Pictures.

I CANT SURVIVE WITHOUT MY MOUSE!
Today we spend the night at YT's again.
Impromtu steamboat.
I got tricked!

And the overdued pictures.






YT stop showing your ass!








Nick whats wrong with your eyes!

Im the weakest.

Your the only guy who can make me feel so weak in your eyes, the only thing that I could do is put up a white flag and surrender.
Sometimes I thought, walking away is easier than surrendering; to not think of it, to not care about it.
But you caught me in the palms of your hand, all I could do is struggle and surrender.
Tell me baby, why am I the weakest in your eyes, your touch...

Sorry guys for the overdued pictures.
I will update when I get a new mousie.

And, people are having fun playing with my feelings. Tsk tsk.

2008 not Goodbye yet.

Everyone had penned down their last thoughts of the year.
I havent.
My every end-of-the-year was either full of bliss and excitement or either full of sorrow and sadness.
This year was a different one.
This year left me speechless.
I am going to go through it like how I did last year.

All the beautiful things that happened and the worst.
Welcome 2008 again.

1. I have gotten over him without any scars.
2. I had N* piggyrided me over the island at Sentosa.
3. I have worked at Mint Cafe.
4. I had the most touching Valentine's Day.
5. I enrolled for O level and didnt got a place.
6. I nearly believe in love.
7. I met an old friend.
8. I got my first electric guitar.
9. I have forgiven.
10. My first meal at Sakura.
11. He's* first day in Army.
12. I used to say, "I rather spend time having fun than worrying."
13. I blushed at the sight of N* wearing the uniform.
14. I have made new friends.
15. My sister started her first day at work at the hospital.
16. I worked at Playcraft.
17. I clubbed.
18. I used to say, "Future together, life together."
19. N* created suprises for me.
20. I got my first PS3.
21. I had fun on my birthday.
22. I did things out of conduct.
23. I had faded from his view once.
24. I let God into my life.
25. I fell in love again.
26. PSP for presents.
27. I left Playcraft.
28. I have done shoppings for N*.
29. I have yearn for another fate with the mysterious guy.
30. My mom got into NanYang Poly.
31. I have earned a closer bonding with my girls.
32. N* and I have drifted.
33. N* passed his guards course.
34. I passed my N levels.
34. I cooked.
35. We are still drifting.
36. I have loved.
37. I have been disappointed badly.
38. I have been touched.
39. I have let it go.
40. I have reminisced.
41. I have changed.
42. I have learnt.

My new year's resolution.
1. I am going to find a job.
2. I am going to reduce my intake of cigarettes.
3. I am going to enroll for O levels.
4. I am going to be stronger.

A new year, a new start.
Lets hope for a start over for us.

Some words are still hard to say.
This distance, this crack, these doubts can never be mend. Can it?
Every turn, change a situation.
Which turn to make, it better not be too late.
Given the last choice, the last chance, what would you do?
I've already knew.
I have reached a decision.

P.S I have my resolve, to forget 2008.

L.I.F.E #3

My newly formatted com, rocks.
Life had been a blast these few days.
I really need a job to get my life back.
My real life back.

Everyone, in their life, theres been thousands of critical moments in their life, where one subconsiously have to make a decision. They might not even know it is happening when things go too fast. But at the end, they would look back wondering if what they did was right. At the end, they would either feel accomplished, happy, blissful or even remorseful, regrets, stress, goal-less.
Our life would be like a river, here and there, theres a few channels breaking out. A path for us to choose. But without our knowing, we had already choosen a path. When we see a dead-end, without even knowing, we turn back towards the main channel, to continue the flow.

My life right now, is just like that.
Where everything is just hectic.
Theres definately some mysterious energy going on around about.
Without exactly knowing whats there to choose from, I bet, I already had made a choice, subconsiously doing it.
A turning point.
I dont know whats there in the future.
I dont know who will be there in the future.
And I definately dont know how am I in the future,
lets just pray and leave it to God.
Pray that every single channel, I do not sway.
That every channel, I make the right turn.
And the strength to go on.

