_____________________________________________ Just listening to the voices...

Thursday, April 30, 2009

AND ITS DAYS LIKE THIS I MISS.

I cant wait till I finally progress from this point.
I want to get my life back.
Work hard work hard now!

P.S Girls, how come no more late night supper session?!!?!
I honestly miss Little India's sour food.

P.P.S Another grieving incident happening in our neighbourhood. My neighbour just past away abruptly, a healthy person with no signs or symptoms. She was just in her 40s. Sad isnt it? Four young kids have to experience the pain of losing their love one.

P.P.P.S The funeral they held downstair, played acoustic while everyone sings harmoniously. I dont know the language but the tune was tear-jerking. Listening to them sing, clearly shows how much they miss her. ;[









Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I have to learn,
to find strength within myself and the Lord.
Not from external source, not from momentary gains.
This menstrual symptoms is affecting my daily life.
Sudden lost of drive and motivations.
Stress, anxiety and tensions.
How to get back my focus?
Fed up fed up fed up.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

I have no more chemistry with chemistry.

Im stuck at the chapter,
FORMULAE, STOICHIOMETRY AND THE MOLE CONCEPT.

Anyone familiar with that?
Help meeeeeeee, im dying.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Sunday, April 12, 2009

This is gonna be a long post.

I am very, very astound by the contents on the Singaporean forum.
This name is, SammyBoyForum

In this forum, men talk about their experiences and deals at Geylang, our very own famous Red Light District.

I, as people know me personally, am a very liberal person. I can accept people talking about their experiences and fantasies. Talking about how great or bad their services are, or talking about in detail what they do.

WHAT I absolutely CANNOT accept is that how immoral they as an individual are. Men in that forum, discriminate us ladies like some sex slave to serve them. By their language and tone, they speak so disrespectfully about the ladies there. You PAY for their services, they do their job. They are not made for you men alone. Clean your tongues well and talk with respect.

What really surprises me is most of the men who patronise the forum and the brothels are with wives or partners. I am very appalled and extremely disgusted by men in general.
Men, huge ego, small brain.
No wonder women are reigning in this society sooner or later. First thing, I tried very hard not to generalise for a very long time about men, but given what I've experienced and seen, I cant! I absolutely cant for this moment.

Like everything in their brains is just SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX WOMEN SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX. This kind of men, cant fulfil bigger things in life cause 90% of their life are filled with sex and craps. Sex is too powerful for them to surpass it. Sex for them is priority over the feelings of his loved ones and over his career and over his family.
Weak isnt it? Disgusting isnt it? Loser isnt it?
This, no one can respect.

Right now, I really believe a bigger men, put his moral and boundaries above all, even his families.

SOME even have the cheek to blame their wives when they gonna have an affair. They could even discuss on the forum on how to manage both wife and lover. And keep in mind that their tone are all 'in the matter of fact' tone. Like it is rightful of them and that it is justified.

No wonder even the China prostitute claims Singaporean men are stupid. Likewise they claimed, it is stupid for the prostitute to be fucked by them but on a larger scale, Singaporean men are even more stupid and brainless.

If men put their urge above their moral and boundaries, they are no different from a beast.

Would you like it so much if your father do this to your mother? Would you like it so much to catch your father in the act with a young girl, with the thought of your mother being back home alone and tired with all the housework? Tired with all the housework plus no attention and understandings of her husband who only complains about how fat she looks now and how undesirable she had become because of giving birth to YOU MEN.

Theres amazingly a good Samaritan in the forum.





Quote:
Originally Posted by swiftee
Hmm... after having the baby my wife spend most of the time looking after the baby and also working. 1 month the most "do" once or twice ( everytime she not interested to perform ) end up using my own hand 99% of the time. And she also become quite short temper maybe too much chasing n screaming at our over active kid.....


my wife and i also just had a kid... her screaming might be that she might be (might not) suffering from post-natal depression, and for some time now. seeing a doctor to dis-confirm it might be good. but i dont think so...


