Today, I learned something important. Sometimes, rather most of the time when you realize something, it’s always too late! That’s what I learned today. Actually, I’ve been in this situation a few times already, but I never learned from it. What usually happen, is that I blame myself then regret it and then after sometimes I’ll do the same mistake again. What am I talking about? Well, I really hate it when I don’t do things that I was supposed to do or I postponed ‘till eternity. Why am I like this?!?!? I hope I’ll learn and remember something this time…

In our life we meet and encounter different people, some maybe a bitch or an asshole, some can be an angel… But no matter who and what they are in our lives, we may or may not be close to them but they will always leave something that we can learn from. They can either make a very big impact, which can change our lives or we may not know it sometimes but they already taught us something. Whoever they are, whatever is their status in life we will surely learn something from them. Well whatever... I wonder if singapore has any rap battlings at the street.

Quote of da day!... Never explain--your friends do not need it and your enemies will not believe you anyway

Linkin Park Biography

Linkin Park is a truly unique band. They are not just Rock, Rap, or
Electronica band. They comprimise of a veritable mixture of different styles
and stylists in music, This makes them a hybrid in the type of music they
play and their fan-base too. We are true lovers of Linkin Park

Linkin Park's origin began in 1996 when rapper guitarist Brad Delson and the
infamouis Mike Shinoda started a band called Xero. Other members of the
band were Mark Wakefield the vocalist, Joseph
Hahn the DJ, Rob Bourdon the drummer, and "Phoenix" Farrell the bassist.
Xero made a four track demo tape including: Fuse, Stick N' Move, Rhinestone,
and Reading My Eyes.

When Mark Wakefield left the band, they changed their name to Hybrid
Theory. Later "Phoenix" chose to leave the band to tour with another band,
called"The Snax". The rest of the gang continued to play together primarily
for fun. They later, signed with Zomba Music an occasion that came about
when they played at The Whiskey Club in Los Angeles. The final addition to
the band came in the form of Chester Bennington.

Magical Chester, in our humble opinion, was absolutely the missing catalyst.
His extra-ordinary voice lets him deliver the lyrics at a gentle yet
aggressive pace. He can hit pitch notes like no other. Chester humbly even
blames this on "years of singing" and "scar tissue". We absolutely love him.

His arrival completed the Band. Thus in 1999 Carousel, And One, Technique,
Step up, High Voltage & Part of me were born as a six track EP, to
tremendous applause.

Some legal wrangling made it necessary to change the band's name. True to
their "hybrid' spirit Linkin Park was chosen. Members drove by Lincoln Park
regularly so why not use a similar sounding, unique name. Chester has been
recorded to say he wanted a name which was unique, "where the music could
define the name rather than the name define the music". Phoneix pulled a
mythical rebirth and rejoined the band fulfilling his destiny. New demos
were made and the chase for a record label was on. Warner Records were lucky
to hear the music, like it and sign up Linkin Park. A massive page in their
history was written.


Linkin Park released their debut album, Hybrid Theory In October 2000,. Hits
like One Step Closer, Crawling, and In The End were born. Hybrid Theory
eventually received 8x platinum. Hybrid Theory does not follow a trend set
up by a lot of other bands in that it doesn't contain any curses or swear
words. This was because the band wanted to write lyrics honestly and they
thought that unnecessary swear words take away attention from the music.
They wanted something that the public could listen to over and over again
and enjoy repeatedly. At it's completion they felt they had achieved this
feat with Hybrid Theory.


After Hybrid Theory was released, Linkin Park's fame permitted them to tour
all over the world. They toured with bands like POD, 3 Doors Down, and
System Of a Down.

July of 2002, saw LP release the Hybrid Theory Remix album, Reanimation.
These remixes included talent from rappers like Black Thought and 20 tracks
were cut.

In March of 2003, LP released their 2nd year album, Meteora. This album
includes hits like Somewhere I Belong, Numb,, and Faint. Included on Meteora
and Reanimation were ground breaking extras. They contained enhanced
portions. These parts of the discs included videos and other extra 'goodies"
fans could view on their PC. The band wanted to use technology and let the
fans to see the process of making albums . This helped them share all the
"Blood, Sweat and Tears," they put into making the albums .

Linkin Park has won numerous awards including an award at the VMAs. Their
popularity has grown world-wide. They are now truly international with a
multitude of fans. From their hybrid genres to their non offensive
swear-free lyrics, to their use of turntables and samples, Linkin Park cover
a truly versatile ground and provide an entertaining and unique performance.

From that day on, Little Girl shuts her soul away from the world.

