_____________________________________________ Just listening to the voices...

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Sometimes I feel like quitting my job and start ROing full time again. Working takes up too much of my time. I cant even find time for myself.
But thinking of the end of the year keeps me moving again. I dont know if this distance thingy would work out but, im gonna keep trying even if it takes years. And I know that it will definately takes years. Cause Imma go back to school.... I think. >.>
W.e I hate to think much.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

You see, I dont really look at babies and smile to myself like what most of them do. But this time I caught myself smiling when I saw this lil girl around the age of 3-6 with her daddy. I wasnt smiling because of how cute she was I was smiling cause her daddy and her are so cute together. Her daddy was soo sweet to his lil girl and so caring. They were so close. He really love his lil girl I could see it. I was so touched by just that customer. I caught myself thinking about him the whole day at work. Guys are charming when they are taking care of their kid =)
Eep havent posted for a long time, truth is I got myself back into the game. When I told Nurul bout this shes like, i swear im gonna bring a hammer to your house, dont skip working and say u wanna play games. Then shes like hey wanna eat after work? im like naw i wanna go home and play game LOL shes like dont give me stupid reason imma slap you.

Anyways, was listening to Rooftops-Lostprophets and I was standing at the stairway at the parapet wall looking at the sky before i went home. Cause it was so windy <3
And I havent be with myself for a long time.
Thought of Danny for a while.

Anyways gonna poop. Laters.
One week to payday o_o

Thursday, August 17, 2006

OMG ANDREWWWW!

"I missed you"

"WHAT?! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS HAHAHAHHA *SCREEN* YOU MISS WHO?"

I miss you toooo! Omfg you finally came on.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

I will take another day as another step in my life.
My everyday's goal : Reach early for work.

A good start ^_^ Im actually feeling happy for myself for the first time.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Sometimes i think that the real reason i dont quit mai job is b.c i dont want them or mai parents to think that im that lil kid they use to know anymore. I dont want them to think that im just a screwed up teenager struggling to get some money thats all. Like I cant even withstand tireness and hardship. I wanna show them that I can. This is nothing at all, I still got a long way to go. And I wont give up until i die. A shit long way to go. If i cant even take this, how can I go on the rest of mai life =]
Thanks for giving me a reason to work.

I dont wanna be that screwed up teenager struggling anymore. Dont wanna be that fuct up kid playing around anymore. Dont wanna look back, getting drunk every night. [Before RO]
But sometimes I still wish to stay there, chilling everyday, hanging out at hp everyday ><
It was soooo chillaxing. But dont look back ;D

Hummm I suddenly feel strong wtf LOL
Goal of the year : Learn to love myself.
^_^ Today im happy. I will emphasize on it later =)

Work today was kinda boring but mmm relaxing for meh. I worked 11-7. And around 11+ I saw py and michelle passing by outside the resto im like wtf they didnt saw me? Then I was about to walk towards the entrance then I saw py walked backwards and looked in LOL.
And then blah blah blah.
Then at break time Mam Salli asked me if im Single im like yarrr? Im single and not looking. Then Nurul looked at me like I told a lie, well i did LOL But at my work place only Nurul knows about me and Lan. And I dont like to give out too much info about myself to others ==l
Then after that I heard Mam salli saying to Sir manjeet "Have you heard about the incident about two guys over one girl?" Im like jeez wtf o.o *bends head lower and continue eating*
Then break time I heard Mam salli saying to Mam Salome "... ... ... blah blah blah B and S." Im like shit wtf BALA?! heck no?! Then I was wondering whos the S. I was thinking of Sateya >_>
I rather it be Shalehan cause it be like WTF TWO INDIAN GUYS OVER ME ==;
What? Do I look indian or something?!
Then nearly the end of work, xh and my ex classmates came by to see me ;D! And I told mam salome that I aint looking for a bf and I aint interested at all. Cause she ask me to put on more make up cause i might find a bf here >_>
So annoying.

AND I reached home and OLA! HES LETTTER =DDDDDDDDD
I was soooo excited LOL but my sis seems more excited than me >_>
Cause im like, i open it after I finish smoking. Shes like keep on smiling there, wondering whats inside and keep looking at the envelope LOL. So kaypo ;P
Hehe I cried after reading it ;D I was sooo touched ^_^
Weee im "engaged" now LMAO hahahhahahahha ;P

P.S nice signature =D
P.P.S LOL cute handwriting like kiddy HAHAHAHHA
i suddenly feel lonely...