P.S I love the changes I have made.
P.P.S I have to adapt to my single life.

Pina Colada

Photos compiled together.

We cant withstand the fucking storm.
Maybe what my mom had said was right.
But I had so much fun today.
Showing Nick's cousin and his wife around the city, the nightlife.
So long, I had fun.
I swear I am going to have much more fun from today.
I cant keep myself away from those kind of activities no matter how I kept myself away. ;]

Like I have expected, ben xing dan yi, you will not change.
My tolerance and hopes has finally reached its limit.
My first and second slap at you in a second.
And my first time saying sorry just like that.
I dont know what to say, and I dont have anything to say to you.
I rather be single than be with a ________, I dunno what word to use.
This obstacle, I cant get pass.
Bye and nights.

The 10 Orchestra.

So.... we went drinking till the dawn... NOT.
Whoever say, bu zui bu gui? HAHA!
That word will be used again on Tues yea?

P.S You seems kind of unreliable.

The BEST movie.

OH. MY. GOD. EVERYONE SHOULD WATCH THIS MOVIE!
ITS THE BEST BEST BEST MOVIE I EVER WATCHED IN THIS CENTURY.
SO AWESOME! HOORAY! BRING OUT THE BEST IN THE ANCIENT CHINESE WORLD!
I DONT MIND WATCHING FOR THE SECOND TIME, THE THIRD TIME!
IM SO GETTING THE DVD HAHA!

My family gets fed up listening to me nagging about the BEST movie again and again.







I really look like an auntie at home. HEEHEE.
Its okay, cause I have taken the role over my mum, if you girls get what I meant.
My family love my Thai Popiah! Or they are just giving me face.
My sis does all the wrapping, cause I can cook, I cant wrap.
LAU CAN COOK!

We girls should all go Sentosa someday...

P.S The mIRC idiots. The best entertainment of the night, is to crush someone's ego to some self-slothing idiot.
I seriously had some great laughs. Go find some sluts.

XOXO?

Whenever I have decisions to make, horoscope and tarot always seem to have something to say. Oh and I had subscribed for daily readings since sec 3.

It's hard for you to share your feelings today, because you may not be able to figure out how to state the truth without hurting someone you like. Your words are likely right on the mark and therefore can carry a lot of weight now. Ultimately, your intentions are good, but your execution may be lacking. It's best to start off slowly to see how others will react before impulsively blurting everything out all at once.


It may feel as if something is about to end -- and it is. We are at a seasonal shift as the Sun leaves buoyant Sagittarius to enter ambitious Capricorn, the first sign of winter. Here in the Northern hemisphere we may acknowledge the magic of these darkest days of the year and contemplate the hard work that lies ahead. Although we know what's coming, we can still relish in this last day of autumn with help from a lovely people-pleasing Libra Moon.

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Was at Downtown East yesterday.
Hell, we bought lots of cute, sexy PANTIES!
And i still hate China women.
I dreamt of them today too.
That just shows how much i hate them.

At 3am, XH and YT came for XO.
I honestly love XO.

I got my results back.
And I am very happy with it.

So, im back to single hood.
I wont give in until we both change and mature.
There are certain two different kinds of quarrels.
One jeopardise the relationship, the other makes the relationship stronger.
So til you grow out of your behaviour, mature, and takes yourself seriously, we wont be together.
Til I respect myself, value myself, be independent, mature, we wont be together.

If we are meant to be, then we would be strengthen by the wait.
Re-unite at the end or not?

For a lasting relationship, this is an obstacle we musnt avoid.
Even if we couldnt get over it, I dont regret.
Its because im serious, and so I made this decision.
And for the growth of this relationship.
I dont want it to stay stagnant and frustrating.
Or this relationship is just turning about in circles.
A vicious cycle. A vicious cycle always ends bad.


I passed my exams by God's grace.
Thank you my Lord, my Saviour.

Made Thai wraps for lunch today.
No picture taken, too ugly to be seen. Hehe.
But its still taste good tho too dry.