Years past and Little Girl grew up. Little Girl slowly develops her own identity but in truth, she never really found
herself. Little Girl hides behind a happy mask, trying to please everyone. But Little Girl was alone. She wanted someone
to be with her. She wanted someone to listen and to comfort her. Little Girl was lost in the big world.

Little Girl finally found that someone. Oh, what bliss, Little Girl thought.
She finally has someone to care for her and someone to care for. Little Girl was happy.

But lo! friends didn't seem to like Little Girl. They act polite in front of Little Girl but criticize her behind
her back. Oh what sorrow. Little Girl didn't do anything but be nice to the "friends". But the day Little Girl found out
about this, she was hurt. Oh, the pain. The anger. The loneliness.

Why should they be polite to me when they hate me so much? Little Girl wondered. Oh, Little Girl helped them so much in
the past. Sure, Little Girl has done some bad things but one can't help it when she is not perfect. Why trust someone you
hate with your secret when you hate them? They are bound to find out sooner or later. But no, Little Girl won't tell this
secret to anyone. Why? Because it is a secret.

So you see, like Little Girl, I have my share of enemies. God knows WHY they are polite and still tell me stuff they don't
want other people to know when they hate me so much just because I'm always too over-excited over things. So what? That's
my business and it's none of YOURS.

And if you thing I'm power hungry, Fuck You. You can go and screw yourself up the ass. I'm not that type of
person.

Remember that Im the one who make things happen
while you people just sit on your sorry little asses, criticizing me.

No more sweet lil pushover doormat Setsuna. Fuck me up once, I'll fuck you up 10 times harder. I'm not that little girl
anymore. Screw me, I'll screw you over 100 times worst.

Maybe i should do that. Change I mean. No more being a pushover, a doormat, sweet lil ol' Setsuna
which EVERYONE can step on. Why the sudden decision? Let me tell you a story.

Eight years ago, my parents think it could be fun torturing and starving me, messing up with my mind. Well, and
I get on with my life quite normally until i was, let me see, erm... 14. I started going out often and discover the world of
beauty and money. Im became materialitic and i even went to steal my mum's and dad's money. Fifty dollars by fifty a day.
I felt that they are abusing me by not giving me enough money. I steal I cheat I lie to get money. So as days goes by they
found out and they kept away all source of money at home. So I felt that I got no choice but to go out and steal and i steal
for about nearly a year and those stolen good went about nearly less than a thousand dollars worth. A year went by i lead
this kind of life stealing and cheating finding myself where should i really belong. And I can't seems to find myself.
So i continue this life. And i flop badly in the year examination and drop to a lower class.

Three months after my birthday I got caught for stealing and i got a sentence like a fuck up probation and couselling like i gotta
crack or something. Years and years my mum had advise me to find a true friend but not those who meant bad for me. But i
love being with them so i didn't listen to her advise. Until today i got her meaning. Mean girls sux. I will continue the
story of my life and WHY i decided to change as soon as i change the url of my blog. Because blog is meant for me myself and I and not anyone else.
So WHY must people keep coming back to read my blog? And i really can't write my true meaning and true feeling inside my
blog?! HUH?! So think about it blog readers! My new blog add is going to be difficult to guess so... dont try to guess..
hmm but its cool if you guys found it.

I'll lie down for the last time and fall well away from her
And I insist that I'll be dearly missed
(please, say never)
I'll pour down like water
In between the sky and doubt
we talked about 'forever'
and all our other useless words.
Until I say "in his silent sound was the
peace I found" but she hides behind
her eyelids. I feel the breath from
her nose on my neck as it blows by.
the warmth passes me (like her love did)
"But a tree once cut down
came up new from the ground"
she smiles a lie, "that may very well be,"
she replies "and so it goes,
it's the devil, I suppose but it doesnt matter much to me."
Put music to our troubles
and we'll dance them away.
From my left eye flow tears of joy,
of sorrow from my right.
"You might seem too strong to surrender,
boy, but you're far too frail to fight."
That old dull pain beats in my brain
it runs down my back into every limb-
And its more of the same
as the warmth that I seem to lack,
you'll neither find in him.
mewithoutYou "The Ghost"

ya.. and this was the pic that i came across that i wasnt been able to show to you guys this few days cause my com really got a crack or some thing...

and my description for this car was: A damn cold covering for a really cool car.. damn

Thought you would like this:
Why Women Cry...

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?"
"Because I'm a woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said.
His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will.

"Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.
Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked,
"God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said:"When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a womanis not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."




