_____________________________________________ Just listening to the voices...

Monday, May 01, 2006

??a???ss.. says:heyy?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:o_o?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:heys
??a???ss.. says:lol
??a???ss.. says:uhh
??a???ss.. says:u deleted trishie
????a???ss.. says:on ur msn list o.o?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:why is she asking?
??a???ss.. says:shes hurt?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:blah, me no care
??a???ss.. says:
??a???ss.. says:ur a bad man
??a???ss.. says:lol?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:good
??a???ss.. says:=O
??a???ss.. says: i got a question for milk?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:what am i gonna have her there for? so she can look back?
??a???ss.. says:fiber helps take out fat and all that rite??
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:i don't talk to her?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:No, fiber only helps u to poop and built strong bones

«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:tell her to stop telling everyone about it, im sick of this and only want for her to forget me move on with her life, i don't care anymore period?
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:because sometimes u just gotta things let go that's all

«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:no no no no no, fucking shit, people should stop getting into this, she needs to have more character, what the fuck, getting everyone involved, fucking imature
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:she needs to grow some balls if she wants to survive in life
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:cuz this is the beggining it gets tougher once ur older
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:once u leave ur house, u see u don't have a job, no parents there to help you, and your bills are chocking u
«Ða???£» Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream... says:then u need to grow some balls

Sunday, April 30, 2006

You bastard. Why cant you face me.
FACE ME YOU BASTARD.
Stop running away from me.
Your so a loser.
Your just gonna run away from it.
Your so heartless...
You dont need to delete me on your msn.
Why would you do that?
You want to forget me.
You want to erase me forever...
Please dont do that.
Please remember me...
Thats all I ever wanted from you.. BUT YOU JUST GOTTA DO THAT TO ME.
Your just a jerk off my head.

What did you said to me when i was drunk.
What were those. You liar.

JERK.
...

Im here.
Your just refuse to see.
You refuse to feel me.
Bleh. Went out with xh, py,ly and xy today.
I realise that, I dont got much to talk with them anymore...
I realise that, I talk more with friends on the net than real life friends and thats the truth.

I gets confident when im online cause im like the top in the game. But on the other hand, Im such a failure in the real world. I refuse to open up. I couldnt raise my head up. I cant find a place for me out there... GAH W/E.

And today in the foodcourt, I heard someone singing seven years by saosin. Then Im like EH?! SAOSIN! Hes like shocked looking at me, im like shocked looking at him. Were like thinking the same thoughts, thinking Eh? You know this song too huh.
Hahaha xD Cause in Singapore, songs from new, not famous bands is not heard here. And especially rock bands, not played in radios here in Singapore. So were shocked with each other that we knew the song.
I hope Singapore have more varieties of stations >_>

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Jeez I dreamt of him again :/
I was in his room. And were drinking? I think.
Then I saw his msn. He msg "Anything for you :D" to another person...
Then I kept drinking more.
Then I forgot what happen lmao.
Then he walked away and I shouted, "I know your a player"
He looked at me saying "Im not focusing all on me anymore." And throw w/e thats on his hand on the table and turn away and walked off.
I was hurt and i begged him to come back. I saw him thru the gap of the door and he looked at me and shaked his head and his gone.

Wow bad dreams. I want something good please >_>
Mmm.. so heartless...

Friday, April 28, 2006

Woah I want that new sony digital cam O_______O

Wooterz hooterz!
I got that job :O!!!
But but but... Im afraid to work... ;-;...
Imma start in like one week time.

I hope I love the job alotttttt.
Dont quit half way again >_>

Daaamn.
I can sit all day at home with my playlist... <3

Me and songs for my companion...



We stood on the same land.
We look at the same sky.
But we couldnt be together..
I can sit all day at home with my playlist... <3


Thursday, April 27, 2006

Mmm. Just came home..
I left him a msg. He.. didnt reply me...
Or didnt bother to read...
Im like fine. Thats like the only thing i can do..
As you said, you cant really do anything about it from there.
True story..
But at LEAST I did bother to try...
What hurts me the most is you didnt even bother to.
That tells me that, I dont matter to you at all.
Do I even cross your mind??
Please please please show me you still care.
You said you still loves me. Lots.
Please show it that I aint just dreaming.
Please show me that what you said is true.
From here I can do lots for you.
I can do everything to improve my life. :[
Tell me you want me back.
I... even smile happily to smile to myself when I thought of sending you an ipod nano with letters and pictures...
Cause I wanted something REAL for you..
Until now.. I still didnt dump that thinking away.
Now I realise, you dont feel me.
I aint that real to you.
Leave me a msg...
Ok. I dont wanna start this post with 'Just another hate site'.
Haha ok now what I just read concern any of the social sites. Like Friendster, Myspace, Facebook.