P.S k3ro is up o.o

Monday, August 14, 2006

I feel that if I wont msg him, he wont msg me in years. >_>
I wonder if I wont come online for weeks, he prolly forget me.

P.S this gives him a reason to msg -_-!
Rarely see him now =/

LOL the auntie ask me if I have a bf and I told her yup. ;(
Working's so boring recently. And stop that laughing and smiling >_>
Fucking immature. I already said I dont like him so stfu.
I miss him =/
Wondering where is he now, what is he doing right now.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Omagosh I was on my way home and i indeed saw the most grossssssiest thing of my life. Two cockroach are mating o_o Im like omfg one is enough, IMAGINE THEIR BABIEEESSS. Im like should I kick them? LOL
Work is effin boring today. ITS SUNDAY and the time passes so slowly. Swensens is so quiet today.
LOL damn sateya and bala -_-
I AM NOT INTERESTED. How many times do I have to say that >_>
"All of a sudden, pinoys are all coming over you."
HAHHAHAHAH funny shit.
I didnt realise until you say that.
Funny shit today, I forgot to zip my pants today LMAO
SO FUCKING EMBARAASING. I was in the bus then this MAN told me i didnt zip my pants. >_>
So boring working today. That newbie lost her bag after work LOL but i didnt see whether she found it or not.

Friday, August 11, 2006

OMFGWTFZORS
I slept yesterday at 4am and woke up at 8 am and i couldnt sleep anymore.
Then I went to work, IT WAS SOOO FRIGGIN TIRING. I was like spaced out half the time.
I was so tired. I done everything so slowly =/
Totally no energy to work. And I heard Sir saying "Not enough people today five peoples got MC, imma extend some." Im like shiit *prays not me*
Then after that Maam Salome told me, Today you work until 11 okay. Im like O.......k.
WTF 12pm-11pm WHEN I ONLY GOT SO LITTLE SLEEP.
And the funny thing is that at the end of the day, I quarrel with tha bish. LMAO. Bring it on bish. What you gotta say now.

P.S I like the way you touches me when you talk.
-Trys to feed me with baked rice ^_^
Btw I swear imma die of exhaustion if I dont sleep now.
-Still not thinking about it.
I've got my things, I'm good to go
You met me at the terminal
Just one more plane ride and it's done

We stood like statues at the gate
Vacation's come and gone too late
There's so much sun where I'm from
I had to give it away, had to give you away

And we spent four days on an
Island at your family's old hotel
Sometimes perfection can be
It can be perfect hell, perfect...

Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised
And don't fly fast.
Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last?
This plane is all I got
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised
I love the song Stars-Callalily ;D!
Funny thing is I even dreamt of that song and I caught myself humming it when I woke up.
Gotta work at 12 later and I only slept for three hours >_<
Imma go get a sim card replacement soon >.>

P.S-All old peoples are cute ;D
My granny is vegeterian and when we ordered a pizza, shes so excited to LOOK at us eating that LOL tho she couldnt eat it. She kept smiling when she look at us eat. So cute <3
Im gonna bring my mom and granny out some day =]
Poor mom =/
Sometimes words are just sweet lil lies.
-
Admit it, you got bored with me.
-
Wondering, why do I work so hard for?
Is it worth it? Do he even care.
A friend's betray is more hurting than losing one's love.
Cause your busy talking to her =]
Dont have to lie about it.
ZOMG, I just listens to all my old songs including technos o_o
*thinks back ;(*
I know when something is wrong.
I will not forgive anyone who lets me down. If..., its over.
Cant believe its a friend.

-I will still love you but I wont forgive you.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Here's what I know. There are some lines too dangerous to cross. But there are others…if you're willing to throw caution to the wind and take a chance, the view from the other side is spectacular.

Intimacy is a four syllable word for "Here are my heart and soul - please grind them into hamburger and enjoy.

Im stuck on Grey's Anatomy.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Weeeee new hair for myself
I dont wanna let fear ruin my life.
I dont wanna give up before I die.
I love the show Grey's Anatomy.

Breath - Anna nalick
2 Am and she calls me cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don't love him and winter just wasn't my season.
Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason.

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button girl
So just cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for while
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him but maybe I'll just sing about it

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button boys so cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breath just breathe

There's a light at the end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around

2Am and I'm still awake writing this song
If i get it all down on paper it's no lonmger inside of me threaten' the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.

