_____________________________________________ Just listening to the voices...

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Cant get distracted.

Man, I almost forgot how tiring it is to stay focus.
With five years of idling around, no stress no pressure, I feel really tired and frustrated to keep myself on track.
Well the first step is always the hardest, I just have to get use to it.
Going to school everyday, is even harder than picking up the guitar for the first time.
I lost focus on many things this year.
I got so distracted by all the things that is happening around.
And its so tiring to stay focus as well.
I have been wavering for a while now.
But I have to force myself to stay focus this time.
Studies, guitar, as well as handling relationships.

To do these, I need to have tremendous strength from you, my Lord.

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A summary for Valentine's.
A great day for me.
The absolute wonderful Valentine's I had.
The second year of celebrating V's with Nick.
He actually plan the whole trip to Sentosa without me knowing.
We spent the evening there chilling out romantically with candles and all.
Love the ambiance love the music love the companions love the laughters.
And the girls joined us in the night.
Ha ha, the things we do.
We should do this again.

It is so much better than giving gifts itselves.
I am happy at that moment.
Thats all that counts.

OH and the flowers were amazing.
It bring such delights to me.
I vowed to have them in my future house.
I would smile every morning to see those colourful blossoms.

Its only a pity my camera sucks.
Couldnt capture the liveliness of the colours.




























Tuesday, February 17, 2009

I need everyone to participate in this personal survey.


Is this really hard? Or im just actually quite dumb?

P.S I actually flunk the book and make my statement clearly to give up.
P.P.S No, its just a joke for the giving up part.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Okay the time is up for the 'thinking throughout session' for our relationship.
We just have to proof each other.
Time is limited.

N is coming back from NZ tomorrow.
Im just kind of anticipating it just a moment ago.
Cant wait to see him...

I am so hooked up on Gossip Girl!
On season 2 now and I still love Chuck Bass.
"A fling can turn into a real thing."
Never been truer.

P.S No matter how hard I tried, its still never seems enough.
P.P.S I need, sleeping pills.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

But then again, whats the truth?

Humans just cant accept the truth.
They cant accept themselves from being the way they are.
The way they despise.
But the first step for change, is to accept the truth.
To recognise it and accept it.
And then change it.
DARE TO MAKE MISTAKES.
And dare to admit mistakes.
Without it, there wouldnt be a change.
No improvement, no progress in your life and yourself.
You stay stagnant.

And im admitting it slowly.
Than NONE.

Sunday, February 08, 2009

I have reached, ignorance.

I thought alot today.
About the goals I finally have.
About the aims I sought to achieve.
And the search within myself.
And the reflections of my and everyone's behaviour.
If friendship is all about being egoist, competitive and disrespectful, I guess,
I am willing to distance myself away from you.
To save the grudges from being cultivated.
All you see in me is faults and flaws.

Gay night.



Night at PLAY.
I respect gays for accepting themselves.
I respect gays for being themselves.
I respect gays for being so courageous.

We are all equal.
Not all clubbers are the rotten bunch.
Not all smokers are the rotten bunch.
Not all with a bad record are the rotten bunch.
And the same saying goes to gays.
Some of them are really really sweet.

P.S Every question, theres an answer.
Every answer theres a doubt.
So whats the truth?

Truth are associated with convinience.
"To a very large extent, of course, we associate truth with convenience – with what most closely accords with self-interest and personal well-being or promises to avoid awkward effort or unwelcome dislocation of life.

But perhaps most important of all, people approve most of what they best understand. As just noted, economic and social behavior are complex, and to comprehend their character is tiring. Therefore, we adhere, as though to a raft, to those ideas which represent our understanding."
-Galbraith


Dont you think?

Friday, February 06, 2009

Exciting day.



Yes today is an exciting day.
I have two exciting events today.
First! First day of schoooool!
Second! PLAY tonight!

