DRUNK MESSY AND SEXEH!

MORE MORE PICTUREEEES!
Im so pretty lalala~
I seriously feel like putting all the pictures cause im so HOT.
Okay im shameless.

BALCONY SMOKING!


THOSE TWO DRUNK GIRLS. PATHETIC HAHA!











CAMERA EYES ON ME!


TADA!


FINE!






Well, we were supposed to blow ONE candle each ONLY! Since theres three birthday people.




Im so happy~ I looked so happy~!








They were busy eating IM busy cutting.


Time for sabotage? The grand welcome of the Waterfall. Shit!


HAHA! Look at my face! Woooooaaaaaaaah!




Dum di dum~


!!


Oh so sweet?


Second sabotage. Flaming Lamo. Back off YOU! I wish.




I think I looked drunk messy and sexy in this picture.


It seriously tasted like SARSI. O_o

Dilemma.

When will it return?
When will it goes away?
Its always obscure.

What can I say.
Im just that same girl you knew at the pub.

When would I have my fun again?

I wanna thank all my girlies for the wonderful birthday celebration!
Love you all and love the enjoyable NIGHT!
Hope you guys had fun too!









Sabotage by the great Anthony.
Waterfall and the damnit Flaming Lamo

This place had gone dead ever since the PS3.
HA! I DONT EVEN HAVE TIME FOR GUITAR!
-
So long since a wonderful date. ;/

YAHOOOOOOO I GOT MY PS3!

...
They once used to be my everything.
Though I never once felt sad about this matter or dont used to be bothered about this. I felt it today that we really drifted.
And I realised I am really different from the bunch. But I never once got influenced by their likings.
I guess this is life.

I wanted to say, pretend you didnt read my previous post but forget it since its his last day.
The few worst day ever at work.
Sorry for venting my anger at you.

Peter.

Today I really opened up my eyes.
Hes a great man buried beneath his flaws.
I should start looking at his great points instead of his flaws.
I was really touched by this experience but at the same time, felt bad.
Be the change you want to see.

I literally stare at the screen with mouth wide open for 2mins.
Fretless guitar with Ned Evett! Omfg what a beautiful sound.
Reminds me of the beautiful world. That flute-like sound.

Happy happy high!

MY FATHER! Praised me on my guitar skills.
I am very very very happy.
Ever since I learnt guitar, he had been quite egoistic about it.
If hes willing to praise, it meant something.
Wee. Im not trying to brag HAHAHAHA.
Gonna learn more popular songs. Easy and FUN.

Mine.

To remind me so I wouldnt be dishearted.
List of songs I've accomplished!

Acoustic
1. Knockin on Heaven's Door - GnR
2. Linger - Cranberries
3. Zombie - Cranberries
4. Promises - Cranberries
5. Wonderwall - Oasis
6. Radio - The Corrs
7. Our Song - Taylor Swift
Cant remember the rest.

Normal cover
1. Adam's Song - Blink 182
2. Cryin - Aerosmith
3. All of me - Angus and Julia Stone
4. Dont Cry(intro) - GnR
5. When the Children Cry - White Lion
6. Love is on the Way - Saigon Kick
7. Always somewhere - Scorpions
8. One Last Breath - Creed

Weeee will update.

BTW if anyone thinking what to get me on my birthday, PS3 OR PS3 GAMES YOU SHOULD THINK ABOUT. HAHAHAHHAHAHA! Thanks in advance. Im an asshole, thanks.

Harold and Kumar. Hilarious.
The first one wasnt as funny as the current one.

No guitar lesson next week.
No guitar lesson for the whole month of June.
WTF! Teacher is going traveling in June.
In a month, to four different places OMG HES DAMN RICH YO.
Japan, Korea, Taiwan, Malaysia.

No PS3, no lessons, I feel so LOST!
Theres absolutely nothing left to gratify my boredom.
Study uh huh what else.
Shopping? No thanks.
WHAT ELSE IS THERE?!

Nick's BMT is ending soon tho.
For the better or for the worse.

At the same time, when I reached home today, I feel so lost too.
Wheres the home I once belong?

