So now i finally understood. Im really just another person in the hood.


Sitting here all by myself.
Wishing I was somebody else.
Head in my hands, nothing to do.
Just thinking I was with someone, anyone, even you.
I’m so bored and I’m so mad.
Can’t go anywhere, because im fat.
Today is so boring.
Oh I know, I wish I was an angel in the great sky soaring.
Life can be fun, life can be boring.
Here I am now, listening to my dad snoring.
All the other kids out playing at the park.
From when the sun comes up until its dark.
I wish I could be them.
Oh I wish I had an M&M.
Here I am sitting here all by myself.
Wishing I was somebody else.

Homework, homework thats all i do,School, work, nothing new
Teachers pushing
Works rushing
All this stress
This whole big mess
It's just a hassle, i must confess
I can't wait till grad day
Or even my payday
Mayday Mayday
I'm going down
hit the ground
gather around
Homework, homework thats all i do,
School, work, nothing new
I have a life
how about you?
English, Biology, Algebra 2
I could add more
Oh, what a bore
There's no more room to store
My brain is packed
A long days task
I just wanna relax
Is that too much to ask?

Haiz... i hope all of this never happen

Im so not right down pissed off. Im just literally pissed by ur 'pissed'. I dont think we should carry on this way. Yea and whats the big deal anyway?! Ur just another clone freak of that girl ur pissed off by. Huh! Ur just as easily tempered as her huh. U know. So whats wrong with me getting back at u? Yo did that pretty soon everytime as i get u too. Everybody does that too so whats wrong dude! Just because im easily bullied? But dude yo got me in get back mode so whats the shit about that dis? But whether is it stating me i do not know but i know one thing that if it stating me then yo so over! Come on! I am so sorry that yo didnt see through me right from da start[like as if i am that sort!]! I am sorry that Im the one THING in ur life that isnt perfect! And you know what its none of my BI business! And if yo wanna carry on, go ahead and be my guest! I dont know whats gotten into you and i dont wish to know I just wanna get out of this childish games. And im so sorry that i cant be ur dog anymore. So is that what yo pissing off at?

Shocked? I guess you dont know me that well as I thought you would.

Shocked? I guess you dont know me that well as I thought you would.

Ok ok... You've got to stop man, you really gotta stop.... You are right pissing me off... Yea i admit im sorry i once talk about your future... But yo really gotta stop yo another version of fucking me... yea yer got it damn right fucking me... Whats so great about it? Yea yo can street talk all da way if yo want but it gonna sound whack. Yo not a true fan at all. Yo do not like his music yo just like his person. He gonna feel insulted and annoyed. So do not insult him by annoucing that yo a fan.... ... ... Are yo a dyke??? I would really want to have the answer to this insulting qn... Yo keep talking about yer homies and others and what exactly are you heading? Yo just wants ppl to ask you. 'Hey Who is that?''Why is that?''What happen?''Izit to the extend of 143?' Yo are just so naive. Yea U dont even know what is love. Sympathy? nah...

And blah blah blah fucking blah...

Im sorry mama...

Fuck it! I hate this house this family! Why am i born in this kinda family! This is the lousier family I ever guessed! I hate it i hate it i hate it! Why cant i have a perfect fanily?! If they decided to treat me like this then y bother to send me to this world! Change your charactor man! You are starting to piss me off! If you want to be like this dont blame me if i have grown up and be the same way that u do! You are so damn fcking calculative! I've never met anyone like this ever ever ever ever! You are so over! Im so amazed i can find such rare species still here... You totally hit and broke my nerves!

Thank you. Yo have just betray my trust. =)

The night was whack! Far from what i had expected! I shoulda listen to muh dad! A waste trip... In the end?! I had the runs! LAO SAIIIIII!!!! LOL. Luckily got xh acc me to toilet here and there... And luckily they went home already if not they sure complain me so troublesome... heeh... A trail of unwise and unlucky desicions... and the cigarette is taken by xy... damnit no more to smoke... Nth to brood over about already...

While i was surfing the web today... i spot an article which rose my interest more in strange phenomenon and psycology... I finally know the magician's secret and how he mislead and misdirect us... People with intelligence will be easily baffled by the magicians and small kids will see through his trick more easily than people with in telligence because people with intelligence will use their mind and through the theory and why is it possible.. but kids will use the power of their eyes and see where the coins have gone... They will not be misdirected easily because they do not have the basic knowledge to think through.
I have read another article on the phenomenon of synchronicity. Im amazed by those incidents of chances which people thought it was god which helped them through... The real reason or theory, no ones knows...