Quote:
I appreciate my wife giving me a baby. But with that her body also transform. No doubt, she is still slim. But can still see the stretch marks on the tummy and also the ugly C-section scar. The papayas definitely dont look that good anymore too. I believe many bros here with wife that given birth can attest to that. Some how it also affected my appetite. But sometime when i want sex she also dont give...


is she not the same woman u fell in love with and married??? stretch marks and c-section scars already made u turned off. what if she got older???

i dont know about u, but u know how much pain she went through to have your baby. that is the best affirmation of love from her and now u r going to discard it like trash!!!

my wife was plied with nourishments during her pregnancy and confinement by my mum. she still has those stretch marks, not to mention that she is now still stuck at 60kg when she was about 48kg before her pregnancy. yes, the boobies r now a bit out of shape and she's got a tummy. but i pay more attention to them more, spending more time on those areas and telling her that those r indications that she is a miracle. isnt giving birth to another human being a miracle??? yr wife is tired and suffers from diminished confidence and as her husband, instead of helping and reassuring her, here u r, thinking of fucking another woman...



Quote:
So sian all the time, got to endure her temper. Then came "S" she everything i wanted.
I realy felt like embarking on a "covert mission" but guilt, promise to myself n god. Damm this urge of mine


u know why yr wife is in such a bad mood??? she is so busy with your child... and yet u have time to go out gallivanting with other women!!! how about spending time to take yr child off her hands to let her rest??? then she would have time to go pamper herself, doll up a bit, do some slimming or just purely have a good rest. i m sure then, she wont be in such a bad mood. but not for u, i m sure u r too busy!!! busy with yr urge. i guess u r not ready to start a family... then why do it in the first place?

why m i so pissed with u, u might wonder... cos in yr post, u r defending yourself, trying to justify your tryst (which i know is certain to happen) by blaming it on yr wife... so with that, i hope that the stewardess turns out to be a case of glenn close in fatal attraction.









The passage in bold really bring tears to my eyes. Thats a man. A person who can truely call himself a MAN. All of them out there are just wimps.
The creator of that forum, I can confidently say its a man.

Oh and there's more post there that really boils my blood, just in case it melt my skin, I rest my case here.

-

My boyfriend is in Taiwan now.
Last week we had an eventful week.

Sentosa with the girls.


Little India with the girls.


The doll N bought from New Zealand.



Our 'Mr B.I.G' we painted at East Coast.



My handsome BF, which hopefully is not the kind I hated above.

Saturday, April 04, 2009

Sigh. Tough love or tough luck.

The same mistake in the same month.
The wounds re-opened.
Thanks for this wake up call.
Im fully sober now.
I know where I stand.

Thanks Justin, appreciate it.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

The verdict is 'nothing at all you would do'.

Mathematics. It gets frustrating.

I want to get my pride and honour back when I step into Woodgrove.
Those discriminating eyes those hypocrites, take it back.

To honestly tell everyone, no matter how I study, I got a feeling I wouldnt do very well. It just gets more and more challenging. I just want everything to be on progessive mode! Agh.

Cant wait for the adventure trip. :)

Friday, March 27, 2009

Must go lab practical every session.



Laboratory assistant is a hot, sexy Indian.

Sick of people waiting for things to happen.
Theres no such good deals in this world.


Now its my turn to wait.
Tired of initiating.
The word mutual is as important.

Oh and I just had a quarrel with an inconsiderate uncle on the train.

P.S Im selling my modded Pink PSP for $270 with 4GB Lexus.



Gran Torino a must watch.

Okay my blog song just happened to cheered me up with hopes.
Good night everyone.
God bless you.

Its a terror outside, be complacent.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Amazing

"Your CA1 date is set"

HUHHHHHH?! BMC have CA1 and stuffs?!

"The maths test tomorrow is just a simple test and will not be shown on your report card, but the CA1 grades will be shown on the report card."