I love my BODAK

Are you really the one?

Such.

I love my new workplace.
Usually, its either I hate it before the first month's over or I left within the first month. NOT THIS TIME!
I never skip a day.
I never grudge a day.
And yes! New friends of course mentioning Peter.
The all so hilarious Peter. *Smirks*
YOU BRING JOY AND LAUGHTERS TO MY LIFE.
ALL HAIL PETER!
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HAAAAAAAAAA. SUCKA.
And Jerry! Any info of games and console, ASK HIM!
And dont be racist. Malay rocks! >_>
And of course, Xiao Hui is always here to gossip. =]
Love you!
Working with you is always such fun.
Next time, i'll go wherever you will go.

And seriously, I cant wait for my Ps3.
Cant wait to start.

I still misses the Guppies and our drunkard night.
But sadly, I doubt we would ever meet again.
Maybe its my fault. But its just all about the time and circumstances.
Really sorry.

FUCK

What kind of bidding is that.

Phone line resumed. Thanks.

PS3 I AM COMING FOR YOU DEAREST!
NYAHAHA. Im too excited for words.
I think i prefer Ridge Racer7 or Burnout Paradise than Gran Turismo5. >_>
First thing first. Heavenly Sword and Dynasty Warriors6!

Btw, if no one is aware.
Im working at Lot1 Playcraft.
Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday every week.

The Hottie and The Nottie.

Omg this movie is just so sweeet!
I really hope Nick could watch it.

-

Am I making a mistake? ...

Peter, your my favourite.

From Ryan's blog.

What Trish Means

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Work. Tiring. Moody. Irritable.
Things to describe Peter.
Mean, sacastic, whiney, paranoid, childish, old man.
I CANT BELIEVE HIM.

Congratulation, you have just succeed in irritating me thrice every hour.
Three times ten. Thirty times today. Your a champion.
I had "You dont know music." in his face. That should crush his ego for a while.
Cant believe he said, everything else isnt important except the words.
So your saying all music should be acapela, if not it isnt music?
Your too shallow to discuss intellectually.
Your not a teacher. Though you wish to be. You dont have to use the RED PEN at all. XiaoHui you should know what I mean, that bastard.
You dont have to be my conscious. I know what I've done wrong. Dont have to point it out and ask me if that is wrong and remind me over and over again. Use your fucking common sense.
You dont have to be my weighing machine and remind me that I have excess fats.
I know how much I have accomplished, I wont let you demoralise me.
Im not your lover nor your wife. You can stop crying to me about the work and the boss.
Just stop talking to me for now. I have my period god damn it. Im having the hormonal changes. Stop making me too pissed to even work.
And ya, EDITS:
You dont have to SCARE me by telling me what will Boss Colin do if I this that here there. Thank you for attempting to scare me but i am not swayed.

Ridge racer! SO FUN! I never played a racing game before in my life and its one of my favourite passing time tools right now.

I should trim my hair.

Im becoming boyish. Things I bought are like men's hobby.
iPod. Electric guitar. Next would be PS3.
Where is my shopping sprees suppose to be?

Im having guitar lesson tomorrow and im still here watching "The Hottie and The Nottie" on the net. I dont wanna be late again, you know what would happen.
I respect what im learning.

Nights.

Earth Day

Today I was boarding the train.
I past Yew Tee and I was stopping at CCK.
I knew I was alighting the next stop but somehow I got lost in thoughts with this particular song which is the song at my blog now. And I missed the stop and alighted Bukit Gombak. The atmosphere, the sound of the environment, the smell, the feeling, I just thought of Nicholas and his past as a rich kid and how we got here now. I dont know why but it brought me to tears. It was beautiful. Thank God for bringing me there and putting those thoughts in my head. And because of that, I cant stop listening to this song now. I think our relationship had just reached higher another level since two weeks ago.

And Google changed its image, ... so weird.
Jungle google, weird...
Just for Earth Day.

What?

All I thought was how tough last week lesson was.
But I got the flow within 30mins of practise, even the harmonics.

Stop thinking about how to enjoy life and start thinking about how to improve life.

