I wish I wish I wish. I wish I was someone else. But I learnt from someone random that trying to be someone else your not is a hella waste of the person you are.

Mmm prolly gonna stay up again. XD
Reached home hes already asleep =[

About that stuffies. "EHHH"
The sky gives off another shade of blue.

Michelle, okay and Im sorry too. Im sure you would get all pissed if theres people who always trying to make you look bad and picking on you all the time.

And plus I didnt really wanna invovle her until you stated my sub-conscious fear.
So w.e it is, just let it be.

Time is only temporary.

Turd to even understand the sacarstism of each sentence.

Peace [ peess ]
Definition:
1. freedom from war: freedom from war, or the time when a war or conflict endsthe signing of the peace agreement
2. tranquillity: a calm and quiet state, free from disturbances or noise
3. mental calm: a state of mental calm and serenity, with no anxiety
4. harmony: freedom from conflict or disagreement among people or groups of people
5. peace treaty: a treaty agreeing to an end of hostilities between two warring parties
6. law and order: the absence of violence or other disturbances within a statePeace reigned throughout the land.
.. retarded dumbass.

Illusion? LMAOOOO OH YES IM HIGH ON DRUGS WHAT CHU GONNA DO. Jeez thats like finding the OBVIOUS.

OOO so why wont you go start doing "great" things now and stop BUTTING IN peoples shit.
Your whole shit load of paragraph that I didnt bother to read, I can simply say Insecure MENTALLY.

"If feeling happy is all abt having illusions that im even plain bothered abt u, haha! Den pls by all means go n think n be happy and imagine lah. A person without anything, needs imagination and cursing to be happy and to finally find peace with herself."
LMAOO A person without anything? How can you be so sure.Well its my turn to ask, HOW CAN YOU DEFINE A PERSON WITHOUT ANYTHING? Like when your 80? No family no friends, kids busy with their own family, your all alone with your shit load of money. "WOW IM HAPPY"

And now now now, doctor please give me a prescription for illusion =[
And too bad someone's too ashame.

ROOOOOFL LOOK AT THE MIRROR?!?! WHY DONT YOU LOOK IT YOURSELF! LMAOOOO THIS SHIT IS HILAAAAAAARIOUS HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAH AHHHHHHHHH HAHAHAHAHAHHA JEEEEZ I CANT STOP LAUGHING. THAT BISH IS ASKING ME TO LOOK AT THE MIRROR HAHAHAHA LOOK AT THE MIRROR YOUR FACE. LMFAO.

And I dont give respect to those who I dont think they DESERVE TO have any respect for the least.

"Saying stuffs which u didnt even sae? Oh damn hell. Pls use the slightest common sense in u if u stil hav any, to think lah, u did sae! Wad makes mi so damn sure? Cos i believe in myself more den i ever believe in u haha!"
YUP and if thats what makes you happy. Common sense? I dont need any common sense for those who seems retarded.

So how did it felt being looked as a loser by "the loser"? At least I dont do anything for a dolla. *coughsbitchcoughs* Got busted in the end LMAO. DAMN STRAIGHT.

Oh please. God jeez. I told her CAN I RETURN HER ONLY 100$? And whats wrong with cutting price? DONT YOU DO IT ALLLLLLLLL THE TIME ROOOOOFL AND I MEANT ALLLL THE TIME. Calculate interest? SHE FRIGGIN told me herself that I can pay her when I got my pay. Now complaining bout it? Stfu. And I got it at the 1st of the month NOT 31th.

Seriously, people like her gotta jerk off or something. Go start some epileptic shit to keep yourself feeling good. And then seriously gone emo and the other second saying how she love herself. Go get your guidence from your bitch.
At least I stand on my own and gone thru shits.
My all time quote. People turn to god when they are helpess.

