Hair loss.

BEFORE



AFTER




Tell me your opinion please.
I can clearly see a difference.
This hair makes my chin so much slimmer.

But honestly, when I got out of the salon,
i was fuming with rage.

I kept ranting on and on about,
WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?!
I FELT LIKE I WAS FUCKING BALD!

I never had so little hair on my head before.
My hair was always rich with volume,
now its been layered to nothing.

But okay, im accepting it. ;D
If it doesnt suits me, I guess there's no point pursuing it.

-

I'm suspecting my five senses' features are corrupted.
Too many problems they gave me.

Eyes,
easy irritable, soften redden, itchiness almost every night, too sensitive.
That's why I've never been able to wear contact lenses frequently, stably. =[

Nose,
same condition as eyes, except that it does not redden.
Sneezing to even a single speck of dust.

Mouth,
dryness, lip's peeling, cracking at the sides.
I always look like some clown.
It peels until my lips look like its extending at its sides, you see.

Ears,
YT claims there could be too much ear shit.
But naw, nothing's happening to my ear. Whew!

Skin,
Dryness. Scales? Something like that.

-

I swore, the next paycheck I get, it would be skincare, facial products.
I shouldnt have neglected them too much. I've never spent a cent on them at all. I can even see my pores.

No more splurging on guitar gadgets, games ANYMORE!

-

Monday, January 07, 2008
Job please.

New year's resolution. (Oh finally)

-Reach 52kg.(Half done. ;D!! I was 60kg, now im 55kg!)
-Lesser binge eating. (DONE)
-6 sticks of cigarette a day. (Of course.... not yet done.)
-O levels. (N levels.)
-Learn guitar guitar guitar! (DONE)

Five is enough for me. And I need a friggin job.

I have already decided on my first New Year's resolution.
-Is to quit smoking.
The irony of this resolution appearing on last year's too.
I had it.

And it seems like I need a 'friggin job' every a few times of the year aye?
I am a professional job hopper.
And no, I am not ashame of it, neither proud of it.
It's just me.

P.S Should I hammer down my two front teeth?
P.P.S I thought it was cute. ;D

Loving you needs alot of courage from within.
I couldnt lean too near.

I HATE MY BLOOODY CHEEEEENA HAIR NOW!
URGH URGH URHG!
I WANNA FORWARD TIME!
I WANT MY HAIR BACK!
CHEENA CHEENA CHEENA!
BLOODY CHEENA!
CONDEMN THOSE WHO CREATE THIS STYLE.
Its so totally not me.

The days.

I miss the good old days like these.

8/30/2007 9:36:48 PM

Nick's Stratocaster: `TRISH¯
sht i tink my prediction gt problem

`TRISH¯: Nick's Stratocaster
hahahahhah too bad man

`TRISH¯: Nick's Stratocaster
not everything can look from dress and hair

Nick's Stratocaster:`TRISH¯
i can see ur single by looking at ur eyes

`TRISH¯: Nick's Stratocaster
LOL i told you that im single dumbass

Nick's Stratocaster:`TRISH¯
oh... relli?

`TRISH¯: Nick's Stratocaster
yarly

Nick's Stratocaster:`TRISH¯
so ur a single dumbass? sry i missed out the dumbass

`TRISH¯: Nick's Stratocaster
OMG

Nick's Stratocaster:`TRISH¯
u wanna add a hole behind the ass?

`TRISH¯: Nick's Stratocaster
YOUR AN IDIOT

Nick's Stratocaster:TRISH¯
kk

Nick's Stratocaster:`TRISH¯
enuff of jokes or i cnt slp tonite

Nick's Stratocaster:`TRISH¯
tinking bout u

`TRISH¯: Nick's Stratocaster
hahahahahah

`TRISH¯: Nick's Stratocaster good

Nick's Stratocaster:`TRISH¯
tinking bout ur body =p

Where we flirt endlessly.