But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand...yeah breath
Just breathe, ohho breathe,
I still cant believe this is happening to our family.
How he be so irresponsible. What about us? You dont want your family anymore?
How can he be thinking of abandoning us in Singapore. My mom only take back 800$ everymonth. The household needs 1000+ already. My dad's cpf can only last for three more months then we have to pay on cash. Another 600+. How can my mother afford those. How can he be so irresponsible. If you wanna work for your brothers in Malaysia. How much are they gonna pay you? You didnt even ask them. You just let them take advantage of you. Your so selfish. When your working there, they treat you good, give you good meals. HOW ABOUT US HERE. I come home everyday from work without FOOD ON THE TABLE. Your there enjoying. Take home 500$ only? like what they used to pay you when I was only in Nursery. Stop working for them man. Go find a proper job. Your so so so selfish. I cant believe it. I still cant believe this is happening to our family. From young I used to think that we are a happy family. Why are we falling apart. How can you let my mom down. How can you leave all the burden to her. Im still 17. Im ONLY 17.
Err wipe again. I bet Ivan not gonna give me his gods at all since I piss him off the last time on msn LOL. But w.e dont wanna play nemore.
.... forget it, maybe its not meant to.
The days will pass me by

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Omfg o_o Sateya told me Bala is courting me. Im like WTF heck no?
Then Sateya thinks i hate him. LOL Cause i really dont understand what hes talking about and he thinks im ignoring him. Then Im like, w.e I cant understand your indian accent.

Boring boring boring ;((
I love Lan muchies.

Monday, August 07, 2006

LOL yay! xh selling her mp3 to me ;D so happy. Omfg with my spendings I cant save up >_>
I need more songs ><
And I hope my cell would come back to me SOMEHOW LMAO >_>
so i dont have to buy it again, I still wanna buy some other stuffs ;(
Or maybe i should just stop my spendings -_-
Working seems so meaningless now. Didnt seem like earning anything at all.
Thought i could start saving from next month already. Fuck still gotta buy another phone. Its like im working for nothing the past one month. I work to buy phone for others. Funny.. >_>

Im sitting all day wishing i could squeeze something. Seriously I wanna vent my anger but i dunno how. Omfg its a friggin 468$ for that styz cell. My heart hurts soooo much. I WORK SO HARD DAMNIT. For nothing.
Mentally crashing right now.

I was crying all night yesterday, hitting my fist, screaming, cursing at whoever that took it. Cause that phone lastly ONLY less than two weeks. And its the fourth time i lost a phone. Ffuck. I wanted to call you so bad. But I realise that my house phone couldnt call overseas. Im like screw it. I didnt even shower yesterday I went straight to bed.

BAH fuck it. Its GONE. Gotta work more then to buy another phone for someone lucky again. >_>

Got so much to say. You aint there.
Effin crashing right now.

Sunday, August 06, 2006

w.e man screw it. Not gonna buy a phone evur again. So meaningless... Fuckin waste of money. One month of hard work, one week of using phone. What a joke. Why is it always me.
Im seriously a good person. I buy phones for others. -_-

Honestly why did I even went out yesterday.
I hate myself.

Saturday, August 05, 2006

And I will kiss you forever,

Lips of silence my favorite endeavour.

Feel my arms, wrapped around you,

Falling into the oceans of virtue.

I will cry if you die.

I cried already when you said that...
Prolly cause of the sad songs im hearing.
DAMNIT *switch playlist* stupid depressing songs
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Friday, August 04, 2006

Lol that idiot. -_- Bala went to tell everyone he likes me. WTF like wtf man. Sowi i no like indian.
x_x was working 12-11pm today i even got a blister on my foot and the pay was so fucking little. Work so hard, so tired mentally and physically and the pay like shit.
Xy called and told me their going to drink tomorrow iono if im even going =/
I wanna sleep all i want, i havent slept that way for so long ;(
K3ro is up, im like w.e lol
I got a life now =]

Thursday, August 03, 2006

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM SOO FULLL! Dont feel like doing anything. ANYTHING AT ALL.
Started off the day good. I was early and easy working cause theres sooo lil people. Then Mus was there first. Edward was happy i came early so.. like no one bitched at me today. Mam Jane was happy too. Nurul came at 12. Then Raju, Bala came in. LOL Bala >_>

And then everytime i walk by Bala, hes like @#$#$ in indian which iono wtf hes saying then Raju told me hes calling me dear. Im like WTF LMAOOOOO. Ew. -_-

Then the two new trainee came in. Nurul was like, omg that girl again. She thought shes modeling here, walking so effin slow when she works. Im like hahahhaha. -_-
Then the other new guy was called, Pokah. Im like What?! Pokah? *With a funny accent* "Pokah?" LOL So friggin funny his name.
Hes from Nepal or w.e it was. Then he taught me how to say hi in his language. Hi : Namaste.
Then I saw Bala Im like "Namaste" Then I pronauce it wrong hes like ITS NAMASTE NOT NAMASTA. -_- im like wtf you know it too.
Then I was like hey POKAH how do you say idiot in your language?? DONT TELL BALA!
Idiot : Bebakuf
Then after that was busy so i didnt went to talk to Bala lmao.