Nothing nothing nothing.

Time passes fast today.
Didnt look at the time til it was nearly closing.
I dont know why, probably busy doing maths.
I havent brought my ciggies out since last week.
Work or meeting Nick. Dont know if it makes a difference, but yah!
Trying to quit AGAIN. For the 3685432545th times in my life.

Peter, you self-proclaimed musician.
What a mindset to have.
My theory, openness to all kinds of music, is a true musician.
Your illiberal mind, failed.
Dont irritate me with that.

Night.
P.S I would quit it for your sake.

Nicholas.

A lifetime partner in which we both thought at the beginning was the least expected.

Saturday.
Nick kept calling my house to confirm my whereabouts and insist I call him before I leave the house for guitar lesson. And he even said, hes still in Tekong and booking out soon. So I couldnt see him til late afternoon.
I called him and walked into the MRT station.
"Surprisingly", I saw him there at the MRT station.
I KNEW IT! I already suspected he was giving me a suprise.
I even told XiaoHui the other day, "I think Nicholas is going to suprise me."
Nonetheless, I truely appreciate it. It was very sweet of him.
I was smiling all the way when I was walking towards the MRT station, expecting him there.
Went to get his new amplifier after guitar lesson.
Took a cab to Beach Rd to get his army stuffs.
Took a cab back to my home to put his amp here. Because of NS he couldnt really use it so.... I GET TO USE IT HAHA. And I love it.
Took a cab to his house.
What a cabby day.

We talked we laughed we giggled we smiled sweetly we stared into each other's eyes we hugged we embraced we enjoyed we love we bickered we hoaxed we are in love!

Okay. I dont know what Im talking about. Im exhausted.
Hes not gonna be booking out next week.
These 10 days is gonna fly by.
And im gonna progress more.
Thank you for all that you gave.
NIGHT.

Devil May Cry 4

Cut version of the them song.
I love it!

This time.

I just changed my template.
Searched for a dozen blogskin, but none satisfy me.
Hate the stereotypical skins, with tons of column/table thing. But tiny words.
Isnt the point of blogging, words?
I'll just settle with the simpler one. ;]
Thats why guys with plain, white shirts just always appeals to me.
Casual and sexy.
-

I realised my posts are rarely my daily activities. All are just emotions and thoughts.

I WASNT LATE FOR WORK. PETER IS!
I got a feeling he came late on purpose so that I could wait for him just because I
came late on the previous day. Hes a freaking sadist isnt he?

THERES more evidence to that judgemental statement I just made.
1. He likes the feeling of giving happiness to people and causin misery to people; to put it simply, he likes to take control of people's emotions and perhaps actions.
2. He scared me with a fake cockroach for two whole day and enjoyed the process.
3. He likes making fun of other's misery spot; hes favourite spot, fatness and baldness.
Theres more to it. Maybe next time.

After all that's said, hes still a nice man.
Hes caring and thoughtful, he always buy two shares of food.
One for himself and one for me.
And stuffs.

Things I ate the whole day.
1. Instant BeeHoon.
2. Slice of Carrot Cake, slice of steamed Yam Cake.
3. 1 Apple.
4. 1 Octopus stick from Old Chang Kee.
5. A piece of Peter's bread. (Dunno if that was a wise move.)

Nick called twice. Twice when he called, XH and I were just talking about him.
Sometimes I really feel that our hearts are connected. (I know its cheesy -.-)
Whenever I catched a wisp of his perfume from no where, no one, I would hear from him. Or anything like that.
Like a psychic dog, you know?
Dogs would know when their master is coming home. ITS PROVEN YO.

Tomorrow, guitar lesson, cant wait.
Im amused at my previous 10 mins lesson.
I got a feeling that he did it on purpose.
FINGER PLUCKING! Woohoo.
At my first attempt, I really felt like im touching the guitar for the first time.

Im gonna see my Sugar tomorrow too!

Night.
P.S Thank you for the wonderful day.

PsyBlog.

Crimelibrary outdated? No updates?
Its fine.
I got a whole new resources to gratify my interests.
The Psyblog!