8/30/2007 9:49:16 PM
Nick's Stratocaster: `TRISH¯
so did i mke it into ur good books?

Nick's Stratocaster:`TRISH¯
or i jus flunk my L level

Do we even bother to flirt now?

8/31/2007 10:00:42 AM

Nick's Stratocaster:`TRISH¯
damn

`TRISH¯: Nick's Stratocaster =p

Nick's Stratocaster:`TRISH¯
come to me!

`TRISH¯: Nick's Stratocaster
lol! no YOU come to me!

Nick's Stratocaster:`TRISH¯
U come to me

Days like that are priceless.

9/10/2007 10:50:00 PM

`TRISH¯: Nick's Stratocaster
go sleep la you also tired le

Nick's Stratocaster: `TRISH¯
u oso

Nick's Stratocaster: `TRISH¯
mus acc u mah

Nick's Stratocaster: `TRISH¯
sayang u so much

Nick's Stratocaster: `TRISH¯
how can dun acc u

Now, you slept without a care.

9/12/2007 3:53:40 AM

Trish when i told u ur special is not want you to choose me or not. I hope one day i can relli let u noe tt ur relli special from my heart. is not smth i use to talk to gurl. and i'v nvr tell a gurl how special she is to me most ever b4 when i lyk a gurl i jus say i got feelings for her.Dosent matter we'r tgt or not i still feel tt ur 1 special gurl. wad i say still stands

im a responsible guy. if i relli wan to be u i will tink will i mind ur past and if i relli do love u or jus treat u as a person to acc me... when i took the step to chase u i alrdy tot of all dos cos im a cautious guy i dun wait till im with u den ask myself if i will mind ur past or not. And i even go to the extend and tot wad if ppl harm/hurt u how i gg to protect u from them.

Cos im relli serious on my next relationship. not why i stay single for so long cos i'v been waiting for sum1. not lyk no gurl wan be my gf. i hope tt i could touch ur heart cos been so long finally i knew u b4 tt i keep reject gurls not becos they not perfect but jus not right. 1 year plus u noe. i could hve chose to jus anihow find a gurl

No talks like these, no msges like that.

9/12/2007 1:44:36 PM

Nick's Stratocaster: `TRISH¯
wah seh my malay fren msg me sia

Nick's Stratocaster: `TRISH¯
ask me i listening to malay song sia

`TRISH¯ : Nick's Stratocaster
LOL

`TRISH¯ : Nick's Stratocaster HAHAHAHA

Nick's Stratocaster: `TRISH¯
he say i cool sia

`TRISH¯: Nick's Stratocaster
cause u got a malay gf

`TRISH¯ : Nick's Stratocaster
HAHAHA

Nick's Stratocaster: `TRISH¯
yup

Nick's Stratocaster: `TRISH¯
and i love my malay gf

`TRISH¯ : Nick's Stratocaster
hahaha

Nick's Stratocaster: `TRISH¯
next time i sing for u

Yea? ITS BEEN MORE THAN A YEAR! WHERES THE SONG YOU PROMISED?!

Nick's Stratocaster: `TRISH¯
kk i go clean up the hse.... hope the time will pass faster when ur not around and slow motion when ur out with me

Sigh, and I wonder...

Winner always look forward.

My sweet supper I made for my sis and me.

I rather not, the musical personality.
To overcome oneself, is the biggest challenge of all mankind.

I need a China mom and a cane. ;]
If so, do you seriously think it would help?
Naw.

So not busy.

If nothing goes on smoothly to what you've planned, the best plan you could think of is to leave it to God's plan.

I will marry her!

The days that I truely miss.

My everydays and every-all-nighters with GAP clique.




Times with my oh-so-true girlies.



When he was still free like a bird.



Last Christmas. And my Sis.


And of course, I couldnt forget the days I spent in Austrian Prison.
Hell, kidding, I WISH!



I would get my hair black all over again.
The rich black hair I had. Its gone and over. Boo.
I wish I had thought over it even more carefully.
But hell, why would I regret. I can get it black whenever I want to.

