Just came home then log on msn, Kai was like, "You broke up with Lan ya?" "Yup was like a month ago." "I can date you then!" Lawl! Hahaha.

Anyways, I just came home from Discussion. Well it was boring. We finished the drink at 1.30am. Then was like omg its still so early. Then bum around til like 2am+ I couldnt take it. Its so boring so I wanted to leave first. Then I and Darren walk around orchard slowly cause I didnt want to go home YET! Seriously im uber bored. Walk walk walk talk talk talk tilll mcafe. Sat there talk talk talk til its like 4am. Then my eyes are sooo red! Damn contact lens. Ahhh gotta get a new one. $_$

Seriously I havent slept from yesterday's gamblings at PY house cept that two hours nap in the afternoon til now! And I dont feel a least tired. Ok blah blah blah.
MY EYES!

Laters.

PY'S KITTEH SO CUUUUTE!
And and her mousie's babies are soooo TEENY! Like an inch. I sooo wanna squeeze it. Humm i didnt just said that.
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*Sigh* =/
After things changed, things still seems to suck.

Stop the fuckin car - Circa survive
Baiee.

Tumour Forward
Right, read this:

"Dont care how important u think u r..read and repost this if you dont believe it, call the number. Everyone needs to take the time and read this. Just take a break from all your other stupid bulletins about who is gonna die or if your love life will suck for 7 years and be serious and do the right thing. Repost this or you have no soul seriously. A kid needs our help so do the right thing.

Hi, my name is Matt Dawson. I am 23 years old, and I have a large tumor on my brain and severe lung cancer. The doctors say I will die soon if this isnt fixed, and my family cant pay the bills. "The Make A Wish Foundation" has agreed to donate 7 cents for every time this message is reposted. For those of you who repost, I thank you so much. But for those who dont repost it, I will still pray for you. Please, if you are a kind person, have a heart. Please, please, PLEASE REPOST THIS MESSAGE AS "READ PLEASE"!


Matt Dawson
602-999-7996 Home

Please feel free to call me for anything.

*hey it wont cost you but 10 seconds of your time*


I wont name who sent me this, but they wasted a good 15 seconds of my life by doing so. I shalnt turn this into a rant about forwarded messages, thats been done before. Rather, Im talking about this particular forward. For those who dont receive enough of this shit already, this is actually an exact copy of another fake forward doing the rounds. The only difference is the pretentious, patronising, holier-than-thou opening paragraph. That and the addition of a phone number. What arrogant fuckwit is going to think people are stupid enough to actually call it and check that this forward is genuine? "O yeah, Ill just call an international number I got in a forward to check to see if this email I forward to everyone will actually give this guy his whole 7 cents." I might as well send him a cheque equal to the cost of the phone bill I would have made; Id be making a bigger donation that anyone else (seeing as theirs would be absolute fuck all).

And what does "Please feel free to call me for anything" mean? Why? Why would I call? "Hey Matt, hows it going, still got the tumour? … Oh, no reason, I just got an email from someone telling me you had a brain tumour and that I could help give you 7 cents by forwarding it to people, and it handily included your home number. This is the right number, right? … Oh. Should I try his mobile? … Matt Dawson? … You dont? … Ah … Well, I suppose I should have guessed it was a copy of another email I got yesterday… and yes, I suppose “Matt Dawson” is a really bad fake name. That, and Im thick as shit. Sorry."

And if youre talking to someone who thinks they are very important, try to use correct spelling and grammar. Its even easier to look down on you if you write like a five year old on ketamin. I mean, I manage to. And Fuck-button, you only use an Asterisk notation when theres an asterisk in the actual script.

Although I will say I like the apt description of other forwards as the other stupid bulletins. But to be honest, I personally think that a 23 year old who is relying on people forwarding his tale to fund an operation probably isnt really worth saving.thedailyrant.

Juturna - Circa Survive
Laters.

CIRCA SURVIVE! Mmm confusing is it a Band or the singer from Saosin?

Mmm I might consider if you had the sincerity but no! Or either I dont feel it. Seems that after that Carl's jr thingy you stopped talking to me. Weeeelll will u even call me on Sat.

