Notepad:
Its been nearly a month since I've written in here.
There's no time, no inspiration.
Look at my blog, its all the usual nonsense.
Working community has been going uphill for me, at least for the moment.
What joy!

On the MRT, everytime I lean my back against the door on the other side, I got this horrid feeling that it would suddenly open and I, be flying down and out.\

Heng yong, im not blur OKAY!

Heng yong dont let me work FULL on National day. - .-
"Take more MC la. Go drink dont want come work la. Double pay dont let you work full."
Ftw?!
?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Discussion today with Simon, cancelled.
TOMORROW!

Karma please.

I MANAGED TO GET UP TO WORK THIS MORNING. Geebus.
How the fuck did I do that?

Heng yong wasnt mad at me for busting off work on Monday.
LUCKY ME. I was soooo guilty.
Drinking always have the priority. ;]

Bruise from start of work til the end.
I was under the table getting new piece of shorts for customer.
Knocked my head hard before getting up.
She laughed. I laughed with her tho it hurt like fuck.
I "kiyup" my last finger on the same place.
End of work.
Three straight consecutive "OUCH!"
CAUSED BY XIAO HUI.

Sang the whole day at work.
Its SO BORING!
This classic rock "I live my life for you - Firehouse/Lifehouse" had become my current fav working song.

I served a filo couple today, and felt a tingling of sadness.
It was the man's voice and accent that caught me.
Tears just flowed suddenly when I looked at him.
I let them walked away.
He doesnt recognised me.
Perhaps I got the wrong person.

Had some angry talking session with XH during break.
I guess I have to just hope for karma.
Til it take its turn.
My conscience are clear and yours arent.

National day's eve. CLUBBING with them girlies!
Actually, I dont know who im gonna go who.
Its either with GAP or XY's usual suspect.
I hope I could go with both groups but I doubt its highly impossible.
UNLESS we went to the same one.
Then it would be like that night at Royal Pub.
No more drinks? Just go to the other table. HAHA.
Okay thats not my motive.

Its four months til Christmas. How time passes.


Night.
P.S Mom, I need my money.
P.P.S CRYSTAL! I NEED THE PICTURES! ;P

We had a celebration yesterday for Crystal's last day.
Lina told me she cried at work! She was so touched. Theres even a video!
Its sad that I didnt really get to know her that well and shes leaving so soon.
Lina told me, "I realised after that day at Disc-cussion, we seems to be more close."
Man, I totally agree with you on this.
We had Swensens yesterday at Orchard.
Last min trip to clark quey.
It was okay. Kinda boring for me cause theres nothing left to DRINK!
Well okay back to work. - .-
NO FUCKING LIFE.

I FIND IT SO HARD TO PUSH MYSELF THESE DAYS.

Oh the boring life.

If I dont push myself, who will?

Gonna be out with Gappies later. Wonder what fun will I get.
At least its not alone at home on my off.
Jog.Shower.Study.Out.Thatsit.

Back to work.

Yesterday went Discussion with GAP!
SO LONG since leisure for me.
Ever since I started working, theres no LEISURE.
I LOVE DRINKING!
I loses all my inhibition to just be myself.
No more social anxiety!
Therapy session?! It is profitable.

Boss told me Discussion gonna close down soon.
My 2 year memory. =/

P.S I left my newly bought ciggie there. Not the first time. - .-
P.P.S I had fun.

Constipation = farts.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Fucking cellphone. AUTO SHUT DOWN.
I should be in Discussion now if it hasnt SHUT DOWN!
So long since I drink. I MISS DRINKING.
And yes, we will wait til our pay XY.

So much farting stories at work.
No time to write it out.

CONSTIPATION FOR FOUR DAYS.

Nights.
P.S You have no rights to say that as you did as well.
P.P.S I need friendSSSSS.

THE APALLING AND HOPELESS OFF DAYS.

SOMEONE ANYONE please go to SINGfest with me!
I wanna watch A7x and The academy is...!
I NEED A MALAY FRIEND FOR AFF SAKE.

SINGfest

SINGfest

Wednesday, 8 August
Cyndi Lauper
Pet Shop Boys
Sasha Bach Band
Shaggy
The Stranglers
Sugar Ray


Thursday, 9 August
The Academy Is...
Avenged Sevenfold
Cobra Starship
Great Spy Experiment
Gym Class Heroes
Hinder
MxPx
The Noisettes
One Buck Short

2 Day Pass available at $200 NOW!
Tickets range from $150 (til 1st August), $175 (2nd to 7th August) and $200 (at the door).
Buy your tickets from Sistic.
http://www.sistic.com.sg/cms/events/index.html?content=1070


Fuck. I wanna watch A7x and the academy is. At this point is where I need a Malay friend the most.

That guy.

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Another day of barely four hours of sleep.
WORK FULL!
In the morning, I was still having my tummy upset.
Was so reluctant to go for work. Im glad I did. It shows that I have changed. HA.