**Women are special. Gen 2:18= "...a helper suitable for him"

wHY am i still in that " "?!?!

haiz... so sad cia today... but nvm... today i'v have already make up my mind my decision to lead a peaceful.. it maybe boring but nvm.... i rather be that way than become into an lonely freak! pool was ubber fun today... but it was rather hot there... but nvm... now talking on da phone with xh so cant think of anything to write... lol still feeling so empty

hate this world

so angry! i say bye to my mother and she dont even wanted to bid me goodbye... i repeated about six times and not even one time she responded! so disappointing! What kinda mother she are?! haiz... cant stand it.. it musta been the pressure and stress that is getting on my nerve... and everybody thinks that im a shop just come and go as they wish! i cant take it... this few days i've been thinking and tolerating about it... they just think of themself... when im into trouble then no ones like to trouble themself then they rather leave me all alone... i turn back time and live the way it was meant for me and not changing it and persueing into some kinda wild live.. prefer it peaceful and happy now... haiz.. can anyone get me outta this mess now?

delifrance....

the first day of work is always so boring... the people there so mean and unfriendly except some who is quite warming... feel like smacking those mean faces.. like want to bully newbies like that... been washing plates, bowls, glasses,etc...etc...etc. learning how to make drinks all that had been fun though... When straight hom cause it goin to be seven... whao and then my head ache so badly and my shoulders ache too.. man... so tiring.. one thing i gotta just get it outta my mind.. i felt so left out! so left out of everyone and da world! imma not exist! why is it onli when they are bored or sumthing then they come and find me! why is it that onli when im in high spirit then they are there to listen to my jokes! why is it when im moody and quiet then they went happily off to find another entertainer?!?! WHY WHY WHY?!?! my dearest friends not talking about you guys... just to tell ya just in case...

badluck?

Man... god had been cursing me again and again he musta realli hate me... i cant believe he did this to me... o...k... i had start my day by hearing my dad yelling at me in da morning cause we are late for the police lecturing... then we when there by his motorbike and it was soo cooling and windy... i was like falling asleep on da bike... we reach there just on time and the officer brought a group of others offenders that i dont know who in the universe they are i just follow the officer with my dad... and we guys went in to a room where everyone sat at a 'huge' table where i can hardly stay awake... AnD whats moRe he spat at us with load of craps and shit with the rules and regulation... and i was to reach home at seven o clock at night for EVERY sInGLE DAY!!! FOR SIX whOLE HeLLY MOnTHS! holy shit~! i dont know how am i going to survive with this kind of bloody rules... no smoking.. no drinking.. gambling... no re offending and blah blah blah~~ AND worst i have to go COUSELLING!!! omg! like i was some kind of mental-problmatic kid~! i cant believe i have to go to the same couselling centre again like i have gone to last yr!! IziT fated??!?! that i have a shit life!~ wtf?! After that my dad frive me back home again but now the situatuion is totally difirent man... ThE weather is soo damn hot! And my dad seems to agree with me and he suddenly pick up speed and my head totally cant catch up with the rest of my body and was realli like cartoons... the head at the back and the body in da front? hawhaw~ and i sms my sis told her to come down to eat at the nearby food centre... and went after that.... still broading over that matter... i have to go play pool on tuesday man how am i goin to go? if i ask my dad go along then i can stay out late.... but.. haiz... ugh! cursed life!

shit...

haiz.. so sad... when to play pool at somerset today... xy is on fight with her stead zx... then we went in and play for some time.. her stead came to play too... and it musta been a considence... cause she did not call him come... but we call another group of friend come with us... man.. and xy stead's friend bushuang our friend... then he call him go out and our friend kana beaten up heard that is four beat one.. oh man... this is so unfair!! i hate them!! haiz... then my friend say he doesnt want to see me again! i cant lose him as a friend! he was just looking at their pool table and they thought he was staring at them! FUCK THIER MUM'S ASS MAN! IT WAS SO HOLY CHILDISH! I HATE THEM!!! AnD my friend still say he dun wanna see any of us again! but its not our fault right! grrr! now its all screw up! so fuck up!

my fish.. :(

morning schoool had been bloody boring... and that guy ee chong keep calling me FaT~ lolz... quite funny though.. went to xy house right after wandering around school and went cooking and frying in da house... but it musta taste rather bad.. but anyway it had been fun... and she gave me what i wanted... a cigarette and i went to yt house right after that.. they were gambling there.. i was tired so i lied on the bed... feeling raTher sick now... and when i went home.. BaD news came running to me... man... saturday i need to go to that hell police station to settle that case which is forever never ending... it lasted for sooo damn long!! oh man.. when can this hell be gone... BuT i have to work on that helly day! man.. wat imma gotta do... damn.. god just cursed my life... that bloody fish just died... it musta hate its tank alot... so pityful its eyes look up to me.. haiz.. god do u realli need to curse me? no way! i gotta getta hell outta here! help me!!

