Friday, May 18, 2007
>_>
Went to dinner with Alphy. Watched Spidey man 3. I still dont understand why the whole world is so into it. Fucking 1m$ in just one day in Singapore's box office.
The whole movie was boring until the ending part. I sat til my back ache. Boring movie.
I guess I hasnt really change since 2003. Im a huge disappointment to everyone. At this point, Im still not ready to sit down. It seems like I lost directions of what im doing. When can I stop getting into trouble?
From autumn to ashes - Chroloform perfume
Lates.
The whole movie was boring until the ending part. I sat til my back ache. Boring movie.
I guess I hasnt really change since 2003. Im a huge disappointment to everyone. At this point, Im still not ready to sit down. It seems like I lost directions of what im doing. When can I stop getting into trouble?
From autumn to ashes - Chroloform perfume
Lates.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
NEW SPEAKER!
HAPPEE BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SISTER ERNIES!
HAPPEE BIRTHDAY TO PEIYIN!
Concerning the previous post, no, I seriously dont dare to poop tho I feel it coming out soon.
My speakers, bitched up. Couldnt hear the guitars.
Headphones, bitched up. Wires.
My throat sore and dry from smoking.
From first to last - My heart your hands
P.S Punani for weeds.
HAPPEE BIRTHDAY TO PEIYIN!
Concerning the previous post, no, I seriously dont dare to poop tho I feel it coming out soon.
My speakers, bitched up. Couldnt hear the guitars.
Headphones, bitched up. Wires.
My throat sore and dry from smoking.
From first to last - My heart your hands
P.S Punani for weeds.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Poopeh.
Yelled at my granny twice today. Its only 11am. Guess I do have the anger in me. DONT IRRITATE ME NIGS ;]
Another confession.
I dare not to poop. What? Yes, you heard that right. I dare not to poop.
Another confession.
I dare not to poop. What? Yes, you heard that right. I dare not to poop.
Dream of colors.
Watched finished the series on Channel U every 10pm.
I first time I watched it, it was boring and "just another show". But I watched it just to waste the time. As I watched it subsequently, I cant stop!
Its a gooood show. Michelle, from no one to someone. The show is full of hopes. ;]
PLUS Nick and Michelle looks so cute together! <333
My wish is to witness a miracle and hope.
I first time I watched it, it was boring and "just another show". But I watched it just to waste the time. As I watched it subsequently, I cant stop!
Its a gooood show. Michelle, from no one to someone. The show is full of hopes. ;]
PLUS Nick and Michelle looks so cute together! <333
My wish is to witness a miracle and hope.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Happy mother's day.
Mom sent me an sms after she went off for work. I nearly cried reading it. My Mom is so mushy <3
"Is good that you channel your anger into your blog. Stay positive and revive your love in reading. Take care and we love you because you mean alot to us."
I love you too Mom. You mean alot to me too.
"Is good that you channel your anger into your blog. Stay positive and revive your love in reading. Take care and we love you because you mean alot to us."
I love you too Mom. You mean alot to me too.
P.A.S.S?
XY, Seth, thanks for calling.
Me: "Why dont I feel any sadness after the op?"
Mom: "But you feel anger. Its just the emotions that is different."
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I got a confession. I think......... the doctors put me to sleep and injured me. I got a bruise under my chin. EVIL DOCTORS! D:
Me: "Why dont I feel any sadness after the op?"
Mom: "But you feel anger. Its just the emotions that is different."
-
I got a confession. I think......... the doctors put me to sleep and injured me. I got a bruise under my chin. EVIL DOCTORS! D:
Monday, May 14, 2007
Blood runs free.
I cant run, somehow it hurts.
I cant pee without thinking of that.
It is still bleeding.
The world is spinning.
I cant pee without thinking of that.
It is still bleeding.
The world is spinning.
Went for the op. Cute surgical robe. They lay me on a bed. I listened to the cadence of the nurses talking to the other patients. The repetition of "take off your panty now, the doctor is coming to put the medication." "Sleep first, you cannot get off the bed for 2 hours." Blah blah blah.
The nurse 'pokes' the cannula into my veins. As she is preparing the cannula, I nearly cried. I was so frightened of what to expect next the moment I stepped into the ward. When she insert the cannula in, its not as bad. The doctor came, insert something into my vagina. I had to wait for 2 hours before proceeding into the surgical room. Tried to sleep. Couldnt. Tossed and turned. Fucking cold.
Two hours passed. I went into the surgical room. Doctors gave me the GA. It works like a wonder. Like getting drunk but in a fast forward motion. I woke up. My tummy hurts alot, I was shivering uncontrollably. My teeth shaking away. I told the nurse I was cold. She say its the effect of the drug. It hurts to move. My back ached from lying too much. Finally it was over.