All of you are in my heart.
And Ying Ting! Get done quickly with your A levels.

If you can change the past, what would you have changed?
I wouldnt, for events happen for a reason.

Better days ahead.

Goodbye to you.

Interesting stuffs. I find some connections in it.



Just finished writing in my notepad.
There are tonnes and millions of things that I should do and want to do.
Christmas is coming and of course, celebration is needed.
A reason to party thats it.
But I guess, this Christmas I wont get to spend it with you, unlike the last.
But we are going to celebrate it all the same right?
Just not on the day itself.
But well, it would do good. I can have fun with my girlies!

This month, guitar wasnt really my drive at all.
But I would find it back.

Had quite a chat with The Ex.
But for your own good, leave the girl.
She should learn.

I had some laughs this afternoon.
I was laughing away, talking to a scaled reptile, I would say.
To think that it would be so silly, so cute, so dumb of it to think that its something worth, when its really nothing.
To say something really stupid can really piss something off. Boo hoo.
I can say its really fun without even throwing a cent in.
But nah, the lonely reptile escaped.
I wasnt even laughing enough.

B.O.R.E.D

A sense of failure.
To be a failure.
These words will never appear in my mind.

Dont have the heart to seek for gold.
Though I wished for them to appear.





P.S Do you think we are still compatible?
P.P.S I have to do my hair. Soon.

I need a god damn job

I repeat.
I need a god damn job.

I know i know, look at the classified section, right?
Of course I know that. Im just lazy.
I would quit in a few months time anyway. Kidding.
Absolutely not kidding.
Hello, im a free spirit who lacks of responsibility.
The employer would be at loss.

Days were good, days were bad.
After the bad days, there were the good days.
Why worry?

How do I look like the past few days?



Halloween is scary.


I have great assets.



And oh yes, we are in the toilet.
But im not a lecher like what everyone's saying.

I love her.

Cinta Bertahan - Acha Septriasa

Kizuna - Kamenashi Kazuya

Even the keyboard we touched a sec ago, may not be the same keyboard we touch now.

I saw Jie Ming on the way home today.
I can see he hasnt change much physically.
Just grown taller.

We just said hi without stopping our path.
I guess my expression was full of questions and curiousity.
But that doesnt change the fact that we didnt stop to talk.
People dont talk now aye.
The world's gotten colder.
That much for sitting beside me in class.

-

I wonder what stays the same.

I wonder...

My mom is currently now a Nan Yang Poly student.

More more Jdrama!

IM IN LOVEEE!
Right now, I sounded like a high school girl having an idol frenzy. ZZZ.

-

Absolute boyfriend


Robot maker, Kronos Heaven, finally develops "Night Tenjo", the perfect male humanoid programmed to be devoted and completely loyal to his lover. The company chooses temp worker Izawa Riko to take part in a 5-day free trial. At first, Riko only sees Night as a household appliance. But when she finds out how deep Night's devotion to herself is, Riko finds herself falling in love with him. Joining the love triangle is Asamoto Soshi, a distinguished young executive at her company who has feelings for her.

Jotei


Kato Rosa stars as Tachibana Ayaka, a young woman whose life has been ruined after she lost her boyfriend then her mother became gravely ill. Looking for revenge, she starts out as a hostess with the goal of rising to become the "empress" of the Osaka nightlife scene. Matsuda Shota plays a member of the underworld who becomes Ayaka's ally.

Because of that, i cant stop being obsessed with Kato Rosa.

<3

My happy classic song.

I come home in the morning light
My mother says when you gonna live your life right
Oh mother dear we're not the fortunate ones
And girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun

The phone rings in the middle of the night
My father yells what you gonna do with your life
Oh daddy dear you know you're still number one
But girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have--

That's all they really want
Some fun
When the working day is done
Girls-- they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun

Some boys take a beautiful girl
And hide her away from the rest of the world
I want to be the one to walk in the sun
Oh girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have

That's all they really want
Some fun
When the working day is done
Girls--they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun,
They want to have fun,
They want to have fun...

