The on going cycles in a relationship.
At time I kind of agree with what Mr Andre told me.
Its either make it or break it.
Sigh. Its no time for Big O, its the Big R.
Hahaha.
We all should hang out!
Cheese Bun. Haha.

Somebody call 911 !!

Ok im exhausted from the party last night.
Im feeling good. Met so many great people again! :D
Happiness.

Been fustrated and bad temper lately but its getting better.
Sorry for the two outburst at home.
I feel kind of bad for the things I said out of fustrated to cs.

My mental turmoil has taken a toll on my body.
I puked right after I came home this morning and bad migranes.
No idea why I puked.
Should have stayed home when I was having discomfort in my gastric.

This is the first time I took noticed of my body and how it react to my mind.
I really paid attention to myself these days.
And I really should have done that long ago.

This is not my year for fun and parties.
Its time for reflection and progressive change.

But im going for a party later on haha!

Just a few more days alone and I'll be fine.
Thats just how fast I always recover. HAHA!
And i'll be back sexing the clubs.

P.S I wish I have Da M for companion. ;[

MY BOOK HAVENT ARRIVED YET.
Even international store is faster. Tsk tsk.

Gonna see Da MM later! See youuuuuu.

With each passing minutes, things get a little bit easier.
=D Happy.

Sorry for flaring up for no reason.
In fact there is always reason for sudden anger or resentment.
I have to stop suppressing my emotions.

Dump in drags.
Is it easier to find someone else for comfort?
Or is it worth resolving?
Worth trying and trying again for salvation?

In the face of distress,
I refuse to go down.

Have to study before its too late.

I agree with XH, strike a balance.
Drink alone at a bar?
Another dare I would like to try.
How far would I go?

Japanese food court at Yishun and KTV at Katong.
What an ulu place!
Doesnt matter since theres free beer.
Saw PY's new BF for the first time!
Although I confused him with the other guy.

These days are just monotone.

Towards November. The beginning of life.

Sigh!

Chronic boredom can cause obsessive behaviour.
By understanding myself a little bit more, im a step towards emotional independence.
First step to change.
Acceptance and understanding.
A little too hard, a little too easy.
Humans are just too vulnerable.
And I just refuse to.

Touching the guitar again, heals my heart and soul.
Have to learn something new.
Ideas please?!
And my order have not reach my mail yet!

Trying to find my way back home

Blasting music makes me feel less alone.

The result of a sleepless night.

The dating persona Test

Genghis Khunt
Random Brutal Sex Master (RBSM)

So you are Genghis Khunt: master of man, bringer of pain—riding your way to conquest after conquest.

Your sexual avarice is legendary. You’ve already had an unusually high amount of experience, and, still you look for more. You intimidate many. You make no apologies.

Personality-wise, you’re carefree and relatively easy-going. You don’t plan things out ahead of time; you tend to live in the moment. Of course, this can cause some damage when the moment happens to include a screaming orgasm with his younger brother. Hence the ‘brutal’ tag we’ve given you.

But you know what, take five seconds to lock the doors, and you’ll be fine. There’s nothing wrong with a little sex, or a whole lot.

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Your result for The What type of MAN turns you on Test...

Dark mysterious boy

You scored 40% masculine, 53% athletic, 55% exotic, and 25% refined!

You like your men naughty, mysterious and with abs you can do your laundry on. You like him to look a little more on the boyish side underneath all that naughtiness though. You probably like someone like.......Christian Slater. But let's face it, the whole point of this was to look at a bunch of hot guys. If you liked what you saw, please rate my test!

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The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test

7 - the Adventurer
Thanks for taking the test !

AX - your Enneagram type is SEVEN (aka "The Enthusiast").

"I am happy and open to new things"

Adventurers are energetic, lively, and optimistic. They want to contribute to the world.

How to Get Along with Me

Give me companionship, affection, and freedom.
Engage with me in stimulating conversation and laughter.
Appreciate my grand visions and listen to my stories.
Don't try to change my style. Accept me the way I am.
Be responsible for youself. I dislike clingy or needy people.
Don't tell me what to do.

What I Like About Being a SEVEN

being optimistic and not letting life's troubles get me down
being spontaneous and free-spirited
being outspoken and outrageous. It's part of the fun.
being generous and trying to make the world a better place
having the guts to take risks and to try exciting adventures
having such varied interests and abilities
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hat's Hard About Being a SEVEN

not having enough time to do all the things I want
not completing things I start
not being able to profit from the benefits that come from specializing; not making a commitment to a career
having a tendency to be ungrounded; getting lost in plans or fantasies
feeling confined when I'm in a one-to-one relationship

SEVENs as Children Often

are action oriented and adventuresome
drum up excitement
prefer being with other children to being alone
finesse their way around adults
dream of the freedom they'll have when they grow up

SEVENs as Parents

are often enthusiastic and generous
want their children to be exposed to many adventures in life
may be too busy with their own activities to be attentive

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The Slut Test



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Your result for The Lover Style Profile Test...

The Exotic Lover

41% partner focus, 43% aggressiveness, 80% adventurousness

Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:



You prefer your romance and love to wild and daring rather than typical or boring, you would rather be pursued than do the pursuing and, when it comes to physical love, you concentrate more on enjoying the experience rather than worrying about your performance.



This places you in the Lover Style of: The Exotic Lover.



