I dont wanna let fear ruin my life.
I dont wanna give up before I die.

I love the show Grey's Anatomy.

Breath - Anna nalick
2 Am and she calls me cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don't love him and winter just wasn't my season.
Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason.

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button girl
So just cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for while
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him but maybe I'll just sing about it

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button boys so cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breath just breathe

There's a light at the end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around

2Am and I'm still awake writing this song
If i get it all down on paper it's no lonmger inside of me threaten' the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.

But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand...yeah breath
Just breathe, ohho breathe,

I still cant believe this is happening to our family.
How he be so irresponsible. What about us? You dont want your family anymore?
How can he be thinking of abandoning us in Singapore. My mom only take back 800$ everymonth. The household needs 1000+ already. My dad's cpf can only last for three more months then we have to pay on cash. Another 600+. How can my mother afford those. How can he be so irresponsible. If you wanna work for your brothers in Malaysia. How much are they gonna pay you? You didnt even ask them. You just let them take advantage of you. Your so selfish. When your working there, they treat you good, give you good meals. HOW ABOUT US HERE. I come home everyday from work without FOOD ON THE TABLE. Your there enjoying. Take home 500$ only? like what they used to pay you when I was only in Nursery. Stop working for them man. Go find a proper job. Your so so so selfish. I cant believe it. I still cant believe this is happening to our family. From young I used to think that we are a happy family. Why are we falling apart. How can you let my mom down. How can you leave all the burden to her. Im still 17. Im ONLY 17.

Err wipe again. I bet Ivan not gonna give me his gods at all since I piss him off the last time on msn LOL. But w.e dont wanna play nemore.

.... forget it, maybe its not meant to.

The days will pass me by

Omfg o_o Sateya told me Bala is courting me. Im like WTF heck no?
Then Sateya thinks i hate him. LOL Cause i really dont understand what hes talking about and he thinks im ignoring him. Then Im like, w.e I cant understand your indian accent.

Boring boring boring ;((
I love Lan muchies.

LOL yay! xh selling her mp3 to me ;D so happy. Omfg with my spendings I cant save up >_>
I need more songs ><
And I hope my cell would come back to me SOMEHOW LMAO >_>
so i dont have to buy it again, I still wanna buy some other stuffs ;(
Or maybe i should just stop my spendings -_-

Working seems so meaningless now. Didnt seem like earning anything at all.
Thought i could start saving from next month already. Fuck still gotta buy another phone. Its like im working for nothing the past one month. I work to buy phone for others. Funny.. >_>

Im sitting all day wishing i could squeeze something. Seriously I wanna vent my anger but i dunno how. Omfg its a friggin 468$ for that styz cell. My heart hurts soooo much. I WORK SO HARD DAMNIT. For nothing.
Mentally crashing right now.

I was crying all night yesterday, hitting my fist, screaming, cursing at whoever that took it. Cause that phone lastly ONLY less than two weeks. And its the fourth time i lost a phone. Ffuck. I wanted to call you so bad. But I realise that my house phone couldnt call overseas. Im like screw it. I didnt even shower yesterday I went straight to bed.

BAH fuck it. Its GONE. Gotta work more then to buy another phone for someone lucky again. >_>

Got so much to say. You aint there.
Effin crashing right now.

w.e man screw it. Not gonna buy a phone evur again. So meaningless... Fuckin waste of money. One month of hard work, one week of using phone. What a joke. Why is it always me.
Im seriously a good person. I buy phones for others. -_-

Honestly why did I even went out yesterday.
I hate myself.

And I will kiss you forever,

Lips of silence my favorite endeavour.

Feel my arms, wrapped around you,

Falling into the oceans of virtue.

I will cry if you die.

I cried already when you said that...
Prolly cause of the sad songs im hearing.
DAMNIT *switch playlist* stupid depressing songs

Lol that idiot. -_- Bala went to tell everyone he likes me. WTF like wtf man. Sowi i no like indian.
x_x was working 12-11pm today i even got a blister on my foot and the pay was so fucking little. Work so hard, so tired mentally and physically and the pay like shit.
Xy called and told me their going to drink tomorrow iono if im even going =/
I wanna sleep all i want, i havent slept that way for so long ;(
K3ro is up, im like w.e lol
I got a life now =]

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM SOO FULLL! Dont feel like doing anything. ANYTHING AT ALL.
Started off the day good. I was early and easy working cause theres sooo lil people. Then Mus was there first. Edward was happy i came early so.. like no one bitched at me today. Mam Jane was happy too. Nurul came at 12. Then Raju, Bala came in. LOL Bala >_>

And then everytime i walk by Bala, hes like @#$#$ in indian which iono wtf hes saying then Raju told me hes calling me dear. Im like WTF LMAOOOOO. Ew. -_-

Then the two new trainee came in. Nurul was like, omg that girl again. She thought shes modeling here, walking so effin slow when she works. Im like hahahhaha. -_-
Then the other new guy was called, Pokah. Im like What?! Pokah? *With a funny accent* "Pokah?" LOL So friggin funny his name.
Hes from Nepal or w.e it was. Then he taught me how to say hi in his language. Hi : Namaste.
Then I saw Bala Im like "Namaste" Then I pronauce it wrong hes like ITS NAMASTE NOT NAMASTA. -_- im like wtf you know it too.
Then I was like hey POKAH how do you say idiot in your language?? DONT TELL BALA!
Idiot : Bebakuf
Then after that was busy so i didnt went to talk to Bala lmao.

And woot. Three groups of friends came to look for me today ;3 First was Jocelyn and her friends. Then after that Einstein called me. Im like WOW Einstein?!! How he know my number cia. Then he wanted to meet up after work. Then im like ok we havent met for a long ass time.
Then after that yt they all came ;D! SUSHIIII O.m.f.g i swear i aint gonna eat another piece of sushi EVUR IN MY LIFE.

After work I went to look up for Einstein and jia wei Lol still the same cept his hair looks sick LOL. Then sushi blah blah and im here now half dead. -_-

And i love Lan. ;P

tentative favorita - 16th avenue
I LOVE this song, cant seems to find it anywhere ;((

Danny is dating an azn girl -_-

A million "I love you" cant express how much i feel for you.
I hope you know that i even bust off a real life guy because of you.

New month's goal, dont be late? Heck yea x_x
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Bitch of the day, like foreal you aint my mom, dont tell me what to do, u fat bish.
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Hold me forever.

Happee two months =)
I love you