And woot. Three groups of friends came to look for me today ;3 First was Jocelyn and her friends. Then after that Einstein called me. Im like WOW Einstein?!! How he know my number cia. Then he wanted to meet up after work. Then im like ok we havent met for a long ass time.
Then after that yt they all came ;D! SUSHIIII O.m.f.g i swear i aint gonna eat another piece of sushi EVUR IN MY LIFE.

After work I went to look up for Einstein and jia wei Lol still the same cept his hair looks sick LOL. Then sushi blah blah and im here now half dead. -_-

And i love Lan. ;P
tentative favorita - 16th avenue
I LOVE this song, cant seems to find it anywhere ;((
Danny is dating an azn girl -_-
A million "I love you" cant express how much i feel for you.
I hope you know that i even bust off a real life guy because of you.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

New month's goal, dont be late? Heck yea x_x
-
Bitch of the day, like foreal you aint my mom, dont tell me what to do, u fat bish.
-
Hold me forever.
Happee two months =)
I love you

Sunday, July 30, 2006

I hope were not drifting ;(( or fading...
All my effort goes out to Christmas..

I still love you

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Sana <3
Love that song!

Meet up with Junlong and Kwang today lmao!

Monday, July 24, 2006

96170174 Rememba to save it bitches! >D
WEEE I only got 88 songs into the phone >_>
THATS LIKE 1/9 OF MY SONGS EFFF

Sunday, July 23, 2006

Im sorry Mary =/
Marvin lee leong =)
I wont forget you...
Im sorry...

SHALEHAN =D
And I love Lan more everyday.

Friday, July 21, 2006

OOO
-STRICTLY NO REGGAE-
Eep ._. hes jealous again x_x
Hakim called and Lan got jealous ;(((
LMAOOO LAN'S PET NAME "Hakim ,,I,,"
Shouldnt have told him about him rofl
Yesterday was already a worst day for me. Today I had a bad day again.
I started off by being late again >_> No matter how early I woke up I would STILL end up being late. My habit of procrastinating.. BLEH
Then when I reached the workplace I got yelled at by my manager cause I forgot to ask if she have the HSBC credit card. Then the cashier already settle the bill and everything now the customer wanted the HSBC discount and they have to void everything. >_<
And after that I spilled water again =/
Just a bad day BUT today passes fast =)
When I reached home sis told me Hakim called. And told me to call back. I dont intend to but he called me again and I answered. He told me to shower first so I delayed and took a shower after an hour. And I called back, he didnt answer it so eff it.
And... went to pvp to look for Lan =/
I used to be somebody, now I aint nobody...
Wheres the respect. Wheres the glory. Fuck it ;(

Thursday, July 20, 2006

I love you Lan =)
Im smiling thru the tears.
Everything you do for me.
I love you..

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

UAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ffffuck! Fuck fuck fuckkkkkkkk! Ffffffffffffffffuck it man. Efff >.>
I JUST LOST FRIGGIN FOUR GODS >_> Thats like losing a 240$
effin a .... .... .. son of a afff
Just went to lunch with yt and pearl. LMAO so funnee we went to the babies section and the funny thing is I was playing with the baby bed. Then the more I play with it the more funny ideas came into my head. I went to get some babies clothes and stuff it into the blanket and make it look like a baby is sleeping there LOL Then I told yt to come and look then after that we decide to put dress the "baby"[pillow] with the baby clothes LMAOO so funny couldnt stop laughing. Then after that, that idiot stole my slippers then we fall down together in Kiddy palace ==; My knee so pain and mai bum >_>
-
"I love you sweetie no matter what happens. I be going school now I'll call you later."
And you called, saying good luck to me. =/
Are you playing around or are you serious when you said that.
You know I love you, it hurts when you push me to some guy. I told you I didnt like him. Yea sure he did call me but do I look like Im interested? I only care on every call you made to me.
I love you..
Im sorry.. T____T
Dont do that to me please..
It hurts when you said "good luck"
It hurts to hear your sad voice =/
LMAO REMEMBER THAT GUY WHO WINKED AT ME WHILE I WAS WORKING?! He came againnn hes like EH! TRISH! Im like EH?! Hieee. Haha xD
Then he said he wanted to fetch me after work ;P But I rejected him tho I gave him mai number on teh tissue =p
But w/e I love Lan ^_^
Lan and Hakim called when I reached home lmaoooo ;D