The Exotic Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and conjures images of the exotic, romantic hero out of a romance novel, or perhaps a slightly dangerous and deadly sexy femme fatale from a noir mystery. The Exotic Lover loves pleasure and is a treasure to date, though it can be difficult to do so because they sometimes tend to be mysterious and reluctant to commit.



In terms of physical love, the Exotic Lover can be quite surprising, as they are often more exciting and adventurous than predicted. Given a little freedom, and the right lover, the Exotic Lover can be a delight in bed.



Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Liberated Lover (most of all) or the Devoted Lover, or the Romantic Lover.



Congratulations!

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Dead At 67

From Cancer

View my profile: liupeimin

Find out when and why you'll die, take The Death Test!

Harmful yet healthy.
The harmful ones are always the easiest one to turn to.
Ironic. Life is built this way.
You cant get best of the both worlds.
When it come crashing down, you come back stronger.


Paparazzi - Lady Gaga

To make.

Heeheehee.
A rush of adrenaline.
So long. So long.
Mysterious fate.

Cool breeze of the night.
Whiff of perfume.

When can I get my summertime again? ;)






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Oh and there's this old post I posted years back.


Yearning for.



Does anyone felt this way before?

You're stuck in foreign quest.
You hate absolutely everything about it.
The people, the work, everything.
Your itchying for a growth, a change.
You worked hard for the change.
It happened.
You gradually began enjoying the foreign quest.
It aint foreign to you anymore.
But you dont realise it.
You complain of hating it.
You complain about everything, like, the way you did, the first time here.

Suddenly, you have to leave this "foreign" place.
And your placed in a totally strange place.
With a new quest you set out to.
You began hating it here and began reminiscing the old, familiar place that you once hate.

Sounds familiar, dont it?


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Was reading through history.
Patterns I realised.

I yearn and yearn and gave up.
Your sweet sweet caring.

I stop giving up and start giving in.
Your you you and all yourself.

If being cold is the only way...

And I cant seems to remember anything about the happiness anymore.
Why?

Seems so hard to keep trying.

Still sealed in hell.

XY got a puppy.
I want a puppy. =[
I want an ugly bulldog.
Or a huge fierce looking wolf hybrid.
=[=[=[

Wtf. I met the hated guy for the second time in one day.
This kind of coincidence I rather not have.

Drunkard never lies.

First off went to school.
I GOT TOP IN CLASS FOR CHEMISTRY!
What a surprise! I failed for the previous test.

Went to meet YT for Jack's place.
After that prawning.

A prawning session turns into a drinking session with XY and that hated guy's clique.
Hated guy will always be hated. The clique will not be hated. ;p!
Especially if theres beer.

After that, straight to Cousin Marvin's Bday party.
Another round of drinking and im off.

So glad to see DI DI!!!!
Been years since I saw him. Miss him loaaads.

Will be out later. See ya!!

P.S I will always be a prideful woman. And I would commit no less than you do.
Thats how I am. Let me go with the wind and I would fly off with it.
No one ever got me over with mind games.

Hot and cold - Katy perry.
That just suits me and you. ;]

Good news, bad news.

Good news is that I shit.
Bad news is that I still have loads of shit in my ass.
And im having another sleepless night.

Good news is that I leeched The Sims3 from YT.
Bad news is that The Sims3 is gay because it wouldnt allow a 10 year old computer to play the game because it doesnt have Shader Model 2 video card.
Good news is that im gonna download that graphic crack since I dont want to invest on a graphic card.
Bad news is that reviews on that crack is that the game would be lagging shit.

And good news is that I have three computers in my house.
Spare me the troubles.

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out In Your Arms

From PY's blog.
In fact I saw this story years ago, but reading it the second time, its still enjoyable and sweet.

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out In Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water. We had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, "You are the kind of man who best draws girl's eyeballs." Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said "Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls." Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said, "You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company." Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together or, I was lounging before the computer, visualising Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way. "Suppose we divorce, what will you do?" She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

Once again, Dew said to me. "He Ning, divorce her, O.K.?" Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. "I've got something to tell you". She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly. She didn't seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, "Why?" I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me. "You are not a man!" At that night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again. She brought up her divorce conditions. She didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple. Our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage broken. She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, "He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?" This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, "I remember." "You carried me in your arms." She continued, "So, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning." I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. "No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce." She said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms.

She closed her eyes and said softly. "Let us start from today, don't tell our son." I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realised that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, "The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there."

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualisation of Dew became vaguer.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.

I didn't tell Dew about this.

i felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, "It seems not difficult to carry you now." She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, "All my dresses have grown fatter." I smiled. But I suddenly realised that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger.

I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. "Dad, it's time to carry mum out." He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, "Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old." I held her tightly and said, "Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lack of such intimacy."

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, "Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious." She looked at me, astonished. Then she touched my forehead, "You got no fever." I moved her hand off my head. "Sorry, Dew. I can only say sorry to you. I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you."

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favourite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote. "I'll carry you out every morning until we are old."

Stab me if I ever forget this.

Dreams - Cranberries

Like this forever.

Im gonna see a sleep doctor tomorrow.
Hopefully, these three years dilemma would have a closure.
And for now, I think Timbre would be my new hang out. Heh heh.
LG Life's good. ;)

P.S My mom wants me to 'delete' my 'japanese moustache'.
What do you girls think? Yes no?

Last summer, last summer.

The Ataris - Boys Of Summer