Oh noes! She hates me! OH NOES SHE HATES ME! OMGWTFZORBBQASFASFASDFZORS SHE HAAAATES ME! LMAO Weeeeeee? Like wtf I dont even care if she likes me or not. I dont even care if she ever consider me as a friend cause I know I dont. Back then, yes. Now NUH UH! I gotta say, she wont ever get peace in her heart if she continues like this. But in the other end, I feel happy cause I know someone out there is feeling insecure with me around. Thanks for looking high upon me. And o man wtf douche, stop saying stuffs I didnt say about you. That makes yourself looked gay. And stop trying to make me look bad before figuring out the fact, if not you can just try hard.
I always thought your a person with a full 100% self confidence now i see you as a loser. A friggin insecure emo crap. And o pls, stop being gay pls say it to my face if you got a problem with me or something.
I can simply say I dont care if you ever accept me. Your face.

C'mon dont leave me hanging

Waiting for life to pass me by

Pissed off by stupid gay shit around me.

First off woke up in the morning, called the effin resto to tell them im quitting. Then she started dissing me by saying that she will deduct my 150$ for uniform and my half month's OT cause i didnt give any notice. Yo fuck you, first off i aint a confirm staffs you cant just deduct my uniform money. Second off, I aint a confirm staff, a one day notice is enough.

Then went shopping with my sis and the whole iffy day, he didnt msg me until 8-9pm. O wow dont tell me you slept til 8pm. Or having too much fun forgetting about me. No point.

Reached home. Xh msged me asking if I got my pay already and I SAID, "Yup I tom meeting py you come along or something." Then py called me asking if I got my pay yet. Saying can you return xh the money? Oooo WTF?! If you want your money you could just ask it yourself and not try some lame methods to get your money back. So gay. Like I was to run away with your stuffs. And o god like I already told you I got my pay and ask you to come along or something tomorrow. And iono wtf shes doing trying to act hero. In the end heard wrongly or something. Stupid gay shit.

Went on, stupid gay connections kept dc'ing on me. Fuck.
And I only left with 100+$. Screw swensens.

Anyways, happee belated birthday Lan tho I even forgot. All the while I thought it was on Friday but it was Thursday. "Go enjoy and forget me" Jeez im really turning emo sitting here.

Maybe I should just go work. Sitting here makes me emo.
Lack of motivation to go on working =[

Im just a teenage girl without hopes and motivation x_x

I felt... deprive of.. life O_o
Fact is Im losing hope and motivation again.

Decisions to be made.

I called in sick for work today cause..... I got migrane, cough, flu. Excuses?! WEEE be chillen with my sisters later =D LOL
I be quitting that job by the end of this month i guess. Alphy msg me yesterday and want me back to work for him. Iono if I should.. I txt him and ask the details again. Cause it sucks if its on comission based. Iono when the hell would I get the money. Like the last time, tho I only went for two days I got 400$ but I took two months to get that money. But still... Iono.

P.S I love Lan.

And wtf some ass fag gave out my number to Bala. FFFFFUCK.

Sometimes I feel like quitting my job and start ROing full time again. Working takes up too much of my time. I cant even find time for myself.
But thinking of the end of the year keeps me moving again. I dont know if this distance thingy would work out but, im gonna keep trying even if it takes years. And I know that it will definately takes years. Cause Imma go back to school.... I think. >.>
W.e I hate to think much.

You see, I dont really look at babies and smile to myself like what most of them do. But this time I caught myself smiling when I saw this lil girl around the age of 3-6 with her daddy. I wasnt smiling because of how cute she was I was smiling cause her daddy and her are so cute together. Her daddy was soo sweet to his lil girl and so caring. They were so close. He really love his lil girl I could see it. I was so touched by just that customer. I caught myself thinking about him the whole day at work. Guys are charming when they are taking care of their kid =)

Eep havent posted for a long time, truth is I got myself back into the game. When I told Nurul bout this shes like, i swear im gonna bring a hammer to your house, dont skip working and say u wanna play games. Then shes like hey wanna eat after work? im like naw i wanna go home and play game LOL shes like dont give me stupid reason imma slap you.

Anyways, was listening to Rooftops-Lostprophets and I was standing at the stairway at the parapet wall looking at the sky before i went home. Cause it was so windy <3
And I havent be with myself for a long time.
Thought of Danny for a while.

Anyways gonna poop. Laters.
One week to payday o_o

A moment of torture.

OMG ANDREWWWW!

"I missed you"

"WHAT?! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS HAHAHAHHA *SCREEN* YOU MISS WHO?"

I miss you toooo! Omfg you finally came on.