AHH no! Havent called the SCHOOLS yet! Should I even start calling them NOW?! Humm but no! I didnt want to! Sometimes I wish I had an assistant send from the sky to take care of everything for me. Who doesnt haaa. And I still think that im escaping REALITY. O how I hate this word. Why cant I grow up!
Still pondering whether if I should get a job.
Lifes been fun for them. Mmmmm.

A decade under the influence - Taking back sunday
Bai.

Fucking A, I cant sleep! Humm wrong I just dont wanna sleep.

ACCEPTED! This movie is awesommmeeee! This movie is teh shit man.

"Ask me about my weiner."

"Lets start a Battle Royale!"

"Look, we throw a lot of fancy words in front of these kids in order to attract them to going to school in the belief that their gonna have a better life, and we know that all were doing is breeding a whole new generation of buyers and sellers, BUYERS AND SELLERS! Pimps and whores, PIMPS AND WHORES! and indoctrinating them into a life long hell of debt and indecision! "

ITS NOT DISGUSTING! I MISS YOU! DONT GO HK! Rofl ;D

Met YT at CWP then hang around waiting for LY to come. YT bought her jeans at CWP. Then LY came and hum I bought something to eat cause I havent eaten since morning. Sooo hungry! Eating and talking while finishing my food cause I couldnt bring the food up the train. Talk talk talk then that dumbass YT says," Wo you mei you yong dao bi ni qu!" THEN LY TURNED AND WENT HOME. STUPID YT! Then I raaannn and chase LY but in the end I didnt beg her to stay LOL. Idiot man.

Then we two went to Bugis. Humm Bugis Village is HOT. Bought a clothing and nothing else! We go Ajisen Ramen eat. OMG I KAY KIANG order the same Ramen with YT. SOOO FRIGGIN SPICY! AHHH was like couldnt enjoy my meal! Kept blaming YT. Hahahahaha. Humm then meet my sis at CWP and walked home together.

I AM OFFICIALLY BROKE! Left 20cents ;D! Gotta collect money or ask for donations from my Daddie. Imma save every cents he gave me and then I can go out again >_>! IF NOT I WONT GO OUT WITHOUT A SINGLE CENTS!

@#$
The ground folds (Acoustic) - Senses fail
Peace.

SOMEONE FUCT MY FRIENDSTER UP! Wonder whos fucking aruond with my friendster. All my pics GONE!

UGH gotta get my BUM OUT OF THE HOUSE! Im late again.

Somehow this chair and the compy have attracting powers that made me not wanting to move away from IT! And the more I type the more I didnt wanna move. Humm okay im outtie.

Populace in two - FROM FIRST TO LAST
Deuce.
P.S I miss you! Really.

AHHH NOOO! Yt's going to hk ;[!
Imma go shopping with her later! Effin flu still bothering me much tho. But STILL I am still strong with my stand! No drugs! People are sooo dependant on drugs.
Saosin's new songs suckzoorrrs! =/
Mmm I wish december never ends. I miss the coldness. On this month last year, i was still playing RO with my blanket in front of the com, ranting about the coldness in Alde. Ahhh.

Shower
Deuce!

Friggin flu for days.

Where the hell is my buddy Snydes!

Cause I like
Where you sleep
When you sleep
Next to me
I like
Where you sleep
Here

Cause our lips
Can touch
Our cheeks
Can brush
Our lips
Can touch
Here

You are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whispers, "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly."
I fell in love, in love you with suddenly
That theres no place else I could be but here in your arms.

#$!%#@$RI(U@FIOPDJWRIQ#()%I*#$%)*#%OPRIEPWI@ >_>

Shopping cancelled. Dinner cancelled. But its okay! I <3 staying home on rainy days. AND THE THING THAT PISSED ME OFF IS MY GRANNNEEEE! I hate my com in the living room. I hate not having my own room cause of my granny. WE ARE OFFICIALLY COMPETING THE NOISE FROM MY COM AND HER TEEVEE.
Seriously, I miss the quietness of my home.
I WANT MY OWN ROOM.

Yayyy my mousies are finallly eating! Its funny to hear their feet sound when they are running on my bed. Its like some cartoon sound. Reminds me of Family guy's STEWIE!

"Na nana nananana nan na?"
"Na na nanana na."
"Nana."

