Here I am - Bryan Adams

Just sitting here.
Just sitting here with the breeze and the music.
Its all good.

Suddenly I felt all clear. Light and free.
I miss my dearest Ernies.
I miss my Dad.
I miss my Mom.
I miss all my beloved friends.
I've been waiting for you my whole life.
I wanna spend all my life with you.

Its a brand new life to pursuit.
No more bloody excuses.

-

Funniest thing at work yesterday.
Nick: "Topic - Prison Break."
Me: "Its Tancredi not Tancradi."
You suck in playing Hangman HAHAHA.

Night.
P.S I have forgiven you. Msg me anytime.

Its not.

"Maybe its love but its like you said, Love is like a role that we play.
But I believe in you so much, I could die for the words that you say."
Reminds me...

Anyway, I hurt my finger twice at the same spot deeper.
And there's this hero just waiting right there for me.
Dang cant touch the guitar.

Chaw.
P.S I am ready to forgive anything.

No more Chivas.

FUN.
I sacrificed my Chivas and it was worth it! Funniest night ever.
I think I have stomach cramps from laughing too much.
Especially the peeing part.
OH MY TUMMY. Im the greediest of all, thanks. So much for telling others off.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YU JIA. I hope you enjoyed your drunkard night.

Inside out.

This, never fail to soothe my mood and soul.

The biggest lie you ever told
Your deepest fear bout growin old
The longest night you ever spent
The angriest letter you never sent
The boy you swore youd never leave
The one you kissed on new years eve
The sweetest dream you had last night
Your darkest hour, your hardest fight

I wanna know you, like I know myself.
Im waitin for you, there aint no one else.
Talk to me baby, scream and shout.
I want to know you inside out
I wanna dig down deep
I wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream and shout
I wanna know you inside out
I wanna take my time
I wanna know your mind
Ya know there aint no doubt
I wanna know you inside out

The saddest song you ever heard
The most you said with just one word
The loneliest prayer you ever prayed
The truest vow you ever made
What makes you laught, what makes you cry
What makes you mad, what gets you by
You highest hight, your lowest low
These are the things I want to know

-

Things I thought I would never do - Going to the church.
I NEARLY FALL ASLEEP. IT IS SOOO POINTLESS.
Hilarious colleagues.

Leeched from his blog.
http://www.friends.imagini.net/@1775021-c1cd

Okay, HOPEFULLY, lets get drunk tonight girls!
No gambling please.
It always ends up me drinking alone or drinking with some other strangers. Jeebus.

-

I might hurt you at times.
I may be cold to you at times, but I still love you all the same.
I am not worth your devoutness.
I was so heartbroken to actually see you do that.
I couldnt believe the grievous sight.
You had just proved to me, you would do anything for me.
You had just proved that, theres no one like you I can find.
I dont want any Tulips and Lilies no more.
I want your loving care.

Bai.
P.S Hopefully, to Perth with Nicky Nick this december! HES PAYING NYAH.
[Althought I was really thinking of Africa with the Kung! bushman.]
P.P.S O.K I am officially pissed off/jealous of his bloody guitar. He just went to buy another guitar secretly behind my back.

Okay, since so, return me the baby. I'll give you back the money and everything hobo.

Earning more than 2G a month without a SINGLE cert. HAR HAR. I beat anyone of you guys HANDS DOWN. Couldnt be any better for now.

SUMMARY. [Damnit, hate summaries. Wheres the respect?]
Work was o-k. The joy is, every Malays speaks Melayu to me and the Chinese speaks English to me. HAAA. And the food. O-M-GEE. Cheap plus great. I am addicted to it.
Time was faster with Nick popping in every now and then.
Funny peoples.
Same posture, bones harden.

Chaw.

Where are you?

Whatever happened to the inspirations.
Whatever happened to the calm and aspiring.
Kay whatever.
-
Sorry for the deserted blog caused by my negligence.
But I just dont wanna continue the pointless posts anymore.
Its either something worthwhile, meaningful to me, or nothing at all.
-
Reality check.
How much wages we ask from life, life would have willingly give.
How much wages we want to get is how much work load have you done.
Im still oblivious to the risks and consequences.