today i watch the vcd again... i said i hate zhou ziruo because she is damn evil.. full of plots. Cant stand her in the first place.. BUT today when i saw her fighting! She was helly cool~! Because her eyes is full of evil and that was so damn cool~! But i still cant stand her! ugh! Imma goin back to my show! cyAz!

nth.. nth

been watching qi tian du long ji vcd this few days so never blog for so long... omg the show was so nice.. it was so nice that i missed out lots of show... i just cant stop watching it till i watch it all... ytd i watch the dics till it was like around five thirty in da morning! man... but tml i need to go to sch so i cant watch till so late... sad thing... the show just keep me in suspense. I got some new pics of cristiano e-mailed to me.. so happy.. he was so god gorgeous on da field!! Now im hearing happy ending by all american rejects very nice also... haiz... ke qi ar ke qi... nvm... nth... .... .... ....
I HATE SCH AND I HATE SINGAPORE!!! ugh! that was sucky.. ugh nvm...

WHY!?!?!?

WHY??? why do you read blogs? why do you read this blog? why do you keep coming back? what is it that makes you want to read more? why do you care? do you care? or is it cheap entertainment, like a story or tv show? do you want there to be a happy ending someday? is it supposed to end? what is the point? and some people say they are inspired. inspired how? to do what? to be how? i am stuck in "no where". i am nothing. i will become nothing. so how can that inspire anything? and if someone is inspired, then they will be more than me. they will be better than me...
how do these things work? explain yourselves, blog readers.

damn... oh man... my mouse gotta crack... it musta been the plug or the ants biting it... it cant moved!.. at all... and now im here using the keyboard to control the mouse... i have a difficult time doing it... ytd i lay awake till 1.40am and i meant to go to da teevee to watch coasta rice vs. portugal... i meant to watch it! i realli realli realli meant to watch it! but i lay there thinking bout things anddd i slept through the night! man!! i musta miss cristian on the field! he musta looked sexy there.. awww damn... haiz.. i fell for the person that i cant fell for... he cant be mine...awww... i musta hate myself.... and i realli hate singapore... i mean like....singaporean guys are sissys... realli! i musta miss him lots... oh ya and damn... today night they have athens olympics and that means i will miss today's episode of the o.c and wwe! omg all bacause of that olympic! i dun realli know why the whole world is sooo competitive! everything also want to compete with each other! man... wat the world have become into... andd ya.. today i met up with einstien AND you guys know what? he musta changed his hair style and lol finally changing his clothes i cant recognized his back view at all! i even asked his friend is that him? and i quickly take a look from the side first before calling him! AND he looked awesome! He is much much more cooler now! haw haw!

cristiano... sobs

ARGGGGH!!! Today got soccer match agentina vs portugal!!! but it is at 1.40am then my dad will be furious if i said i want to watch it but... i LOVE ronaldo!!! god!!why wont you help me this time?!?! awww i get miss this match if not i will miss him lots!! i wil regret it for my life time!! oh god! man.... wat im gonna do?? ugh! i need to watch that damn match! i dun care! wish my luck now everyone! hope my dad is asleep!

so fed up!

grrch!! so fed up now!!! stupid lagging system! i spend the this few minutes typing out my new post and this idiot page gone hay wire!! i press publish and it send me to other page when i press back! it was all gone!!! grrrr!!!! AARRRGGH!!!! okiez! so i will just type the summary!! gGRR! FIRSTLY I AM DAMN ANGRY WITH MY DAD SECONDLY, I AM VERY GRATEFUL TO JUN WEI FOR HELPIN GME OUT TODAY AND I HAVE SWORE NOT TO TYPE SINGLISH ANYMORE CAUSE I HATE SINGAPORE!!!! GRRR!! WORST NIGHT I EVER HAD!!!

weird...

woke up late in the afternoon... sneeze three times when i woke up... somethings gonna happen? guess what? i loss 2kg overnight! goss! im so damn happy! oh man... first time in my life. Felt so dizzy since i woke up didnt felt that ever before wats happening to me??? HAH! It was two days ago i watch a soccer match. And to my suprise it was iraq vs portugal.. and OMG it was CRISTIANO RONALDO!!! i was like 'awww soo cute!' i was soo freaking happy to see him!! and i was frozen in front of the teevee catching every view of him i could see.. every expression of him and every movement of him! gosh! And he got a yellow card for accidently hitting a person's eye.. and was like blood all over his eyes! it was damn cool~! lol.... BUT... To my disappointment portugal lose to iraq! omg i cant believe it!!! hate it when they lose! ugh! haiz... im soo hungry now but i cant afford to eat cause i just lost some weight and i don't want to get back to the same weight again! grrch!