LOL <3
Crash and burn - Savage garden
Laters.

Yay for skirtie tomorrow! And yay for greenie!

When I was showering in the morning, was sitting in the toilet smoking and thinking random stuffs. Was thinking about a new wallet cause my sis's FACE is stuck on the wallet. Then thought about money... then... remembered theres a 10 dolla note in my back pocket of my short which I threw in the pail.... of water... a min.. AGO! Was like, "AHHH SHIT!" Jeez was yelling in the toilet. Luckilyyy money is not torn easily. >.>

Hummm went to YT house. They GAMBLING AGAIN! I was soo bored. I hate gambling so I didnt join in. Sat on her bed disturb them. Disturb YT's mousie. Disturb YT. LY kept winning after I came LOL! Bummed around til like 6+ then we went for dinner. YT! That asshole! We were playing in the middle of the road and she suddenly YELLED at my face "YOU CHE!" Of course! Natural reaction, to jump and run? LOL and she couldnt stop laughing and KEPT replaying my reaction OVER AND OVER AGAIN. >_> Series of funny stuffs. Blah blah blah.
Went back gamble again >.>....... Nearly fell asleep! While I was resting i heard YT say, "Hope she fall asleep til she missed her movie." Was like WHAT?! I HEARD THAT! LOL!
PY RETURN ME MY RICOLA! Ate all my sweets ;[

Went back home then catch Battle of Wits with my dad! The story wasnt that good.. But I like when its war! Soooo MUCH soldiers! Its like a game ha. And friggin people so noisy behind. Then after the movie we were hungry! Daddie and I went to 515 for supper. And humm I told him to buy Green tea for me and I helped him order Carrot cake. Then when I went back.... was like THE HELL?! He was holding a tiger and two mugs. >.> Shees and I saw Ben Ho they all. Na na na love my Daddie! Hes so cool. We share ciggies, he allows me to drink, he drives me to pub sometimes, and he owns a cool bike! <33

OKAY! And now im home. Back to my SOLIDARY CONFINEMENT. Or w.e you spell it. Haaa

All at once - The fray
PEACE! Much loves!<3~!
!! Damn mousie!
P.S He likes me TOO!

Suicidal escape?
The setbacks starts all the way from Sec 3. I need to move OUT of the fence.

Anyway, gotta settle unfinished stuffs at least BY this week or the better, tomorrow. NO MORE PROCRASTINATING! No more time left. I couldnt believe Ive dragged this until now. What the hell am I doing these few years? Wake up girl.
*Takes a huge breath*

Didnt get much sleep these two days! Didnt know why I just couldnt sleep. Mmm maybe im just used to sleeping 12 hours a day? Rawr ;3 Have to wake up early tomorrow. Humm imma go take a nappie on my sofa since I couldnt sleep on my bed. - .-

LIST OF STUFFS DELAYED
-My skirt damnit?
-The decisions
-Numbers
-JOB?! Where is it?

Everything was crashing down again. When I was trying to sleep on my bed mins ago, I felt so suicidal again. I tried talking to my sis. Those words just couldnt come out. And I didnt wanna bother her cause shes happily talking to him. I lay there and listen how happy she is. I silently tears. Everyone in the world must be thinking, "Look at this emo girl, what a loser..."
Everytime I saw this word loser, I always thought of a poem I read somewhere. And I feel better again. I regretted I didnt save it. Couldnt find it now. That poem is so strong.

PEOPLE WHO TRIED TO HELP. THANK YOUUUUUU! Much loves <3~!!

Mmm niways, tomorrow will be better. (:
Disguise - Lene Martin
Peace.

NOMOREPROCRASTINATING.

Life as a guy

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4, 5, 6. Aww darn. 7, 8, 9. Not quite yet. 10, 11, 12. Go on. 1, 2, 3? Lan, yes, no? No. Lets do this again.
What is this?! A friggin cycle?

Honestly, what is the purpose of me being here? Is it to enjoy my life and make the most of all the free time I have? Or is it just to be taken for a fucking ride by pretty much everyone I come into contact with though no fault of my own??

Im emo? Damn right.
Angry kid? Not quite.
I am SO DEAD.
Hate me.