Does Semen Have Antidepressant Properties?
No condom = less depression?

Inspired by this, Gallup, Burch and Platek (2002) decided to look for a correlation between condom use and levels of depression in undergraduate women. Their headline results were as follows:
1. Women having sex without condoms (often using alternative methods of contraception) were less depressed than those using condoms.
2. Numbers of reported suicide attempts were proportional to consistency of condom use (less consistent use was associated with fewer suicide attempts).
3. For those not using condoms, depression scores increased with the time since they last had sex.

Weirdest research!

MOS.

Love the mirror.







P.S I miss you. It seems growing and I've never felt like this before.
P.P.S After last Sunday, I just cant stop thinking of you.
And I cant ever explain why.

Future together, life together.

Our dreams together.
Our goal together.
Our growth together.
I can feel and see us getting stronger and stronger.
Lets progress together forward alright!

I was touched from what you've said.
No one had ever treated me this way.
No one had ever said this to me.
Im blessed!

P.S Girls! Lets dance through the night again some day!

Dope.

Fun night. I was having lots of fun.
The whole night I was trying to protect their butts. But it seems somehow I failed.
Next time before I enter into any club, imma get high first.
It cost a nuclear.
Thanks girls!
Ya and please send all photos to all of us! Thanks! =]

P.S Weeds weeds I miss weeds. No seriously.

Trace Bundy.

OMG HES AMAZING! I love he's style.



Sweet Child O Mine. By PURELY harmonics. Its a beauty.
Laurence Juber is love too!
Search more from this guy. Hes great.




Im amused at how I look at acoustic player more than electric.

I saw Xin Chi. I miss her!
Her friend is gorgeous.
They are the crappy bunch.
Let us stay in contact please.

Love my workplace more and more!
Gonna download TONS of dvd.
49" TV is LOVE!

God loves me!

Working's GREAT!
Doesnt feels like im working at all!
Peter and I shared a great deal in common.
We play guitar.
We love Eagles and classics.
We love tea.

Listening to Don Henley during work sure doesnt feels like working.
Imma bring my collection!

The sisters first day of work.

Good luck to you! Dearest!
To me too.
Loves.

P.S You spice up my life.

Your killing me.

kbox

Went Kbox with Sis!
Sang our hearts out.
I had loads of fun going to kbox with her than others.
We share almost the same taste!
Felt happy for her. She is going to be a nurse! Starts work on Monday.
The past few days had been packed with activities. I love it.
Im going to New Creation church with Michelle on Sunday.
What a surprise!

P.S I feel stressful as days drew nearer. I cant stand the one moment happiness.

Lights.

Went to Mint to get my pay. Seems like they havent got it ready yet!
Havent saw Zachary there either ;(
Went out with Sis and her friend, Shadiq.
Enjoyed my time!
If ever Id go out with them again, I better starve the whole day first!







I realised we three wore specs that looked the same! HA!
Lets hang out again sometimes yea!

Things I'll get.
1)Baby Taylor!
2)New Specs. I already got what I want in mind.
3)Teeth Whitening. (Already said, not done.)

I need you to be my atmosphere.

The past few days was high on emotions.
It was love.
These two/three days, I was smiling silly, day to night.
Jumping around, chattering bulls and shits away, getting all high with the happiness that your around.
Althought, there are times I was about to start throwing my anger around, but hey I didnt.
You gotta admit my temper is going better. (I gotta wake up early more often)
Just looking at you reading the newspaper, listening to your teases, sniffing a wiff of your natural scent, feeling your body, I feel, different. The world around has been numbed. Its just us.
I accept your everything and embrace your all.
I might say, days are longer and boring.
I just wanted to let you know that without you, even the joy means nothing.
I might act so tough, like a man, like all the badass-rocknroll-tattoo-arnoldschwarzenegger-terminator-gangsta, who acted like they dont love the person they truely care about.
But right now, I just wanna indulge in this precious emotion.
I dont care if your worth the wait.
I dont care if you would reciprocate the love I gave you in the future.
The memories with you would be held so dearly to me.
I can safely say, your the best man I ever had.
Today, my friend asked something and my answer to that was only you.
Though I always say something out of 'conduct' was just to play along.