Haiz! Ytd and today was my fucking mock exam.. I guess i did not do very well ya? I just hope that god could enlighten me and change my fucking charactor of extreme laziness.. damn! So i can study hard enough.. The english paper 1 compo I did it halfway... I did not want to do it at first so i slept throughout then all of a sudden two teachers came to disrupt my world.. Then they kept forcing me to think of something ter write! So when i finally got a good one I havent finish the fucking bell rang. damnit!

After school we hang around outside sch then something fly into muh eyes and got tuck in there.. then fuck! My eyes was like burning! Then michelle walk past she call out then i couldnt answer her cause it was damn pain! Thz fer xy keep waiting fer until i finally dig that fucking dust out...

And i totally forget all about conselling! I suppose to meet her at 2.30pm but i stay in sch till 4.. Now i have to meet her at 5.30pm... damn... Im so so beaten...

Wookiez... Now i needa get ready ter go...
Ps: I still fucking think shes a fucking dyke...

This could descibe what i feel:

Just as your idea comes to fruition, you now get a case of cold feet. An irrational feeling may be holding you back just enough for you to tie up loose ends before pushing forward again. If your dreams were unrealistic, there may be no quick fix. It's time, anyhow, to try and bring them back down to earth.

The fat ass that is sitting on singapore has the dumbest little brain i have ever seen in his world of dumb arse! He had been complaining about greying population here and yet he is murdering his people over minor trivia matters! I cant believe that people can serve a life sentence just by having oral sex! That is totally ridiculous! What against the law of nature! Maybe is not allow fer christians but that doesnt mean fer THE WHOLE OF SINGAPORE!!! What in the universe he get the idea from?! What a useless lame snobbish law of fuckED up singaporeans. I saw a news that a minister or someother bitches says oral sex is totally uncivalized and that his mother also dont approved of it blah blah blah fucking blah. If yer bitch dont agree or you the bitch's son= Son of THAT bitch dont approved doesnt mean the whole singapore dont approved aight! Its just one of yer own wishful thinking! Go fuck yerself up! So why did u dig out people's hearts organs to other people?! Its against the law of nature also to me!~ We are meant to go to heaven in a complete body plus body PARTS! You are destroying one allowing another.. ISNT IT DA SAME?!?! If you want to do something do it completely! Destroying everything i've got to say against you! CAnt do that?! Then let somebody else so it fer ya! Stop thinking that you can control me!~ I will not be like the other singaporeans! Like a slaves to yer! No way! Those signaporeans have no pride! I sincerely spit on them! Well. Send me fer life sentence fer chopping muh own hands off. Kill me fer killing a dog! Whip muh courpse fer suicide! Do all you want imma not going to bow my head down to yer! Death penalty fer those who just killed ONE FUCKING BITCH?! Take a HUGE look around the world! CAVE BITCHES! Yea yea... Greying population?! Kill all you want! See if greying population will cease anot?! Fuck it! Use your fucking brains and think! Stealing and fighting can be send to detention camp .. fucking blah... You are a drama king! You are exagerating! This is a waste of manpower and talent! I've got more to say! Godamn those people that are distracting me in this fucking house!F-Fuck those ignorant fucking brag snobbish cave bitches! Bring yer glock stuff it up yo' ass. Lata playas!

Now let me just say I get pissed off in reading the idiotic letters in the Forum page demanding that professional wrestling be banned from TV because "they are eroding my children's values". What they really mean is, "I can't seem to control what my children watch on TV and I need the government to do it for me."

I wish i can leave this sickening place. Singapore is not meant to be lived by the poor. Only the rich can have a comfortable and respectable life here. A place where capitalism has won and has created a shit hole fascist city state. I totally say tt Singapore is a major shithole! They, being guys, are forced to serve in the freakin' Singapore Armed Fuckers for a freakin' 2 or 2 1/2 yrs. The allowance they give is so fuckin' little. After their studies & the army, by the time they can come out to work, they're already in their mid-twenties! That's how they marry and reproduce in late stages of our lives & yet, the fucked up government is still complaining bout graying population. I would say Fuck the government of singapore!In reference to the previous post, we get up in early morning to work/sch, go home at late evening or even night, slp, then continue the whole fuckin' cycle again. the routine goes on & on.

Singapore is the worst place imaginable, I could go on and on about all the bad things that are happening in this fucking shithole. This place is HELL or worse. I wish I had the courage to commmit suicide and end this suffering though I am not giving up. I am still comtemplating of ways to do this with minimal pain and also 'Legally' so the Fucking government cannot desecrate my corpse by whipping it for suicide.

Why singapore sucks?