Monday, July 17, 2006

Just a had a sad but meaningful dream =/
Mmm how did it start. It started by I and my friends were causing some trouble;didnt know what we did but police were after us. And we ran to a blk and an old man took us in. And I told him my story. Bout kaz3ro and shit. How I spend my year there. And everything. Then one day he told us to turn ourselves in. And we scolded him and said cause he didnt want us there anymore and blah blah blah. Then he just died in front of us;heart attack or w.e. LIKE OMG I feel so sad I think i cried while sleeping -_- And I read his diary, everything was about me... Didnt know how much he cared. He got sketches and words. T_____T

-Treasure everything.
Funny day today. Was late again as usual.
Of alll those stuffs that happened today I just remembered this.
I still remember how much was the bill, it was $15.71. AND THA LADEEEE PAID EXACTLY $15.71. IM LIKE where the fuck did u get that 1cent from O_o When I gave it to Raju, I was smiling already then i waited for him to notice LOL hes like O_o.... no need 1 cent o.o Im like SHE JUST GAVE IT TO ME LMAO.

Marvin came back finally O_o... then he signed out on me.. bastard ;( but w.e Get well soon =)

Sunday, July 16, 2006

I hate my family. IdiotS.

Funny how they couldnt even understand english.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Was late again >_> Like w.e
Then i was like still grouchy and woozy cause i just woke up. Then it was soo busy suddenly in Swensen's then my supervisor just dump me at the settings. I was kinda pissed and I had never ever done it before and she didnt even bother to teach. Just dump me that and expect me to know everything. Like what the fuck am I spose to do. And the manager keep yelling staffs keep rushing me. And that dishwasher wouldnt give me the culeries like am I spose to scream at her?!

Lol and Sateya was the dishwasher assistant today and were like laughing at him. Then everytime they went in they were like "Auntie" LOL
And those cute chefs are so funny xD

Thats about it ;P

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Dont forget to call me you bastard <3
Mai phone is beside me. ;P
WEEEEEEEE finally i got the time to talk with mai bhabie<3 We talked for five hours and didnt realise its late and he got school tomorrow =/
And we talked about lief and stuffs. Yea i guess its better to go one step at a time. 19 days to my payday ;]
Sometimes tho its long when you think about it. But.. just gotta work forward til the day comes.
And wtf 50 vs 50 O_O Thats like two classes vs two classes here x_x Fun life fun high school times =D
STILL YOU DIDNT TOOK A VIDEO OF IT =/
And.. I dunno what to do with my life cause.... This lyrics is how i felt.

How do you cope when the one you love is
with somebody else and there's nothing you can do about it
How do you deal with
the fact that you had a chance but you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though its heartbreakin it's something that I had to do
but nobody said that it would hurt so bad
so how do I live
How do I deal without you?

>_<
I feel so withdrawn from the society. So anti-social.
Talked to Laurie bout it. Shes like, im the same too, I almost forgot how to have fun.
Awww at least someone feels the same way I do.

-RO GATHERING LMAO
Come come to singapore Kai <3
THEO TOO. Then we four can meet up or something <333 Lesby action!

And !! After a few months. LAURA! Darick and ma baby we could meet up tooooo <33

^___________^ Imma pass it day by day.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

;(( Im listening to an old song.. that we used to shout in alde.

WERE GOING DOWN DOWN IN AN EARLIER ROUND.

AND SUGAR WERE GOING DOWN SWINGING.

ILL BE YOUR NUMBER ONE WITH A BULLET.

A LOADED GOD COMPLEX COCK IT AND PULL IT!

I miss you. And all of you

;("Fall out boys-Sugar were going down""Relient K-Who I am hates who ive been"

Shiny toy gun"rainy monday", "dont cry out"

We used to....

I miss last summer, last autumn.

WE used to...

*hours later*

;] Memories are memories, it will come alive anytime you want it. Look forward =]

I love you.

