Mohinder's.

We are, if anything, creatures of habit. Drawn to the safety and the comfort of the similar. But what happens when the familiar becomes unsafe? When the fear that we've been desperately trying to avoid, finds us where we live?

When confronted by our worst nightmares, the choices are few; Fight or flight. We hope to find the strength to stand against our fears but sometimes, despite ourselves, we run. What if the nightmare gives chase? Where can we hide then?

To survive in this world, we hold close to us those on whom we depend. We trust in them our hopes, our fears... But what happens when trust is lost? Where do we run, when things we believe in vanish before our eyes? When all seems lost, the future unknowable, our very existence in peril... All we can do is run.

The Earth is large. Large enough that you think you can hide from anything. From Fate. From God. If only you found a place far enough away. So you run. To the edge of the Earth. Where all is safe again. Quiet, and warm. The solace of salt air. The peace of danger left behind. The luxury of grief. And maybe, for a moment, you believe you have escaped.

To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose. The Earth spins at a thousand miles an hour as we desperately try to keep from being thrown off. Like the first blush in winter that signals a great migration. Is there any warning of their arrival? A sign, a single event that set this chain into motion? Was it a whisper in God's ear? Survive. Adapt. Escape. And if we could mark our single moment in time, that first hint of a prophecy of approaching danger... would we have done anything differently? Could it have been stopped? Or was the die long ago cast? And if we could go back, alter its course, stop it from happening... would we?

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I just love that.
Today we spent 7 hours talking non stop.
First at Pizza Hut then to Starbucks.
From 3pm to 10pm.
What enjoyable time. We should do this again!

Wheres my Hiro?

There is definitely more to life than everything thats happening.
Work harder Trish.

Gotta find something else to get addicted to now.
Heroes's lure was greater than Prison Break.

Last Sat's night wasnt very satisfying.
Sunday, I had a great time talking.
Havent talked like that since mmm GAP?
Havent seen or talked much to my sisters for quite a while.
Tomorrow having lunch with them again!
Im still considering signing up for gym with pearlyne OR getting discount at California Fitness. Discounted half price yo.

P.S Cant wait til Sept 08. Heroes Season 3 on air.

I am addicted to Heroes.

I think teacher said, " Yup 1pm every Saturday."
OMFG Did I hear an error? IM INJECTED WITH EUPHORIA!
Har har, I can imgaine Nick's face of disbelief.
Hes gonna be so jealous.

I cant wait to finish all seasons of Heroes.

You gotta be tough you gotta be stronger.

My man left for army this morning. I was still in bed.
I feel kind of lost.
But it be different this time.
No more making plannings in my head.
No more listing things I gotta do in my head.
This time, I'll be writing it down and get it done.
I will make it this time.

Sakura.

Saturday March 08
Went to my guitar lesson. As expected, enjoyed it throughly.
Teacher gave me another free lesson on the next next week. Im exhilarated!
Went to Clementi Woods with Nick, Ernies and her BF.
We were on the queue and were discussing about Halal.
My sister and I were like imitating the RK Pork House indian guy so loudly!
Nick was like,"Eh the malay guy looking." -_-
HAHA so funny!
The whole day was funny and I enjoyed it.
Not forgetting the salmon slices. HAHA.
After dinner, we met up with my Dad and watched 10,000BC. Not so good.
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I expect life to get duller for me. Or in any case, darker into the tunnel.
But whatever I believed in, I always believed the year would always be exciting in some ways. Well, I create the sources of fun right. ;D

Year for me,
Guitar, studies, work, sisters.
And it repeats, and maybe some after work's fun. Nyah.

Gotta find a new guitar teacher. The current one is leaving.
Its such a great pity! I adore his fine charactor and his teachings.
Really hope the next one would be as comfortable.
And no, I dont want Simon Lai.
I would feel much uncomfortable, hes too cute.

To make an end to all these frustrations, ...

As human beings we're hard-wired to be in charge of ourselves -- and our environment. Some of us just take longer than others to learn the distinction between ridding ourselves of symptoms and getting to their source. If we think we don't have control of our lives because we see our obstacles as insurmountable, we stay where we are -- and our problems are guaranteed to become steady companions.

If you think that options and choices are for others, but not you, you sell yourself short. Looking at yourself and how you live your life does requires courage and effort. As you invest in yourself, you'll make progress -- how much depends on you.

FHM Threesome party!
Great timing. Time to san san xing! !!!
EXCITED! Anyone wanna join me msg me tomorrow.
P.S First 8 months of relationship, you get all the FUN! Trust me.

Is there any salvation to what I have become?

Justin recommended this great movie. The Bucket List. Its great! Everyone should watch it when its out in Singapore. Inspirational, moving, motivational.

Im just dreaming, am I?
Theres a dullness in the cool breeze as I walked out of the entrance.
Frustration and hopelessness. Im falling.
The cool sting of my tears.
I wish a car would just run me over.
I think of every suicidal escape but I know I dont have the courage.
Someone please do me a favour.
Dont call or msg my hp anymore.
Your wrong, theres only down in life.

My BEAUTIFUL guitar!

Recent pics.






My camera phone sucks. Time to trade my phone for a sony camera!

Today saw Wei Ling at house downstair. So happy!
She said so long never see me thought I moved house already.
Shes still the same, as sporty as smart as bubbly.

It hurts for me too.

I dont know.

After doing so much, im still escaping.
Can someone remind me how much I want this?
Can someone tell me why do I want this?
Can someone say something couraging?
I got to face my fears this time.

You can spot "tolerators" at 50 yards. They may be listless, angry, bitter, whiny, sick all the time, or seemingly rude and insensitive to others -- but it's just a manifestation of how unhappy they are with their own lives.

What do you need to change? Don't like your job anymore? You can go back to school, get a different degree, and start an entirely brand new career. Or you can decide to go into business for yourself and start your own company. It's never too late, but it won't be easy. You'll have to work hard. You may have to go into debt for a period of time. And you aren't guaranteed success. But you have to ask yourself how unhappy you are in your current situation and whether years of continuing down that path would be any worse than jumping the track.


"Des'ree - You gotta be"

Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together

Donnie Darko

Donnie Darko.
This is a really abstract movie.
After finishing the movie, I was in a silent trance.
It really had me thinking the whole day.

Stay.

"And now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you."

"Don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no."

"You said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you. "

Love is at its best when it flows freely.

Resignation from Mint Cafe.
Enrollment for O level.

The tears we poured.

My most touching valentine's day ever.
I will never forget this day and the things you've said.

We spent almost everyday together but I still misses you as much.
I really hate to see you go to army.
I dont wanna hurt you anymore but my temper forbids.
You had given me love so great, no man had given.
It hurts to hear you say I broke your heart.
It hurts to even think about you crying.
Im sorry.


No I can't forget this evening Or your face as you were leaving But I guess that's just the way The story goes You always smile but in your eyes Your sorrow shows Yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow When I think of all my sorrow When I had you there But then I let you go And now it's only fair That I should let you know What you should know

I can't live If living is without you I can't live I can't give anymore I can't live If living is without you I can't give I can't give anymore

I like Interview At The Ruins tho the critics rate it 2.5/5. It feels like the ending of something.

"Preciate?"

Im thoroughly disappointed.

The woes being sick on New year.
Vomiting, diarrhoea, bone/joint aching, fever, splitting headache.
I hope I die.