Deal with your issues.
Sigh.

He popped the question yesterday night.
It was sweet, but not enough.
Lets give it a little more time, shall we?

I need some time.
I need some space.
I need a vast peaceful source.
I need a getaway.
To think about, to reflect, what had happened this month and whats in the future.
Because Im feeling kind of messy about how I am living my life right now.

After tonight!

=]...

This blog is dead.
Because the author find no point in blogging anymore.

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Because your not like me, who can smile and forgive.
Maybe your just a transition of life.
Maybe, maybe.

Why do I always carry a hope for you, when I meant nothing more to you.
Because I do not meant a thing.

It doesnt matter from now.

For the past.

A leap of faith I could not take.
A promise that I could not make.

My ashtray heart.

We were alone before we met.
No more forlorn than one could get.
How could we know we had found treasure.
How sinister and how correct.

Kind of depressing, knowing how early and young people started learning music.
I wish I had the opportunity too.

No matter how much time you spent training on your left hand, it would be still weaker than your right hand that you use every single minute of your daily life.

With or without diseases, I still live once.
With or without misery, I still live once.
With or without integrity, I still live once.
With or without wisdom, I still live once.
Life, is meant to be meaningful and fulfilled the way you want it to.
Some want a life full of righteousness.
Some want wisdom.
Some couldnt care less.
Some wants fame and power.
Some wants a luxurious life.

I want, freedom.
Freedom for individuality.
Freedom for wisdom.
Freedom for integrity.
Freedom for thoughts.
Freedom for the bad and the good.

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I realised I could spend my whole day with music.
Playing music, learning music.
It is INDEED my passion.

The great thing about piano is that it doesnt hurt like fuck when you practise on it the whole day.
Guitar, it hurts bad with a few hours limit. HAHA!
I can switch both whenever I want!!
LIFES JUST GREAT!!

I feel so much rejuvenated and fulfilled!

Went to walk around in KPO and out we go.
Why?! FULL HOUSE AT 8PM ONLY.
Its the high life.
Its the beautiful life.
They say, the ugliest people around is either they are lazy or they are poor.
I totally agree this time.
Why?
80% of the crowd in KPO looks like some celebrity of sorts.
Men and females. SO FUCKING GORGEOUS!
Its a visual orgasm.

Still, I dont think I fit in with such a crowd.
Such high life, such tight constrain.
My soul cant seems to breath.
Because freedom is my soul.
Everyone seems to be tightly concerned about their behaviours.
One thing that I like about this crowd, is that they look damn smart.
Looks + Brains kind of people. Who knows? Haha.
Tho my friend said I blend in damn well with the crowd.
I think my soul does not. I wouldnt be happy.
I think I fit in at the bar with a bunch of rockers and musicians doing crazy stuffs. Haha!

Still, it was a great experience being there.
I dont mind going there again but not my regular hangout.
We went to Cold Hard Beer next.
I LOVE IT!
Its more like my kind of place.
Guns and Roses, Nirvana playing in the background with beer.
Ahh. Awesome.

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life,
I know you'll be a star,
In somebody else's sky, but why, why, why can't it be,
can't it be mine?

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She dreams of color, she dreams of red.
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Your light's reflected now, reflected from afar.
We were but stones, your light made us stars.


Such a powerful verses.
Pearl Jam has recently became my inspiration.

Something that i need to get when I have a job.
In case I forget.

1. Acoustic
2. Cheap ass keyboard
3. Get inked
4. Piercings

P.S I found my inspiration. :D

I respect what I do, what I chose.
I respect my mind and my soul.
To me, thats that.
I know you do care, but the only thing that hurts is that the closest dont understand but judge.
I dont care about how he say nor view me.
But you.

All in all,
I accept you as you.
But what about you?

Addicted to Taylor Swift.
SO PREEEEEETTYYY!

Oh my oh my.
Lets say a big welcome to FUN AND FAME!!
Im looking forward to every Sunday now!
People! Please stay. =]

DYING DYING DYING DYING DYING DYING DYING DYING LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
I dont know wtf happened yesterday.
JIE JIE YOUR FLAMING LAMBO KILL ME!

Cancer is a scary and really terrible illness to get.
I am determine to quit smoking this time.
After watching that part, I am very very very afraid of Cancer.
Fuck.

You can put the blame on me for how imperfect your life is, when things go wrong.
Responsibilities? None.

I need another hair therapy. =[

PLEASE DISFIGURE ME SOMEONE!!!
I HATE MY HAIR NOWWWWW
IT IS SO NOT ME!
I DONT EVER EVER WANNA PLAY THE GUITAR ANYMORE
I DONT WANNA BE SEEN WITH A GUITAR I QUIT!!
My sis says, i really look like her MEI MEI now, so cute!
DONT EVER USE CUTE TO DESCRIBE ME.
I STILL HAVE JAMMING THIS WEEK!
I AM NOT GOING TO PLAY!
FFFFFuck.
how am i suppose to start school.
how am i suppose to face my pursuers.
how am i suppose to go club looking like a cute kiddo.
damnit.

No more a lady. Just a little girl.
sdrasldhj1@$!@$!QWEAD!@@#$

Everything passes, everything changes, just do what you think you should.

I wanna go KL!
I wanna go the broad grassland!
I wanna go somewhere free!
I wanna take a fucking vacation before school starts godamnit!
At least before school starts. =]
I wanna be as free as possible before im tied down to a commitment.

"If you wanna eat the forbidden fruit, do it without regrets."
"But because of that, we are human aint it?"