Monday, July 10, 2006

OMFG I HATE WORKKKINGGGGGGGGG ;///
I kept reaching late and sooo tiring dont even got time to spend with mai baby >_<
Plus no time to sleep ;( I guess its ok cause he be giving me wake up calls LOL MUAHAHAH <3
*abuse him* Love yoo muchies ;D
And today, im like all perk up at nearly the end of work at around 8pm+ LOL why? CAUSE SOME cute guy kept joking with me HA HA. I was serving their table and uhhh he kept joking with me, its fun ;D THEN i was quite busy but i kept going at their table. Then i after that i was standing at the front of the counter then im like shift my glance to them, AND HE FRIGGIN WINKED AT ME. LOL
Im like *giggles* shooooooot! i was like allll perk up at the end of the day LMAOO.
He reminds me of Lan = ]

P.S wheres mai ring.
20more days to mai payday WORK HARD.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Omagaaaaawwdd. Reached home at 5am and I barely sleep til i have to wake up. Was still a lil tipsy and im working with a friggin hang over from yesterday's drink. I nearly black out and i havent even eat. Man it was tiring x_x
Then ok break we ate, im like legs shivering O_O Nvm.
Next suprise. I look behind OMFGWTFZORSSADFFWERFDSBBQ its nick. Im like shiiiieett. But im suprise he didnt gave me a disgusted look. And even did help out. Overall I did enjoy a lil. Well, we'll see next day. Ciao =)

Friday, June 30, 2006

Lmao that lil bitch. Hes like hi im bored. Im like W/e its your problem.
"No imma make it your problem."
"You cant."
"O yes I can"
"Try me"
"I AM TRYING but you aint doing NOTHING HA HA!"
"O_o dude, of course i aint doing anything. Its your problem."
"Yes it is, cause if im bored im gonna bug you and bug you and bug you."
"Yea... see if i care"
"You do care"
"O yea? You really think so eh"
"Aww you do care <3"
"Lol w/e if thats what makes you happy."

LMAOO pwnt Hes not ever gonna talk to me again THANK GOD.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Omagawd server's down. And zhao is being an ass on MSN ~~;

I'll make you care that I am running here without you. But the truth is.. its pointless. You dont care.

Tell me all about you. Tell me what are you hiding. You dont feel me. Im serious, you aint.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

What are you hiding from me? Your friendster acc and locked access..

Sunday, June 25, 2006

LOL MARYY SO KAWAII <3333333

Secksi accent po =)))

Saturday, June 24, 2006

BRAZILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

JAPAN EH UM LIXO! E TRASHED! Ronaldoooo :))

LOL Lan thats the first time you evur said that. ;P

"Trish, can i try your wing for a "second"?"
Yo why dont you just ask me "Trish, can I scam your wing?"

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

MARYY OMFG
I just watched joo *coughsD.I.Ycoughs*
"Im still on that thing last night. So fcking good."
RAWR

Marvin Dempsey Lee Leong!
"Your Trish Lau Leong now" LMFAOOOOO LAWL!

Underoath ! I LOVE THIS BAND!
Mmm Boston-Augustana.. Friggin good.

I want a job. I need liqour now.
Now.
Now.
NOW.

Monday, June 19, 2006

Mm wtf been drinking for a week.. x_x
My throat friggin hurtzors.
Anyways, Mark, you cant diss me with your bragging. I aint even pissed. I find it absolutely hilarious. What are tryna prove man. That I made a bad choice? Then you really have proved to meh that i've made the right choice d00d.

I hate myself for being sooo unsocialable. x_x
*Envious of her*

Mary and Lan. O_o... Wtf .. eh

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Lol nice try I still owns you THO!

Ken : Mama i want milk
Me : No milk, you finished it all, its dry now.

Ken : Ok fine i be your dada. Want milk?
Me : Dada got man boobs. Dada is gay. I dont want gay milk. :(

LAWWWLLLLLL! LMFAO PWNTZORS

,,,, nice way to say hi. -_-
"I'll be missing you by P.daddy"
Mary... ^_^ Thanks I had a wonderful night.

"Kiss me like you meant to"

"Stare at me pls"

"This time this place
Misused mistakes
too long too late
who was i to make you wait
jus one chance just one breath
just in case theres just one left
cause you know you know you know

i love you
ive love you all along
and i miss you
from far away for far too long
i keep dreaming you be with me and you never go
stop breathing if i dont see you anymore."

"im too late.. too late."

"Dont.. dont cry pls.."

Friday, June 16, 2006

LOL I and andrew were both watching that comedy and im like where your at?
"gay indians?"
"Gays indians."
ROFL SO HILARIOUS. People was like... hey dont be racist!