I dropped my jaws and stared at my partner with eyes wide open in bewilderment. "BMC GOT REPORT CARD HUHHH?! Amazing..."

Flashbacks is great...

Why so sentimental + mushy suddenly? No idea...

Love my baby-face Nick.



Sunday, March 22, 2009

Having a goal is important, but do not miss out the good in life.

I have gained alot in the process of this journey towards a fresh start.
But along the way, I seems to have lost something.
Something distant yet important.
I cant discern exactly what have I lost, but I hope to somehow find it back along the way down the path.
Theres still a voidness, a hole... In my life.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

I have a humongous diet which I have not tried controlling.

Oh and yes, another set of pictures to brighten up these dark clouds hovering over my blog/life.

















And on the account on my conscience, I have to study now.

P.S I have not been spending quality time with Nick these few weeks, although it seems like we have been spending alot of time, but I'm not satisfied. I want quality rather than quantity. I have been hovering above the emotional dissatisfaction section for awhile now.

Fate is a part of one's life.

My blog is the boriest stuffs you can read online.
The answer is simple.
Because my life right now, is the boriest life you can ever experienced.
Blame my routine.
In fact I had never stop cursing my routine.
I need some pictures to brighten up my gloomy blog/life.









If you noticed, theres sunflower in Liyan's mouth.







Wednesday, March 11, 2009

The boring walk, the boring lectures.
Pretend to be interested please!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Why am I here?

Is self deception directly link to procrastination?

Is self justification link to procrastination?

Is laziness a source of mental illness concerning the lack of motivation?

Is the sense of urgency man-created?

Why do a person want to avoid doing the top most priority things?

Im bored and late for school.

What is your True Fear?
Your Result: Disappointment
 

You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.

Commitment
 
Looked down on
 
Losing Someone
 
Being Alone
 
Where Your life is Going
 
Death
 
What is your True Fear?
Quiz Created on GoToQuiz


Your dating personality profile:

Outgoing - You can liven up any party. You've got a way with people and have little difficulty charming your dates.
Funny - You laugh often. People never accuse you of lacking a sense of humor. You don't take yourself too seriously.
Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.
Your Top Ten Traits

1. Outgoing
2. Funny
3. Liberal
4. Adventurous
5. Athletic
6. Sensual
7. Big-Hearted
8. Practical
9. Traditional
10. Wealthy/Ambitious
Your date match profile:

Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart.
Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things.
Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Funny
2. Big-Hearted
3. Adventurous
4. Athletic
5. Traditional
6. Practical
7. Shy
8. Conservative
9. Sensual
10. Intellectual

Take the Dating Profile Quiz at Would I Date You

What type of person do you attract?
Your Result: You attract artsy people!
 

Those free spirited artists with great imaginations find you interesting. They are usually interesting themselves, so its not a bad thing, but they CAN be a bit wifty and choose odd goals. If you like life to always be a bit 'different' from the norm, but not too extreme in any one direction, these are the people for you. If you seek logical decision making skills and good money management, you may want to change something in the way you appear. Artsy people are fun for adventure and exploring, so, have fun! (smoking weed helps too)

You attract models!
 
You attract Yuppies!
 
You attract unstable people!
 
You attract geeks!
 
You attract rednecks!
 
What type of person do you attract?
Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Thursday, March 05, 2009

2 become 1.



2 Become 1 - Spice Girls
More at MP3-Codes.com


Does anyone remember the Spice Girls?

Right now, im full of passion, no one to share.
As the relationship with Nick, grew longer, I forgot how much he meant to me. I forgot how sweet he was to me. I forgot how he rushed to the toilet in Motorola, to give me a plaster when I hurt my finger. I forgot how he queued up to buy my food and see me loving the food.

I dont want to let these memories dissolves ever again. I dont want to forget how memories bond us close together.

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P.S Life's sick with a routine.

Monday, March 02, 2009