me to some guy. I told you I didnt like him. Yea sure he did call me but do I look like Im interested? I only care on every call you made to me.
I love you..

Im sorry.. T____T
Dont do that to me please..
It hurts when you said "good luck"
It hurts to hear your sad voice =/

LMAO REMEMBER THAT GUY WHO WINKED AT ME WHILE I WAS WORKING?! He came againnn hes like EH! TRISH! Im like EH?! Hieee. Haha xD
Then he said he wanted to fetch me after work ;P But I rejected him tho I gave him mai number on teh tissue =p
But w/e I love Lan ^_^
Lan and Hakim called when I reached home lmaoooo ;D

Just a had a sad but meaningful dream =/
Mmm how did it start. It started by I and my friends were causing some trouble;didnt know what we did but police were after us. And we ran to a blk and an old man took us in. And I told him my story. Bout kaz3ro and shit. How I spend my year there. And everything. Then one day he told us to turn ourselves in. And we scolded him and said cause he didnt want us there anymore and blah blah blah. Then he just died in front of us;heart attack or w.e. LIKE OMG I feel so sad I think i cried while sleeping -_- And I read his diary, everything was about me... Didnt know how much he cared. He got sketches and words. T_____T

-Treasure everything.

Funny day today. Was late again as usual.
Of alll those stuffs that happened today I just remembered this.
I still remember how much was the bill, it was $15.71. AND THA LADEEEE PAID EXACTLY $15.71. IM LIKE where the fuck did u get that 1cent from O_o When I gave it to Raju, I was smiling already then i waited for him to notice LOL hes like O_o.... no need 1 cent o.o Im like SHE JUST GAVE IT TO ME LMAO.

Marvin came back finally O_o... then he signed out on me.. bastard ;( but w.e Get well soon =)

I hate my family. IdiotS.

Funny how they couldnt even understand english.

Was late again >_> Like w.e
Then i was like still grouchy and woozy cause i just woke up. Then it was soo busy suddenly in Swensen's then my supervisor just dump me at the settings. I was kinda pissed and I had never ever done it before and she didnt even bother to teach. Just dump me that and expect me to know everything. Like what the fuck am I spose to do. And the manager keep yelling staffs keep rushing me. And that dishwasher wouldnt give me the culeries like am I spose to scream at her?!

Lol and Sateya was the dishwasher assistant today and were like laughing at him. Then everytime they went in they were like "Auntie" LOL
And those cute chefs are so funny xD

Thats about it ;P

Dont forget to call me you bastard <3
Mai phone is beside me. ;P

WEEEEEEEE finally i got the time to talk with mai bhabie<3 We talked for five hours and didnt realise its late and he got school tomorrow =/
And we talked about lief and stuffs. Yea i guess its better to go one step at a time. 19 days to my payday ;]
Sometimes tho its long when you think about it. But.. just gotta work forward til the day comes.
And wtf 50 vs 50 O_O Thats like two classes vs two classes here x_x Fun life fun high school times =D
STILL YOU DIDNT TOOK A VIDEO OF IT =/
And.. I dunno what to do with my life cause.... This lyrics is how i felt.

How do you cope when the one you love is
with somebody else and there's nothing you can do about it
How do you deal with
the fact that you had a chance but you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though its heartbreakin it's something that I had to do
but nobody said that it would hurt so bad
so how do I live
How do I deal without you?

>_<
I feel so withdrawn from the society. So anti-social.
Talked to Laurie bout it. Shes like, im the same too, I almost forgot how to have fun.
Awww at least someone feels the same way I do.

-RO GATHERING LMAO
Come come to singapore Kai <3
THEO TOO. Then we four can meet up or something <333 Lesby action!

And !! After a few months. LAURA! Darick and ma baby we could meet up tooooo <33

^___________^ Imma pass it day by day.

;(( Im listening to an old song.. that we used to shout in alde.

WERE GOING DOWN DOWN IN AN EARLIER ROUND.

AND SUGAR WERE GOING DOWN SWINGING.

ILL BE YOUR NUMBER ONE WITH A BULLET.

A LOADED GOD COMPLEX COCK IT AND PULL IT!

I miss you. And all of you

;("Fall out boys-Sugar were going down""Relient K-Who I am hates who ive been"

Shiny toy gun"rainy monday", "dont cry out"

We used to....

I miss last summer, last autumn.

WE used to...

*hours later*

;] Memories are memories, it will come alive anytime you want it. Look forward =]

I love you.

OMFG I HATE WORKKKINGGGGGGGGG ;///
I kept reaching late and sooo tiring dont even got time to spend with mai baby >_<
Plus no time to sleep ;( I guess its ok cause he be giving me wake up calls LOL MUAHAHAH <3
*abuse him* Love yoo muchies ;D
And today, im like all perk up at nearly the end of work at around 8pm+ LOL why? CAUSE SOME cute guy kept joking with me HA HA. I was serving their table and uhhh he kept joking with me, its fun ;D THEN i was quite busy but i kept going at their table. Then i after that i was standing at the front of the counter then im like shift my glance to them, AND HE FRIGGIN WINKED AT ME. LOL
Im like *giggles* shooooooot! i was like allll perk up at the end of the day LMAOO.
He reminds me of Lan = ]

P.S wheres mai ring.
20more days to mai payday WORK HARD.

i HAATEEEE working.
Screw it

Omagaaaaawwdd. Reached home at 5am and I barely sleep til i have to wake up. Was still a lil tipsy and im working with a friggin hang over from yesterday's drink. I nearly black out and i havent even eat. Man it was tiring x_x
Then ok break we ate, im like legs shivering O_O Nvm.
Next suprise. I look behind OMFGWTFZORSSADFFWERFDSBBQ its nick. Im like shiiiieett. But im suprise he didnt gave me a disgusted look. And even did help out. Overall I did enjoy a lil. Well, we'll see next day. Ciao =)