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Monday, May 11, 2009

Random.






It was a great week with Nick and my family.
My family celebrated the great mother's day at Crystal Jade.
The food was average but I love the look on my happy family.
Dad got my Mom a red carnation, and she was soooooooooo shy! Pushing it to us. Dad was kind of disappointed haha.
Nevermind that.

Oh and Nick went jamming without me. Angry angry angry! I thought we could progress together. That made me really disappointed.

Anddd I finally got my MAC products after 5 months spent without shopping. I was there in the first place with only the thoughts of buying eye shadow Carbon and one of the mineralize duo. But I added up buying Beauty Marked, Heat Element and Funtabulous from the Double Dazzle collection. Burnt a hole in my... piggy bank. The pig caught fire.

Boo I need to finish O level quick, swift and effective!

Thursday, May 07, 2009

I reeaalised, I suck at socialising in different environments.
Why SO! I honestly dont understand.
Have to change, have to adapt. Boo. =/

Am apologetic for all the outings I missed!

Girls, I will see you soon!

Where have I been this few days?
Since Nick came back from Taiwan, I've been glued to him like tar on the roads this whole week.(What a description, I know.) Im sorry but I just cant help it! He dont get these holidays often you know.

So what did he got me from Taiwan?
When I freaking asked for a pair of heels, he got me these.
1. A box of condom.
2. Panties. (Not exactly, knickers.)
3. Tee shirts.
4. A pack of cigarette.
5. Nice food.

Although the sarcastic tone above, I LOVE IT STILL! So thoughtful of him, really. Except for the box of condom (which is pretty self-explanatory, who likes condoms?!!?) Haaaa I know what you girls are thinking. She nu ren.

Oh and I painted his room the whole day yesterday evening. My arms are aching and I should really get back to my jogging plan soon. Today.

Saturday.

Went Attica with Chin and sis. Like been ages since I stepped into that euphoric, brightly lit city. And I finally collected my VIP card and for that I saved $28 on the entrance fees. God, that's just so orgasmic.



Thursday, April 30, 2009

AND ITS DAYS LIKE THIS I MISS.

I cant wait till I finally progress from this point.
I want to get my life back.
Work hard work hard now!

P.S Girls, how come no more late night supper session?!!?!
I honestly miss Little India's sour food.

P.P.S Another grieving incident happening in our neighbourhood. My neighbour just past away abruptly, a healthy person with no signs or symptoms. She was just in her 40s. Sad isnt it? Four young kids have to experience the pain of losing their love one.

P.P.P.S The funeral they held downstair, played acoustic while everyone sings harmoniously. I dont know the language but the tune was tear-jerking. Listening to them sing, clearly shows how much they miss her. ;[









Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I have to learn,
to find strength within myself and the Lord.
Not from external source, not from momentary gains.
This menstrual symptoms is affecting my daily life.
Sudden lost of drive and motivations.
Stress, anxiety and tensions.
How to get back my focus?
Fed up fed up fed up.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

I have no more chemistry with chemistry.

Im stuck at the chapter,
FORMULAE, STOICHIOMETRY AND THE MOLE CONCEPT.

Anyone familiar with that?
Help meeeeeeee, im dying.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Sunday, April 12, 2009

This is gonna be a long post.

I am very, very astound by the contents on the Singaporean forum.
This name is, SammyBoyForum

In this forum, men talk about their experiences and deals at Geylang, our very own famous Red Light District.

I, as people know me personally, am a very liberal person. I can accept people talking about their experiences and fantasies. Talking about how great or bad their services are, or talking about in detail what they do.

WHAT I absolutely CANNOT accept is that how immoral they as an individual are. Men in that forum, discriminate us ladies like some sex slave to serve them. By their language and tone, they speak so disrespectfully about the ladies there. You PAY for their services, they do their job. They are not made for you men alone. Clean your tongues well and talk with respect.

What really surprises me is most of the men who patronise the forum and the brothels are with wives or partners. I am very appalled and extremely disgusted by men in general.
Men, huge ego, small brain.
No wonder women are reigning in this society sooner or later. First thing, I tried very hard not to generalise for a very long time about men, but given what I've experienced and seen, I cant! I absolutely cant for this moment.

Like everything in their brains is just SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX WOMEN SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX. This kind of men, cant fulfil bigger things in life cause 90% of their life are filled with sex and craps. Sex is too powerful for them to surpass it. Sex for them is priority over the feelings of his loved ones and over his career and over his family.
Weak isnt it? Disgusting isnt it? Loser isnt it?
This, no one can respect.

Right now, I really believe a bigger men, put his moral and boundaries above all, even his families.

SOME even have the cheek to blame their wives when they gonna have an affair. They could even discuss on the forum on how to manage both wife and lover. And keep in mind that their tone are all 'in the matter of fact' tone. Like it is rightful of them and that it is justified.

No wonder even the China prostitute claims Singaporean men are stupid. Likewise they claimed, it is stupid for the prostitute to be fucked by them but on a larger scale, Singaporean men are even more stupid and brainless.

If men put their urge above their moral and boundaries, they are no different from a beast.

Would you like it so much if your father do this to your mother? Would you like it so much to catch your father in the act with a young girl, with the thought of your mother being back home alone and tired with all the housework? Tired with all the housework plus no attention and understandings of her husband who only complains about how fat she looks now and how undesirable she had become because of giving birth to YOU MEN.

