A letter of tranquillity. I wrote.

To: Nicholas Ooi Jing Wen

I got so much to say to you but I dont know how to start... I know it might be shameless of me to ask for forgiveness the fact that Ive hurt you too much but I hope that some day down the road you would find it in your heart to forgive me.

After 6 months it finally struck me, that your far away now.
I told you about that I regretted because I just had to let you know... not because I want things back the way it was. I just had to let you know. Because I think, for you to know that, you must be happy knowing it. And I dont mind letting you know for its a piece of me. And that I was the one losing something valuable, not you.

And you said I am never satisfied, but your wrong, I find myself couldnt love anyone anymore right now how I tried. No one was near comparable to what we had. Our connection was important to me...

I thought hard and long about it before sending this msg.
I looked back into our good and bads that happened and I smiled.
I sent this msg because of the acceptence of you being gone now.
Because of the acceptence, I had the courage to send it.
You are still the best thing that ever happened in my life.

Now that you are the star in someone else's sky, I shall find my star too. And it might take long years to find someone better than me. Someone who can converse about everything under the sky. Someone who want the same things in life. The shared goals and motive. I wouldnt settle for the second best anymore or just anyone that im curious about like Andrew. Because life has more to it than guys like him.
It would take long years to find someone greater than what we had.

But im not afraid anymore.
You used to give me courage, now, you still do.

Oh and about the last quarrel that we had, im sorry about the harsh language I used. I think its abit of jealousy plus the fact that I felt offended when you talk about your sex life. We used to be close enough to talk about intimate stuffs but at that point of time, we are not anymore.

And I have to say, the tone of this letter, when im writing it, it sounded really peaceful in my mind. Somehow, I think God wanted me to sent this letter... I was praying and this came to mind... Maybe it marks a closure for me, and maybe you too. I hope you feel better after reading this letter.
Lets work hard together for our lives! =)

Oh and listen to this,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UdtOxwRXmVM

and

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yFTvbcNhEgc

These two artist always have relaxing music.

With love,
your sister,
Trish.

P.S I really hope you can tell me about your O levels results when its out!
P.P.S I dont why I put sister, but because your like a brother to me.