I walked out of the room. He greeted me by saying, "Where are we going to eat" over and over again instead of "You feeling okay? Does it still hurts? Do you feel like vomiting? Can you walk far?" You said your concern is me. MY ASS. Your concern is food. Are you so very hungry?
Over the months, tons of arguements. Not even a sorry. A sorry doesnt mean you are in the sorry. A sorry means making the girl happy. And stop being mad. But no.
Your biggest mistakes is to PRETEND THAT NOTHING HAD HAPPENED.
The arguements is a little matter compared to the baby.
You recieved the news. Pretend nothing had happened.
After the op. Pretend nothing had happened.
How I wish to hear, im sorry you have to go through this. Are you scared? Dont worry you be fine. Im sorry that this happened. But no. To you, NOTHING HAD HAPPENED.
Now IM the one who is suffering, and not you. So stop thinking of yourself only. Throw your HIGH HUGE ego out for a moment. And stop with that tone. Stop trying to lecture me. And PUSH all the blames to me. You are in no position. I AM SUFFERING NOT YOU.
Act like a man. Stop acting like a wuzzy.
This concerns the both of us and I am the only one who is suffering. Think about MY feeling. Try to push me away after I suffered all this because of you, not so easy let me tell you.
And when all this is over, I knew you would be quick to throw me away. You wouldnt even try. I wasnt wrong about you right. ;] Think carefully. The baby is gone doesnt mean im not a threat anymore. Im not the kind who will suffer in silence. Im not the kind who will suffer ALONE.
Think about what else could you have said that would change the way I acted. Stop pushing the blame around. This point, you pushing the blame around, is what my Dad is right. Indians change their talks quickly to put the blame around.
God I feel like im dating a kid.
The nurse 'pokes' the cannula into my veins. As she is preparing the cannula, I nearly cried. I was so frightened of what to expect next the moment I stepped into the ward. When she insert the cannula in, its not as bad. The doctor came, insert something into my vagina. I had to wait for 2 hours before proceeding into the surgical room. Tried to sleep. Couldnt. Tossed and turned. Fucking cold.
Two hours passed. I went into the surgical room. Doctors gave me the GA. It works like a wonder. Like getting drunk but in a fast forward motion. I woke up. My tummy hurts alot, I was shivering uncontrollably. My teeth shaking away. I told the nurse I was cold. She say its the effect of the drug. It hurts to move. My back ached from lying too much. Finally it was over.
I walked out of the room. He greeted me by saying, "Where are we going to eat" over and over again instead of "You feeling okay? Does it still hurts? Do you feel like vomiting? Can you walk far?" You said your concern is me. MY ASS. Your concern is food. Are you so very hungry?
Over the months, tons of arguements. Not even a sorry. A sorry doesnt mean you are in the sorry. A sorry means making the girl happy. And stop being mad. But no.
Your biggest mistakes is to PRETEND THAT NOTHING HAD HAPPENED.
The arguements is a little matter compared to the baby.
You recieved the news. Pretend nothing had happened.
After the op. Pretend nothing had happened.
How I wish to hear, im sorry you have to go through this. Are you scared? Dont worry you be fine. Im sorry that this happened. But no. To you, NOTHING HAD HAPPENED.
Now IM the one who is suffering, and not you. So stop thinking of yourself only. Throw your HIGH HUGE ego out for a moment. And stop with that tone. Stop trying to lecture me. And PUSH all the blames to me. You are in no position. I AM SUFFERING NOT YOU.
Act like a man. Stop acting like a wuzzy.
This concerns the both of us and I am the only one who is suffering. Think about MY feeling. Try to push me away after I suffered all this because of you, not so easy let me tell you.
And when all this is over, I knew you would be quick to throw me away. You wouldnt even try. I wasnt wrong about you right. ;] Think carefully. The baby is gone doesnt mean im not a threat anymore. Im not the kind who will suffer in silence. Im not the kind who will suffer ALONE.
Think about what else could you have said that would change the way I acted. Stop pushing the blame around. This point, you pushing the blame around, is what my Dad is right. Indians change their talks quickly to put the blame around.
God I feel like im dating a kid.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Rainy monday
I dont mind,
you are someone who aint mine
but someone that I'll get.
And you dont know how hard Ive tried
to convince myself that I can easily forget.
But you left this feeling here inside me
One that never fails to find me.
On a rainy monday
A feeling inside me
Like the days of summer
On a rainy monday
I feel it inside me
In the hopes of one day
I wont lie,
I still cant say that I admit we went too far.
And you wont see me change my mind
but i really wish that i could forget the way you are.
I still feel you shine inside of me.
you are someone who aint mine
but someone that I'll get.