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Skip Beat a MUST watch anime!
I wished I had known this title maybe a year later, that way, I can watch all the episodes at one go! So I dont have to wait. :D
One of the most entertaining and funniest anime.
Oh and I heard the news about taiwan TV producing this anime starring Jerry Yan as Tsuruga Ren and the other actress who starred 'It started with a kiss' as Kyoko Mogami.
The drama serial, 'It started with a kiss' was also an anime, 'Itazura Na Kiss'.
Why does Taiwan love taking stories from animes/manga?
Not to mention 'Hana Kimi'.

But...... im gonna watch the Taiwan ver of Skip Beat because of Jerry Yan HAHA!

Watch it here!
Currently, episode 18 to be aired.

http://www.veoh.com/channels/SkipBeat001



Kyoko followed her true love and childhood friend Sho to Tokyo so she could help him reach his dream of becoming an idol. She cleans, cooks, works three jobs and does nothing for herself because she loves him so much, but gets nothing in return. Still, she remains by his side. But then one day she goes unannounced to his agency with a delivery, and overhears him talking about her; he reveals to his manager that he only took her with him as a maid, and that he doesn't care for her at all. Upon hearing this, Kyoko doesn't just sit around and cry. She cuts and dyes her hair, changes her clothes and attitude and thus begins her journey to join showbiz and have her revenge against Sho.

Superstar - Lupe Fiasco

Attica, blacks and the geek!











FUNS AT PLAY TOMORROW! YA HOOOO!

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

You'll see.

Its getting quiet in here.

I proclaim my last playing week of the year.

I have been through 2-3 years of failure and depression, right now im gonna put all my heart into it.

And after my last breakdown at the beginning of last year, I really learnt alot.

So whatever you guys may say, may judge, I still believe in myself.

I am going you show you and myself.

I can pull through!

I am going to get into Poly next year.

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Dearest.

My lovely parents at Fish and Co.
Look at their funny conversation.





Yesterday night at City Alive 2009.
The crowd was awesome but the music sucks.
But we still managed to danced all night!
Oh yes, I smacked the ass of a stick-man. ( A person who stands and walks on a long stick thing.) And the song that was playing was 'Smack That'. HAHA
I wish the person fall tho.



Thursday, January 29, 2009

My boyfriend is in New Zealand!




I love cooking!
I love cooking for my family but I hate cooking for my boyfriend.
I never felt so dejected doing something with all my heart for someone before.
This is the first time.
You love fulfiling my first times, you got it this time.
I thought its all about the efforts, the heart, the sincerity.
Sigh, now I got no idea what to do on Val's day then.

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This CNY sucks.
DOES ANYONE REMEMBER YOUR MOM?!
My poor Grandma is waiting at home everyday on CNY, yet no one comes to visit her!
Lets talk about respect.

This CNY, everything's been a rush.
I regretted not spending more time with my uncles and cousins.
Its been great seeing them and all.
Why bother to wait til CNY?
I swore to visit even if its not CNY.

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Things to be updated about me.

I got a disease that would take 4 months to be cured.



The first time I have seen such creative presents.








P.S Dont be so oblivious to our differences. Talk it out.
P.P.S I need to start jogging!
P.P.P.S I MISS YOU YINGTING!

KC and JoJo - All my life

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

WHY SO NEGATIVE?!

Cancerians born between 22 June and 3 July are linked to you financially, but will not offer you the emotional fulfilment you yearn for.
Geminis are rational and reasoning folk, but Cancerians are stupendously sensitive and incredibly intuitive.They couldn't be rational if they tried because they wouldn't know where to begin.

There is a tendency for Gemini and Cancer to criticize each other. The two persons care for each other and, thus, are seeking to correct faults. But, invariably, an eroding takes place; the relationship tends to grow thin.

Many of the misunderstandings between you arise because GEMINI is more emotionally detached and rational, while CANCER is more subjective, emotionally involved, and unable to be as articulate and "reasonable" as GEMINI is. Paradoxically, you are attracted to one another for the same reason! GEMINI's mental agility and wit appeals to CANCER, CANCER's sensitivity and depth of feeling is attractive to GEMINI, and you both have much to learn from one another.
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The Differences between Gemini and Cancer

An air sign, Geminis tend to be elusive, cool, and removed in nature. Geminis focus on intellect and intellectual pursuits, rather than feelings, and have the ability to maintain objectivity and emotional distance. In general, such people radiate a mysterious and out-of-reach air, which many people—particularly Cancers—find compelling and challenging. Geminis have a flexible nature and are able to accommodate the moods of those more emotional than they, and their movements are energetic and quick.

