Hes just not that into you.

And when I thought it was just another chick flick, I was wrong.
It was more sophisticated than a regular chick flick.
Self-honor, self-value, and letting the truth set you free.
This movie, I thought, wasnt the kind of movie to be watching with your significant other.
It would leave a doubt, guiltyness or some mixed emotions in the couple after it ends.

I realised, women love self denial.
After four years, when a relationship finally ended, these thoughts seem more than familiar.
"I should have known it was over when he _________."
Why waited four years to realised that?
The first thought was always right, no point bluffing ourselves.

P.S I wonder why everyone get to see that damn rainbow except me. I have no such luck in good stuffs. Sigh.

Its not about the money, its the balance value of time and money.

Whats there?

Its sad to say certain things happened for a cause.
It actually took people 4 years to realise that it dont work out.
Is it actually sad or a relief?
It really scares me.

Lets work towards a future alright Bii?

Cant get distracted.

Man, I almost forgot how tiring it is to stay focus.
With five years of idling around, no stress no pressure, I feel really tired and frustrated to keep myself on track.
Well the first step is always the hardest, I just have to get use to it.
Going to school everyday, is even harder than picking up the guitar for the first time.
I lost focus on many things this year.
I got so distracted by all the things that is happening around.
And its so tiring to stay focus as well.
I have been wavering for a while now.
But I have to force myself to stay focus this time.
Studies, guitar, as well as handling relationships.

To do these, I need to have tremendous strength from you, my Lord.

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A summary for Valentine's.
A great day for me.
The absolute wonderful Valentine's I had.
The second year of celebrating V's with Nick.
He actually plan the whole trip to Sentosa without me knowing.
We spent the evening there chilling out romantically with candles and all.
Love the ambiance love the music love the companions love the laughters.
And the girls joined us in the night.
Ha ha, the things we do.
We should do this again.

It is so much better than giving gifts itselves.
I am happy at that moment.
Thats all that counts.

OH and the flowers were amazing.
It bring such delights to me.
I vowed to have them in my future house.
I would smile every morning to see those colourful blossoms.

Its only a pity my camera sucks.
Couldnt capture the liveliness of the colours.

I need everyone to participate in this personal survey.

Is this really hard? Or im just actually quite dumb?

P.S I actually flunk the book and make my statement clearly to give up.
P.P.S No, its just a joke for the giving up part.

Okay the time is up for the 'thinking throughout session' for our relationship.
We just have to proof each other.
Time is limited.

N is coming back from NZ tomorrow.
Im just kind of anticipating it just a moment ago.
Cant wait to see him...

I am so hooked up on Gossip Girl!
On season 2 now and I still love Chuck Bass.
"A fling can turn into a real thing."
Never been truer.

P.S No matter how hard I tried, its still never seems enough.
P.P.S I need, sleeping pills.

But then again, whats the truth?

Humans just cant accept the truth.
They cant accept themselves from being the way they are.
The way they despise.
But the first step for change, is to accept the truth.
To recognise it and accept it.
And then change it.
DARE TO MAKE MISTAKES.
And dare to admit mistakes.
Without it, there wouldnt be a change.
No improvement, no progress in your life and yourself.
You stay stagnant.

And im admitting it slowly.
Than NONE.

I have reached, ignorance.

I thought alot today.
About the goals I finally have.
About the aims I sought to achieve.
And the search within myself.
And the reflections of my and everyone's behaviour.
If friendship is all about being egoist, competitive and disrespectful, I guess,
I am willing to distance myself away from you.
To save the grudges from being cultivated.
All you see in me is faults and flaws.

Gay night.

Night at PLAY.
I respect gays for accepting themselves.
I respect gays for being themselves.
I respect gays for being so courageous.

We are all equal.
Not all clubbers are the rotten bunch.
Not all smokers are the rotten bunch.
Not all with a bad record are the rotten bunch.
And the same saying goes to gays.
Some of them are really really sweet.