How about a little quiz?
1) OK, this one is easy. In which of the following countries is oral sex a criminal offense, "unless performed as part of foreplay"?
A) IranB) SudanC) Singapore



2) Which of the following groups is considered by the Government of Singapore to be a dangerous and subversive organisation, possessions of publications of which and membership in which are illegal?
A) the German Nazi partyB) the Klu Klux KlanC) Jehovah's witnesses



3) How much cannabis resin (hashish) do you have to be caught with in Singapore for death by hanging to become mandatory for you?
A) more than 1,000 kgB) more than 50 kgC) 200 grams (enough for about a joint a day for one year)



4) The penalty for smuggling which dangerous controlled substance into Singapore is one year in prison?
A) HeroinB) CocaineC) chewing gum




The correct answers (of course) are: C, C, C and C.
1) Oral sex, if not followed by vaginal intercourse, has been ruled as an "unnatural act" under section 377 of the Singapore penal code which carries a maximum sentence of life imprisonment.



2) Jehovah's witnesses: How can anyone respect the government of a country that feels so insecure that it can't even let its people make up their own minds about the "Watchtower"? Actually, the reason Singapore jails all Witnesses or people found holding their literature is that their religion forbids military service as all killing of fellow human beings (remember "Thou shalt not kill"?), which is the same reason why Hitler sent them to concentration camps.
3) No one has ever died of a cannabis overdose. Scientists say it's about as habit forming as coffee and does not lead to harder drugs, yet the government of Singapore is prepared to kill people they find in possession of it. Singapore is unique amongst tiny countries (the city state has only 3 million inhabitants) in executing some 50-80 people every year, many of them for being found with drugs. Imagine if Japan was executing 3000 people per year and holding 400,000 citizens in concentration camps for using illicit substances and you've got things in proportion. Despite these barbaric punishments the number of illegal drug users in its five drug rehabilitation centres (where people can be detained against their will if they have used illegal drugs) rose from around 5000 in 1990 to 8700 in 1994 [1]. That means two decades after making the death penalty mandatory for a range of drug offences as many as 1 in 300 Singaporean citizens are now undergoing forced drug treatment, tendency rising...
4) Chewing gum: On the other hand, no one has been sentenced for smuggling gum yet. There was a case recently though where a 16 year old boy was sent to a detention camp for two years for being caught with a pack of cigarettes.UPDATE: In May 2004, the government of Singapore lifted its blanket ban on gum sales. 19 "medicinal" and "dental" gums may be sold in pharmacies, provided users show valid ID. Selling chewing gum without checking ID makes the seller liable to a fine of S$5000 (US$3000) and up to two years in jail.

Something really has gotten into me... i guess i dont really know what it is... Im so alone.. i dont know why im always alone.. The emptyness inside, you can see it in da eyes.. I dont know what is happening but i feel that something is changing inside me. I can feel it so strongly since last year til now. Can god tell me what is happening?!?! PLEASE HELP ME WILL YA! Stop dreaming! No one will help you now! I guess I cant carry on...... .... dont let me...

WHOOO HOOOO!!!!!! Ytd im sooooooo happy!!!!! I love ytd!!! I hope ytd can repeat man! But nvm i forward to the new year again! Ytd my crew and I when to orchard first and on the way there LOL some thing very funny happen at the mrt!!! lol But yt say she dont want anybody to know cause its really embarassing!lol!!! Then we walk walk walk.. me yt ly all tired liaoz then mich still want to walk so i acc her then ly and yt sit on the chair waiting fer us... cause they two are sick...hahahaz.... one had stomachache another had a headache... Then i and mich go buy a get well soon card fer them two hahahahz then i buy those glitter to throw ppl cause glitter will stick to ppl want hahahah its difficult to wash off... Then after that they get over their sickness already then we walk to plaza singpura then go arcade, eat, walk to wards orchard then change desicion go singapore river... then they is a party there! Then after that we bought snow spray and went in the party started playing... hahah then got one small boy keep spraying at us man.. then we four spray him back then he not happy all that... then i dont care.... Then i love those caucacians man!!! They rocks!!! Then after that the music start i keep dancing all that...Then everyone was having fun man!!! Then everyone was singing and shouting then all is english songs then my friends dont know what songs is that then they feel so weird there i suppose... lol... lucky i love english songs... LoL Then they started the countdown 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!!! I RAN OUT OF SNOW!!!! GRRR! luckily i wear a cap then they cant spray my face hahaha! Boo Hoo Toooooooo bad hahaha! neni neni po po! LOL! Then too bad the party end so soon.. Then we go see the bungy jump... Then when ppl sit that ride.... i keep screaming DIEEEE!!! LOL very funny.... then finally we sit yt's dad cab home then i car sick i keep wanting to vomit... then finally reach home bath and quickly sleep then now i just woke up and write this thing... hahahhaz haiz im still reminising... lata!