And Myspace have the most population than any of the social sites.
So... he just gotta flame it.

http://moneydick.com/wordpress/2006/04/23/science-of-myspace/

Ok.
How can you even called it a scientific research? Its just a bunch of opinions and searches and assumptions to indicate that myspace failed.

1- You see quotes like 'Im going to kill myself'. Have you even tested it? Do you even know if they ARE actually doing it?

2- Im rick james bitch. Haha this is funny. Ok yar I agree that jokes that have been going too long will gets irritating and even annoying. But I still hears it all the time.

3- Ok. This caught my attention. Because what really pissed me off is when people dont know how to spell. I dont know why but its like they either dont learn english or they are just a blob that couldnt even type well.

PeOpLe WhO tYpE LiKe ThIs ShOuLd GeT a LyfE.

n wads wost. ii c shoo many peoples spelling shiz liik thiis n i wonder iif they even speak liike tt in real lyfe. iit ish soo fuckn annoying. eu should go learn som learn engliish.

If you really speak like that in real life then your a complete retard.

And people who spams this "lol" aka laughing out loud which is totally pointless, cause if you have got nothing to say then just get your ass off. Probably due to the influence retardation on the net. I dont even understand why is people adding stuffs like "lol(s)" Is there such need for plural? No reason thing...

Sometimes it really gets on my nerve.
Some egs which I find really funny.
Theres one random pinoy who call out to Danny(Trepitation. Not Meth)
Pinoy: "ei"
Danny:"ei doesnt starts with a sentence."
Pinoy: "ei noh no kill me"
Danny:"In German ei means egg. What are you trying to impline. Are you calling me an egg?"
This is so fucking hilarious.
Theres another situation in which I was there.
Pinoy:"Warp me from dragons plz."
Me:"Warp you from dragons? Ok. Get to the dragons first then if you insist."
Hahaha funny shit.

4- 'Luv' Its funny how they love the person when they couldnt even tell them "I love you" Instead, "I luv you"

And its even funnier that Im actually crying over stuffs like this when I actually do it myself.

5- I hAtE mY pArEnTs CaUsE tHeY wOuLdNt AlLoW mE tO pAiNt My WaLlS bLaCk AnD sLeEp In A cOfFiN. (Total sacasism.)

6- Ads. Ok. I find this totally unnescesory. They need those to keep Myspace 'living'.

7- Checking out your friendster with all those 'Epileptic' shits is seriously gay.

And you dont really wanna get a date in myspace. Or if you do, you should really thank myspace for finding you an emo, stalker, perv, pedopiles, etc etc.

'Its funny how with all the problems the world faces, all the hate groups like the KKK, all the cults the world has, all the oppresive governments that rule the world, etc. We pick a fight with myspace.'

I agree..

"when will you do a research about Friendster? "

I couldnt be more excited to read it.

And whats with those "Send to 10 of your friends if not you will die of blah blah blah." Thats just simply annoying and gay. Only those fucktards believed it.
And plus, superstitious is due to lack of educations and knowledges.
"What ___ are you" Quizzes.
Yo, I dont need a quiz to judge me so stfu.

One of the examples from one of all retards who lack of immaturity.
"i luv da space yo! wurd 2 ya motha! fo sheezy off da skeezy! yallz just dun no about diz mayn! wez kewla den joo! yallz wak! myspizase fo life! gunit! wurd mayn joo best recignise!!!! im cool cuz i use da space and i get all mah hose der! im da kewlest person ever!"

Jeez >_>
You call that 13375p34k.(Leetspeak)

And hell.. That was the longest rant for myspace I've ever read. It was eye-opening for me.
I totally enjoyed it. It was hilarious and brilliant. He deserve my applause.