P.S Every question, theres an answer.
Every answer theres a doubt.
So whats the truth?

Truth are associated with convinience.
"To a very large extent, of course, we associate truth with convenience – with what most closely accords with self-interest and personal well-being or promises to avoid awkward effort or unwelcome dislocation of life.

But perhaps most important of all, people approve most of what they best understand. As just noted, economic and social behavior are complex, and to comprehend their character is tiring. Therefore, we adhere, as though to a raft, to those ideas which represent our understanding."
-Galbraith

Dont you think?

Exciting day.

Yes today is an exciting day.
I have two exciting events today.
First! First day of schoooool!
Second! PLAY tonight!

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Skip Beat a MUST watch anime!
I wished I had known this title maybe a year later, that way, I can watch all the episodes at one go! So I dont have to wait. :D
One of the most entertaining and funniest anime.
Oh and I heard the news about taiwan TV producing this anime starring Jerry Yan as Tsuruga Ren and the other actress who starred 'It started with a kiss' as Kyoko Mogami.
The drama serial, 'It started with a kiss' was also an anime, 'Itazura Na Kiss'.
Why does Taiwan love taking stories from animes/manga?
Not to mention 'Hana Kimi'.

But...... im gonna watch the Taiwan ver of Skip Beat because of Jerry Yan HAHA!

Watch it here!
Currently, episode 18 to be aired.

http://www.veoh.com/channels/SkipBeat001



Kyoko followed her true love and childhood friend Sho to Tokyo so she could help him reach his dream of becoming an idol. She cleans, cooks, works three jobs and does nothing for herself because she loves him so much, but gets nothing in return. Still, she remains by his side. But then one day she goes unannounced to his agency with a delivery, and overhears him talking about her; he reveals to his manager that he only took her with him as a maid, and that he doesn't care for her at all. Upon hearing this, Kyoko doesn't just sit around and cry. She cuts and dyes her hair, changes her clothes and attitude and thus begins her journey to join showbiz and have her revenge against Sho.

Superstar - Lupe Fiasco

Attica, blacks and the geek!

FUNS AT PLAY TOMORROW! YA HOOOO!

You'll see.

Its getting quiet in here.

I proclaim my last playing week of the year.

I have been through 2-3 years of failure and depression, right now im gonna put all my heart into it.

And after my last breakdown at the beginning of last year, I really learnt alot.

So whatever you guys may say, may judge, I still believe in myself.

I am going you show you and myself.

I can pull through!

I am going to get into Poly next year.

Dearest.

My lovely parents at Fish and Co.
Look at their funny conversation.





Yesterday night at City Alive 2009.
The crowd was awesome but the music sucks.
But we still managed to danced all night!
Oh yes, I smacked the ass of a stick-man. ( A person who stands and walks on a long stick thing.) And the song that was playing was 'Smack That'. HAHA
I wish the person fall tho.

My boyfriend is in New Zealand!

I love cooking!
I love cooking for my family but I hate cooking for my boyfriend.
I never felt so dejected doing something with all my heart for someone before.
This is the first time.
You love fulfiling my first times, you got it this time.
I thought its all about the efforts, the heart, the sincerity.
Sigh, now I got no idea what to do on Val's day then.

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This CNY sucks.
DOES ANYONE REMEMBER YOUR MOM?!
My poor Grandma is waiting at home everyday on CNY, yet no one comes to visit her!
Lets talk about respect.

This CNY, everything's been a rush.
I regretted not spending more time with my uncles and cousins.
Its been great seeing them and all.
Why bother to wait til CNY?
I swore to visit even if its not CNY.

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Things to be updated about me.

I got a disease that would take 4 months to be cured.



The first time I have seen such creative presents.








P.S Dont be so oblivious to our differences. Talk it out.
P.P.S I need to start jogging!
P.P.P.S I MISS YOU YINGTING!

KC and JoJo - All my life