Aw BG that fake chinese and Ken!! Jehu! And aww blacklist so cuutey.

I seen Lan ^_^

And anyways screw the real world again. Im WILL not ever try to return. Fuck it ^_^.

P.S I LOVE THIS LAUGHTER "AHIHIHIHI"

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Wew. Just came home from work. Omagosh its sooo tiring. I swear I would friggin quit the job the next day, still considering.

But after coming home from work, of course im tired and i dont feel like doing anything and feeling bad mood. Then these guys really cheered me up LOL. AWWWW SO CUUTE.

MAN I LOVE THE GUILD -GET BACKERS-
Before that, cause Ken was like, Jirah wants you blah blah blah. Then I said I heard lan's voice ^_^ hes like wanna hear him too? Im like OKAYYY. Im soo interested to know how filipinos sounds like. Then omagawd, the whole getbackers guidl know each other and they play in the same shop. THATS LIKE SO COOL! Then were voicing and LOL im like how do you laugh like this ahihihihi. THEN OMAGAWD SO CUUUTE. They sang, they laughed they shout they are sooo funny and cuute. I totally love them. And I swear imma fucking go to Manila some day ;3

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

'aopweruityjk.fnluksgfa;uhruipawh'iadhaousfhuopqhwo !@#!%(@$%*!#*@%*@($_

IHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOU
FUCKYOUMOMANDDAD
ISINCERELYHATETHEM
PLSDIEIDONTCAREIFIEVURHADAMOMORDADCAUSEIRATHERBEINTHISWORLDINTHIS'FAMILY'CAUSEITAINTONE
FUCKYOUGUYSTOHELLWITHYOU
BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEECH

I hate you Mom.

Monday, June 12, 2006

Ha ha ha. That comedy by Russell Peter is sooooooo fucken hilarious. Im like LMFAO thru out the whole comedy! I love the part about how canadian cuss like donkeys. That is sooo "LOL"

I hate how I gain only one level a day. I swear I fucken hate mai com. I got like soo many chars more I wanna remake. Viora, Hera, Ambrose these three main ones. x_x And now im stuck on my sinx. Only sinx. I so wanna smack my com hard. Pwease pwease pwease let me get a new com pwease.

I want a job ._. and that school.
My mom is a moron. Period.
Err my granny said something to me which i find it highly annoying but when I think back its rather funny tho. She said, "if your uncle call looking for your mom, and shes not home, tell him that shes not home, if shes home let her answer the call." Wtf?! Im like DER! Obviously I know. >.> Like im not retarded or something.

Just watched Omen and the ending sucks. I jumped a couple of times tho. Its good, its good but the ending just ruin it.

I havent been in pvp for like months and today theres a war in the pvp room. Lili told meh bout it im like woah I gotta check it out. Andrew was like hell yea! WAAARRR! Ha, its RM and renaissance and a couple of gay guilds that cheats. Im soo laggy most of the times and i couldnt do nothing. I was soo pissed. I soo wanna join in the war and help the RMs but meh, lag owns me. I hate mai com. I used to hate the RMs but bleh its the past. They are cool now cause they are like the only original Holy guild left. I, of course gonna support Holy. And plus Lan is in there (:

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Friggin a, in less than four hours theres like three and more scammers tried to scam me >_>

Bastard... I aint dumb aight. What a dumbass.

And that fucker even tryna impersonate Bruno. Nice try tho. See you again, I hope not.
He even asked "Who are you?" LMFAO?! How could he not know who am I.. Then im like what guild are you from? Hes like "I forgot, I quitted." ~_~
I havent seen anyone dumb like that. Then Im like playing along with him. Ok hi w/e liar. Hes like no I'm really bruno. Im like wheres your gods and stuffs then? He said, wait i go take.
When he said that, im already laughing my ass out. When he came back, he show me his gods. Im like "HAHAHHAHA BUSTED! YOU GAVE ME YOUR GODS REMEMBER?!" LMFAO. WHAT A TURD.
Then he go like, return me my gods. I say dood! Those dont even belongs to you, liar. Then he go like ORIOLA SCAM ME spamming all around pront. ~~;
Fucktard.. Then im like, go on msn or speak some portugues, before you getting anything from me. I seriously hate these turds.
Im sooo excited! I will be writing that letter soon :)
*EDITED*

Friday, June 09
Jocelyn gave me FIVE ding ding tang and xh didnt gave me one! NOT EVEN ONE! PSH! And Liyun gave me two ding ding tang!