The sit at Pasir Ris MRT was kind of peaceful.
Its all your beauty I was looking at.
I teared a few times.
I was touched to the heart. I was moved.

-

Went to PS and met up with YT and company.
Gleeful dinner. She never fail to make me laugh.
But I really was tired.

-

Listened to a testimony from an ITE girl. It was encouraging.
Motivating lessons. It was really obvious to know it but I was oblivious to it.
Brought back a bunch of CDs to listen to.
I am really trying.
From my persistancy of anti-religious to this, you can see that I am doing everything, anything to change myself.
I am willing to give it a try.
I am with open-mind.
I am really trying everything.
As long as theres hope, I would never go back to my old self.

Nights.
(Preparing for a sleepless night.) Ha. NO. NO.
P.S I havent smell that perfume in a while.
The scent that I dreamt of.

iP00d.

I have been awfully misled for a year.
I have been foolishly in love for a year.
YOU! JUST FUCKING BETRAYED ME!
And I hate you with every of my soul.
I hate your guts and your reservoir of blood.
I have always been faithful to you!
I HATE YOU IPOD!

Yes you heard that.
I cant believe this.
I had just lost a thousands of songs just by a mere thought that it had great, wonderful, satisfying FUNCTIONS! NO. NO. Its just a stereotypical assumption.
Now, I have to plug in to just listen to songs.

How would someone create something that allows to syncronise songs into it and not allows to take it out?!?!?!
What campaign awareness are you trying to create?
I tell you what.
I LOVE PIRACY!
AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE PIRACY NOW AND FOREVER!

Fine. You ROCCCCCKKKK IPOD, YOU ROOOOOOOOOOOOOCK. Rot.

G for guitar.

I am going to change all my meals to Fruits-THElicious!
I dont care how. Im not gonna jog for an hour without losing a pound.
All my boredom, all my energy, all my time, all the effort.
I have NO, NO tolerance for boredom.
I could spend time on my guitar doing the same thing over and over for more than an hour, but NOT jogging.

Speaking of which.
Guitar had taught me many important "life" lessons.
Well, it increased patient with myself.
Give myself enough time and taking it slowly.
I remembered the first time I started out, it was like, Im having all sorts of thoughts in my head. "I cant do this." "What? This is absurd. How could I learn this in a week? I cant even move my fingers now. I got finger cramps." "My finger is too fat and short." "Its too complicated." "I want to learn that, but I cant even do this."
It was overwhelming.
I was very impatient and I wanted it done right now.
So the next few days from the first, was a drag. And then it came like WHAM! "E-eh! CAN ALREADY!"
Its just a matter of getting used to the motions.
And now I know, things are not as hard as it seems, its just a matter of time and effort. This applies to all sorts of matter as well.

So what I want to say to the world is,
relax, take your time, enjoy the journey and one day all will come around.
Have faith.
Whether it be work, studies, life crisis.

-

I am, SATISFIED with what I saw. HAHA!
I am hot. I am funny. I am ridiculous and I am going to take a damn relaxing shower right now.

Ciao.
P.S Im gonna get GuitarPro soon! And no, I didnt pay for it.
My smart ass friend cracked it HAHA How genious.

I hate this.

Many things can keep you from falling or staying asleep: for example, consuming alcohol or caffeine, or feeling stressed, anxious, or depressed. But insomnia often takes on a life of its own. After a few nights of tossing and turning, what's likely to keep you up is worrying about getting to sleep, says Cote. Eventually, you start associating going to bed with worrying about falling asleep, so instead of easing you into slumber, your nervous system goes on high alert, anticipating--and bringing on--another sleepless night.

Damn right! That is so true.

Take a warm bath just before you go to bed. Bathing will elevate your body temperature, but lying down will make it drop because your muscles relax and produce less heat. Sleep tends to follow a steep decline in body temperature.

I am going to take a shower right now at 2am in the morning you bastards.

Its back!