Sadness and Sorrow

Couldnt sleep and bored.
Did a cover on Naruto, Sadness and Sarrow.
A few obvious mistakes here and there, and an awkward pause near the end.
And it was rather soft. So turn up the volume.
Tell me what you think about it. Thanks! =]

Its not auto play btw.

XXX

This is for those who actually find sex embarrassing.
Curious or confused? Heres the link to help.

Sex Guru

Sex actually aids in preventing Coronary heart disease. Suprising.

HE CHANGE MY ROLE!!!!
I was kind of disappointed but relieved actually.
So i'll be organising the bands instead of talking.
But well, if its meant to be, its meant to be.
Im sure God has a path for me.
=)!

Should I or should I not?

Amir: "I have a proposal for you..."
Me: "What?"
Amir: "You know about the concert that coming up this Nov, ya?"
Amir: "I want you to be the host/emcee of the event. You can take your time to think about it, no problem."

-

WTF?! In my mind, was like, "host... Host... HOST?!!"

Its gonna be alot of people. 14 bands and all his students performing.
Its a RARE opportunity, but I dont have the courage!
My heart tells me to go for it, but im afraid!

HOWWWWWWWWWWW?! TELL ME WHAT TO DO!

Girl, take care.

When a guy leave for ns, the girl needs more emotional satisfaction and attention from the guy than when hes not in ns.
Demanding?
If your not in that place, I wouldnt be so demanding at all.
If im not waiting out here, I wouldnt be.
Thanks for letting me know your not worth the wait.

I know that when guys book out, they need time to relax, to rest, to have time for themselves.
But its so different on the girl's side, we need YOU since you werent around for us most of the time.
And when I dont get the satisfaction, I feel lost and frustrated.
Theres an article that speak truth.

"But when she knows that you aren’t to be blamed for not being around, (as your physical body has been “legally rented” to the government), she has to find a way to either direct that frustration of helplessness, or to find a permanent solution.

Breaking up looks promising, and tempting."

I am seriously tired and sick of these, 'on off' frustration.
It will never stop until it is solved.

And since I couldnt be understanding enough, since I couldnt give in, lets not waste each other's time. Lets see how it goes.

-

I hope your ok, girl.
It pains me a great deal, and lots of anger inside me to see girls suffering, getting hurt like that.
It really reminds me alot of myself in the past.
Why should the happiness of a girl be in a man's palm.
We girls, should be more 'siao sha'.
I had swore not to cry for a man.
Not to sacrifice for a man.
They'd end up hurting you.
It probably takes me more than just courage just to give in and making effort.
And probably, im not 'siao sha' at all.
I have no courage to stand out there giving my all, and get wash down again.
I know its unfair for you.
I cant help it.
Love is a gamble.
And I hate gambling.

There's a quote,

Dont make someone your everything, cause when its gone, you have nothing.

Wish for anything but to wait.

Cry For You - Andy Timmons

DAMN FLASH!


Yes yes, EVERYONE LOOK AT MY DOUBLE CHIN ! HMHP

There is not a need in putting too much feelings, commitments into a relationship right now. I need to start backing off. And retrieve myself back.

I need a fucking job. I need to fucking club. I need to fucking drink.
And I need my soul back.
I guess I was happier back then.

Double O is fuct up boring.
But yes, the shots are the cheaposssss.
But I had fun with the girlies! =]
Sorry the night turned out boring!
But I hope you XH and Joce had fun!
Happy belated birthdays!

TRISHA gambatte!
It doesnt matter if you did not make it,
at least you worked hard during the last week. [What unlikely encouragement]
Well at least I've tried.

I was 24/7 at the desk. MAN its the first time in my life. HAHA.

STUDY NOW, CLUB LATER!
We gonna dance all night ya GIRLIES!

Hungry.