Geminis can live a life on the go or on the road for an indefinite period of time, for he/she seeks to see the world and as many different places and events as possible. Typified by unquenched curiosities, Geminis would be content to travel forever, living in several large cities in a short period of time. Without such change and stimulation, Geminis quickly can feel depressed and deflated.

On the other hand, Cancers thrive on togetherness, closeness, and strong emotions. As a water sign, most Cancers have the need to “nest,” with the desire to be rooted to family, as well as set up a home and other long-term commitments which tie them to a particular place. They are highly emotional, sensitive, and in tune with their feelings; incredibly sensuous, they share their love of the senses and beauty with everyone around them.

Cancers love holidays, children, traditions, homes, and the everyday responsibilities—such as house payments and buying groceries—that represent having a rooted life. Such people have the amazing ability to create a sheltered, storybook living existence and home life, which may not have much appeal to a Gemini.
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A Love Match between Gemini and Cancer

It is easy to see that a Gemini-Cancer relationship may not be an ideal one. However, despite the obstacles, each person could offer what the other lacks.

Because Cancers value relationships, they will welcome, with open arms, the people that Geminis would attract and add to a group of friends—creating a far more fascinating life because of it. Although Cancers are somewhat withdrawn (they tend to be reserved), they can take the time to become accustomed to the socializing that comes naturally to Geminis. Cancers are detail-oriented when it comes to communicating with family members, friends, and acquaintances, and such a characteristic will reflect well upon Geminis and help these on-the-go people maintain important relationships.

In terms of sexual compatibility, Geminis may be surprised by Cancers. Cancers approach lovemaking as a soulful, spiritual event, and, because Cancers are also focused on deep and sincere feelings, Geminis will have this experience with Cancers time and time again. Cancers can help Geminis experience the true depths of a loving, emotional relationship, allowing Geminis to learn about themselves along the way. On the other hand, Geminis bring adventure and fun into the bedroom, and Cancers will learn quickly to relish the creativity and inventiveness that Geminis bring.

Overall, the Gemini spirit of wanderlust can help bring any Cancer out of his or her shell. In return, Cancers can demonstrate to Geminis on how to be emotional, as well as how to feel simultaneously vulnerable and safe with someone. If aware of the differences, a Gemini-Cancer romantic relationship can thrive.
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Gemini with Cancer

When Gemini and Cancer come together in a love affair, it may be a rather curious relationship. Sensitive, emotional Cancer has trouble communicating clearly, but clear communication is what defines Gemini. Gemini's chivalrous nature and silver tongue may encourage the Crab to come out of its shell more quickly than usual; Cancer, in turn, can teach Gemini to slow down and appreciate the world, which the frenetic Twins hardly ever take time to do. If Gemini seems to ignore Cancer or doesn't provide them with as much reassurance and intimacy as Cancer needs, trouble may ensue. These two Signs approach the world in such different manners that they must be able to understand and accept one another's differences. Out in the "real world," next door neighbours often don't fully understand each other's needs, then again maybe you two could find love with the sign next to each other. Remember, when you're involved with a Gemini, you're involved with a jack-of-all-trades, a whiz-kid, a trickster and a messenger. When you're involved with a Cancer, you're involved with a parent, a patriot, a nurse and a night-owl.

If you can give a Gemini good communication, social interchanges and a variety of life experience, then you have a better chance of getting their love and affection. If you can give a Cancer emotional commitment and security, a loving home and some care for children, you have a better chance of getting their love and affection. Lively Gemini and sensual Cancer are often attracted to each other, but deep down they have little in common. The Crab is intriguingly emotional and passionate, so can certainly fulfil your physical needs. Though your cheery wit is one of the key points of attraction, unfortunately, your habit of playing games with love will soon wound the sensitive Crab. Cancer is usually looking for more commitment than you are likely to give, especially in the early stages when stormy desire is rampant. Your scatty, flirtatious inclinations make Cancer feel very insecure, so an affair is likely to be quite unstable. However, if you can stick with it, the relationship will prove emotionally satisfying, because Cancer seeks to protect and provide for loved ones and family.

