I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what it seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.


Our innocence died the day you came from the airport.
It died during National Day.
It died the day I betrayed you.
It died the first time you hit me.
It died the day you knocked your head against the wall.
It died the first time you called me a slut.

From the first msg, you replyed, you have been playing with my heart, til the end of it. Thank you for giving me the courage. I have nothing to hide, nothing to lose now.
I was finally able to face myself. To listen to myself. I felt like I lifted a heavy burden off my chest. Its been so long.


I look forward to the endless possibilities of life.

Asshole. I wish to never see him again.
GET OUT OF MY LIFE.

Dragonfly girls are just too charming and pretty.
I wanna be like them!!
Sad songs are soothing for my soul.
Give me a chance to treat you like my king.

I hope he wont reply.
I hope he would be more cruel.
For this is my art of giving up.

Am grateful for my sexy drummer!

Sigh! Desperate is someone else's name now.

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Hi my sweetheart!
Faster come out!
I watched the latest for the second time just because I cant wait.
I just adore guys who cry.
So touching, so cute!

Theres a HDB flat at commonwealth that is 40 storey tall.
I was too tired to go up to look at the scenery, too bad.

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Accomplished.
=D=D=D=D

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Theres a picture I really like, but I was NOT ALLOWED to post it.
Huh? Dimgai?! Tell me why?!
So I CUT HALF. HMHP.

By loving me, means putting down your ego, destroying your pride and boundaries.
Im sorry for making you tired of loving me.
We are confused, two hearts are tired.
Too long, who do remember the warm that we had.
Ive finally gotten my closure, thanks.

Thank you Jeff for being there at my toughest period.
No complains no grudges.
Just a quiet companion, taking care of me... =)

Chinese songs start to make sense now.

Oh and.
P.S dalang dalang dalang dalang dalang dalang dalang~~~~
I FUCKIN LOVE THIS SERIES!!!!!!!

and I found a job. awesome.

The scarab beetle.

My favourite beetle since I was young flew into the house today, and I decided to find more infomation about this beetle that I love!
Its called the Scarab beetle.

Its weird i love this beetle so much yet it is said that beetle is an ill omen.
WHY so negative about the beetle.
=/
Isolation. Just like how bulldog is being isolated.

Let me show you all, what exactly Scarab beetle is.

All these are from the Scarab beetle family.
But I dont think these can be found in Singapore.
And yes! There is golden ones. Its real.








Okay lets welcome the Singapore beetle.























As unattractive as the people are.
LOL. But i love it.



WHY? Because of this beady eyes.



I realised I like insects with beady eyes.
Like lizards. They are cute!
Dont isolate them again.
And no, I dont like cockroaches.

I'd better stop looking for solutions when there is no cause nor problems anymore.

These few weeks had been fun for me.
New clicks new people.
Hopefully more of it will come.
And SEAB sent me a letter already.
ITS NEAR!!!

P.S I'd better stop my sinful pleasures... heh.

The typical 2 years and above couple.
Break up not because of something huge,
but some little quarrels here and there.
Life, how ionic.
Dont take it too seriously. ;]

Poor girl squatting at the entrance of the toilet peeing.
If we weren't there, she would be still squatting there burying herself in her pee and embarrassment.
Singaporeans, so typical.
While she peed, everyone took three huge steps back from her.
Really?!
Seriously?!
What is this.

A P2 QUESTION THAT I CANT SOLVE!
HELP!



Oh and this is the biggest banana ive ever seen in my life.

I just love kittens to death!
I will come back for you!
Soon...

From XH blog

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had?

The year is ending. Finally.
This year had been a much terrible year for me. Okay partially. (Reckon that many of you too)
From Jan to October.
September had been a life of a party animal.
Which definately something that I'll miss.

But this year has marked the beginning of my growth.
Definately gained alot this year.
But for some people, growth are still stagnant.
And for some others, loss is in their year.

7 Jan will be the day I die.
Why? My o levels results will be out!
Dont be excited for me, because im not!
Hopefully next year would be a much better year.

New year's resolution?
This year resolution havent yet been fulfilled.
Will talk about it by the time when im definately gonna fulfil them.
Kind of pointless to list them, you know.

Fear of intimacy.

Deliberate withholding of personal information is probably fear of intimacy.
Withdrawing when others talk about their thoughts and feelings.
Protecting yourself often reveals fear of intimacy.
Critical of yourself or others is fear of intimacy.
Feelings of anger or discomfort when others voice their thoughts and opinions show a fear of intimacy.
Not caring about knowing others deep feelings and emotions is an indication of wanting to avoid intimacy.
Feeling threatened whenever you think that someone is going to ask you about private matters is another sign of fear of intimacy
Often show less affection towards their loved ones and pretend to be 'over-practical' in life.
Obsessing over the imperfections allows you to avoid really being "in" the relationship.

This is a case of "it is better not to have loved at all than to have lost… Both partners may never come to see this "relationship dance" or one or both may and make change.

I really adore my new student!
He reminds me of a classic example of a fat kid cartoon.
The one with round face and slit, tiny eyes.
SO CUUUUUUUUTE!

WHO WILL GO WITH ME TO THE POLYS' OPEN HOUSE?!?!




P.S Cant wait for the plans and gigs to happen.
P.P.S Peacefulness isnt a stimuli.

Oh and this year feels a little weird.
Does it happen when one gets older, one doesnt feels the festive spirit anymore?
In any case, Merry Christmas, still.
And a Happy New Year.

If your not a fan of Xiao Long Bao, never go to Crystal Jade's buffet.
Steamboat with the girls was great nevertheless.
Late nights and funny talks.
We should have more healthy habits.
Healthy living healthy life.

And I decided to stop clubbing for a period of, say, 1 month.
My bodys acting reeeally weird these few days.
Alcohol does bad.

So how should / do I live?

I cant wait for the new year,
its the mark of a new beginning, a new life.
A door to walk straight out of my past.

So how should I live it?

Or rather, how should I party it?!?!

Its time to be strong.
To be determine, which never been in my dictionary.
But this time, to make it right.

To make it right for him, for her, for my family.

Im still just so afraid.
Of disappointments from myself.

Hopefully I can resume everything soon...

I am seriously leaving tracks everywhere.
Speaking of which, I miss Shih Lin's chicken.

I cant stop.
You dont, I wont.

This is, good bye.
I am leaving you in the list of just one of them.
Your, -ordinary.

P.S Cant believe I saw you at power house tonight!