NIGHTS.
P.S It creates a bond just by talking.

Kung wala ka.

Dead I guess.
BLOG'S DEAD.
Will be getting a small hiatus here, momentarily of course.

Looking for a new job.
O levels.
Learning guitar.
Dancing? Prolly. Depends.
With the help from him, of course.

Chaw.
P.S Need to get use to life without you here.

GAP

The familiar song I listen to everyday at work.
Although theres someone special in my life now.
I still feel empty without the usual thing.
Siti's voice. Lina's sarcasm. Azhi's humour. Man I love her! Candy. Simon.
The music. Their laughters. My anxiety towards people.
I miss how I push myself forward every single day.
I miss how I keep telling myself, "Im confident." everytime before I step out of the house.
The first job out of many, that I actually had communication with the people.
Miss you Guppies.

There I go again.
Proceeding to the next stage of my life.
Or am I really regressing?

Til we meet again.

ADDICTED to the Rubik's cube.

No the heading is serious. Really.
Completed 2/3 of the cube. WATCH ME COMPLETE IT AND CALL ME A GENIUS HAHA.

Switching job scope. Sales can bored me out.

"I really love the green robot. Its so lonely and gloomy. I will be back to get it."

Chaw.
P.S I cant breathe sometimes. Its suffocating.

I miss the notes.

You see, the problem is I need a happy man by my side to keep my euphoric drive going. Not to sustain it by drinking anymore.
Its an arduous journey to finally have gotten better, I dont want to be pulled down to depression again.
The only thing I can do is to be happy.
I hope I am that influential to you that the happiness can be passed or shared.


How have I been?
I've been kicking out any negative aspects of life with a simple, "Ah fuck that shit. Not anything to fret about."
Taking things slowly. Why am I such a wuss to the world.

Update about me.
Found a new love. Been together for quite a while now.
Its amazing of the similarities and the coincidences in our lives.

Chaw.
P.S How are you?

I quitted GAP. Just so you know.

Amazed at how things lead to one another.
I had a great week. Thanks.
Sipping on a Lychee martini, a breeze of his perfume.
Its all good.

Tho im dirty like fuck.

Uncle kenneth went to Roma.
He sent me pictures.
It was so beautiful.

And I just felt the wtc.
Where was I at p6.

I just wanna lie on my bed the whole day.

She said, "Dont stop the momentum. Your down again. Stablize it and dont stop working, no matter how it is a drag to just get out of the house."

P.S Im down again. Help? Prozac pls.

Ooo la

"The habit of postponing decisions to avoid taking action can deprive a life of any lasting satisfaction and happiness. The mind can produces a reservoir of self-justification."

Is that why I just cant seem to get out of my fence?
I often wonder how people got so strong.
Why? How?

I rather live my life in a country, growing crops and rearing chickens.
Running around with a dog on a everlasting greens and wind.
Green green grass.

I find it a drag everyday.

Am I immune to guys?

SHAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

EXHAUSTING DAY.

Thursday, went Jewel. Free drinks all night.
Drank the first half of the night away.
Danced the remaining night away.
And I NEVER PUKED.
Went home at 7am+
I woke up with muscle ache.
WE HAD FUN YA!

Friday. BORING!
Imagine clubbing with aunties.
Went midnight movie. Evan almighty.
Hilarious.
Went work straight away.
HOW SHAG AM I NOW. Take a guess.
K.O during lunch breaks.

GOD I HATE WRITING SUMMARIES ON MY BLOG.
But im too stoned to write a full detail.

Dreams - The CRANBERRIES

Still feeling it.

Cant kick the mind.

Trish just stop it.
Its 12 hours to exam.

WHY IS MY LIFE EVOLVE AROUND THINGS I DONT FEEL GOOD IN.

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday - EXAMS
Wednesday - Pub + Club.
Thursday - PLAY, lesbian club. ;]
Friday - FREE
Saturday - Work
Sunday - Work

Holler me, if you wanna join any of the funs above.

Sorry, I still dont feel belong.
Please. I have been in these for so long.
I went there more then any of you girls.
I know what to expect and whats not.
I dont need no nanny.

Need a break from all of you.