Im bored.

Yum Cha

My punishment of DA BAO.
I JUST GOTTA PUKE!



Yum cha today at Chinatown.
I will never forget the DA BAO!
AND THE ALMOND TEA!

YT and PY came over for guitar lesson.

Back to XO with my Dad.
Bye!

Boom!

I dont like buffets, you pay to stuff yourself.
And to enjoy the torture of the aftermath.
Your bloated stomach.



Nicky passed his guards course.
I went to his parade with his family.
It was cool. Especially those Jeep-like stuffs.
Pictures is at their side.
Will upload it soon.

His parents brought us for food.
To No Signboard Seafood!
Unhealthy meal.
I personally dont enjoy seafood.
And Nicky should learn to be more less camera shy.
And I should get braces.

Last christmas

This has always been my favourite seasonal song.
Therefore, enjoy!



Last christmas, I gave you my heart.
But the very next day, you gave it away.
This year, to save me from tears.
I gave it to someone special.

Escapee Tells of Horrors in North Korean Prison Camp

Click for the full story.

Making money. Saving money. Dating. Loving another human being. These are all strange concepts that Shin has struggled -- and largely failed -- to understand.

An unforgettable -- almost unfathomable -- chapter of that story is about the execution of his mother, who was hanged in 1996, on the same day Shin's only brother was shot to death. Both killings, Shin writes in his book, occurred at Camp No. 14 in a kind of public square, a place where he had seen many others executed.


Before he was taken to the square and ordered to watch them die, Shin said, he had spent seven months in an underground cell, where guards used torture to force him to talk about a supposed "family conspiracy" to escape from the camp.

Since his mother hadn't told him about such a plan, Shin said, he was startled to hear of it. His torturers also surprised him by telling him, for the first time, why he and his family were in the camp. Two of his father's brothers had collaborated with South Korea during the Korean War and then fled to the South, the guards told him. His father was guilty because he was the brother of traitors. Shin was guilty because he was his father's son.

As for the escape plan of his mother and brother, Shin knew nothing. Still, the guards wanted a confession.

As described in the book, they built a charcoal fire. Shin was stripped of his clothes. Ropes were tied to his arms and legs and secured to the ceiling of the cell. He was dangled over the fire. When he writhed away from the flame, a guard pierced his gut with a steel hook to hold him in place. He lost consciousness.

Shin recovered in a cell with the help of a sickly older man who gave him half his food ration. Months later, when Shin walked out of the underground cell to the public square, he was joined by his father.

"When I saw that place, I thought my father and I would be executed," Shin said in the interview.

Instead, to his surprise, he became a spectator. His mother and brother were brought to the square.

Watching his mother being hanged, Shin recalls, he was relieved it was her, not him.

"I felt she deserved to die," he said. "I was full of anger for the torture that I went through. I still am angry at her."

Nine years later, Shin escaped. He was working in the camp's garment factory with an older prisoner who had seen the outside world and wanted to see it again. When they were collecting wood in a mountainous corner of the camp on Jan. 2, 2005, the two ran to an electrified barbed-wire fence. His friend got hung up and died in the fence; Shin stepped on his body and managed to get through.

"I could afford little thought for my poor friend and I was just overwhelmed by joy," he writes of his first moments beyond the fence.

He broke into a nearby house, where he stole clothes and rice. He sold some of the rice for cash and made his way north to the border with China. There, he bribed guards with cigarettes and ran across the frozen Tumen River. Shin says he is still amazed that he got out.


"I think God was helping me," he said.

Here in South Korea, Shin sometimes goes to church on Sundays. "I go to the church, but I don't really understand the words or the concepts," he said.

The concept of forgiveness is especially difficult for him to grasp. In Camp No. 14, he said, to ask for forgiveness was "to beg not to be punished."

I nearly cried reading it.
Shin is fortunate, very.
Did he ever thought that, what if his friend's body wasnt there for him to step on?
When live is at stake, who could really afford to think of one another.
Thats how humans are.
Selfish and ignorant.
Sometimes I really fear...