I CANT SLEEP AT NIGHT AGAIN. Yes AGAIN.
No matter how little I slept in the morning, I just cant sleep at night.
I hate how this is. Help please.

Jenkem.

Click the image, read the news.
IMAGE
Can you-can you believe this?
This shit is nasty.

NS

The moment I first set my eyes on him.
I blushed.
The broad shoulders and the near to buff figure in the army uniform, walking towards me.
I couldnt be more proud of him.
Whats bad about having a NS boyfriend?

-You wont be worrying about him fooling around; he's in camp serving his service.
-You have enough space for yourself.
-Your 'uniform fanasty' becomes reality.

Something to worry of.
Changing of perception. Expectations change and evolve towards a more realistic slant.
But then again, I rather spend time having fun than worrying. ;D

Nick, adorable.

Mohinder's.

We are, if anything, creatures of habit. Drawn to the safety and the comfort of the similar. But what happens when the familiar becomes unsafe? When the fear that we've been desperately trying to avoid, finds us where we live?

When confronted by our worst nightmares, the choices are few; Fight or flight. We hope to find the strength to stand against our fears but sometimes, despite ourselves, we run. What if the nightmare gives chase? Where can we hide then?

To survive in this world, we hold close to us those on whom we depend. We trust in them our hopes, our fears... But what happens when trust is lost? Where do we run, when things we believe in vanish before our eyes? When all seems lost, the future unknowable, our very existence in peril... All we can do is run.

The Earth is large. Large enough that you think you can hide from anything. From Fate. From God. If only you found a place far enough away. So you run. To the edge of the Earth. Where all is safe again. Quiet, and warm. The solace of salt air. The peace of danger left behind. The luxury of grief. And maybe, for a moment, you believe you have escaped.

To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose. The Earth spins at a thousand miles an hour as we desperately try to keep from being thrown off. Like the first blush in winter that signals a great migration. Is there any warning of their arrival? A sign, a single event that set this chain into motion? Was it a whisper in God's ear? Survive. Adapt. Escape. And if we could mark our single moment in time, that first hint of a prophecy of approaching danger... would we have done anything differently? Could it have been stopped? Or was the die long ago cast? And if we could go back, alter its course, stop it from happening... would we?

-

I just love that.
Today we spent 7 hours talking non stop.
First at Pizza Hut then to Starbucks.
From 3pm to 10pm.
What enjoyable time. We should do this again!

Wheres my Hiro?

There is definitely more to life than everything thats happening.
Work harder Trish.

Gotta find something else to get addicted to now.
Heroes's lure was greater than Prison Break.

Last Sat's night wasnt very satisfying.
Sunday, I had a great time talking.
Havent talked like that since mmm GAP?
Havent seen or talked much to my sisters for quite a while.
Tomorrow having lunch with them again!
Im still considering signing up for gym with pearlyne OR getting discount at California Fitness. Discounted half price yo.

P.S Cant wait til Sept 08. Heroes Season 3 on air.

I am addicted to Heroes.

I think teacher said, " Yup 1pm every Saturday."
OMFG Did I hear an error? IM INJECTED WITH EUPHORIA!
Har har, I can imgaine Nick's face of disbelief.
Hes gonna be so jealous.

I cant wait to finish all seasons of Heroes.

You gotta be tough you gotta be stronger.

My man left for army this morning. I was still in bed.
I feel kind of lost.
But it be different this time.
No more making plannings in my head.
No more listing things I gotta do in my head.
This time, I'll be writing it down and get it done.
I will make it this time.

Sakura.

Saturday March 08
Went to my guitar lesson. As expected, enjoyed it throughly.
Teacher gave me another free lesson on the next next week. Im exhilarated!
Went to Clementi Woods with Nick, Ernies and her BF.
We were on the queue and were discussing about Halal.
My sister and I were like imitating the RK Pork House indian guy so loudly!
Nick was like,"Eh the malay guy looking." -_-
HAHA so funny!
The whole day was funny and I enjoyed it.
Not forgetting the salmon slices. HAHA.
After dinner, we met up with my Dad and watched 10,000BC. Not so good.
-
I expect life to get duller for me. Or in any case, darker into the tunnel.
But whatever I believed in, I always believed the year would always be exciting in some ways. Well, I create the sources of fun right. ;D

Year for me,
Guitar, studies, work, sisters.
And it repeats, and maybe some after work's fun. Nyah.