Saturday, June 10, 2006

o_o;; Laurie said shes gonna transfere her shit onto dynasty and she asked if I wanna transfere with her too. Im like errr... I gave them all to snydes and some to Steve. Its awdward to get them back >.> But I want some of my gods in dynasty ;(
And plus I dont wanna depend on others.

I predict that if I get a job now, I can go to Manila in four to five months. Still long ;((
and.. IM HUNGRY >_>

Trishie muses mushy (:

Friday, June 09, 2006

Weee
Mmmm py, xh, ly, michelle, joce, lyun and me went to eat dinner ^_^ Its was fun tho i spaced out most of the time lmao!(Lan^_^)
And OMGBBQZADSGASDFA I havent played ddr for like years and I couldnt catch up yesterday rofl xD
Its funny how michelle talked about that one girl that dont wash her hair. Im like wtfzors, grossed out.

And I was stuck outside yesterday >_>
I forget my keys and wtfzors I was sooooo tired plus hella bored and cold. x_x
And I knocked on the door till my knuckles go red and swollen, I was so pissed to tears.
Then I went downstairs for the air and scenery with my mp3 BUT OMGBBQZORSADFASDF IT WENT LOW BATT. Im like fffffffuuuck.

Neways I just wanna study. I really really wanna study T_T
I hope she would let me.

I wanna hear you laugh. ^_^

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Wooooooot! Andrew got a girrllllfriiieeenndd!
Tho i felt kinda bitter o_o;;

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Can you believe how a parent crash your hope?
Isnt a parent suppose to support you all the way?
I watched how one parent support her; financially and motivation and emotionally. Even tho its an unrealistic dream.
But what I wanted was simple. Far more simpler than that. All I wanted is to study.
I dont wanna go back to high school tho.
I have high confidence of what I'm doing now. I hate you, Mom.
I hate you, Mom. Wtf stop changing you mind. You already said you let me study, so stop fucking regret. And kept saying no money pay la. Fine, heres the deal. I loan those money from money from you. Once i work, TAKE IT ALL BACK.

Im so apathetic in my resentment.
Kung panaginip ka lang, ayaw ko nang magising pa
'Pagkat nadarama'y ligaya
Lahat ng naisin mo'y aking ibibigay
'Pagkat ikaw ay aking mahal

I wub this song o.o;;
I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

Baby! Mahal na mahal kita Mushy kow ^_~

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Lmao HAHAHA he still wants me back after calling me a hoe in front of Ayame. Rofl that fag sure changes fast.

AND AYAME <3
VERBAL PWNAGE! Love ya fer that.

Mark got owned badly. I actually pitied him. Poor boy.

IM ACTUALLY ENJOYING THE SCENE AND DRAMA ROFL.

I LOVE MY MUSHY! MINNEEES!

Monday, June 05, 2006

Just seen his myspace. So he replaced me with a guy named john. Im completely off his mind, completely off his heart. ^_^ Im glad.

Well actually, I still feel kinda bitter and sour. I wonder how he have been.

Did he find someone new to take over hes dream, the non reality one.

Will he evur forget me or have he already forgotten whos Trish.

Memories.

"Theres no blame for how our love did slowly fade,
Now its gone its like it wasnt there at all,
And here i rest, where disapointment and regret, collide."

You moved on, I should too.

"A little voice inside my head said don't look back
You can never look back
I thought I knew what love was
What did I know
Those days are gone forever
I should just let them go but...
I can see you."

Saturday, June 03, 2006

LMAO IM SOO A PIMP!
Its happening again >_>
And pwease, GIMME A JOB! = =

My wishlist
-A cute lil digital cam
-An iPod ;D
-A new compy! Plus new internet!
-Donations ;3 Muahaha

Mom had a fall last night. She was catching this cockroach and it flew, she panick and tripped and fall literally vertically backwards, hitting her head on the table first then on the floor. And i saw everything, its like in slow motion! But I couldnt do anything, I just stood there, stunned and screaming "mommy!" But thank gawd, after check up, shes fine. (:

Hello Lan (:

Friday, June 02, 2006

Stupid hypocrite.
Alex didnt get it right. You didnt change. Your originally like that.
Bye bye old friends. Bye bye saviour. Bye bye kind helpers.
Hello new friends. Hello cool ones.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

"Smile thru the tears baby"

I miss...
I wish...
I will cherish everyone of you again if i had the chance..
Im sorry.
>_<
Felt so sad.
Today is my dad's last day at work.
Im worrying about my studies, highly expences and general stuffs.
Hes so old... T_T!