Night.
Was walking home from Admiralty, dozing off.
I saw someone that made me smile through the walks.
MY PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIEND!
Couldnt remember his name.
I saw him and hes like, *Wave hands frantically*
SO CUTE! That malay guy.
Must remember to ask xhuii whats his name.

Ask me out!
Thursday and Friday OFF.
Saturday FULL.
Sunday AFTERNOON.

Chaw.

Bubbled dreams.

Things I wish to fulfil and yet im drifting away from,
because of not reminding myself.

`Learn the guitar.
`Learn dancing.
`Losing weight. (This is what i remind myself away and yet its progressing very SLOWLY.)
`Learn portugues. Tho I know the basics.
`Learn tagalog.
`Go to Poly. (This is what I have been drifting away from.)
`Learn everything about Psychology and Crimes.
`Everything about overcoming Social Anxiety.
`Books and bookselves.

Pictures.

Yesterday felt like I just been through hell.
I literally slept for two days. Yar no shit.
I dont even feel like talking to anyone because my head hurts when i starts speaking.
I dont even feel like moving. Cause it hurts to move.
I feel so breathless even tho I aint doing anything.
I feel so cold even tho I sweat alot.
I dont feel like eating tho my gastric hurts.
It make me feel like puking.
I just wanna sleep and have a full body massage.

I remember this line I was saying when we had Michelle's celebration.
"I hope I kena food poisoning then I dont have to work."
Great.
Now its food poisoning and high fever.
Though I suspected it was Dengue fever.

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From this picture onwards, i am in every background HAHA.














My punishment for being late.

F u 2.

Mom : "... ... but your family wont ever do this to you, that I realised."

To that, she broke down crying. I cried too.
It hurts me. It pains me to see you cry.
Be strong Ma. I love you.

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Bad day? Kind of.
I had barely 4 hours of sleep.
Yet I have to face my fears.

Dont think I can make it to work tomorrow.
Food poisoning. Might be.
Fever. Body aching. Bone aching. Headache. Vomit. Dizzyness.
BU SU FU!

How small is Singapore?
Guess who did I actually saw today.
BARTENDER MENG LOL! He is actually Yong kang and Ah long's friend.
I dont know why but I felt kind of awkward.

Maybe I need a therapist, instead of being a therapist.

Worn out.
Nights.
P.S It sucks to not be myself even when you tried that hard.


EDIT:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE!
Yesterday was although not much activities and excitement,
but it was relaxing and its not like we get to meet up often.
And catching up pieces of their lives.
Reached home like 4am. Slept at 6am. Woke up at 10am.
Prepared for work although late.

Pics to be posted soon.

Boy, your so fine.

Reason im so in love with this song, "Angel of mine - Monica" is because of this picture.



Apparently, I dont know who the three of them are.
The song was playing when I looked at the guy in the middle. Hes so fine. But my mind wanders to someone else. Most of you prolly knows who. Yada yada the same one. The unexpressable feeling.

Obscure tingling of voices.

Looking at my friend's secondary school pictures.
Yes indeed it was the best time of their lives.
And when was mine?
I couldnt quite remember.
I had a vague memory of my youth.
It past.
The recollection could never be mend.

Celeste Chen blah blah blah blah blah, but, I adore/admire/envy/in awe of her.

Working with Xiao Hui is FUN can! Time passes so fast la!
BUT IM STILL MAD. Stupid ang moh, take picture with her but not ME!
I TALKED TO HIM FIRST OKAY! Hmhp. First thought that came, "Im not slim enough." ;[

Im tired.
Nights.

Disgusted.

No one is really sorry until they put the words, "Im sorry." into action.
Words are meaningless.

You said you love me but you dont know what love is.
So dont say you love me.
You should grow up and experience the world.

Your only chance to make it up to me,
yet you refused it cause your just narrow-minded.
And its the only simplest thing you could do.
Never seen anyone so ungrateful before.
Or should I say, unmanly and immature.
And all the attributes any girl wouldnt want in their guy.

You owe me too much boy.
You can never pay back in this life.
You owe me and him/her too much.
Your an unrepentant sin.
Have you no remorse?
And call yourself a christian.
When you go to heaven,
you'll see this innocent child calling you,
"Hi, Dad. Why dont you want me?"

Guess time had pass but your still the same.
Your my only regret.
For choosing you.
An ultimate disaster.

Crispy life.

I dont know what to write about for these past few months.
Like I said, getting better from depression was the best.
During depression, you have no real problems, the only problem was yourself.
Now, I tasted the value of time.
O, how I had wasted them and let them past.

Let the pictures talk.

YOUR REPORT CARD:
Category	Grade
Love	B
Friends and Family	A+
Body	B
Mind	A+
Finance / Career	B
Your Life's Average Grade: A
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