Gotta find a new guitar teacher. The current one is leaving.
Its such a great pity! I adore his fine charactor and his teachings.
Really hope the next one would be as comfortable.
And no, I dont want Simon Lai.
I would feel much uncomfortable, hes too cute.

To make an end to all these frustrations, ...

As human beings we're hard-wired to be in charge of ourselves -- and our environment. Some of us just take longer than others to learn the distinction between ridding ourselves of symptoms and getting to their source. If we think we don't have control of our lives because we see our obstacles as insurmountable, we stay where we are -- and our problems are guaranteed to become steady companions.

If you think that options and choices are for others, but not you, you sell yourself short. Looking at yourself and how you live your life does requires courage and effort. As you invest in yourself, you'll make progress -- how much depends on you.

FHM Threesome party!
Great timing. Time to san san xing! !!!
EXCITED! Anyone wanna join me msg me tomorrow.
P.S First 8 months of relationship, you get all the FUN! Trust me.

Is there any salvation to what I have become?

Justin recommended this great movie. The Bucket List. Its great! Everyone should watch it when its out in Singapore. Inspirational, moving, motivational.

Im just dreaming, am I?
Theres a dullness in the cool breeze as I walked out of the entrance.
Frustration and hopelessness. Im falling.
The cool sting of my tears.
I wish a car would just run me over.
I think of every suicidal escape but I know I dont have the courage.
Someone please do me a favour.
Dont call or msg my hp anymore.
Your wrong, theres only down in life.

My BEAUTIFUL guitar!

Recent pics.






My camera phone sucks. Time to trade my phone for a sony camera!

Today saw Wei Ling at house downstair. So happy!
She said so long never see me thought I moved house already.
Shes still the same, as sporty as smart as bubbly.

It hurts for me too.

I dont know.

After doing so much, im still escaping.
Can someone remind me how much I want this?
Can someone tell me why do I want this?
Can someone say something couraging?
I got to face my fears this time.

You can spot "tolerators" at 50 yards. They may be listless, angry, bitter, whiny, sick all the time, or seemingly rude and insensitive to others -- but it's just a manifestation of how unhappy they are with their own lives.

What do you need to change? Don't like your job anymore? You can go back to school, get a different degree, and start an entirely brand new career. Or you can decide to go into business for yourself and start your own company. It's never too late, but it won't be easy. You'll have to work hard. You may have to go into debt for a period of time. And you aren't guaranteed success. But you have to ask yourself how unhappy you are in your current situation and whether years of continuing down that path would be any worse than jumping the track.


"Des'ree - You gotta be"

Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together

Donnie Darko

Donnie Darko.
This is a really abstract movie.
After finishing the movie, I was in a silent trance.
It really had me thinking the whole day.

Stay.

"And now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you."

"Don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no."

"You said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you. "

Love is at its best when it flows freely.

Resignation from Mint Cafe.
Enrollment for O level.

The tears we poured.

My most touching valentine's day ever.
I will never forget this day and the things you've said.

We spent almost everyday together but I still misses you as much.
I really hate to see you go to army.
I dont wanna hurt you anymore but my temper forbids.
You had given me love so great, no man had given.
It hurts to hear you say I broke your heart.
It hurts to even think about you crying.
Im sorry.


No I can't forget this evening Or your face as you were leaving But I guess that's just the way The story goes You always smile but in your eyes Your sorrow shows Yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow When I think of all my sorrow When I had you there But then I let you go And now it's only fair That I should let you know What you should know

I can't live If living is without you I can't live I can't give anymore I can't live If living is without you I can't give I can't give anymore

I like Interview At The Ruins tho the critics rate it 2.5/5. It feels like the ending of something.

"Preciate?"

Im thoroughly disappointed.

The woes being sick on New year.
Vomiting, diarrhoea, bone/joint aching, fever, splitting headache.
I hope I die.