And you dont know how hard Ive tried
to convince myself that I can easily forget.
But you left this feeling here inside me
One that never fails to find me.
On a rainy monday
A feeling inside me
Like the days of summer
On a rainy monday
I feel it inside me
In the hopes of one day
I wont lie,
I still cant say that I admit we went too far.
And you wont see me change my mind
but i really wish that i could forget the way you are.
I still feel you shine inside of me.
I am very happy. Not really good to say it here.
But im glad that I know something.
I know you are still who you are. You never change. I was wrong.
-
Tomorrow will be a scary day for me. I dont know how will I go through it. Even though I know I wouldnt find any comfort when im there, I know you will pray for me and hope all goes well.
Still loving you.
But im glad that I know something.
I know you are still who you are. You never change. I was wrong.
-
Tomorrow will be a scary day for me. I dont know how will I go through it. Even though I know I wouldnt find any comfort when im there, I know you will pray for me and hope all goes well.
Still loving you.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Uncle kenneth came back from London!
List of things he bought:
Three huge boxes of chocolate from hotel chocolat.
One Gucci perfume!
One box of Earl's grey tea. The one used in London hotel. 1k teabags.
One bottle of coffee powder. Nescafe. He said it taste different from the one in Singapore. o.o
One bottle of tropical pepper.
Three packs of gums.
A sovenir from Venice.
He talked to me. He went through depression before, he took the long way which lasted 5 years. And so he talked to me... Lots of stuffs.
List of things he bought:
Three huge boxes of chocolate from hotel chocolat.
One Gucci perfume!
One box of Earl's grey tea. The one used in London hotel. 1k teabags.
One bottle of coffee powder. Nescafe. He said it taste different from the one in Singapore. o.o
One bottle of tropical pepper.
Three packs of gums.
A sovenir from Venice.
He talked to me. He went through depression before, he took the long way which lasted 5 years. And so he talked to me... Lots of stuffs.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
200 pounds beauty.
Just finished watching 200 pounds beauty. A little too late isnt it? Got it off from youtube tho.
It is soooo touching! I nearly cried but I didnt.
I <3 her Dad. Hes cute.
I wish I could lose all these weight too. If I could be as pretty as her, I tell you I dont mind doing a whole body make over either. But then again, nah, it feels too weird.
I got the full album of 200 pounds beauty OST.
Msn me for the song.
Tracklist
01. Beautiful Girl - Kim Ah Joong
02. Byul - You Me
03. Maria - Kim Ah Joong
04. Dance With My Daddy - Alex of Clazziquai
05. You Don’t Know I Love You - U
06. Superstar - Loveholic
07. Tulip - Benny(Sang Sang Band) Feat. Jong Hwi
08. Miss You Much - You Me
09. Beautiful Girl(teaser Edit) - Kim Ah Joong Feat. Alex And
10. As a fool - Kim Hyung Joong
11. Byul(movie Edit) - Kim Ah Joong
It is soooo touching! I nearly cried but I didnt.
I <3 her Dad. Hes cute.
I wish I could lose all these weight too. If I could be as pretty as her, I tell you I dont mind doing a whole body make over either. But then again, nah, it feels too weird.
I got the full album of 200 pounds beauty OST.
Msn me for the song.
Tracklist
01. Beautiful Girl - Kim Ah Joong
02. Byul - You Me
03. Maria - Kim Ah Joong
04. Dance With My Daddy - Alex of Clazziquai
05. You Don’t Know I Love You - U
06. Superstar - Loveholic
07. Tulip - Benny(Sang Sang Band) Feat. Jong Hwi
08. Miss You Much - You Me
09. Beautiful Girl(teaser Edit) - Kim Ah Joong Feat. Alex And
10. As a fool - Kim Hyung Joong
11. Byul(movie Edit) - Kim Ah Joong
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Ragnarok online
OMG GUESS WHAT I FOUND! The vocal version of RO's BGM! Listen to it RO addicts ;]
The original version.
Theme of prontera
Wanna be free!! [This is the BGM you always listen to during WoE]
Theme of Payon
The vocal version.
Theme of Prontera
Wanna be free!!
Theme of Payon
I got goosebumps listening to those. Thats how much I feel for it. I wanted to share these with someone like Lan. Someone that shared the happiest moments with me. Ahh i dunno what to say, I actually had so much to say.
The original version.
Theme of prontera
Wanna be free!! [This is the BGM you always listen to during WoE]
Theme of Payon
The vocal version.
Theme of Prontera
Wanna be free!!
Theme of Payon
I got goosebumps listening to those. Thats how much I feel for it. I wanted to share these with someone like Lan. Someone that shared the happiest moments with me. Ahh i dunno what to say, I actually had so much to say.
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