A process of a vicious cycle.
Its always miss you like crazy at first.

Miss you Miss you Miss you Miss you
Miss you Miss you Miss you Miss you
Miss you Miss you Miss you Miss you
Miss you Miss you Miss you Miss you
Miss you Miss you Miss you Miss you
Miss you Miss you Miss you Miss you
Miss you Miss you So lonely So lonely
So lonely So lonely So lonely So lonely
So lonely So lonely So lonely So lonely
So lonely So lonely So lonely So lonely
So lonely So lonely Hate you Hate you
Hate you Hate you Hate you Hate you
Hate you Hate you Forget you Forget you..

I should stop having fun now already.
I havent even been practising guitar.
Havent even been preparing for exams.
STOP IT ALREADY TRISH!

P.S//
I miss you.

Cant believe theres such immaturity.

The world has got me speechless.
The humanity is hilarious.
The society is fuct up.
The people are like, "PEOPLE OF RAINBOW COLOURS".

You never know what kind of people you get to meet, it gets you 'shaking your head, tsking.'
So appalling.

Know your limits, know your place.

Coincidence?

Fate is a mysterious thing.
I know im not allow to, but I yearn for it.


Ragnarok Online. I forgot which map was it with this tune, but it rocks.

The unicorn.

I do have a boyfriend, but times like these, when I was just relaxing, having a peace of mind, listening to inspirational music, I really do feel lonely.

Someone to lean on at times like these.
So peaceful so quiet in the mind.
I want to share these, with someone.

There's a saying,
an idle mind is the devil's playground.
I shouldn't get distracted.

I have a great boyfriend that I love so dearly, what more could I've asked for?

I was really glad yesterday's evening was fun with the girls.
I got to see a Unicorn again.
Other than that, it keeps me from degressing away.
Thanks a bunch. You guys are the best.

P.S//
Unicorn, unicorn, what are you doing in a world like this?
What are you? A beautiful magical horned-horse?
Can you appear in my dreams again?

If I had a billion...

I would enroll in more guitar lessons.
I make sure everyday that I pass, is a knowledge learnt.
I would learn the pole dancing and the art of seduction.
All men within your grasp.
I would do the rock-climbing amongst the narrowest valley and the highest abandoned cliffs.
The thrill beneath those small crumbling rocks. The shadows on the far away land.
I would travel elegantly with the flows of the current down the endless river of the Nile.
Listen to the hydraulic flow of the currents, breathing in the sweetness of the air from the greeneries smothering in from the side. The birds, chirping, the crickets, creaking, the tiny fishes, jumping in and out of the water.
I would throw myself in the wilderness of the jungle, in search of a greater meaning to life.
I would take a great photographer with me to capture the beautiful scenes of my life.
I would live in the tallest hotel and view the world from above.
Watch the world passes me by, time wont stop for you.
I would shop in all expensive boutiques and dine in the finest restaurant alone.
With no one to depend on but myself.
I would master the art of language.
And understand the cultures of the world.

Moles.

A mole or birthmark near the nostrils.

This lady is diligent and loves to study, she is especially attracted to the arts and literature. She is an intelligent and charming person, but her life is not totally serious, because she also likes to have fun. During her younger and teenage years, her life will be OK, but when she gets older, she will receive a high honor. Her fortune will grow step-by-step, and she will be happy when she is older. She will marry a man with a good education who is either wealthy or has achieved a high social status.

I LOVE MY NEW PX5D!

Something I learnt and recorded today. COMMENTS PLEASE!

With or without.

Without eyeliner.





With eyeliner.


WITH OR WITHOUT EYELINER?!?! COMMENTS PLEASE

I am getting my PX5D right now, right away.

Been years, still my favourite.

Went MOS with Nick yesterday.
Just the two of us, but hell! We're having fun!
My heart goes back to the first night. Love you!

Wednesday.

I think I lost 1kg overnight.

Lets cuddle together next week.

Thanks I had a wonderful day.