... ... Im rick james bitch.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

I dreamt of johnny.. was like wtf.. How did he get in the picture.. And xy.
And couldnt remember well but there was Danny...

;(

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

And yea plus.. I drool in my sleep O_O
And everytime I wake up.. Im like fffffuuuck
Added :
And.. He fucked me and after that started abusing me in my dream.

I keep waking up in cold sweat and short of breathe.

Those dreams are in parts and parts cause I keep waking up...
Man wtf..
Im like ffffuuuuck.
I kept having you in my dreams everyday.
And its getting weirder and stronger each day.
Its so freaky sometimes.

I forget the other day's dreams but I remember this one so clearly.

Kz.. We were out. Kwang, Danny, me, xh, dad, peiyin, yingting, huini or some others that i forgot.
And then kwang and I were together so was like wtf... And I was talking all the time with Danny. And Danny is getting moodier each time. And I think he like some other girls. And Kwang.. I broke up with him and he couldnt stop haressing me. And my dad.. was helping him. And I even think that my dad was him. Then py, hn, xh, I went into some shopping mall. And py totally snob xh and me. So xh and I went into some sushi restaurant to eat. And I pity my dad cause I thought he was kwang then I snob him. So I let my dad come eat too.

Then suddenly, blah blah blah we were on a bus and it crash like a rollercoster. Then.... my... dad... was injured. T_____________T
I dont know what happen after that.
Then I pm Danny on msn. He was like im a cheater and a liar. Think before you want me. He said that to me. And hes getting freakier and moodier.

Wow... thats about it.
Weird dreams keeps coming...

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Man I wish Haku could stop being like Michelle LOL Just giving an example :X
Hes like no I cant tell. Geebus. Just tell meh you mofo. Im like fine dont tell me, you damn liar. Then hes like fine... Then the next day hes like, hey... msges me when your back I got something to tell ya. Then Im like hey... sup. Then he went offline.
... >_> Annoying chubbyness. Rofl. Meh I dont care what he said to him. :/
Even IF I do care, so? Cause it will be only me who cares.

Will you evur look far into the distance and say my name...?
Last night I saw you online
Your screen name used to be mine...

Saturday, April 22, 2006

I want you to know that, I miss you, I miss you so.


Now I just wish that, I still remains in your heart.
Dont you evur forget me.

Just look far to the horizon and say my name...

Friday, April 21, 2006

Well..
Sorry for dragging you into my misery.
Sorry that I aint real at all.
Sorry for all my rants of life.
Sorry that I just have to pour out all my misery on you.
Sorry you that you just couldnt figure that out earlier.
Sorry that im drunk.
Sorry that I couldnt manage my life well enough.
Sorry Im the only thing in your life that isnt perfect.
Sorry that I couldnt really be in your life.
Sorry that I gonna just drink my life away.
Sorry that you just didnt realise that this is just me.
Sorry that you didnt know that I aint that perfect.
Sorry that you just have to tell me those sweetest thing.
Sorry that I just couldnt help falling madly in love with you.
Sorry that I just couldnt be there.
Sorry that Im just a burden.
Sorry that ...
Sorry for all my cause.
Omg...
This sucks so bad... Danny just broke up with me... ;-;.......
He never know how miserable I am. You can literally hear me screaming and crying from my room.
O yes and Gin gin moore gin. I finished up that whole bottle of Gin by myself : ]
Im alll alone in my home. No ones gonna stop me now.
He he I was freaking drunk at 1.30pm. Thats so fucked up.
Those tears just wont leave my eyes. : [
Im lucky enough that the kitchen knife aint that sharp ;(
All it did was make a dent in my flesh :/
I tried to find anyone... Anyone at all...
Not on the net, not anywhere real.
Net life is fucked up. My real life is fucked up too.
I guess everything is screwed up for me.
Nothing evur works out just fine.
I thought this is magic finally. But he just have to crash it.
Man.. what can i say. And I was saying shit to him when I was drunk. O_O
Meh I couldnt remember but I read the chat log history. Zomg. I bet hes heart broken ;(
But Iono maybe he dont even care at all...

I puked all over my bed. Lmao thats screw up.
I felt so sick when i woke up. O I forgot I havent ate anything since i drink.
So so sick.