Theres amazingly a good Samaritan in the forum.





Quote:
Originally Posted by swiftee
Hmm... after having the baby my wife spend most of the time looking after the baby and also working. 1 month the most "do" once or twice ( everytime she not interested to perform ) end up using my own hand 99% of the time. And she also become quite short temper maybe too much chasing n screaming at our over active kid.....


my wife and i also just had a kid... her screaming might be that she might be (might not) suffering from post-natal depression, and for some time now. seeing a doctor to dis-confirm it might be good. but i dont think so...


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I appreciate my wife giving me a baby. But with that her body also transform. No doubt, she is still slim. But can still see the stretch marks on the tummy and also the ugly C-section scar. The papayas definitely dont look that good anymore too. I believe many bros here with wife that given birth can attest to that. Some how it also affected my appetite. But sometime when i want sex she also dont give...


is she not the same woman u fell in love with and married??? stretch marks and c-section scars already made u turned off. what if she got older???

i dont know about u, but u know how much pain she went through to have your baby. that is the best affirmation of love from her and now u r going to discard it like trash!!!

my wife was plied with nourishments during her pregnancy and confinement by my mum. she still has those stretch marks, not to mention that she is now still stuck at 60kg when she was about 48kg before her pregnancy. yes, the boobies r now a bit out of shape and she's got a tummy. but i pay more attention to them more, spending more time on those areas and telling her that those r indications that she is a miracle. isnt giving birth to another human being a miracle??? yr wife is tired and suffers from diminished confidence and as her husband, instead of helping and reassuring her, here u r, thinking of fucking another woman...



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So sian all the time, got to endure her temper. Then came "S" she everything i wanted.
I realy felt like embarking on a "covert mission" but guilt, promise to myself n god. Damm this urge of mine


u know why yr wife is in such a bad mood??? she is so busy with your child... and yet u have time to go out gallivanting with other women!!! how about spending time to take yr child off her hands to let her rest??? then she would have time to go pamper herself, doll up a bit, do some slimming or just purely have a good rest. i m sure then, she wont be in such a bad mood. but not for u, i m sure u r too busy!!! busy with yr urge. i guess u r not ready to start a family... then why do it in the first place?

why m i so pissed with u, u might wonder... cos in yr post, u r defending yourself, trying to justify your tryst (which i know is certain to happen) by blaming it on yr wife... so with that, i hope that the stewardess turns out to be a case of glenn close in fatal attraction.









The passage in bold really bring tears to my eyes. Thats a man. A person who can truely call himself a MAN. All of them out there are just wimps.
The creator of that forum, I can confidently say its a man.

Oh and there's more post there that really boils my blood, just in case it melt my skin, I rest my case here.

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My boyfriend is in Taiwan now.
Last week we had an eventful week.

Sentosa with the girls.


Little India with the girls.


The doll N bought from New Zealand.



Our 'Mr B.I.G' we painted at East Coast.



My handsome BF, which hopefully is not the kind I hated above.

Saturday, April 04, 2009

Sigh. Tough love or tough luck.

The same mistake in the same month.
The wounds re-opened.
Thanks for this wake up call.
Im fully sober now.
I know where I stand.

Thanks Justin, appreciate it.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

The verdict is 'nothing at all you would do'.

Mathematics. It gets frustrating.

I want to get my pride and honour back when I step into Woodgrove.
Those discriminating eyes those hypocrites, take it back.

To honestly tell everyone, no matter how I study, I got a feeling I wouldnt do very well. It just gets more and more challenging. I just want everything to be on progessive mode! Agh.

Cant wait for the adventure trip. :)

Friday, March 27, 2009

Must go lab practical every session.



Laboratory assistant is a hot, sexy Indian.

Sick of people waiting for things to happen.
Theres no such good deals in this world.


Now its my turn to wait.
Tired of initiating.
The word mutual is as important.

Oh and I just had a quarrel with an inconsiderate uncle on the train.

P.S Im selling my modded Pink PSP for $270 with 4GB Lexus.



Gran Torino a must watch.

Okay my blog song just happened to cheered me up with hopes.
Good night everyone.
God bless you.

Its a terror outside, be complacent.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Amazing

"Your CA1 date is set"

HUHHHHHH?! BMC have CA1 and stuffs?!

"The maths test tomorrow is just a simple test and will not be shown on your report card, but the CA1 grades will be shown on the report card."

I dropped my jaws and stared at my partner with eyes wide open in bewilderment. "BMC GOT REPORT CARD HUHHH?! Amazing..."

Flashbacks is great...

Why so sentimental + mushy suddenly? No idea...

Love my baby-face Nick.



Sunday, March 22, 2009

Having a goal is important, but do not miss out the good in life.

I have gained alot in the process of this journey towards a fresh start.
But along the way, I seems to have lost something.
Something distant yet important.
I cant discern exactly what have I lost, but I hope to somehow find it back along the way down the path.
Theres still a voidness, a hole... In my life.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

I have a humongous diet which I have not tried controlling.

Oh and yes, another set of pictures to brighten up these dark clouds hovering over my blog/life.

















And on the account on my conscience, I have to study now.

P.S I have not been spending quality time with Nick these few weeks, although it seems like we have been spending alot of time, but I'm not satisfied. I want quality rather than quantity. I have been hovering above the emotional dissatisfaction section for awhile now.