At heart, Cancer is more emotional, while Gemini is more intellectual. Gemini is essentially articulate, versatile and adroit. Put another way, Gemini likes variety. Gemini is an idea person. On the other hand, Cancer is a good person who needs to deal with family and emotional issues. Cancer's hugs are world class and Cancer's snuggles are second to none. Cancer is naturally inclined to be touchy about some, but not all relatives and needs to work on the family tree and make some sense of it all. Cancer is the Sign of home and hearth, while Gemini is the thinker. Gemini can easily slip into the role of Cancer's knight in shining armour; Cancer returns that favour with their characteristic urge to protect the ones they love. Quality of home life is important to Cancer, and Gemini will be spoiled by their Cancer lover's hearty home cooking, soft bed and other creature comforts. Cancer is strongly intuitive and maintains an almost psychic connection with their loved ones, but can tend toward possessiveness and idealization of their Gemini partner. If Gemini just reassures Cancer that they're loved and cherished, all will go smoothly.

At times, Cancer may feel like Gemini has not one, but at least two different personality sides. Gemini's mind naturally likes to go from subject to subject. Gemini has varied interests and like to keep up with what's going on in the world. Gemini can be the original "quick study" who grasps facts, concepts and ideas. On the other hand, Gemini can get bored easily and do not like things to drag along. Sensual Cancer, a Water Sign, is ruled by the changing Moon, while chatty Gemini, an Air Sign, is ruled by communicative Mercury. Mercury is optimistic, outward-looking and communicative, but can be critical and cutting, while the Moon is nurturing, inward-looking and growth-oriented, but changeable and moody. You'll need to develop mutual goals and work together on projects that you can share, so that the energies can be put to work instead of degenerating into jealousy and restlessness. Cancer is a Cardinal Sign, so is motivated to work hard and follow an inner light, while your social networking skills and lively command of language can be a fantastic asset.

Cancer has moods that change about four times a day, every two and a half days, every month and every 18 or 19 years. Cancer needs to make the most of these cycles, and establish goals with corresponding deadlines. It is important for Gemini to be considerate of Cancer's changing moods. Gemini needs open lines of communication. The best friends for Gemini are the ones who appreciate Gemini's sense of humour. Cancer is not necessarily the most direct individual. Security is something Cancer is always aware of. Usually it's a top priority. Cancer is definitely strong and protective of turf.

Gemini is ruled by the Planet Mercury (Communication) and Cancer is ruled by the Moon (Emotions). Cancer tends to keep their emotions bottled up inside as they have trouble expressing themselves. They envy Gemini’s their gift of open, clear communication afforded by the influence of Mercury. Gemini, in turn, can benefit from Cancer's intuitive approach, so different from Gemini's bubbly, surface nature; Cancer can teach Gemini to slow down and appreciate life instead of passing by the good things in their rush to get to the next new thing.

This relationship is not going to be easy, but if you make the effort, it will be rewarding. Cancer's sensuality and romantic imagination is intriguing. However, since Gemini loves to tempt fate and rare fundamentally quite cerebral, while Cancer is basically cautious and emotional, you find it hard to meet on common ground. Your sharp tongue can be hurtful and cause Cancer to retreat inside that legendary shell. Your need for freedom and independence can be quite threatening to Cancer, who seeks ownership and possession, with stability and security being high on the Crab's list of needs. Do you have enough in common for a long-term relationship? Cancer needs security and domesticity, but you hate being tied down. Have you the patience to put up with regular doses of moodiness? Only if there are excellent compensating aspects between Moon and other chart factors should you expect this match to endure for very long

Friday, January 16, 2009

Yet another!

The spoiler HAHAHA!



A bunch of cool girls that we dont even know the names.





Yes yes, its nice, but yet, its an entrance to the Auntie's club.





Cant wait for another.