Maybe I should just go work. Sitting here makes me emo.
Lack of motivation to go on working =[

Im just a teenage girl without hopes and motivation x_x

I felt... deprive of.. life O_o
Fact is Im losing hope and motivation again.

Decisions to be made.

I called in sick for work today cause..... I got migrane, cough, flu. Excuses?! WEEE be chillen with my sisters later =D LOL
I be quitting that job by the end of this month i guess. Alphy msg me yesterday and want me back to work for him. Iono if I should.. I txt him and ask the details again. Cause it sucks if its on comission based. Iono when the hell would I get the money. Like the last time, tho I only went for two days I got 400$ but I took two months to get that money. But still... Iono.

P.S I love Lan.

And wtf some ass fag gave out my number to Bala. FFFFFUCK.

Sometimes I feel like quitting my job and start ROing full time again. Working takes up too much of my time. I cant even find time for myself.
But thinking of the end of the year keeps me moving again. I dont know if this distance thingy would work out but, im gonna keep trying even if it takes years. And I know that it will definately takes years. Cause Imma go back to school.... I think. >.>
W.e I hate to think much.

You see, I dont really look at babies and smile to myself like what most of them do. But this time I caught myself smiling when I saw this lil girl around the age of 3-6 with her daddy. I wasnt smiling because of how cute she was I was smiling cause her daddy and her are so cute together. Her daddy was soo sweet to his lil girl and so caring. They were so close. He really love his lil girl I could see it. I was so touched by just that customer. I caught myself thinking about him the whole day at work. Guys are charming when they are taking care of their kid =)

Eep havent posted for a long time, truth is I got myself back into the game. When I told Nurul bout this shes like, i swear im gonna bring a hammer to your house, dont skip working and say u wanna play games. Then shes like hey wanna eat after work? im like naw i wanna go home and play game LOL shes like dont give me stupid reason imma slap you.

Anyways, was listening to Rooftops-Lostprophets and I was standing at the stairway at the parapet wall looking at the sky before i went home. Cause it was so windy <3
And I havent be with myself for a long time.
Thought of Danny for a while.

Anyways gonna poop. Laters.
One week to payday o_o

A moment of torture.

OMG ANDREWWWW!

"I missed you"

"WHAT?! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS HAHAHAHHA *SCREEN* YOU MISS WHO?"

I miss you toooo! Omfg you finally came on.

I will take another day as another step in my life.
My everyday's goal : Reach early for work.

A good start ^_^ Im actually feeling happy for myself for the first time.

Sometimes i think that the real reason i dont quit mai job is b.c i dont want them or mai parents to think that im that lil kid they use to know anymore. I dont want them to think that im just a screwed up teenager struggling to get some money thats all. Like I cant even withstand tireness and hardship. I wanna show them that I can. This is nothing at all, I still got a long way to go. And I wont give up until i die. A shit long way to go. If i cant even take this, how can I go on the rest of mai life =]
Thanks for giving me a reason to work.

I dont wanna be that screwed up teenager struggling anymore. Dont wanna be that fuct up kid playing around anymore. Dont wanna look back, getting drunk every night. [Before RO]
But sometimes I still wish to stay there, chilling everyday, hanging out at hp everyday ><
It was soooo chillaxing. But dont look back ;D

Hummm I suddenly feel strong wtf LOL
Goal of the year : Learn to love myself.

^_^ Today im happy. I will emphasize on it later =)

Work today was kinda boring but mmm relaxing for meh. I worked 11-7. And around 11+ I saw py and michelle passing by outside the resto im like wtf they didnt saw me? Then I was about to walk towards the entrance then I saw py walked backwards and looked in LOL.
And then blah blah blah.
Then at break time Mam Salli asked me if im Single im like yarrr? Im single and not looking. Then Nurul looked at me like I told a lie, well i did LOL But at my work place only Nurul knows about me and Lan. And I dont like to give out too much info about myself to others ==l
Then after that I heard Mam salli saying to Sir manjeet "Have you heard about the incident about two guys over one girl?" Im like jeez wtf o.o *bends head lower and continue eating*
Then break time I heard Mam salli saying to Mam Salome "... ... ... blah blah blah B and S." Im like shit wtf BALA?! heck no?! Then I was wondering whos the S. I was thinking of Sateya >_>
I rather it be Shalehan cause it be like WTF TWO INDIAN GUYS OVER ME ==;
What? Do I look indian or something?!
Then nearly the end of work, xh and my ex classmates came by to see me ;D! And I told mam salome that I aint looking for a bf and I aint interested at all. Cause she ask me to put on more make up cause i might find a bf here >_>
So annoying.

AND I reached home and OLA! HES LETTTER =DDDDDDDDD
I was soooo excited LOL but my sis seems more excited than me >_>
Cause im like, i open it after I finish smoking. Shes like keep on smiling there, wondering whats inside and keep looking at the envelope LOL. So kaypo ;P
Hehe I cried after reading it ;D I was sooo touched ^_^
Weee im "engaged" now LMAO hahahhahahahha ;P

P.S nice signature =D
P.P.S LOL cute handwriting like kiddy HAHAHAHHA

i suddenly feel lonely...

P.S k3ro is up o.o

I feel that if I wont msg him, he wont msg me in years. >_>
I wonder if I wont come online for weeks, he prolly forget me.

P.S this gives him a reason to msg -_-!

Rarely see him now =/

LOL the auntie ask me if I have a bf and I told her yup. ;(
Working's so boring recently. And stop that laughing and smiling >_>
Fucking immature. I already said I dont like him so stfu.

I miss him =/
Wondering where is he now, what is he doing right now.

Omagosh I was on my way home and i indeed saw the most grossssssiest thing of my life. Two cockroach are mating o_o Im like omfg one is enough, IMAGINE THEIR BABIEEESSS. Im like should I kick them? LOL
Work is effin boring today. ITS SUNDAY and the time passes so slowly. Swensens is so quiet today.
LOL damn sateya and bala -_-
I AM NOT INTERESTED. How many times do I have to say that >_>

"All of a sudden, pinoys are all coming over you."
HAHHAHAHAH funny shit.
I didnt realise until you say that.

Funny shit today, I forgot to zip my pants today LMAO
SO FUCKING EMBARAASING. I was in the bus then this MAN told me i didnt zip my pants. >_>
So boring working today. That newbie lost her bag after work LOL but i didnt see whether she found it or not.