NIWAYS! Chatted with Mary and Rara yesterday night. Jeez cant stop calling him Mary. I MEANT Marvin. HE JUST gotta rub in salt to my wounds. "You and Lan still <3?"
...No me and Lan S/2 Hes dead. "WERE" DEAD. No more "WE". So like just.... shees. WHAT DO YALL WANT TO HEAR?! WERE DONE OKAY! Friggin a, why cant EVERYONE stop asking about US. Seriously you know... everyone! Jeez. No im not gon end here. Tell me what you want to hear? Happy ending? And "they" lived happily ever after? NO joke man. This is pissing me off. So he just disappear like that. The hell can I do? Stop asking me illogical questions. You really think I could do something?! You really think hes not to blame? You really think he will be back? And? The point is? No! Theres no point. All the things ive done. Theres no point! Things ive given up for him. PEOPLES ive given up for him. Theres NO point! Time ive wasted. Efforts ive wasted. THERES NO POINT. SO STOP ASKING. STOP TELLING ME THERES STILL HOPE. STOP TRYING TO COMFORT ME CAUSE ITS NOT GON HAPPEN. HE IS NOT HERE. HE IS NOT ALIVE. I! For the last time will ever be alive to him.

... ...

Seriously this month I AM TRYING NOT TO GET MAD OR ALL EMO OVER HIM. SO PEOPLE JUST STFU.

Humm.. >.> I am not dissing Marvin. Just... he trigger my emotional bomb. -_-

Seriously that song gotta shut up for once. I AM NOT HAPPY STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME FEEL HAPPY.

XY asked me if I quarrel with Darren. -_- was like huh? O...k dont wanna RANT anymore.

Letters to you(Acoustic) - Finch
Word out.
P.S I am fine now. -_- Or may appear. Seriously man... kkthxfuckyallbai.

Procrastinate til eternity >.>

Cant sleep! Im soo sleepy and my right head hurts so much but I cant sleep. So got up to blog. Iono why I tends to blog everytime I couldnt sleep. Prolly cause of the thoughts in my head? The music in my head? Gah.

I remember the times I was obsess with RO. We had like four wipes. At the first wipe, I hated the days after the first wipe and misses the old one. At the second wipe, I hated the second and misses the first. It goes on. I guess thats much the same about life. Now I misses Kaz3ro and its gone.
If im at my deathbed, will I regret more on the things Ive done or the things I didnt do?

Today, was talking with my mom and sis. They suddenly talked about Hypotension or w/e they spell it. Then I asked whats that? And then all the nurses in the house starts talking. Then suddenly my sis says im pron to Hypotension with my way of life. Was like, "OooKAY, NURSE."

Here - Hellogoodbye
Ciao. For the last time today. >.>
P.S If you want to avoid obstacles in your life, fence them out. But, you dont fence obstacles out, they fence you IN.
P.P.S Is the mousies mating? Why is that noise?

Is is really that simple?
Maybe its just that simple.

May be, may not be. Your choice.

Say it - Voices of theory
Humm see you again, again, andd again.

P.S HAPPEE BIRTHDAY NURUL! I aint going tho! Sry!
P.P.S Havent made a decision YET! WHAT? What should I do?
P.P.P.S I sincerely miss L.I.F.E Whats life?

Where are you now?
As Im swimming through the stereo
Im writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I rearrange the songs again
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of

Came back from supper. Haa in the end we only ate some little things cause we aint hungry at all. And PY! Finally gave me her mousies! <3
And then I said, "I was wondering how YT look like in long hair with her previous hair." LOL AND after that she took my SLIPPER AND THREW IT ON THE ROAD. >_>
We stayed until it was like 1am then decide to go home. Friggin YT pushed me into that banner. >_> and keeeeept laughing. And I yell at her ears hahaha we were yelling like no one's fuck.

We parted and I walked down the road. I <3 thee cold, empty, dark, quiet and lonely road. Well it doesnt really matters if its quiet or not. I loove walking down that road with my mp3. It makes me feel happy.. freee and humm joy! Humm I was like AWW when I reached home. I wish I can walk like that forever. Keeep walking with my mp3. <33 The breeze, the cold and the air.

Here - Hellogoodbye
Ciao.